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...and the funk lifted...

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Being in a funk is a funny thing. It feels like there is never going to be an end to it. Everything is sad, constant exhaustion, don't feel like doing ANYthing... but then - something happens and the funk starts to lift. Sometimes it's all at once, sometimes it's little by little...

This last week has been really rough on me. Brad is going through some craziness at work - the owner of the restaurant put an ad in the paper for Brad's job and didn't even TELL Brad this was happening, and then just when Brad thinks that Sunday is his last day (and we get to spend more time together!), they ask him to come back in on Monday and then again today. I feel kind of awful saying this, but Brad and I laugh that we are the only two people on the face of the earth that are actually looking forward to someone getting fired! So I've been planning for time together, and then not together. And then together, and then not together. It's very stressful. Brad is getting burned out from so much working, and I just wish he was home more.

It's also been the single most stressful year of teaching EVER. There is just so much going on right now that the morale of the staff is in the dumps and it's getting harder and harder to pull people out of it. I'm doing my best, but I don't want to be crazy sugary optimistic. It's just not realistic to go about like that all day. Sigh... I need to find a balance. But our GAS (Give A Sh--) committee is helping. I've gotten fun little gifts in my mailbox at school, and I love going on searches for fun little gifts for other people.

So just when it seems like the funk is going to last forever because things just KEEP HAPPENING, something good happens!

Like my AMAZING Opportunity. I was searching around the web last week and happened across the Sesame Street website (I love Sesame Street). I happened across the employment section, and saw this job that looks just PERFECT. I read it, and I couldn't believe that I have just about all the qualifications! OMG so I'm sending in my resume this evening. And it just so happens that I have a connection who knows the executive producer, so I'm going to flex my networking muscles and see where it gets me. I would just LOVE an interview!

And then, I get an e-mail last night that our siding is in! It was delayed a bit because of the awful flooding around here, but it's in! And work is starting next Tuesday! Which also happens to be my birthday! Hooray!

AND my letter from my eye doctor came. It's wonderful - I can't wait to organize my plea to put my light covers back on.

AND (!) Brad and I had a wonderful evening last night. It was so nice to totally not have to think about doing housework and just about enjoying time with my husband. We had a wonderful dinner (he cooked!), we had a bottle of wine (a gift from one of my very good friends!), he made pancakes for dessert, and we snuggled on the couch. And popcorn.

AND!!! I did not have to go pick up the veggies last night. As much as I love our CSA share, I just sometimes can't even BEAR the thought of driving after school to pick it up. So Brad volunteered to go get the veggies so I could come right home after school. He is the best!

So keep your fingers crossed for this Sesame Street gig...

Oh! And on Saturday and Sunday I'll be earning a couple extra bucks by working at the Ironman store. This weekend is the first Ironman triathlon in the Poconos, so It's a super exciting time for this area!

Off to have some breakfast and get ready for a morning faculty meeting... have a great day!

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TEMPERANCE88 9/28/2011 12:02PM

    Wow, how great! Way to look at the positive. :) I hope you get that interview! God bless.

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KALIGIRL 9/28/2011 9:35AM

    Glad to hear the news!

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LYNNANN43 9/28/2011 9:12AM

    Lord knows I know a thing or 2 about funks! I'm so happy that yours seems to be lifting! emoticon

I was in kindergarten when the first Sesame Street aired. It is so very near & dear to my heart:D
Here's some good luck fairy dust for that job!!! emoticon

Good thing you reminded me about my CSA pickup today too!

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MUFFIY831 9/28/2011 9:09AM

    The job sounds great!! Fingers crossed for you, and yay for all the good stuff going on!

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    OMG!!! I have happy tears reading all this! THIS is the Carrie that we all know and love...well, we love the funky Carrie,too-but it makes me SO happy to see you smiling again.
WOW!! Sesame Street?? that is TOO cool...
and Brad getting fired! LOL! I laughed that ya'll are waiting impatiently for the final day!! More time with hubby...I would LOVE that,too. But, he has to put in the hours to feed this family AND keep me in my Princess status. (that's aBIG LOL!)
Enjoy the siding-it'll totally change the look of the house. is it a new color?
Big "I'm so happy for you" hugs!!!

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    That would be so awesome if you got a job at Sesame Street! I'm very excited for you! I hope you continue seeing good things this week.

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COOPSM 9/28/2011 7:42AM

    The funk is gone!!!! Fingers crossed for you Carrie....hope that Brad gets figured out!!!! Can't wait for the interview!!!!

Have an amazing day......

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ANGELOO29 9/28/2011 7:42AM

    Good luck!!!!

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ILLINITEACHER52 9/28/2011 7:36AM

  I hope things keep working out for you - sounds like a good time to start a gratitude journal that can be reviewed during those down times.

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REDHEADMOM2U 9/28/2011 7:04AM

    Sounds like things are rolling along! I love the GAS committee...hmmmmm!!!

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An odd feeling

Monday, September 26, 2011

I feel so "not myself" lately. It's been so hard for me to get housework done, I have half-finished projects all over the place, and I just feel very weird. I have no idea what this means.

It's been a stressful month... school started and it's HARD this year. Between the very needy kindergarten class and the in-the-dumps morale of the staff, it's been a struggle to keep my head up at school. The morale committee is helping, but it's still a lot different than years past. Brad is working like crazy, and there is some other nonsense going on at his work that is just dumb. He's bummed because he doesn't get to see me that much, and he just really wants to get back to cooking good food at home and being around the house. I wish he'd just be my house husband for a while. It would be nice to have someone around to come home to at the end of a hard day...

It's a weird feeling - I feel like I'm not in my own body. I'm going through the motions but I'm not really appreciating anything or living life. My focus is just not there - I can't seem to find what it is that is really going to give me that SPARK.

This morning's run will surely be very meditative... I have lots to think about.

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KALIGIRL 9/26/2011 12:42PM

    Can happen this time of year - windy, dry weather makes some of us (me included) feel 'un-grounded' - I like to meditate with my feet on the floor and visualize stable connections to the center of the earth.

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CHEPRBYTHEDOZN 9/26/2011 10:57AM

    Hmmmmm...everyone has good advice. Just take one thing at a time. It sounds like your emotionally worn out with all tha tis going on. Make a date day with hubby and do something super fun for both ofyou. (even if it's cooking all day long,eating a scrumptious dinner and popcorn for dessert)

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RUNNINGWILD 9/26/2011 10:29AM

    Fight the funk!!
Judi, what's the website for your "Motivated Moms"? I can use all the help I can get.

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CASSIOEPIA 9/26/2011 8:10AM

    Run on, girl!

Something that has always helped me with my housework, is following someone else's plan. First it was FlyLady, and now I follow something called Motivated Moms. It really helps me to check things off a list.

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HIKINGLEAH 9/26/2011 7:33AM

    I think everyone goes through times like this. It's good that you are taking care of yourself. Perhaps when the newness of the school year dies down a little, the stress will decrease a bit. Have hope!

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GRANLUND 9/26/2011 7:16AM

    So sorry to hear about your troubles. It must just be something in the air! I know exactly what you mean. Maybe you need to take a "sick" day and figure out a way to do something special with your husband to rejuvenate!

I often feel the same way. We have three children and my husband often has evening commitments at school so many times it is just me and the kids in the evening. Between teaching full time, teaching 10-15 private bassoon lessons, and helping everyone with homework I feel like once the week starts I am just barely getting by and struggling to just make it to the next weekend!

I've started getting up an hour earlier in the morning because we've found that we can have 30-45 minutes of family time in the morning to just relax! Find what works for you and hang in there!

Cherish each crazy moment...

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    I'm sure an answer will reveal itself soon. In the meantime, be kind to yourself.

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BILLALEX70 9/26/2011 6:48AM

    Blame it on the lights! emoticon

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Friday, September 23, 2011

So there's lots of exciting stuff going on!

- Brad and I are looking forward to getting time together while he writes his book.
- I will be working the store at the Ironman Triathlon at the end of the month! While selling merchandise doesn't *seem* that exciting, it's just the boost I need to get back into running regularly.
- I'm going to volunteer for Girls on the Run - I'm really looking forward to this. *I* have to be running if I'm going to mentor other people on how to run! Ha!
- I am sending my resume for a REALLY EXCITING opportunity. I'm not going to tell you what it is yet, I think I'll wait until I actually send out my resume, but I am SOOOOO excited and I am going to work my butt off to write a dynamite cover letter.
- Tonight I am going to my mom's house with a girlfriend... we are going to the National Book Festival tomorrow. The bus leaves super early, so we're staying with my mom so we don't have to get up at 4:00am!

So I'm feeling good... I need to plan my up-coming workouts, and I think the focus is going to be running while keeping up my strength training. I have lots of time this morning before I have to leave for school, so I think I'll start planning now!

Happy Friday!

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COOPSM 9/23/2011 10:25AM

    Carrie--wow!!! This was so exciting to read!!!! So glad to see you getting back into running and looking for changes in your and Brads life!!! I will keep my ifngers crossed that the job pans out!!!
Have fun with your GF and your mom!!!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 9/23/2011 9:46AM

    Happy Friday. Sounds like you have tons of exciting things going on!

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HIKINGLEAH 9/23/2011 8:55AM

    Happy Friday! Sounds like you have wonderful things on the horizon!

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    emoticonHappy Friday to you too!

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Ooooooooover the Hump!

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

I can't even stand how funny that song is. I swear, it's going to get me through seemingly endless days. It's going my iPod - turns out I actually own the song and didn't know until today when I went through my music!

So I guess I'll put this in my blog because I'm super excited - Brad is thinking about writing a book about cooking at home, and he *may* be leaving his job in January (or about then) to start working on his book! I am SO excited to be getting more time with him, and he's really excited about it too. It's still in the early stages of planning, so we obviously have a lot to figure out yet, most importantly our financial situation. We are, luckily, in a place right now where we can even think about this as an option, but there are lots of little things to iron out. Apparently he didn't think I'd be as thrilled as I was - he was surprised when I let out a big shriek of joy when he told me he was thinking about it!

So how's it going?

Workouts - very good! I am done with phase 5 of The New Rules of Lifting for Women. I can DEFINITELY feel that I'm getting stronger. I think I'm going to take the next month or two, though, to change it up a little bit and focus on my running. There is a substitute teacher at my school who is a mentor for Girls On the Run - it's a great after-school group that meets to promote self-confidence in girls. It's on Tuesdays and Thursdays. And while I can't do *every* meeting, she told me that it would be great if I could be at any of them. So I'm really excited about that! I also have a neat possible opportunity. The Ironman is coming to the Poconos and I got an e-mail through the local running club about working in the store that weekend. I have to send my resume and my availability, and hopefully I can made a few extra bucks that weekend and get totally back into the running spirit!

Eating - I have been writing myself little notes about my eating. "Are you really hungry" "Weddings (I have two weddings to go to in the next two months!), triathlon, pants." I've also been brushing my teeth right after lunch so I get the food taste out of my mouth. And as much as I can't stand the smacking of gum, I've been chewing more and it gives my mouth something to do instead of shoving food into it.

I've also been making an effort to spread some cheer at school. It's a stressful year already, and lots of teachers are feeling a little blah (I include myself!). So three colleagues and I have formed a committee to spread the joy. We've been doing little things like leaving notes, giving out flowers, setting out stuffed animals... and I think it's working! People who are usually not especially social and friendly are becoming more so, and lots of people seem to really enjoy the little things we're doing! I love it. And when I have something to focus on like that, I don't worry so much about the not-so-good stuff.

My lunch is packed for tomorrow, all I have to do id get my gym clothes ready for tomorrow night. It's Stretch Class! I seriously need it. Before my class, though, I'm going to get in a little run. It's the perfect way to workout - get all sweaty and burned out and then get a nice stretch. Ahhhh.

Time to pack my bag! Oh, and BTW - if you didn't click on the link at the top, I suggest you do.

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RAYLINSTEPHENS 9/22/2011 10:11AM

    emoticon Al Yankovic is hilarious!

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    LOVE this blog! I NEED your zip and energy! And high 5 to Brad's journey! WOW! that's a biggun!

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Happy Talk Like a Pirate Day!

Monday, September 19, 2011

It's funny how many crazy days I know about since I teach elementary school.

I love to read self-help books. Not because I think I necessarily *need* help (although some may beg to differ), but because I like to get fresh perspectives on life when I'm feeling blah. So I guess I do need help. But anyway... I'm reading The Happiness Project right now. It is very good - I thoroughly enjoyed it (I'm reading it for a third time - ha!) and I keep finding new tidbits that I really like. The tidbit that I'm thinking about a lot is "You can choose what you do, but you can't choose what you *like* to do." I've been thinking a lot about what I actually like to do. Like this morning? I got up super early and went running. It was wonderful.

I planned on going back to the gym tonight to do some kickboxing, but I just don't want to. First, I feel kind of poopy, and second, I am just not really into group workouts. I didn't like going to my dance classes, and I'm not into group aerobics classes. Give me a quiet yoga class or stretch class where I can focus on myself and I'm great. I am paraphrasing from the book now - Do I wish I liked group classes? Yes. I see other people having fun and I wish I felt the same way. But I don't. So what I *can* do it focus on what I like to do. This will definitely get me working out more than if I try to make it to things I just don't like to do.

I'm glad I went to the gym this morning - I had every intention of going tonight, but I just can't. The evening gym time just doesn't work for me. I love going first thing in the morning! I am such a morning person.

Enchiladas are in the oven! I have two for tonight and two for tomorrow's lunch. Yum.

My eye is twitching! This is a good thing *because* I am going to use it in my documentation when I go back to my principal to ask her about the light thing. A colleague of mine had a great phrase today - "ask her if you can 'revisit' the light issue." What a tactful way of putting it.

Tonight - get clothes ready for school tomorrow. Tomorrow is a rest day (yahoo!) so it's an easy day to get ready for.
- get to bed by 9:00. I can still feel this cold, and I have a feeling the only thing that's going to really kick it is some super good sleep. Which sounds perfect to me.

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KALIGIRL 9/20/2011 8:50AM

    I'm an early morning exerciser too - you never know what the day will bring...

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CAMROLA 9/19/2011 10:50PM

    Love it, matey! Argh... colds no good. Feel better, and let me know your report on the Happiness Project. I've had it on my list but haven't gotten to it yet!


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PAMNANGEL 9/19/2011 7:24PM

    Arrrrr matey! Yo ho, yo ho.

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MOMMY445 9/19/2011 6:03PM

    it sounds like you had an amazing day! you can do this! you are worth it! happy talk like a pirate day!

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