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An odd feeling

Monday, September 26, 2011

I feel so "not myself" lately. It's been so hard for me to get housework done, I have half-finished projects all over the place, and I just feel very weird. I have no idea what this means.

It's been a stressful month... school started and it's HARD this year. Between the very needy kindergarten class and the in-the-dumps morale of the staff, it's been a struggle to keep my head up at school. The morale committee is helping, but it's still a lot different than years past. Brad is working like crazy, and there is some other nonsense going on at his work that is just dumb. He's bummed because he doesn't get to see me that much, and he just really wants to get back to cooking good food at home and being around the house. I wish he'd just be my house husband for a while. It would be nice to have someone around to come home to at the end of a hard day...

It's a weird feeling - I feel like I'm not in my own body. I'm going through the motions but I'm not really appreciating anything or living life. My focus is just not there - I can't seem to find what it is that is really going to give me that SPARK.

This morning's run will surely be very meditative... I have lots to think about.

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KALIGIRL 9/26/2011 12:42PM

    Can happen this time of year - windy, dry weather makes some of us (me included) feel 'un-grounded' - I like to meditate with my feet on the floor and visualize stable connections to the center of the earth.

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CHEPRBYTHEDOZN 9/26/2011 10:57AM

    Hmmmmm...everyone has good advice. Just take one thing at a time. It sounds like your emotionally worn out with all tha tis going on. Make a date day with hubby and do something super fun for both ofyou. (even if it's cooking all day long,eating a scrumptious dinner and popcorn for dessert)

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RUNNINGWILD 9/26/2011 10:29AM

    Fight the funk!!
Judi, what's the website for your "Motivated Moms"? I can use all the help I can get.

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CASSIOEPIA 9/26/2011 8:10AM

    Run on, girl!

Something that has always helped me with my housework, is following someone else's plan. First it was FlyLady, and now I follow something called Motivated Moms. It really helps me to check things off a list.

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HIKINGLEAH 9/26/2011 7:33AM

    I think everyone goes through times like this. It's good that you are taking care of yourself. Perhaps when the newness of the school year dies down a little, the stress will decrease a bit. Have hope!

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GRANLUND 9/26/2011 7:16AM

    So sorry to hear about your troubles. It must just be something in the air! I know exactly what you mean. Maybe you need to take a "sick" day and figure out a way to do something special with your husband to rejuvenate!

I often feel the same way. We have three children and my husband often has evening commitments at school so many times it is just me and the kids in the evening. Between teaching full time, teaching 10-15 private bassoon lessons, and helping everyone with homework I feel like once the week starts I am just barely getting by and struggling to just make it to the next weekend!

I've started getting up an hour earlier in the morning because we've found that we can have 30-45 minutes of family time in the morning to just relax! Find what works for you and hang in there!

Cherish each crazy moment...

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    I'm sure an answer will reveal itself soon. In the meantime, be kind to yourself.

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BILLALEX70 9/26/2011 6:48AM

    Blame it on the lights! emoticon

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Friday, September 23, 2011

So there's lots of exciting stuff going on!

- Brad and I are looking forward to getting time together while he writes his book.
- I will be working the store at the Ironman Triathlon at the end of the month! While selling merchandise doesn't *seem* that exciting, it's just the boost I need to get back into running regularly.
- I'm going to volunteer for Girls on the Run - I'm really looking forward to this. *I* have to be running if I'm going to mentor other people on how to run! Ha!
- I am sending my resume for a REALLY EXCITING opportunity. I'm not going to tell you what it is yet, I think I'll wait until I actually send out my resume, but I am SOOOOO excited and I am going to work my butt off to write a dynamite cover letter.
- Tonight I am going to my mom's house with a girlfriend... we are going to the National Book Festival tomorrow. The bus leaves super early, so we're staying with my mom so we don't have to get up at 4:00am!

So I'm feeling good... I need to plan my up-coming workouts, and I think the focus is going to be running while keeping up my strength training. I have lots of time this morning before I have to leave for school, so I think I'll start planning now!

Happy Friday!

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COOPSM 9/23/2011 10:25AM

    Carrie--wow!!! This was so exciting to read!!!! So glad to see you getting back into running and looking for changes in your and Brads life!!! I will keep my ifngers crossed that the job pans out!!!
Have fun with your GF and your mom!!!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 9/23/2011 9:46AM

    Happy Friday. Sounds like you have tons of exciting things going on!

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HIKINGLEAH 9/23/2011 8:55AM

    Happy Friday! Sounds like you have wonderful things on the horizon!

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    emoticonHappy Friday to you too!

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Ooooooooover the Hump!

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

I can't even stand how funny that song is. I swear, it's going to get me through seemingly endless days. It's going my iPod - turns out I actually own the song and didn't know until today when I went through my music!

So I guess I'll put this in my blog because I'm super excited - Brad is thinking about writing a book about cooking at home, and he *may* be leaving his job in January (or about then) to start working on his book! I am SO excited to be getting more time with him, and he's really excited about it too. It's still in the early stages of planning, so we obviously have a lot to figure out yet, most importantly our financial situation. We are, luckily, in a place right now where we can even think about this as an option, but there are lots of little things to iron out. Apparently he didn't think I'd be as thrilled as I was - he was surprised when I let out a big shriek of joy when he told me he was thinking about it!

So how's it going?

Workouts - very good! I am done with phase 5 of The New Rules of Lifting for Women. I can DEFINITELY feel that I'm getting stronger. I think I'm going to take the next month or two, though, to change it up a little bit and focus on my running. There is a substitute teacher at my school who is a mentor for Girls On the Run - it's a great after-school group that meets to promote self-confidence in girls. It's on Tuesdays and Thursdays. And while I can't do *every* meeting, she told me that it would be great if I could be at any of them. So I'm really excited about that! I also have a neat possible opportunity. The Ironman is coming to the Poconos and I got an e-mail through the local running club about working in the store that weekend. I have to send my resume and my availability, and hopefully I can made a few extra bucks that weekend and get totally back into the running spirit!

Eating - I have been writing myself little notes about my eating. "Are you really hungry" "Weddings (I have two weddings to go to in the next two months!), triathlon, pants." I've also been brushing my teeth right after lunch so I get the food taste out of my mouth. And as much as I can't stand the smacking of gum, I've been chewing more and it gives my mouth something to do instead of shoving food into it.

I've also been making an effort to spread some cheer at school. It's a stressful year already, and lots of teachers are feeling a little blah (I include myself!). So three colleagues and I have formed a committee to spread the joy. We've been doing little things like leaving notes, giving out flowers, setting out stuffed animals... and I think it's working! People who are usually not especially social and friendly are becoming more so, and lots of people seem to really enjoy the little things we're doing! I love it. And when I have something to focus on like that, I don't worry so much about the not-so-good stuff.

My lunch is packed for tomorrow, all I have to do id get my gym clothes ready for tomorrow night. It's Stretch Class! I seriously need it. Before my class, though, I'm going to get in a little run. It's the perfect way to workout - get all sweaty and burned out and then get a nice stretch. Ahhhh.

Time to pack my bag! Oh, and BTW - if you didn't click on the link at the top, I suggest you do.

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RAYLINSTEPHENS 9/22/2011 10:11AM

    emoticon Al Yankovic is hilarious!

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    LOVE this blog! I NEED your zip and energy! And high 5 to Brad's journey! WOW! that's a biggun!

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Happy Talk Like a Pirate Day!

Monday, September 19, 2011

It's funny how many crazy days I know about since I teach elementary school.

I love to read self-help books. Not because I think I necessarily *need* help (although some may beg to differ), but because I like to get fresh perspectives on life when I'm feeling blah. So I guess I do need help. But anyway... I'm reading The Happiness Project right now. It is very good - I thoroughly enjoyed it (I'm reading it for a third time - ha!) and I keep finding new tidbits that I really like. The tidbit that I'm thinking about a lot is "You can choose what you do, but you can't choose what you *like* to do." I've been thinking a lot about what I actually like to do. Like this morning? I got up super early and went running. It was wonderful.

I planned on going back to the gym tonight to do some kickboxing, but I just don't want to. First, I feel kind of poopy, and second, I am just not really into group workouts. I didn't like going to my dance classes, and I'm not into group aerobics classes. Give me a quiet yoga class or stretch class where I can focus on myself and I'm great. I am paraphrasing from the book now - Do I wish I liked group classes? Yes. I see other people having fun and I wish I felt the same way. But I don't. So what I *can* do it focus on what I like to do. This will definitely get me working out more than if I try to make it to things I just don't like to do.

I'm glad I went to the gym this morning - I had every intention of going tonight, but I just can't. The evening gym time just doesn't work for me. I love going first thing in the morning! I am such a morning person.

Enchiladas are in the oven! I have two for tonight and two for tomorrow's lunch. Yum.

My eye is twitching! This is a good thing *because* I am going to use it in my documentation when I go back to my principal to ask her about the light thing. A colleague of mine had a great phrase today - "ask her if you can 'revisit' the light issue." What a tactful way of putting it.

Tonight - get clothes ready for school tomorrow. Tomorrow is a rest day (yahoo!) so it's an easy day to get ready for.
- get to bed by 9:00. I can still feel this cold, and I have a feeling the only thing that's going to really kick it is some super good sleep. Which sounds perfect to me.

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KALIGIRL 9/20/2011 8:50AM

    I'm an early morning exerciser too - you never know what the day will bring...

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CAMROLA 9/19/2011 10:50PM

    Love it, matey! Argh... colds no good. Feel better, and let me know your report on the Happiness Project. I've had it on my list but haven't gotten to it yet!


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PAMNANGEL 9/19/2011 7:24PM

    Arrrrr matey! Yo ho, yo ho.

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MOMMY445 9/19/2011 6:03PM

    it sounds like you had an amazing day! you can do this! you are worth it! happy talk like a pirate day!

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Mid-month reflections

Sunday, September 18, 2011

If you have never had the experience of getting an Elementary School Sickness, I'm going to tell you that you should thank your lucky stars. Thursday morning I went to the gym for a little swim, and by Thursday afternoon, I was on the couch passed out. I slept all of Thursday afternoon and night, and then again all of Friday night when I got home. Nyquil + Motrin = a happily snoozing Carrie. All that's left of my sickness is a little stuffy nose, but I can deal with that!

Saturday was my Crappy Errand Day. I had to go get my oil changed and then go get my picture taken for my new drivers license. Oil change took almost four hours. I have no idea why nobody told me it would take so long, but I did manage to re-read The Happiness Project, which I wanted to do anyway.
After that, it was off to the DMV. Saturday is the WORST day to go, but I didn't really have a choice. It was the only day I could go. So three hours later, my new drivers license shows my official married name! I am so super excited.

So it's the middle of September - how I am doing?

Workouts - really well! I've managed to make it to just about every scheduled workout.

Sleeping - I've been doing pretty well with this. A few days of less than eight hours when school started - I was really underestimating how much time it took my to do things at night. So I've started getting everything done right when I get home - packing the next day's lunch, putting things away, doing things around the house... that way I can eat dinner and then relax until it's time for bed.

Eating - (this is where you should play the "wah-wah" trombone sound.) My eating has been all over the place. I do really really well and then BOOM I have a crappy day and it's Chinese food and chocolate cake for dinner. Back to doing well doing well doing well and then BOOM I sit in waiting rooms all day without eating ALL DAY and then it's a hoagie and ice cream for dinner (although I made the hoagie at home and Brad and I shared the ice cream; I didn't eat the whole pint in one sitting). I am really struggling with my food journal. I feel so much better when I keep track of what I eat, I'm just having trouble getting into the habit of keeping track. I'd love to hear suggestions of what you all do to make sure you track all your food!

I'm feeling pretty good all around. My tons of water have been really good for my skin - I can't remember when my skin looked so good (thanks to the water and the five skin prescriptions I use!). I changed my makeup, and I think my skin is thanking me for this.

My lunch is packed for tomorrow; all I have to do yet is figure out what I'm going to wear tomorrow (although it *is* a dress-down day - I think jeans sound pretty good right about now) and get my gym clothes ready. Tomorrow night is kickboxing, but I think I'd like to do a little running in the morning.

Off to get ready!

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HIKINGLEAH 9/19/2011 9:07AM

    Great job moving toward your goals. I have trouble with eating too - for some reason it seems to be the hardest part. Workouts are a piece of cake, but I have a mental block when it comes to eating sometimes.

Also, great idea in tracking sleep as a goal. I might have to steal that one. :-)

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KALIGIRL 9/19/2011 8:34AM

    You should be feeling good - you're doing emoticon

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TABBALOOSA 9/19/2011 7:54AM

    I love how up you are even when there's some bumps in the road or mundane stuff like long oil changes. Keep it up! Have a fab week!

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GOTTALIVEFREE 9/19/2011 5:43AM

    I seem to have hit a wall too. I think it might have something to do with the season changing. But. I'm not giving up! I had some very encouraging weeks and guess what? Those Calvins? They are back into the rotation! :) :) :)

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    I am having trouble with the eating part as well. I am just like you a bad day and I have a bag of chips in my hands. I am starting a new 12 week challenge Where I must follow my food plan and fitness plan.

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