Sunday, January 30, 2011
1) Fill up glass with water
2) Drink glass of water
3) When glass is empty, re-fill
By George, it works!
Friday, January 28, 2011
January 1st was my two-year Sparkversary. In the two years I've been Sparking, I've learned a lot about my body and what I need to do to keep it healthy. I've been able to keep 30 pounds off and live the life I want to live.
But I still get scared... I get scared about gaining the weight back. I haven't had a serious scare in a while, but this week was one of those weeks. Actually, it's been one of those months. My brother moved to Qatar for a semester to teach, we've had umpteen snow days where I haven't been able to get out to the gym, and there are a million more excuses... but yesterday afternoon I was actually scared that my body was not going to go back to wanting exercise... that it wasn't going to want good food anymore... that it would be happy creeping up in size until I'd have to buy bigger clothes.
Last night I had one of those moments, though, where the desire to be fit was more than the desire to overeat. I wrote yesterday that I got the new J.Crew arrivals via e-mail... during the winter, it's easy to think "oh, I can throw on a sweater." But when those cute bikinis popped up on my e-mail, it was like "Oh sh*# !!! THAT'S why I'm working so hard and treating my body right." I immediately stopped craving cereal, and I even got two carrots as a snack.
So tonight was Chip Night. I decided earlier in the week that on Friday (today), I'd get whatever I wanted for dinner, not feel bad about it, get it out of my system. And a funny thing happened. I went in for chips, and I didn't really want them anymore. I bought them anyway - I thought "well, if I don't get them now while I'm here, the craving will get so out of control that I won't be able to stand it anymore." So I picked up a bag of Kettle Chips and a single-serving of Haagen-Dazs strawberry.
Got home, started eating the chips, and I thought "you know, I don't really want these. They don't taste that good, and I don't feel that good eating them." So I threw most of them away. I will admit, I enjoyed every single bite of the ice cream. I think if I would have gotten a pint, it would be gone. So I'm glad I got the little one.
I picked up some cherries at the store so I didn't look like a *complete* pig getting chips and ice cream, and i actually enjoyed the cherries a ton more than I enjoyed the chips.
So I guess the point of this blog is to say that even though it was hard, I kept faith in my body. I thought "ok body, I'll give you one more chance to get the chip craving out before I totally get worried." And my body didn't let me down. It knew I meant business, and tonight it worked with me to get back in the right state of mind. My routine got knocked for a loop, and I wasn't adjusting well. It was getting easier and easier to make excuses, and harder and harder to make the right choices. But my body hung in there.
I send out a gigantic, HUGE THANK YOU!!!! to you all for leaving supportive and kind words for me. You assured me that I'd get through this, and I did. THANK YOU!!!!!!!
So if you are having a difficult time getting back into it, trust in that body of yours. It knows what it wants, sometimes it takes a little bit of time and work to get back on the same wavelength. But you will. You'll rediscover the joy of peeing often because you're getting enough water. You'll rediscover how awesome it feels to finish a killer workout and be reminded of it two days later when your thighs are burning. You'll especially like the joy of looking in the mirror and once again being happy with what you see. It's nicer to see muscles emerging instead of a roll.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
J. Crew has always been sort of a goal for me. When I was in high school, I'd go shopping with my friends, and they would always try stuff on at J. Crew while I watched - nothing ever went up to my size. So in the back of my mind was always "I want to be able to go into any store and be able to fit into the clothes."
One of the first years Brad and I were together, he took me to the Nordstrom annual fall preview sale. All this cute stuff, and I couldn't fit into it. In fact, some of the clothes only went up to a size 10, and I was a 14 pushing a 16.
So shallow? Yes, a bit. But I'll tell ya, getting the e-mail with J. Crew's new arrivals totally did it for me today. I stuck to my dinner plan tonight and even drank a little extra water. Seeing the cute dresses and even cuter bikinis trumped every cereal craving I might have had tonight. It's like they *knew* I was feeling lumpy and unable to control my cravings. Do you know I just peeled a carrot for something to crunch on? A freakin' carrot! And it was sweet and crunchy and delicious. I might even get another one.
And in other good news, I have two boxes of Girl Scout cookies in my kitchen and I haven't opened either one. WAHOO!
- morning gym
- afternoon library
- evening relaxation with a little "craving food." I have been seriously wanting chips, and today I decided that Friday would be my chip night. What always happens is that I'll eat the chips and then I'll be good for another few months.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
So here I am, craving carbs again. Because it's been kind of recently, I went back and read a blog from about three months ago - looks like it's because of this Loseaonique. It is my "That Time of the Three Months" so I suppose that's what's going on. Bleh. I don't think the cold weather and being holed up is helping... and maybe I'm getting sick. I *did* come home and sleep on the couch for two hours...
I am having such a rough time with my eating... I feel like I'm eating everything in sight. I'm still going to the gym regularly, I just can't seem to control my eating. I know all the tricks, but it doesn't seem to matter. Ugh.
Need to get more water for tonight...
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Yesterday I put it out there that I was thinking about becoming a Personal Trainer, or at least getting certified. I guess I still have that Unfit Girl Mentality, because the first thing that went through my mind was "are you kidding me? *me* be a trainer? HA!" But I got such great support... Spark is helping me to see who I've become instead of clinging to who I once was.
I think it's important not to forget where we started, but it's just as (or more) important to embrace the people we've become.
So you all have inspired me to do some horn-tooting here.
Why I'd Be a Great Trainer
- I have great form when I do weights.
- I'm very organized.
- I'm super positive! (Which isn't everyone's cup of tea, but there are people out there who would want that!)
- I have my own story of eating right and working out to get to a healthy weight. No pills! No crazy diets! Just hard work, proving that it CAN be done!
- I'm very interested in how the body works. Since I started going to the chiropractor and running, I've been fascinated by everything working together like it does.
What a great goal this would be for me... I'm going to ask my gym tonight what they look for when they hire a trainer (certifications), and go from there.
- water water water (I'm back to wearing my Silly Bands, and they helped SO much yesterday)
- Yoga after school (snow, please stay away until *after* my yoga class)
- Cross some piddly stuff off my to-do list
Have a super day!
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