Monday, September 15, 2014
I'm not blogging as much as I used to and you can't expect daily blogging from me anymore, but this last week I was forced to stop because of lack of internet. It's tough when the phone company wants all of its money and I just don't have it. Now it's running again and here I am.
I was able to go grocery shopping this week, managing to save a lot of money in coupons, but have spent the entire budget for the month. I hope I did well enough to have a months worth of food this time (I saved over $75 spending $350 on food). I hope to get back into the habit of only spending a weeks worth at a time soon so we have fresh stuff on hand more frequently and that way I can hit up the weekly sales to stretch the budget better.
Because of being able to go shopping, I also ended up with a bunch of cookies and have eaten a bunch of cookies. They're all gone and I don't plan on replenishing them.
I'm still working on getting into a school schedule, it seems the last week went by so quickly and I didn't find real time for myself. All the time was spent being with my mom or cleaning things that really needed to be cleaned. I'm glad for the time with my mother and we plan on a weekly outing now that we don't have to bring my kids with. I'm also getting my home back in order so that I have time to do the fun things I like. My household is getting back in order slowly, I want to get it to the point where it's just little daily things instead of the full fall cleaning I'm working through. It's time to winterize the home and get rid of the summer things that need to be taken care of, like the remaining garden.
I finally got the last cake pan I've been wishing for the last couple of years. I finally own the medium pumpkin pan that I needed to complete my collection. I had stuff for other holidays, but not the pumpkin. Now my cake pan collection is complete. Perhaps I need to actually make a cake or two this year.
I've also started the planning out of volunteering at the local old folks home. I set up a day where I can try it out this week. It will help me get those extra steps in as I have to walk to the places I want to go and this is one more place within my walking distance. I got really bored last Wednesday so I find I needed to fill my time with spreading happiness throughout the community. I hope that this is a way to brighten my day as well as the people I want to help.
I think this week will be better and that my mind is finally settling into the school schedule. I hope that it won't be as hectic as last week was. Either way I'm up and doing things more now that I have my me time back.
Friday, September 05, 2014
When I checked back in earlier this week I said I had gained 5 pounds back. That was true a couple of weeks ago when I stepped on the scale last. I just hopped on the scale, in the middle of the day at that, and it said I'm only up 3 pounds instead.
Despite not tracking my food or taking the pictures lately, I'm obviously back on the right track. Being back in the swing of school and having the house back to myself I'm not as obsessed with food. I'm more obsessed with getting the house clean again, getting stuff out the door, and getting my hobby/new business worked on than worrying about food.
I suppose it doesn't help we're low on food and I have to rethink my strategy for grocery shopping to extend what few dollars I have to spend on groceries so I'm not eating as much. I tend to have different eating habits when no one's looking, more nibbling instead of big meals. It works for me better when I can just grab a small bite than having a full meal. I know that when the kids are grown (I still have at least 8 years for that) I'll be nibbling more and not making huge meals. I never made real meals when I was single, it's only because I have to feed others that I'm making anything.
School week one is done! I hope next week goes better. Grocery shopping tomorrow. I'm clipping coupons today to help relieve some of the financial stress. I like how Target takes one manufacturer coupon, one store coupon, and it's cartwheel for one item.
Thursday, September 04, 2014
I thought it was going to be a good thing, having so many parents at the bus stop. Instead, I'm still the only parent yelling at the kids (mostly mine and parentless kids) so they stopped running back and forth on the road (they get picked up in a parks parking lot, so the road isn't as busy as a street, but still has a lot of cars traveling it during that time), despite 5 of us parents being there.
While trying to corral those kids (most of them I knew from the previous years, so they're used to my parenting them), all I got were looks from the other parents. Since they are kindergartener parents, they'll still be out there all year long.
I did not come out hollering, in fact I tried to start a conversation with them, but it seems that no one knows how to talk to a stranger. There was one that seemed a little nice, so hopefully I won't get icy stares from everyone, but this is just crazy that so many people do the nod then give you looks behind your back thing.
So now I have to get this feeling out of my head and work on the rest of the day not stressing about it. If I continue to dwell on it for the day when I can't do much about anything today nor can I do anything about the behavior of these other adults (I'm the oldest one out there on days the parents are there and not the babysitter). I can't go to my normal stress behaviors of eating everything in the house and even making pastries to satisfy stress cravings.
This isn't the only time I've gotten the judging look from other parents of kids my kids are around this year. I hate the look of "I'm superior" that I get from other people.
Instead of eating all day long, I'm going to work on the laundry and some more of my models. I can get a lot of stress out through my models and they come out looking like I'm feeling. I'm getting better at them and have figured out the way to paint them, I just need the proper coloring tools for them.
I also have lists of things I need to clean, so I'll check one more thing off that list (not including the laundry I already plan on doing). I'll feel better after accomplishing something.
These are the things I hate about parenting, the games other people play.
Wednesday, September 03, 2014
It's day 3 back on Spark after my break and day 2 of back to school. Slowly I'm getting back into the healthy habits I had. I had over 10,000 steps yesterday and I'm already over 6,000 steps today.
I have still been working with my therapist and we've agreed that I'm getting much farther than I was a few months with getting back to the real me. Despite all the stresses that keep on coming my way, I'm still managing to make sure I'm not getting overwhelmed by all of it. Lists help.
This week I'm going to work on getting my home back in shape. After going through the kids' stuff, I have a couple of big boxes to get out the door, I just need to go through and toss the too horrible to donate things. I am slowly getting my cleaning done again, one room at a time. I'm going to work on the deep fall cleaning before winter hits (and I have a feeling it's going to be another cold harsh winter).
I'm pretty sure I'm going to just get rid of my garden for the season. I have a few little tomatoes starting to grow, I'll be lucky if they turn the appropriate color before the first frost. Dang cold spring. I'd usually already have a month's worth of fresh cherry tomatoes by now. At least I have my herbs back.
A good thing this year is that there are other moms at the bus stop with all the new little ones. At least two Moms and a Grandma. I'm hoping that it continues, but one already seems a little timid and easily frightened. I managed a long talk with the Grandma, so hopefully I'll have at least one person to actually have a conversation with while we're waiting.
Lastly I'd like you to keep your thoughts on my friend who's husband is back in the hospital with breathing problems. It's been six months since this started and he's still not much better. He was home for the last month, but when we visited them the other weekend, he was still a little quiet and not himself. I fear that he will leave her as a single mom and I'd love to see him get healthy and be able to be the spunky guy my friend married.
They have a youcaring site if you'd like to check it out and perhaps help out a bit to help their life out a bit while it's in so much turmoil. www.youcaring.com/medical-fundraiser
Have a Sparkin' Day!
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