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March Goals

Monday, March 17, 2014

So, I know I'm halfway through the month already, but let's pretend I had the insight and attitude to be able to start this on the first of the month, okay?! We have to start where we start, right?

Two days ago I added a new fitness challenge to the fridge. (Every few weeks for the past several months, I add a fitness challenge for the family to compete in. It started as a way to keep my youngest going when wrestling was getting a bit hard, but it helps to keep all of us focused on the goal of staying active and fit.) The new goal is to workout as many times between now and the end of the month. There is one circle per day, and to fill it you have to do at least 30 minutes of activity - that can be split up if needed, but it has to be at least 30 minutes total. Now, this is more of a challenge for me than my boys considering Ethan is doing conditioning nearly every day after school and will soon add baseball practices at least a few nights a week. Logan is doing track, so at least 3 nights a week he's going to be running with his track buddies. I'm the one with nothing organized and no one pushing me on, so I'm challenging myself to at least try to keep up with my boys.

So, this morning I decided I might as well set out my goals every month like I used to, and then recap at the beginning of the next month to see what I got right and where I went wrong. It worked before...let's hope I can keep it going again this time - and this time for GOOD!

Starting Weight: 420
emoticon Weight Goal: 418 (-2 pounds)
emoticon Food Goal: Log every day!
emoticon Food Goal 2: No donuts or cookies!
emoticon Fitness Goal 1: Workout at least 5 days a week for at least 30 minutes a day.
emoticon Fitness Goal 2: Start looking into Walking a Half plans and start building stamina to start a program.
emoticon DRINK 8 GLASSES OF WATER EVERY DAY! (I cannot tell you how hard this has been since my work is smack dab in the middle of where the water crisis happened here in WV and I still don't trust the stuff for drinking!)
emoticon Personal Goals: Get photography website DONE and UP! Save $100 toward new lens purchase!

Those should be reasonable goals. I'm still working on a lot of personal stuff. We're not out of the woods yet, but we had a good weekend this weekend after a horrible week last week. Maybe if I can refocus myself to these goals, we can keep it going.

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KNOWMOREBBK 3/20/2014 9:04PM

    Excellent! Great job keeping yourself and the kids motivated!

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4EVERADONEGIRL 3/17/2014 1:07PM

    That's a great start, girlie!! You can do it!!

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FINDING_MELISSA 3/17/2014 12:46PM

    Great goals! You can do it!

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ERIN1128 3/17/2014 12:19PM

    Great to see you back! Good goals!

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ARUNNINGKAT 3/17/2014 12:18PM

    Great goals! And great job on starting where you are and moving forward in a positive direction. You can do this!

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EILEENV3 3/17/2014 12:12PM

    Loved that your whole family has made fitness a daily habit. emoticon

Loved the list of goals. It is inspirational.


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WISHICOULDFLY 3/17/2014 11:58AM

    Excellent plan! I look forward to hearing a great report in April. You will rock this, I KNOW. emoticon

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MANLEYSANDY 3/17/2014 11:49AM

    Great goals!


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Trying Times...We Keep Trying

Sunday, February 16, 2014

Things have been difficult around here lately. I won't go into details but life has been toying with me lately. My marriage has been a little on the rocks and I've been doing my best to keep my head about me and keep moving forward. It's fine. We are working on things and have even planned a day trip together in order to reconnect and/or make some serious decisions about what we both want moving forward. That being said, eating right and exercising right now is both the most important thing I can do and the most difficult thing ever.

It's hard. There is no point to this post other than to say that it is hard, but I'm still trying.

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KNOWMOREBBK 2/22/2014 11:05PM

    When the World says "give up," Hope whispers,"try it one more time."

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4EVERADONEGIRL 2/18/2014 6:48PM

    Keep trying, girlie!!! In all aspects...keep trying. :-)

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LOTUSFLOWER 2/17/2014 1:46PM

    Praying for your marriage, we've been going through rough times's always worth fighting for.

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ERIN1128 2/17/2014 1:43PM

    Hang in there, you're such a strong woman, I know you can get through this. And remember, we're always here for you! Big hugs.

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EDDYMEESE 2/17/2014 12:21AM

    I'm sorry. Marriage can be rough on the weight loss journey! I hope you have a good day together!

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SHORTLY 2/16/2014 9:20PM

    exercise, the hardest thing for me is also the biggest mood lifter. Hang in there gal.

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JEREMY723 2/16/2014 3:06PM

    Best of luck. Thinking through and making calm decisions will certainly work out best in the long run.

I like your background photo! It looks so nice and warm, as this long and snowy winter drags on.

Were you at all affected by that chemical leaking into the drinking water several weeks back? I certainly hope not!

Anyway, keeping you in my thoughts and hoping that all works out for the best.

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FIFIFRIZZLE 2/16/2014 2:43PM

    If you are eating right and exercising right, it will help stabilize your mood, and you will be able to make the best decisions. Keep up the sleep, too, if you can!

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When It Hits the Fan

Friday, December 06, 2013

Everybody talks about that turning point, right? The moment they KNEW things were going to change, they were going to make an effort. When I first started Spark I didn't have a huge "AH-HA!" moment like most people talk about. I didn't really know what to think about that, but it worked for me...until it didn't. But last night, I had a moment - less of an "AH-HA!" and more of a "OMFG! NOOOOOO!" moment and I knew I was moving toward the right headspace to get myself back in the game. Last night, my son took a picture of me asleep on the couch with the dog. He thought it was cute because our little dog lays ON TOP of whomever, but especially me, and we were both asleep in the same basic position and my son thought it was hilarious. I thought it was horrifying and I've looked at the picture several times since. It makes me want to cry, and scream, and break things...but most of all, it makes me want to redevote myself to my life, my health, and regaining the joy I once felt when I woke up in the morning ready to start a new day.

Sometimes the steps aren't what we think they are and we just have to keep moving to find them in the dark...until someone turns on the light.

I have a ton of reasons for why right now isn't the best time to start this whole thing. Most of them deal with a lack of finances on my part. We're seriously strapped right now with Christmas and the new house, so being creative about eating "right" is going to be say the least.

The pros? As far as working out is concerned I'm totally set. My neighborhood is GREAT for walks. People walk and run up and down my street all day every day. I have a huge basement now with a ST machine that will work to get me started and a 70 lb heavy bag, handwraps and gloves. I also have the full WATP DVD set and can watch several workout vids on Amazon Prime whenever I want for FREE. I just bought myself a new roll of KT Tape Pro. As long as I remember to take it slow and steady, I should be fine here. EATING is going to be the challenge.

For now, it's all about serving sizes and shrinking my stomach back to normal again. It won't necessarily be the things I want to fit around my healthy lifestyle, but it will be a start. It will also include drinking a crapton of water to flush out my system (water is FREE!). The only pro here? We have no money to eat out! *lol* You gotta find the YAY where you can, people!

Working toward a new year challenge to get me started in 2014. I have to get back to regular goal setting because it keeps me focused and engaged. It's not about the 100 pounds I need to lose (actually, there's more than that...but let's not even go there), it's about the next 10 and what I'm going to do right now to get them gone for good.

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MISSROCKABILLY 12/29/2013 7:06PM

    I know exactly what you mean about the picture, because our cat does the same thing to me and the fella has occasionally snapped pics that make me want to cry, scream, bury my head in my arms, and break things (most likely the camera), all at the same time.

I'm giving Whole30 another go round in January, with some very small adjustments, and am hoping I can get the fella to join in. I found your experiences with the program to be really inspiring and helpful. I know that you will be able to set some great goals to challenge yourself with in 2014.

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SUGIRL06 12/17/2013 2:51PM

    I'm doing a Clean Eating challenge with friends on Facebook for the month of January (Actually friends from here who I know on facebook too, like you!). Anyway, interested? I am also goign to have big goals for 2014 and already have an accountability partner. We'll have weekly check-ins. Its time for both of us to get back into this!

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WISHICOULDFLY 12/7/2013 7:10AM

    I know all about that fan. And "the picture". Esther, you have got to be one of the strongest women I know. You know how to persevere and you are more than capable. It's just a matter of keeping your head in the game. As you pointed out there are a lot of opportunities (great walking neighborhood, ST in your home) and we already know you have the strengths (you are very smart, detailed, and persistent; plus you have a supportive family) . Now is the time to assess the threats (stinking thinking? limited finances) and weaknesses and devise a plan to deal with them. You got this. emoticon - Connie

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4EVERADONEGIRL 12/6/2013 1:19PM

    We never like to have those lightbulb moments, but we can like the byproduct of them when they light a spark that catches fire!! :-)

Good job girlie - you'll get it all figured out!

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KAILYNSTAR 12/6/2013 12:42PM

    It sounds like it hit the fan for you big time.

You have the right attitude. Water is free. Walking is free and I'm sure when you think about it, there are more free things out there.

Good luck on your journey.

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SUGARSMOM2 12/6/2013 11:02AM

  start with a plan then carry on .

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CHANGEOLA 12/6/2013 10:49AM

    I'm glad that you are gearing yourself for a new year with your head in the game. You seriously have your own mini gym in that basement of yours :-) I love the attitude of tackling it 10 pounds at a time.

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KELLIEBEAN 12/6/2013 9:40AM

    I love the way your mind is working!

I know eating healhty can be expensive. When finances are strapped, I eat what I have and what DH likes but just eat smaller portions.

That is so cool you have the bag and gloves. I took a kickboxing class once. Punching and kicking things felt AHMAZING and really trimmed me down.

You've got this!!!


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My Brain is Full

Tuesday, December 03, 2013

You guys know that this is a very real thing, right?! I doubt that this is my problem, but it can happen to people. Stress really can be a harmful to your health!

Today is December 3rd and I still feel like I'm on day one.

Yesterday I went home from a slow, boring day at work (a little burned out here too) and went straight to the computer to start editing Sunday's family session. Of course, with being worn out and burned out on everything I feel like half the pictures I thought were good are now crap, but the boys keep telling me they look good so I'm just going to go with it. I had planned on taking a break in between jobs, but I wasn't able to do that as Hubs and I are sharing a computer and he needed to be one with friends for a game of his later that evening. So after 2 hours of speed editing when I wasn't really feeling it, I had to hand the computer over and go sit by myself in the living room. What else was I to do? Of course, sitting by myself watching TV and being so stressed only invites my stress and binge eating. My youngest was asleep. My oldest was off doing a school activity. I tried taking the dogs for a drive, but that just landed me in a drive-thru because there really isn't much to do where I live after dark. It wasn't my best night. Of course, it also wasn't the worst.

Tonight I have more editing to do after another long day at work. I have to sit down and finish the session and get all three of the last 4 sessions on disks and mailed out to clients. (One is a birth day session of a newborn, who I am supposed to do a studio-style newborn session for this weekend so I'm just going to wait and put those pictures with the birth day session on the same disk. I do Mom's for free anyhow, so she can't complain too much.

If I can get all of that done tonight I can take a breath and reorganize myself for a minute to try to get my head back in the game. I've been trying to get up earlier so I can get a workout in before work, but that hasn't been so easy to do with late night editing sessions. This morning I was up at 5:30am, but, of course, I talked myself into another 40 minutes of sleep instead of a workout. I could have used the workout more. I also need to get to the grocery store. Having serious cravings for fruit, meat and veggies instead of quick fast crap we have on hand right now that I've been trying to run us through to save money and get it out of the house. Why do I remember this being easier? Small budgets and little time is making it SUPER DUPER hard this time! *sigh* Either that or the stress of all the other things has my brain too full and I don't have room for another worry/concern. *shrug*

Plugging along...trying to make SOMETHING happen.

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4EVERADONEGIRL 12/3/2013 1:14PM

    Just keep plugging along will find the system that works best for you!!

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ERIN1128 12/3/2013 12:13PM

    A lot of the battle is mental, and it sounds like you're in a good mindset right now. Keep plugging!

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THANK Goodness That's Over!

Monday, December 02, 2013

Things have been absolutely INSANE for me lately. You see, on top of wanting/needing to lose weight and this salary job that sometimes requires me to work over, travel, spend long nights making sure everything is in place for a client...on top of all that I went and started myself a portrait photography business.

Smart, right? ;)

Honestly, it's one of those steps to pursuing my dreams and not letting my weight be a reason I don't do something. But, it means I have been crazy busy this past month setting up weekend sessions, editing pictures, posting, getting the word out about my services. I haven't even set prices yet - I'm still in the "building business and portfolio" stage, so I've been working solely by donation. That being said, I now have several family sessions, a baby session (3-4 month), a birth day newborn hospital session, a mock Senior session for a current high school Junior, and after this Saturday I'll have a newborn studio session all under my belt. Of course it's meant working nearly every single day in November - weekends included - and working many late nights (midnight) and still getting up early for work (6 am).

Thankfully, after Sunday I should be done until the new year (that gives me like 2 weekends, right?). Of course, I'll still be working - marketing, branding, setting prices, trying to put a website together, finding a professional print vendor, etc., but at least I won't be trying to do all of that in addition to shooting and editing.

So...holding my breath until Sunday. :)

I have been trying to "be good" but, of course, I haven't been paying attention nearly as much as I should. Still haven't given up hope, though. I keep looking at pictures from when I was miserable on my plateau and I would give just about anything to be back there again -- including sugar!

So I guess my update is...I'm still hanging in there. Still trying to find some balance. I did add another reason to my list -- my body is having a heck of a time regulating my body temperature right now. I'll be out in the field shooting for an hour in 30-50 degree weather and won't notice I'm cold (in fact, sometimes I sweat because I'm nervous). And then I get home in my warm home and SHIVER the rest of the night. Quite annoying!

Now...who has a banana?

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ARUNNINGKAT 12/3/2013 2:13PM

    Congrats to you on living your dream and starting your business! It seems that sometimes the most stressful times in our lives are actually the best....when we look back and realize all that was changing and happening. That being said, the hard work in the middle in never any fun. emoticon

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FITMARY 12/3/2013 7:35AM

    Good for you for doing what it takes to get where you want to go!

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KELLIEBEAN 12/2/2013 10:13PM

    That is crazy! Crazy EXCELLENT! Good for you following your dreams.

Look into small, portable, healthy meals so you can eat right on the go. With everything going on, you should have no trouble burning calories!


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4EVERADONEGIRL 12/2/2013 6:41PM

    I'm proud of you for following your crazy dream!!! Get it, girl!

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ERIN1128 12/2/2013 3:09PM

    I don't know how you're fitting it in, but I LOVE that you're pursuing a dream! Awesome!

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GMO_JEN 12/2/2013 3:06PM

    That is super busy! Hopefully, as life calms down, everything will start to fall into place with your body. I think its awesome that you are chasing your dream, and even more so that you are getting such good experience :)

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