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Remember to SPRING AHEAD!!!

Saturday, March 08, 2014

Remember to SPRING AHEAD!!! emoticon

Now, watch me forget... emoticon

  
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CANICE 3/9/2014 9:49AM

    I remembered!!!
Actually, my cell phone and Laptop have an automatic clock. {grin}

I did change the microwave and my clock radio though! {big smile}

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LOSINGLINNDY 3/8/2014 9:22PM

    Thanks for the reminder.

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-BLESSINGS- 3/8/2014 9:29AM

    emoticon Thanks for the reminder

BLESSings ALLways~ Deby

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JUNA89 3/8/2014 9:16AM

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LOVESLIFE48 3/8/2014 9:13AM

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Stir Each Other Up!

Tuesday, March 04, 2014

"And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds" (Hebrews 10:24 NIV)

Today's Devotion from Joyce Meyers: "Stir Each Other Up" (aka SPARK) emoticon

"I have three friends with whom I sometimes go to lunch or have coffee. We often talk about things God has put on our hearts to do for others or creative ideas for fresh ways to be a blessing. I believe conversations like this are very pleasing to God.

The idea of encouraging others to be aggressive in doing good works is not new. Hebrews 10:24 says we should consider one another in order to stir up love and good works. We should actually study and think about how we can stir others to do good works and loving, helpful deeds.

Following God by myself is powerful, but I find that it's so much more enjoyable with friends. I would like to challenge you to find like-minded people who want to follow God. Enlist people you know and invite them to a planning session on practical ways to live out a Christian life. Find ways that you can serve God and live out His love together.

Prayer Starter: Holy Spirit, connect me with the right friends who will help me follow You more. I want to live the Christian life with others, stirring each other up to live out God's love."
Thank you, Joyce, for sharing that! emoticon
That goes well with the Sparkpeople theme emoticon

For some reason I am not diligent to always follow a healthy eating plan, exercise, think right, act right, and trust God in and for it all....
Reason being, I am not a "Lone Ranger!" emoticon

I need other people to help me to run this race, and do the next right thing... emoticon

These past 5+ weeks I have fallen BACK into that "PIT of despair" that I wouldn't have spent so much time in - had I just gotten on here and allowed others to "Stir me up" to do the next right thing....
MY BAD! emoticon
Today is the first day of the rest of my life. emoticon
I need prayer.... emoticon emoticon

  
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LOSINGLINNDY 3/4/2014 11:39PM

    God's word says "Love your neighbor as thyself." So after your love for God, remember who you need to love next. You can not love others with first loving yourself. Always remember self love is God's command.

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_RAMONA 3/4/2014 12:29PM

    Great Blog, Canice!

May your every day be all you need it to be. May an all abiding peace fill your thoughts, rule in your dreams each night, and conquer all your fears. May God manifest himself in ways you have never before experienced. May your joys be fulfilled, your dreams be closer, and your cares be lifted. I pray that faith enters a new height in you, that your territory be enlarged, and that fulfillment is just one step closer.

MAY GOD ABUNDANTLY BLESS YOU, and those you love, in every way that you require. May he hold you gently in the palm of his hand in a very personal way, and may you rest in the fullness of his love, his grace, his strength, his wisdom, his rescue, his redemption, his healing, his inspiration, his restoration and his mercy as you require it! May you carry in your heart always an extra special awareness of God's great love for you, may you feel his sweet and gentle touch upon your life, and may you see his miracles all around you. I pray in the name of Jesus Christ, our Lord. Amen!

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P.S. I read this the other day: "Be patient with yourself. Self-growth is tender; it's holy ground. There's no greater investment."
- Stephen Covey

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SELAH = "Pause and Reflect"

Saturday, February 22, 2014

I'm at a turning point in my life.

Yesterday was the end of the Biggest Loser Winter Challenge
emoticon "Go Turquoise Titans!" emoticon emoticon emoticon

I was HOPING that I would have shed more than ~ 3 pounds that I had GAINED during last year's {{{ROLLER COASTER RIDE}}} of emotions that lead to me gaining ~ 25 pounds BACK of the 67 pounds that I lost....

I was doing SO WELL while doing juice fasts = having eliminated all things other than vegetable Juice with a little fruit juice to help with flavor and nutrients.

After the first extended juice fast = 60 days, I added one item at a time to my "diet" and discovered that my body doesn't tolerate mushrooms or sweet potatoes, of all things!
Corn, in any form makes me have a horrible rash on my hands and scalp.
The rash also comes and goes based on the amount of STRESS in my life...

Beans and Legumes cause intense bloating emoticon and cramping!
I do eat them several times a month and endure the side effects- emoticon
P.U.! emoticon

I'm not sure about rice - I eat it quite often, but never by itself.
I always eat rice with something, be it meat and veggies, onions, garlic...

The thing is, my gut hurts if I eat, and it hurts when I don't eat! emoticon
I felt BEST when I was doing the juice fast. emoticon
Rarely during those days of doing juice fasts did I have the gut pain that I have when I'm eating food.

I am pretty sure that I'm "lactose intolerant", but I still put half-and-half in my coffee every day! Other than that, I'm pretty much "Dairy-Free"

I want to start making kefir again- and use that as a base in my smoothies.
My family raises Dairy Goats. Three of them are pregnant, and should deliver their kids some time in the next two months.
The kids drink most of the milk in the beginning, but eventually they share. emoticon

I have been using coconut water, and enjoy that in my smoothies and by itself
If you've never tried Coconut Water, you might want to consider picking some up!
It's like a blood infusion in a GLASS! emoticon

Another wonderful find is coconut cream from Tropical Traditions. YUMMY!!!
I add that to hot water, and stir to make a milk, which I use in smoothies or add to black rice that I ferment/ soak, then cook. I eat that as a meal or "dessert."

I'm thinking that night shade vegetables increase my pain level - and when I was eating tomatoes almost daily last summer, the rash on my hands was FLARED UP big time, and my pain level stayed HIGH...

I've been staying in my pool house for almost a month now.
LONG STORY shorter, I tried to "make amends" with my husband, explaining to him the deep hurts in my heart, how things he has said or done, or things he refuses to say or do, how they effect me.... and how I am SO SORRY for "MY BAD" and for being so depressed and feeling hopeless this past year.... I shared how I need him to spend time with me, and to help me .... it ended bad - worse than I ever imagined....

The disrespect in my home is unbelievable...

Thankfully, I have a guest house, with all the amenities
= "My home away from home"
I have the opportunity to come over here to my "Refuge", where I can read, relax, study God's Word, work on two Bible Studies, my Sunday School Lesson, Celebrate Recovery 12 Steps homework and my CR Moral Inventory, AND veg out on the internet.

The way I see it: I'm going through MEN-o-PAUSE, my husband is in a "Mid-Life CRISIS", we have three teenagers living in the house - my son-in-law and my pregnant daughter are living ~ 1000 miles from me, and my oldest daughter, her husband and their 5 children are fixin' to move to ALASKA for 3 years with the Army!

THAT in itself is enough to make me want to RETREAT!!!

Add to that, a LONG LIST OF WHAT AILS ME, and I'm ready to throw my hands up in the air and cry, "I SURRENDER!!!"

For the past two years I had a motto, repeat after me:
"Nothing TASTES as good as healthy FEELS!"
NOT that I know what "Healthy FEELS like" emoticon {sigh}
BUT, I'm striving to get to that point...

I have given up so much...
As an Army wife.....
- I moved away from everything and everyone I knew and loved...
- I endured 13 deployments and countless TDY trips the my soldier went through

As a Homeschool mom I gave up my career... which I would do all over again...
As a Grandmother I don't get to see my grandchildren.... Army life is full of challenges...

I am willing to eat / drink healthy things, as "medicine"
= "Let thy food be thy medicine and thy medicine be thy food."

I just wish God would either perform a MIRACLE in my life, or point me to direction He wants me to go!! He promised that when I acknowledge Him in all my ways He will direct my steps!

I believe HE has! He lead me through a turn of many events to join a Buying Club in the City near where I live, and the Raw Vegan Meet-Up, where I met Jenny, my CR Sponsor, and to Celebrate Recovery, where I am learning to identify and overcome my "Hurts, Habits, and Hang-Ups."
emoticon Let's face it, we ALL have "Hurts, Habits, & Hang-Ups!"
emoticon Some of us are willing to admit it - coming out of DENIAL,
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As we say in CR, "Thanks for letting me share!" emoticon

Grace and peace to us all!
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CANICE 2/23/2014 12:06AM

    Yes, there is protein in Juice - lots of research out there, if you "google" it

Yes, I have watched the Documentary, "Fat, Sick & Nearly Dead", which inspired me to do the Juice Fasts - I own the DVD - which got me through all those LONG days of juicing

Joe Cross did do the one 60 Day juice fast, but has since went to eating food in addition to eating a healthy diet and exercising to keep his weight down.

From my understanding, he suggests not doing ONLY JUICE, but rather supplement juicing with a balanced meal. LOTS of info on that on the web, too
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LOSINGLINNDY 2/22/2014 4:22PM

    Hi. When you do these juice fasts, do you get enough protein? You can get your carbs from the green veggies. Did the colon cleanse help? I am glad you found what was causing the rashes. That is a big step.

You are ready to move forward with the program upon which you have decided. You are committed!!!
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THEVOW2013 2/22/2014 9:34AM

    Um, if you know what works...repeated it.
Stop, suffering through poor food choices for your body.
Have you seen FAT SICK and nearly Dying...He only juices and he is happy no longer fat and not dying.

I don't eat gluten, or corn, and when I do I suffer....so I told myself stop messing with your body and avoid the things that make it sick there are tons of foods that fill me and fuel me and keep me healthy.
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The Next Right Thing

Saturday, February 15, 2014




I'm working on the Amends lesson for Celebrate Recovery
emoticon 3 years in a row now I've gone to my husband and told him how the things he has said and done, or his refusal to say or do, has hurt me, has harmed our relationship, has damaged my relationships with my children, has isolated me from family and friends...

Not that I blame him for everything, but for his part in this situations and in those damaged relationships...

I would be better off talking to THE WALL, or an empty chair, as they teach in CR!
Sharing with an empty chair is something that is done when the person is no longer living, or is not a "Safe Person" to go to with the Amends portion of one's recovery..

One of the meanings of insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting to get a different result each time.

Bottom line, my recovery can't depend on another person.

I'm sorry for my bad.
I'm sorry that others have abused and mistreated me.
I'm sorry that in my broken state I said and did, or neglected to say and do
The right thing...

My prayer is and will be, that God will show me WHAT IS THE NEXT RIGHT THING?!

Today is the first day of the rest of my life.

I'm going to live my life for the glory of God, not to please others.

I have come to peace with the thought that some times there is no pleasing some people. They are set in their ways, and either not willing or able to change...

Thanks for letting me share. emoticon

  
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CANICE 2/20/2014 12:04AM

   
The whole "Moral Inventory" and "Amends" process is to do as was suggested:

"You can accept or reject the way you are treated by other people, but until you heal the wounds of your past, you will continue to bleed. You can bandage the bleeding with food, with alcohol, with drugs, with work, with cigarettes, with sex, but eventually, it will all ooze through and stain your life. You must find the strength to open the wounds, stick your hands inside, pull out the core of the pain that is holding you in your past, the memories, and make peace with them." —Iyanla Vanzant




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CANICE 2/19/2014 11:37PM

    THINFITRAWKIND - if you are not familiar with Celebrate Recovery, and the "12 Steps", then you might want to check it out!

Celebrate Recovery, aka "CR" is a Christ Centered 12 Steps Program that helps people identify and overcome "Hurts, Habits & Hang-Ups"

Let's face it, we ALL have "Hurts, Habits & Hang-Ups!" emoticon
Celebrate Recovery - The Twelve Steps and Their Biblical Comparisons

1. We admitted we were powerless over our addictions and compulsive behaviors, that our lives had become unmanageable.
“I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out.” (Romans 7:18)

2. We came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
“For it is God who works in you to will and to act according to His good
purpose.” (Philippians 2:13)

3. We made a decision to turn our wills and our lives over to the care of God.
“Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship.” (Romans 12:1)

4. We made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
“Let us examine our ways and test them, and let us return to the Lord.”
(Lamentations 3:40)

5. We admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
“Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed.” (James 5:16)

6. We were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
“Humble yourselves before the Lord, and He will lift you up.” (James 4:10)

7. We humbly asked Him to remove all our shortcomings.
“If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” (1 John 1:9)

8. We made a list of all persons we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.
“Do to others as you would have them do to you.” (Luke 6:31)

9. We made direct amends to such people whenever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
“Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift.” (Matthew 5:23-24)

10. We continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.
“So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don’t fall!”
(1 Corinthians 10:12)

11. We sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and power to carry that out.
“Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly.” (Colossians 3:16)

12. Having had a spiritual experience as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to others and to practice these principles in all our affairs.
“Brothers, if someone is caught in a sin, you who are spiritual should restore him gently. But watch yourself, or you also may be tempted.” (Galatians 6:1)

emoticon If you reread my Blog, you will see that I state that I am not blaming my husband "for everything, but for his part in this situations and in those damaged relationships..."

You might also note that I commented that I am sorry for
MY BAD emoticon

And I quote:
"I'm sorry for my bad.
I'm sorry that others have abused and mistreated me.
I'm sorry that in my broken state I said and did, or neglected to say and do The right thing... "

My moral inventory is almost 1000 entries!
THAT is why they call it a "Searching Moral Inventory!" emoticon

Much of my "Moral Inventory" is my BAD, as well as GOOD things I have said and done in my life.

Much of my "Moral Inventory" is good and bad that others have said or done to me- which effected my life.

Each entry is there to help to seek "Balance" in my life = not all good, and not all bad.

EACH entry I am addressing the "Who, What, When, Where, How and WHY" in my past - which has an impact on my present, and should God allow me to see another day - my future!

PART of the healing process is listing all people who have said or done things to harm us -(Step 4) and then share that "Moral Inventory" with someone I trust. (Step 5)

Yes, that means assigning blame to the hurt, habit or hang-up - or the "ROOT" in my life - as well as admitting to MY PART in each situation!!!

It's not just pointing fingers!
It's much more....
It's about healing...
emoticon “Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed.” (James 5:16)

After going through Step 4, listing all the good, bad, and UGLY things from the past I have come to Step 9, the Amends - where I am to go to that list of people who have harmed me, as well as those that I have harmed, and tell them I am sorry for my part in a situation, or how their part in situation hurt me - and ask forgiveness, or say that I forgive that person.

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THINFITKINDVGAN 2/17/2014 11:07AM

    Please forgive a complete stranger for these comments: #1) You started your blog with insight with the copied picture. Read this over carefully. It has a great deal of Truth.

#2, as long as you are blaming another (DH), which you still are doing BTW, the direction of your anger/betrayal is in the opposite direction than it should be.

#3 self anger, guilt, betrayal is common with all of us. The first step is to recognize your feelings. The 2nd step is to OWN them, the 3rd step is to gently SMILE at them with Love beside you holding your hand if need be. The 4th step is to continue on your path.

God knows only of Himself which is Unconditional, Undifferentiated Love for all, in all, always.

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THINANDFITEMILY 2/17/2014 10:54AM

    It does begin with you- be gentle with yourself- emoticon

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LOSINGLINNDY 2/15/2014 5:00PM

    What a beautiful prayer in response to your blog. There is nothing more to add except that I will continue to keep you in my prayers.

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CANICE 2/15/2014 12:15PM

    Thank you!

Amen, and AMEN! emoticon

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_RAMONA 2/15/2014 11:14AM

    May your every day be all you need it to be. May an all abiding peace fill your thoughts, rule in your dreams each night, and conquer all your fears. May God manifest himself in ways you have never before experienced. May your joys be fulfilled, your dreams be closer, and your cares be lifted. I pray that faith enters a new height in you, that your territory be enlarged, and that fulfillment is just one step closer.

MAY GOD ABUNDANTLY BLESS YOU, and those you love, in every way that you require. May he hold you gently in the palm of his hand in a very personal way, and may you rest in the fullness of his love, his grace, his strength, his wisdom, his rescue, his redemption, his healing, his inspiration, his restoration and his mercy as you require it! May you carry in your heart always an extra special awareness of God's great love for you, may you feel his sweet and gentle touch upon your life, and may you see his miracles all around you. I pray in the name of Jesus Christ, our Lord. Amen!

Ramona

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You ASKED FOR it!

Sunday, February 02, 2014

I am overwhelmed right now - dealing with health issues, "HORMONES" in both my own body and my family members - and a long list of things that have me feeling like I'm under an AVELANCHE!

I've been staying in the Guest House on my property since last Monday - since Sean ONCE AGAIN said hurtful things that "rip my heart out", and I "drew a line in the sand" and said I won't allow him to "go there" again....

I understand that "God hates divorce" - and that is not my desire...

I understand that the enemy of my soul is BUSY, trying to "steal, kill and destroy" Christians, and marriages, and anything he can!

I am just so WEARY... emoticon

I joined a Beth Moore Bible Study that meets on Tuesdays - "David - Seeking a Heart Like His."
I am so inspired by what I have learned so far....

ONE of the things I learned: emoticon

Samuel means "Asked of God"
Saul means "Asked For"

Beth Moore points out that Hannah asked God for a son, and then named him, "Asked of God" - where the people "ASKED FOR" a king, and God picked out a man who's name was "Asked For."

in other words, they "asked for" a king, just like the other nations - rejecting God and His authority in their lives - so they "got what they "ASKED FOR"!"

Beth goes on to tell us in her video lesson that we "Asked for" things in our lives and then are surprised at the CONSEQUENCES that we have to live with.

She gave examples:

We "asked for" a husband, and then we live with their quirks and wonder why they don't meet all our needs - emotionally, physically, and spiritually. Only God can do that.

We "asked for" a home, and then have to live with the mortgage payment, the taxes, the expenses that come with utilities and upkeep...

We "asked for" or had "on accident" - children.... insert book length thoughts on the heartache that comes from being a parent of children who are affected by "the world" and sin.....

EYE OPENING STUFF! emoticon

I recall a time when I stood on the deck of my home and CRIED OUT TO GOD! I "asked for" a husband - telling God that I was ready to spend the rest of my life as a single parent, but I wanted a husband to pay the bills, and take over all the responsibility from me! 6 days later Sean walked into the Alteration Shop on Fort Drum where I was the manager and tailor. I am sure that I "heard God" say that "This is your husband." The thing is, God gave me what I "Asked For!" I should have "Asked for" a husband that would love me in a way where I would FEEL LOVED, one that would be the spiritual leader for me and my children, one that would put God first over all things....

No, that's not what I "Asked For!" emoticon

I "Asked for" someone who would pay the bills and take over all the responsibility that I was tired of dealing with. Insert Sean - who provides a very good income, and insists on not allowing me to have a say in matters, who has told me that he will "NEVER SUBMIT" to me....

{{{DEEP SIGH}}}


I got what I "Asked For!" emoticon

I am sure God is merciful - that He hears my prayers of surrender and the desire I have to allow HIM to work in and through the consequences in our lives....

I have "Asked for" a change to take place in my heart, and in my home....

I have "Asked for" a miracle!

I am trusting that God is able to do exceeding abundantly above and BEYOND all that I have "ASKED FOR" or could even IMAGINE according to HIS POWER that is at work in us!

Please pray that God would open our eyes so we can SEE what He wants us to see!

Please pray that God would open our ears so we would HEAR what He is telling us!

Please pray that God would "melt away" all the hardness in our hearts" and give us "A heart like HIS"

Grace and peace to us all!

Canice

  
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CANICE 2/8/2014 10:29AM

    Thank you all for your kind words, prayers, and love! emoticon

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MYJUNIEMOON 2/8/2014 7:32AM

    Maybe you could ask God to help Sean change and guide him to have a loving heart....

I had been married for about 3-4 years when I had a revelation. It seems that we are always on our best behavior when around strangers or acquaintances.... think waiting for an elevator....we smile, talk pleasantly about the weather, say have a great day.

Then when we get in the car with our spouse, parent or sibling, it's Why were you late? Why can't you be on time? Why do you drive like a crazy person? nag, nag, bicker...

Why is it that we treat people we will never see again, or that hardly matter, so kind and polite..... and the ones that will be in our lives forever, so mean spirited and bad-tempered?

It's a mystery to me.... Once I opened my eyes to this, I began treating the people closest to me in a much more kinder, caring manner.

Maybe God will show Sean the same revelation I had.... I pray God will.

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LINDA! 2/7/2014 7:48PM

    I am praying for the situation. But to be honest, I have known Christian women in similar circumstances. They prayed, they begged God that things would turn around...but it didn't. I would suggest family counseling. He may not be agreeable. Going to a Christian counselor alone is also an option.

Please try very hard but as Gaylinn said, you do not deserve abuse. God does not want this for you. emoticon

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BAMAJAM 2/3/2014 5:14PM

  Dear Canice---

Life is certainly complicated and it can seem that we are under an avalanche when physical problems collide with relationship problems. I pray that you and Sean can find common ground and work through the difficulties. I think that it can be possible to re-capture the feeling of "cherished" --- both need this. I hope that life improves for you, Canice.
To be a tailor, you must have great skill----
Hugs!

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LOSINGLINNDY 2/2/2014 5:52PM

    Do continue your prayers asking for God's will to guide you. Divorce isn't God's first choice for you but neither is abuse. I will continue my prayers for both of you.

Hugs and blessings, Gaylinn

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TINYTONI4 2/2/2014 2:02PM

    I guess that is where that saying came from (Be careful what you ask for). Remember that the Lord answers in His own time. He is great, and if you persevere, He will answer. I will pray for you both.
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