Thursday, April 24, 2014
I started taking these pictures in January. I know that I like to read blogs with pictures better than some long windy blog that's all text. This is also helping me keep my portions in control. They weren't for a while and I just can't keep on plugging my food into the tracker day in and day out. Sure, using the tracker worked really well for my first 50 pounds, I had actually lost 58 pounds when I was done, but I got bored with tracking ALL THE TIME. I was good for a year and maintained just over the 50 pound loss, but then real stress happened and I got back to only 40 pounds lost.
When I hit the beginning of my 3rd year here (I've been here for over 2 years now, January 10th), I decided I needed to track again, but how to do it without the tediousness of tracking everything for life. I know there are people that have been maintaining for a while now that still track for fear of not being able to control themselves outside of the Spark tracker. I do not want to be afraid of lack of control because I'm not seeing it in writing, but still needed a little push to keep my portions in control.
So I take pictures. It's still real, I have a little sense of what the calorie count is because of those first 9 months of tracking, and it's so much prettier. It makes me think twice before I go all out on a pig out binge. I could easily still finish off a sleeve of cookies, a bag of chips, and a pint of ice cream if I wanted. Taking the pictures makes me slow down and think about how to eat things. I still plate everything (or grab the handful and put away the bag) so that it looks nice to my eyes and yours. That slows me down and I'm less likely to go back for seconds.
I know that not every method of tracking works for everyone. No one should ever have to track anything for the rest of their lives, but in the short run, to reset your eyes and stomachs, some kind of tracking is really helpful. This is my way of tracking for now.
I decided to have blueberries with my breakfast today.
Lunch was some more garlic hummus (my favorite thing right now) with pita chips and green beans.
My son didn't like his chocolate covered marshmallow, which is why the ears are bitten off. I finished it off. Marshmallows taste better hard.
For a mid-day snack, I had some lemon pistachios. I love the bite they have.
I got hungry around 2, so I made up another "lunch" type snack. I spread the roasted red pepper hummus on small pieces of bread, cut up some cheese and melted it on top, and had some colorful veggies to go with it.
I was going to make dinner, but I became really tired around dinnertime, so my husband ended up making it. I'm not sure if it was the cloudy day or the lack of sunshine all winter long, but I'm still really tired. It may partly be all the stress. I was going to make spaghetti for dinner anyhow, so he was kind enough to make dinner for all of us.
My husband decided to cut up his chocolate bunny, I got the head. It was a Snickers bunny.
I'm going to keep on taking these pictures until at least January unless I get feedback closer to that time that it's nice to continue to see how I eat and how it's working for me. I know I've heard that it's nice for others to see this and that it works eating chocolate and chips and still losing weight because it's only a small part of my day.
Wednesday, April 23, 2014
It has now become a weekly habit. I end up walking all the way downtown to see my therapist. We haven't gotten to taking steps for me to improve my mood yet, but I'm sure it's coming soon. Downtown is a full mile away from my home, so I get to enjoy new views on the way. I may actually want to walk into some of the stores that I pass one day. There are two bread stores on my walk, I'm assuming that they're better ingredients than the ones I get off the big box shelves.
In taking the step to help my mental health (which has taken a big hit this year with all the people in the hospital) I'm literally taking steps to improve my body health simply because I'm having to get 2 miles in to get to the office and back. I generally get near 10,000 steps on Tuesdays between the walk downtown and taking the kids to their bus stop and the Club. It makes it much easier to hit my goal for the day. I low ball it with happy when I get over 5,000 for the day, but all this extra walking has created a 6,000 a day average. It's amazing what not having an accessible car does to a body.
I've been taking the steps to get my eating back on track this week too. I still have candy laying out, but it's not in full force and all the big treats are gone. I'm making sure that I have the right foods in my fridge and pantry, easily made for a quick snack. I planted my container garden, although it's sitting in my living room at the moment. That is a delayed happiness thing since I can't reap the benefits for at least a month or two for the fresh produce to be ready, but it will be worth it when I get to have the tastiest tomatoes every day during the growing season.
No matter what steps I'm taking, the first one of the day is always breakfast.
Since my appointment was later than I sometimes mange it, I made sure to have lunch before I set out. A fueled body is necessary for a long walk.
When I got home, I needed to have a snack again after working my body and mind. It's the blueberry nut mix and a banana.
I remembered that we made hard boiled eggs this weekend. I ended up eating the whites, I'm not a yolk fan in this form.
I gave into a handful of candy when everyone got home.
I was going to make spaghetti, but the husband told me he'd rather have what I had planned for the next day instead. So hot dogs and mac n cheese was made instead. I topped mine with sauerkraut, chopped onions, and spicy brown mustard.
Near the end of the day, I had another handful of nuts, this is that trail mix again.
Some steps may be slower than others, but as long as I'm taking the steps, I'm still moving forward. It's better than standing still, no matter how slow it may seem. Even if I don't see how it will all be in the end, when I get there I'm sure it will be spectacular.
Tuesday, April 22, 2014
Focus comes in all forms and is easily thrown off balance. It could have been a holiday, a workplace issue, or a illness that threw your focus off. The scale will show your loss of focus, even if it was just for a moment. If you stop focusing on yourself, your choices for your body will not be the best. It could have been a momentary salt bloat. It could have been a 6 month cookie binge creating a 20 pound gain.
The good thing? You can always start to gain your focus on yourself again. It takes starting right now with the next choice you're going to make for yourself.
Say you had a candy binge this weekend (see two blogs ago). What can you do today? Do you still have the candy hanging around? Put it out of your way and start making the yummy choices again. Make your food beautiful so that it's more desirable. All the foods I take pictures of are the ones I eat and they are that tasty looking when I go to eat them.
Take the time for yourself again with your daily exercises you've been putting off doing. Why were you enjoying them before? Why did you stop? Why not do it again today? It only takes that first step, that's the hardest one. Once you start again, you'll find yourself wanting to do it more. The Nike ad said it best, "Just do it!"
This is the thing that happens when you lose focus. I blame salt bloat on most of it. I was at 181.8 last week, part of it may actually be real weight gain from all that candy, but that is the minimal part. I know I had a salty week, so I should be back down a bit by the end of the week.
No matter what the scale is telling me, my day starts out with breakfast. I love this antioxidant fruit blend with the vanilla yogurt and raw oats.
I didn't want to prep lunch too much, so I stuck some of that leftover salad in a bowl with some roasted garlic hummus and pita chips.
After lunch I went for a walk with the kids. I let them play at the basketball court for a while, despite the strong wind. It was too nice to not get outside.
I had a decent trail mix when we got back in, nuts, berries and a couple of chocolates.
My seeds showed up that I ordered last week, so I got to planting the rest of them. Now I just wait for them to sprout. I can't wait until I can set them outside!
I was going to do one thing with the black beans, but it turned into chili instead. I usually have all the ingredients in the house for a good vegan chili.
Dinner had filled me up, but shortly before bedtime, I wanted a little something. I ran up to Target after dinner and stopped in their nuts isle (also the candy isle, don't turn around!) and picked up a blueberry nut blend. It's one of my favorites. Yes, the dried blueberries have sugar on them, but it's not too sweet.
I admit to having a few jellybeans throughout the day, but I'll also say it was probably only 6 or so. The candy is almost gone and it's not threatening me anymore. I can say no to it most of the time, it was just too much in the house the other day and I had already given in the day before I even had it. I've started over already and the momentum will just keep going. Real food just tastes too good to have pure sugar all the time.
Monday, April 21, 2014
We tend to celebrate holidays on the day oat my parent's home. This was not unusual for us. It was a nice day and we were able to get outside and enjoy the sunshine for a while. I didn't have to make meals, but I always help mom finish preparing them. I want to say I didn't end up with any candy in my system, but I did give into a couple of pieces. I did not go as crazy as I did the day before.
Before we set out, I had breakfast.
This is the lunch we had at my mom's house. The salad had a mayo type dressing on it along with bacon bits and parmesan cheese. I only had one slice of ham, I'm not a fan of the meat to begin with, so I have little when I do have it. This is the large Correll plate, so we filled it more than usual.
Mom made a pineapple cake. I had a small piece.
I stole a Twix from my daughter, who found the most eggs and won the big prize.
We stayed at their house for most of the afternoon, but ended up going home to have dinner. Just some leftovers from the weekend.
I also had another bowl of that salad.
The other Creme Egg I got the day before was still sitting on my computer desk. I ended up eating it.
I could have easily had a second day binge, but the day before really did me in. I just can't do too much candy again anytime soon. If anything, I'll toss the rest into the kids' bags. They don't candy as badly as I do. They do have their days, but it's not a ton all day long like I did yesterday. I found Christmas candy sitting on a shelf this week, they have better food habits than me.
Sunday, April 20, 2014
It was an all day binge. I haven't done this in a long time, I usually have plenty of other things to occupy my day, but the chocolate and jellybeans were so overwhelming when we found the plastic eggs we hide and the baskets are always full of too much candy. It just kept calling my name and sitting there laughing at me on the table within reaching distance. I would like to say the pictures tell of everything I ate, but there were those one jellybean at a time or just one fun sized candy that didn't make it into pictures. By the end of the day I could tell that I overdid it. I know I probably had over 2000 calories in candy alone, my head told me that by the end of the day by starting up a migraine. I wonder if this means I won't be craving any of it for a while now or if I'll give into it again while it still sits there. It will have to be moved out of my line of sight so that it doesn't even tempt me again. I'm usually so good at just having a couple, but when we're candy overloaded, it's tougher to fight it.
After the kids finished their egg hunt, I started out well. I had to have breakfast before I started in on any of my candy.
But then I opened one right away, just the individually sized Milky Way rabbit, but it was opened as soon as I finished my breakfast.
Naturally we had to color eggs, so I ate the ones that cracked. I hate yolks when their hard boiled, but I'll eat the whites no problem. I need to test for doneness, I've screwed up hard boiling eggs before.
Then came the chocolate bunny. At this point, I only ate it's head, but by the end of the day it was totally gone. At least I can say it wasn't a one sitting bunny. I think it was over 500 calories just for this one thing...
These are my favorite easter treat. The Cadbury Creme Egg. My basket had two, but I only had one. I have one other waiting for me and I'm not sure if or when it'll be eaten.
My husband went out for a little while and brought home lunch. Us girls wanted chicken and our son wanted pizza, so we ended up with both. I like the broiled chicken from Pizza Ranch (which is not where we got our pizza).
Right after lunch (I told you I ate all day long!) I had a couple of peanut butter cups.
There was a slight pause before dinner happened. I made from scratch (although the chicken was pre-cooked) pot pies. Putting them in these dishes allows for less dough since I simply do the tops crusty and not the whole thing.
As soon as we finished dinner, I opened my bugs. Yes, I ate them all.
Then I had a handful of jellybeans. These were not the only ones I had today, you'd have to times it by 2.5 to get my full allotment of jellybeans for the day. When it's out and easy to grab a couple here and there, they add up.
So there it is. My binge. I'm certainly not proud of it, but documenting it helps me see why what happened happened. Holidays are hard, especially the ones focused on sweets. My body tells me when I've done it wrong and, despite this one day of really bad choices, I won't let it get me down the rest of the week. It was only one day (although I could see it creeping in earlier this week) and the next day is a time for new choices to get my body back in alignment.
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