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IOWL #268: When Success Leads to Failure

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Inside Out Weight Loss Episode #268: When Success Leads to Failure

The golden nugget I got out of this episode of the podcast is not to let my ego be tied up with my success on the scale, because it puts too much pressure on me to perform. And also, since I equate dieting with deprivation, when I have success, I feel like relaxing a bit, and relaxing my diet is...overeating. I enjoy exercise, so I keep up with that, unless I get too crazy busy, like when I was moving last month. But diet is so much restriction, being hungry at times, passing up goodies. I have to couch it as making good-for-me choices. Like passing up the candy bowl and treats in the back room because they have no nutritional value. And eating a kind bar instead. I still have to eat every 3 hours, or I'll feel hungry, deprived, and generally sorry for myself. If I don't feel like I gave up a lot for my success, that I got there by taking good care of me, in the most enjoyable way (like I feel about exercise) I will keep it up, winning or losing. Just because it feels good.

Oh, I'm back on hormones and feeling so much better. Except that I have a cold.

Tuesday goals:
1. Write it before I bite it
2. Eat every 3 hours
3. Stay within calorie range
4. Personal trainer 4:30-5:15
5. Yogurt for dessert
6. Schedule mamo

motivational quote:

"Never let success get to you head.
Never let failure get to your heart."
-― Ziad K. Abdelnour

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PEGGY11 9/23/2014 1:26PM

    I like your write it before I bite it. I am trying this. Only two days so far, but I like it.

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Goals for this week

Monday, September 22, 2014

I went to weekend workout on Saturday, and the instructor was a woman, 45, kinesiology senior, who's lost over 100 pounds, and is going through chemo! What an inspiration of "no excuses." She had so much energy & vitality. She only told me about the chemo because I commented on how great her hair looked, and she said it was a hair piece.

Sunday brunch was wonderful. I served biscuits, mini spinach quiche, mini apple pies, and mimosas. Everyone had fun. But my friend's daughter was terribly allergic to my pets. :(

I went to the dr this morning for my yearly check up. I'm up a few pounds from last year. Not what I wanted to hear. Everything was normal. Then I talked about weight loss. I was completely honest about my eating. I said I was eating, well, overeating, because it relieves stress, and she said, no it doesn't. I said temporarily, and she said not really. Because I feel more stress for sabotaging myself. I have to find something else. Also, since I'm indulging on weekends, give myself ONE day to indulge. I promised her next year my weight will be down.

Don't forget to drink your water!


Goals for this week:
1. Write it before I bite it
2. Dessert once a week: Saturday spurge
3. Zumba M & W
4. Personal trainer T & Th

Motivational quote:

"Really great people make you feel that you, too can become great."
-Mark Twain


Edited to add:
Monday goals:
1. Write it before I bite it
2. Eat every 3 hours
3. stay withing calorie range
4. Zumba 6-7pm
5. Drink plenty of water
6. Yogurt for dessert
7. I will not eat the cake & donuts in the break room, or the halloween candy at the front desk

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IDICEM 9/23/2014 8:52AM

  Great goals!

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GOODGETNBETR 9/22/2014 8:36PM

    emoticon goals. You can do it!

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-WRKNG2ABTTRME- 9/22/2014 7:27PM


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    Your new personal trainer sounds amazing!!

Your brunch made me hungry. LOL.

Let's have a great week!!

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LIS193 9/22/2014 12:21PM

    Great cat pic!
Your goals are good ones! Your weight may have been up from last year but with all the exercise you're getting you must be a lot fitter - that counts too!

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LE7_1234 9/22/2014 11:56AM

    "I said I was eating, well, overeating, because it relieves stress, and she said, no it doesn't. I said temporarily, and she said not really."

And now to remember that when we need it!

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CARRIE1948 9/22/2014 11:38AM

    Love the way some cats prefer drinking from people's glasses

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Exercise away the blues

Friday, September 19, 2014

I went to Dance Fusion last night. It's like Zumba, but without the trademark name. An hour of cardio really helps my mood. I'm on hormone replacements, and this is my "off" week, and I can feel the drop in hormones, not just as cramps, but as anxiety & depression. Exercise really helps lift my mood.

I also successfully wrote down everything I ate, and stayed within caloric range yesterday.

I signed up for personal training (PT) 4:30-5:15 Tuesdays & Thursdays for 20 sessions, $50. It's offered through the university, and taught by kinesiology seniors. I have a male trainer for the first time. I feel like it's an investment in ME, and real-life accountability.

I watched Biggest Loser last night. I'm not going to do recaps like I did last season. Dolvett said, The only excuse you have is the one you made. The episode was about no excuses.

I"m going to switch my my weigh in day to Saturday morning, after what Spark Friend, Rickhann said yesterday. Thank you!

Yes, it's possible that hormones are affecting my weight, bloating, desire to overeat, lower metabolic burn. but I don't want to make excuses. It will only get harder to burn fat & lose weight when I hit menopause.

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68ANNE 9/20/2014 8:11PM

    I felt so great after interval running on the treadmill, so I know exactly what you mean!
Great job!

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LIVELYGIRL2 9/19/2014 11:38PM

  good plan. Hope it goes well emoticon emoticon

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    Exercise helps my mood too. It's one of the best tools in my tool box.

Sounds like you are doing great right now. Keep it up!

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LAILATN 9/19/2014 3:22PM

    Great job investing in personal training. You are most definitely investing in yourself!


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IDICEM 9/19/2014 10:18AM

  Sounds like you're putting your schedule in order. emoticon

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LIS193 9/19/2014 9:48AM

    You have a great plan!
Monday mornings can be depressing after a nice weekend... best to weigh in after a good week!

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Protect Your Plan

Thursday, September 18, 2014

I confuse myself. I want to lose weight, but I'm gaining instead. A part of me doesn't want to weigh in publicly, well, here on Spark People, anymore. I'm so embarrassed. Another part wants to go somewhere & get support. Like a weight watchers or dietbet, put my money where my mouth is. But, in the past I've done weight loss contests, and all I've lost is my money.

I feel like I know what to do, but I'm just not doing it. I want some real life (as opposed to online) accountability.

I didn't Bite Before I Bite for 2 days, and my weight ballooned up! My plan is such a fragile thing, I have to protect it.

OK, so what I've done right:
I went to Zumba yesterday.
I've tracked everything so far today.
I haven't had any candy from the candy dish today.
Snack & dinner are planned.


OK just realized my hormones are dropping off the cliff & that's why I feel so depressed.
Thankfully I"m not going crazy!

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IDICEM 9/19/2014 10:05AM


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LE7_1234 9/18/2014 11:48PM

    Any chance the hormones are affecting the weight?

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LUCYCAN7 9/18/2014 7:26PM

  You will pull thru this,it is part of life.No one is perfect!Don't be so hard on
yourself.Just keep on keeping on. emoticon emoticon

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68ANNE 9/18/2014 6:22PM

    I so know where you are coming from, ugh feeling isn't it? You can get through this

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RICKHANN 9/18/2014 5:32PM

    Remember the scale is just one way to follow your fitness. One thing I noticed is that you seem to be doing your weigh-ins on a Monday ... and recently after a weekend with a few cheats even though you've been working so hard throughout the weekdays.

You're doing a lot of positive things and that's what you should be focusing on. If you keep active and eat right for the most part, you will see changes for the better whether it is on the scale or not.

Most people on here are in the same boat as you, with accomplishments and setbacks. We're all here to support you so that hopefully the successes are greater.

Keep working on it. It's in you to do this.


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    These things happen, GF. It's part of life. You don't need to be embarrassed. We are not disappointed in you so try not to be so hard on yourself. It's not like this is going to be permanent. You are still doing things for your health. You have had more stress lately and stress often leads to weight gain. You are back on track already.

I am having some health issues so I have taken my sparkpage off line. If you need to speak to me you can by sparkmail. I hope this is short lived. LOL

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Weight in day 9/15/14

Monday, September 15, 2014

Weigh in 176 stayed the same. W-D a week & a day of tracking completely. I was over calories on the weekend. Mostly from drinking wine. Mostly from dealing with stress. Sometimes when I'm in the middle of a crisis, I can't think straight. I forget things that help me deal with stress healthily, and fall back on old habits. Doing the best I can with what is available to me at the time. It's easy to forgive myself for this.

Tonight is Zumba. I can't wait. It's a great way to work off stress.

I'm going to mentally rehearse being in a crisis, and when it's over, and I need to relax, exercise. Emotions are created by motion. Exercise lifts my mood & energy. Alcohol depresses mood & energy.

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    I agree about the exercise. It always helps me when I am stressed or depressed. Have a good time at zumba!

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IDICEM 9/15/2014 11:06AM

  Have fun at Zumba! What an energizer of mood and body! emoticon

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LUCYCAN7 9/15/2014 10:11AM

  Good luck on exercise class tonight always helps with mental clarity! emoticon

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    Alcohol also seems to boost appetite and decrease self-control.
Plus it muddles thinking. Mental rehearsal is a good idea. Please share.

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SASHAY40 9/15/2014 8:03AM

    Your being in a crisis and not thinking straight reminds me of when I get anxiety. I don't like feeling like I am not in-control. Exercise IS definitely a mood and energy lifter. I don't drink Alcohol. It prominently runs in the family- so I stay away from it. I don't need another addiction! There are people who avoid exercise and heavily drink.... If they only knew!!

Bad habits are hard to break....Luckily our mind (when we can think straight) holds the key!! Have a Wonderful WEEK!!! emoticon

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TWEETYKC00 9/15/2014 7:58AM

    At least you didn't go up with the scale! Keep on trying to be positive an keep on moving strong!

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CARRIE1948 9/15/2014 7:49AM

    let me know how the mental rehearsal works

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