Wednesday, December 29, 2010
I don't know how I ever used to wait until January 1st to start my resolutions. I was ready to go on December 26th, when I woke up with a Christmas Hangover and my tummy was begging me not to put any more cookies into it.
Yesterday I went out and bought a scale. There is one at my gym, but I'm not always there at the same time from week to week. So even though I know that home scales tend to show a lighter weight than what the "true weight" is, it will at least be consistent. And really, its more to keep me accountable than to actually worry about the number. Sure I'd like to lose some more weight, but it's more helpful for me to know that I have to get on the scale each morning - is a pint of ice cream worth it?
In my last blog I wrote how I didn't really want to make yearly goals - I don't do well with long-term goals like that. But after thinking about it, I *did* come up with something I'd like to do this year. I'd like to send out a card a week. It can be to a friend, to a family member... just a hand-written note to let someone know I'm thinking of them.
I just got back from a great gym session. I did about 90 minutes worth of elliptical, circuit training, and treadmill. It felt really good... The hardest step for me is actually leaving my house to go to the gym. I am getting better at taking that step.
Drank a ton of water today, and I'm still drinking strong! I definitely felt fuller when I ate my dinner (a salad with chicken and a piece of bread). I have one more Sigg to drink, and then I will treat myself to a glass of wine.
Filled the freezer with some delicious vegetarian chili. It uses bulgur as the "meat," and it's very very tasty.
Brad (my honey) and I sat with our finances today. We went over our bills and decided that we were going to start mixing together more of our money and our payments. Tomorrow we're going to the bank to open a joint account for shared expenses... it's a big step. I've always taken a lot of pride in being independent; this step will show me that my independence isn't being taken away, rather, it's strengthening our commitment to each other. We will keep separate accounts for our own purchases, but we're going to start sharing more of the big expenses.
I have done a lot today, and I am tired. I think I'll take some time to relax. I hate to say this, but winter break will be over before I know it and I'll be bummed out if I don't take time to just be lazy.
Monday, December 27, 2010
I don't know how I feel about New Year's Resolutions for me this year. Last year I wanted my motto to be "Will this make you happy?" and the intent was for me to ask myself that question every time I was faced with a cookie, some ice cream, or a desire to skip the gym. Well, I forgot about that question. I just remembered now because I'm thinking about the New Year.
Right now I can't think of anything I really want to change about my life... at least nothing big enough to make into a resolution. I guess I could always go with the "I want to lose these last 15 pounds," and while it sounds good, I've been Sparking long enough to know that my lifestyle (with which I am currently happy) keeps me from losing more than a few ounces a month.
And I *could* make "track all my food" a resolution, but that implies that i didn't do it enough in 2010. And I did. I mean, I did enough for me. Sometimes I just didn't feel like tracking and sometimes I did. So maybe "more consistent tracking" can be a goal for me.
The other issue I have with resolutions is that they are a whole year thing! Some of you are very good at sticking to long-term goals and seeing far into the future. I am not. I have trouble seeing past next week.
So I thought about my "resolutions" today while I was sweating it up at the gym, and I decided that I'm going to stick to weekly goals. But to get into the spirit, I *am* going to make some relatively big changes. Not this week, though, because I'm still on vacation...
I will drink four Siggs of water a day.
I will write down in my journal everything I ate each day, and I will enter it into Spark on Friday. I enjoy the physical act of writing, so I think this is totally do-able for me. I think that I haven't been tracking my food consistently because it's such a tedious task for me. I like the idea of taking one evening and getting it all done.
I will write down all my workouts in my journal and enter them into Spark on a Friday. Same reason as nutrition.
I will take my calcium twice a day.
Since this week is a vacation week for me, I'm not going to set the alarm. I love sleeping in until I wake up and being able to decide when things get done. But after this week, I am going to spend more time at the gym in the morning and more time at night getting stuff ready for the following day. I get up really early, and there is no reason I shouldn't be able to get in a good hour-long workout before school.
The chicken is done roasting... it just needs to rest a little bit before dinner. I think I'll have a little veggie with it and a big glass of water. Some kind of fruit for dessert - I am cookie-d and pastry-ed out for the season. And while I could easily eat more cookies, I have to get my body back into craving fruits and veggies and other good stuff.
Cookie pudge, no more!
Thursday, December 23, 2010
I Am Fit, I Am Fit, I Am Fit!
(Sung to the tune of - you guessed it - "Let It Snow, Let It Snow, Let It Snow!")
Oh the tummy roll is so frightful,
but the gym is so delightful!
I get to work up a sweat...
I am fit, I am fit, I am fit!
The cookies, they were delicious.
But not so much nutritious.
I washed them all down with water,
I am fit, I am fit I am fit!
When the post-Christmas days are here...
I'll still fit in my new size 4 coat.
I'll pass up excess holiday cheer...
And then I will just have to gloat!
I didn't drink too much egg nog,
or chow down on the chocolate.
I'm headed out for a run,
I am fit, I am fit, I am fit!
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
That's what my alarm read this morning. There's nothing like a little typed guilt to make me get up and go to the gym. But more than the guilt, I think it's more that the cookie-eating just happened. Right now, I don't know that "bikini!" on my phone would work, seeing as it's barely 20 degrees out right now. That would almost certainly inspire me to curl up under the covers even more.
"You ate too much last week!" wouldn't have worked - I already forgot what I even did last week, let alone what I ate.
So at this point on my journey, I am focusing on goals that are more short-term. I think it's important that we are flexible enough to change our goals, or at least the manner in which we attain them, when our mind and body want us to. There was a point where I looked far ahead - losing 25 pounds. That's no small feat! And it doesn't happen in a week, or even a month. I was able to see that far ahead. And it worked for me. I tracked my food every single day for every single morsel I put in my mouth. I planned out my workouts for a month in advance. I loved it!
But lately, my goals are more short-term. "Make it to the gym this morning. Run two miles." For good or for bad that's how it is for me. It's hard for me to see "losing another 15 pounds," because losing these last *two* has taken me forever. And honestly (I'm going to use the holidays here), I don't feel like focusing on weight-loss during the holidays. This is the first year in a long time where I have really felt the holiday spirit... not that I don't like Christmas, but this year I've been especially thankful and jolly and peace-ful and joy-ful. And for me, that means going to parties and having dessert and wine.
I have been consistent about going to the gym in the morning, and it's helped me stay in my "Very Skinny Pants" that I bought in the fall. So I guess in a way, "morning gym 4-5 times a week" is kind of like a goal that I meet each day and week. But I don't think of it that way. Just like I no longer think of "eat a healthy lunch" as a goal... I just do it. The healthy lunch is just who I am. And right now, the morning gym person is just who I am.
So anyway, I guess I'm saying that it's kind of funny how our goals evolve. Things we do now... maybe we never imagined doing those things as part of our every day. Things we will do... things we never in a million years thought we'd try to do, and things that we don't even know we'll do yet!
Off to heat up the car... Happy Winter Solstice!
Saturday, December 18, 2010
I love to bake my Christmas gifts. I love to bake, and I'm pretty good at it. I just bought a cookie scoop - the cookies look wonderful this year. So I spent all day baking!
The original plan was to bake tomorrow - a friend was going to come up and bake, but she canceled on me. I knew that would happen - she cancels on me a lot. I was really bummed out, though. It turns out that she was staying up at her boyfriend's family's house to watch the football game tomorrow. But what ticked me off even more than her leaving me hanging was that she didn't even bother to tell me about it. I texted her this afternoon- "I have the cookie stuff ready!" and she *then* informed me that she was staying away all day tomorrow. Well when the heck were you going to tell me???
And then if that wasn't bad enough, she wrote "I'm really sorry... but I have a Christmas gift for you." And I love gifts, but a while back we agreed not to get each other presents because she has no money. Which is fine, I like to spend time with my friends. But now I have to go out and get something for her, which I don't even really want to do because I'm ticked off about this weekend. ARGH And how did she magically get money? Did she borrow it from her boyfriend? Did she get me something just because she feels bad about this weekend?
I HATE feeling like I don't matter. Like baking cookies with me is the last resort... if something better doesn't come up, I'll bake cookies with you.
Well you know what? It worked out for the best anyway. After wallowing in my self pity, I cranked up the Christmas music, opened the bottle of wine (yes, it was 1:00 in the afternoon, but hey...), got the oven going, and busted out some Christmas cookies. Today is Bake Cookies Day anyway, so it was like I HAD to bake today. They look great. And tomorrow, I am heading out to buy some containers so I can wrap them up. I have lots of cookies, so lots of people are getting delicious gifts from me.
And another good thing is that Brad has a day off tomorrow. So instead of spending it baking cookies, I am going to spend my day having quality honey time. I'll take it. He has some Christmas shopping to do online, so I plan to go to the gym while he does some click-and-ship.
And despite having about 150 cookies in the house, I only ate four. I had one peanut butter, one lemon drop, and two chocolate chip-oatmeal. Quality control, people, quality control. Tomorrow I have to make (well not *have* to make, but want to make) molasses cakes. They are perfect for the holidays - full of yummy spices.
For the rest of the night I think I will make some tags for my hot chocolate gifts, labels for my cookies, and get my list of lucky cookie recipients together.
So my parting question - what do I do about a Christmas gift for the friend? I don't want to spite her and not get her anything, but I haven't even thought about it since I thought we weren't shopping for each other...
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