Monday, August 08, 2011
I guess there's a reason that "getting back to basics" is such a popular idea. I did just that by charting my water, my workouts and my sleep, and it's only been a week but I feel so much better already. My sleeping has been sound and deep, my mood has improved, and my self esteem has gone up. I even decided to take the Spark Approach to tracking my food just to notice patterns and to be aware; not really to track calories, but just to reacquaint myself with the calories in what I eat. And a funny thing happened after I did this for a couple of days... I started caring again about what I was putting into my body.
I've gone back to reading blogs, to commenting on blogs, to posting on message boards, to sending lots of goodies, to clicking on articles and actually *reading* them and using the ideas!
I started reading the book Women Food and God and it's very interesting. The summer is the perfect time for me to be reading self-improvement books because I have lots of time to reflect and act on what I read. In reading the book I've discovered that I need to pay more attention to my body and if it's really hungry. I know I've been getting lazy with the eating. And even though I've been eating lots of fruits and veggies, I still am eating them when I'm not hungry. It's still food, and it's still being eaten when I'm not actually hungry. So this is something I'm working on.
I also started writing in a journal (again). One of the points in the book is that some people eat to mask feelings. And it's been a stressful month - my mom hasn't talked to me because of the wedding thing (*side note - she actually *did* talk to me through my brother and wants to do dinner sometime soon. This is a good thing.) and it's been eating me up inside. I didn't realize how much I was hurting because of it until I started writing it down. I was being all strong (well, trying to be, anyway) and I kept telling myself that I wasn't really that bothered by her not talking to me. But it turns out that I am. But the point is that journaling has really helped me with this issue. And I think I'm almost ready to talk to her about it.
Today's Good Stuff!
I drank all my water and more!
I went to the gym this morning and got in a run! Hooray for running and getting sweaty!
My dinner was super delish - salmon with farm potatoes and carrots and onions.
I had lots of fruit!
I'm feeling less lumpy-dumpy!
I *finally* cleaned the downstairs tub! (We don't use it as a shower - it's more of the cleaning area, and it was filled with painting stuff from when I did my closet room !)
I have enough calories left today so that I can have a mug of hot milk!
Sunday, August 07, 2011
I'm excited about how my new-old habits are forming. This morning I woke up and my muscles were pretty sore, so I thought I'd take today as a rest day. But after I washed my face, I decided to take an easy swim day. After all, I *did* plan today as a cardio day on my calendar. And I'm so glad I went! This afternoon I went to a local festival with a friend and her husband, and of course they have wonderful fair food. For lunch I had cheese fries (MMM) and before we left I had a funnel cake. It had been SOOOO long since I'd had a funnel cake. And it was totally worth it.
On my drive home, I thought of how great it was that I was already at the gym this morning. Not that my swim worked off even CLOSE to the number of calories in my funnel cake and fries, but it was better than not doing anything.
So I'm feeling pretty good. I still had dinner tonight - I was hungry! - but it wasn't anything crazy. I had some pizza and for a sweet I had a Julie's Organic Chocolate Bar. They only have 100 calories per bar, and they are super delicious. Very creamy and yum. A little expensive, but a bar is better for me because I won't eat the whole stinkin' tub of ice cream!
I definitely need a hot bath tonight. I am sore and feeling gross from today's festival. It was SO hot and humid. Bleh.
Off to run a bath! Hope your weekend was stupendous!
Saturday, August 06, 2011
My husband is a chef. A very good chef. He's so good, in fact, that he has to work all the time. He just opened up a new restaurant (he doesn't own it, he's the Executive Chef) so he's there ALL THE TIME doing stuff. Ordering, prepping, setting up, reviewing stuff... like today? He left a little after 9:00am and he probably won't be home until after 11:00. While I'm very proud of him and I'm happy that he is doing what he loves, I'm feeling a little insecure lately. This happens when Brad works a lot... I start feeling insecure about myself. Especially because I'm not at work - I don't feel like I'm a productive member of society. I actually don't like summer for this reason.
When Brad is at work all the time, I don't have anyone to tell me that my muscles are feeling better. I don't have anyone grabbing my arse and telling me that it feels really good. (I suppose I could grab my own arse, but it's just not the same.)
So I suppose I have a few choices. I could:
a) wallow in self-pity and eat eat eat because hey, who's noticing if I pack on a couple pounds?
b) be sad all day, sit on the couch, not move, not even get up to eat.
c) be a gym warrior, working out like nobody's business, and then taking time to prepare good meals.
I think I'll choose c. With a little b in there for good measure. Because let's face it, when your hubby works all the time, it kind of sucks. But I can't get too mad at him - he really loves what he's doing. And I know that this job is a HUGE step up for him - he wrote the menu, he rolled it out, and he is doing lots of other Head Chef things that he didn't get to do at his last restaurant. Sigh.
Good things for today!
I earned all my stars today! Yahoo!
Henry, the Juice Guy At the Gym Who Is Incredibly Sexy, struck up a little convo with me today on the way in. He noticed that I was swimming a lot (I have been!) and he said "you look great." Swoon! I could have melted. If that comment doesn't get me off my rump and working hard, I don't know what will!
I took the time to do my hair today (I had to go into Brad's restaurant to get a check and then go pick up some ground buffalo) and get a little dressed up, and it did wonders for my self-esteem. My hair did what it needed to do and I even put on a little eyeliner from my new eye shadow. Yay! Maybe a goal for the rest of the summer is that I need to at the very least do my hair every day and not throw it back.
I'm going to find a little snacky before I go take a hot bath. Maybe just a glass of hot milk and a square of dark chocolate. I have to be extra food-careful. Henry's watching!
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