Friday, October 14, 2011
I keep telling myself some things that just aren't true. And those little lies are why I gained back about eight pounds and why I'm so uncomfortable in my pants.
- I run, so I can eat what I want. Truth is, I haven't run regularly since, oh, the spring. But yet I somehow convince myself that I run a lot, so I can eat that extra piece of cake.
- I eat very healthy! I *do* eat healthy (sometimes), but nothing close to "very" as of late. While Brad was working crazy hours and I was stressed out, I was going out to eat SO MUCH. And not eating good stuff, I didn't even care what it was. Chinese, fried chicken, pizza, pizza, pizza, large hoagies and chips... and this was becoming the norm for me.
- I am a gym rat! I used to be - I haven't started the next section of The New Rules... workout, and I don't even have a plan to do that.
- My pants are shrinking! Ha. This is just total BS.
So what am I going to do about this? I can't stand it. I'm really bummed out that I let this happen, and I'm really disappointed in myself. But that's not going to get rid of the flab. ACTION is going to get rid of the flab!
The eating is already improving since Brad's been home. He has dinner ready for me so I don't have to stop somewhere on the way home. This is HUGE! Also, he's been packing me healthy lunches and snacks for school. Snacks at school are actually a huge problem for me. I make up excuse after excuse about why I should have a snack at school, when I'm hardly EVER hungry for a snack. Time to get back to mindful eating...
Working out (and eating) - This coming Tuesday is our last CSA pickup for the season. While I love to get the veggies, this year has been a little bit rough. I decided that I'd pick up the veggies on Tuesday instead of Friday. This didn't work out as well as I'd hoped - Tuesday night turned out to be the WORST night to pick up veggies! I missed my yoga class all summer, it took a night out of my schedule for doctor's appointments, and the veggies basically sat around all week until we could deal with them on the weekend. Next year it's back to a Friday pickup.
So my point is this. Now that the veggie thing is over, I can get back to Tuesday night yoga, and I'll use the time in between school and yoga to run. When I'm ready, I'd like to go back to the running club one day a week.
More working out - I just have to get my arse out of bed and go to the gym. I LOVE morning workouts. Swimming is a great "rest day" workout for me... it's low-impact, and I only have to go for 20 minutes if I want an easy little workout. I'd like to start adding swimming back into my schedule on my "off day."
So there you have it. Already this morning I've told myself "no, you don't need a graham cracker. You are going to Starbucks and wouldn't you like to actually *enjoy* a treat?" (Because I don't really want to *give up* anything, I am going to focus on eating mindfully and deciding if I really want something or not. And I really want a pumpkin spice latte.) I didn't snack yesterday - I was so busy that I didn't have time. Which made me realize that "huh, if you stay busy, you won't think you're hungry." Because really, I wasn't hungry. Sure, by the time I got home I was SOOOO hungry, but Brad had a meal ready for me so I didn't have to shove my face full of raisins, bread and hummus BEFORE dinner.
It's Friday!!!! Yahooooooooo!
Friday, October 07, 2011
It's going to be a great weekend. I just know it!
10:00 facial (the baby face is for how stinkin' soft it leaves my face when it's done!)
Shopping! I don't know if this is good or bad, but I wore through a pair of jeans. Hm... I guess it's good since I definitely wore them a lot, but jeans shopping is such a pain! Oh well, I have all afternoon.
Dinner with my bestie tonight! She's taking me out for my birthday - I don't know where I want to go yet, but I'll think about it today. It will be so nice to see her!
Siding project starts today! Hooray! The contractor should be here sometime this morning to begin.
Mommy and me time! (NONONONONO this picture is not because I'm prego, holy moly, but it was the best one I could find for Mommy and Me!)
We are going shopping (we LOVE to use our birthday coupons!) and out to lunch.
Pupperoo time with my Sophie! Brad is coming along to my mom's (hooray!) and he's going to baby-sit the dog while we are out shopping. I hope he's ready for some craziness.
Halloween Parade! In my hometown, it's traditionally the second Saturday in October. It's going to be a beautiful night, and Brad can come along! I'm excited to see some old friends.
Last night we had Open House at school. While I love to see the parents, it makes for a really long day. Making a doctor appointment for today was probably the best thing I ever did. (well, not really, but it's still a really good idea.)
Off to eat some breakfast and get my shopping gear ready!
Wednesday, October 05, 2011
So it's a good day.
- Kiddos were super today.
- Today a wonderful colleague brought in an AMAZING chocolate cake with peanut butter icing for my birthday. It was SOOOO good. And I stuck with one piece!
- Brad is home!!!! We had a really delicious dinner of clam/veggie stew.
- Our siding got delivered! Either tomorrow or Friday is the magic day.
- I came home from school and the downstairs was cleaned up. Honey took it upon himself to clean up the living room! I love my man.
- I got a really nice text from a colleague about my teaching - how I put my heart and soul into it. I work with the most wonderful people.
- After school I stopped at a local farmstand for some mums. I love to have mums for Open House - ours is tomorrow night.
I am SO SO SO SO SO SO happy that I get to spend time with honey. I feel so much more relaxed. And I know he loves to take care of me.
It's an early night for me - early run tomorrow morning and then a long day at school and Open House all night.
Monday, October 03, 2011
So my very strange birthday wish was that my husband get fired. Yes, I know it's a terrible thing to think, but he has been working almost 70 hours a week for over a year. It's ridiculous.
Tonight he calls me around 5:00 and says "I'm on my way home." So I'm actually a little glad. It's weird - it's been so long since he's been around, it's going to be like we're getting to know each other again. We are already planning on going to my mom's this weekend, he's going with me to a wedding at the end of the month, and we'll get to spend Thanksgiving together! It's a good thing.
The other good thing is that he wants to write a book. It's very exciting! AND he can help around the house! AND we can go places together!
It's a weird thing about complaining about stuff - I've been complaining about his work schedule for so long, and now I don't have to complain about it anymore. It feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I love it.
Brad actually said to me "now I can take care of you - I want to cook for you and feed you right." He snuck in there "you probably gained a little weight" and he's right - I did. He didn't say it in a mean way, just telling the truth. And I wasn't offended. I got so lazy with the cooking, and honestly, when he wasn't home EVER to tell me how good I looked, it didn't really matter to me that my pants were a little tight.
So this is the start of something new. It's a great way to start October, and it will make for a WONDERFUL holiday season. I can't wait to spend time with my honey!
Saturday, October 01, 2011
So I didn't get an interview at Sesame Street. :(
That's the bummer news.
But what's kind of funny is that I'm not totally devastated like I thought I might be. I knew it was a total long shot, but I went for it anyway. And I'm really glad I did because the really really good thing to come out of this is that I can take a look at the qualifications, see where I came up short, and go from there. This is the kind of job I'd LOVE to have, and one of my major "problems" is that I don't have classroom teaching experience.
So the plan is to take a good look at the next step. And right now I'm thinking it's getting some sort of Early Childhood certification and getting some experience in an early learning center... or something similar.
Last night after school, some of us went out to celebrate my new status as a Mrs. It was so nice, and I have such thoughtful friends! One of my best friends got us a beautiful set of wine glasses and a wine pitcher, and some fun coasters with our initial on them! I don't think she has any idea that we have been looking for a wine pitcher for almost two years! So thoughtful. We had such a fun time. One of the best parts about getting married like we did is that the celebrations have been on-going. We didn't have a reception (heck, we didn't have anyone else at our wedding!), so we've been getting together with friends and getting cards sent to us since July. Nobody has to say "sorry I missed the reception," instead it's "hey, we didn't celebrate yet! Let's go out tonight!"
It's Ironman 70.3 weekend in the Poconos! I am thinking that being around all these fit people will get me in gear. I can feel that I've been getting a little more roly-poly, and I don't like it. But the weird thing is that I haven't been motivated to do anything about it. I guess I just haven't really thought of any goals to work toward, so I'm just chugging along at a snail's pace. The combination of the Ironman, a new month, and two weddings right around the corner should certainly motivate me, though!
October is my FAVORITE month. It's my birthday, the air is crisp, my hometown has their really fun Halloween Parade (it's a huge deal!), the leaves change, and this month is the Month of New Siding! They come back on Tuesday to re-start the siding project (the shipment was delayed because of the flooding around here, and the siding is now in!).
So it's going to be an exhausting weekend, but a good one. And a few extra bucks to maybe spend on some new running gear? New gear is always a motivation for me. It gets me out and moving... I feel so good when I am wearing great workout stuff!
Have a super day!
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