Thursday, October 27, 2011
So over the summer and the fall, I've put on about 5-10 pounds (depending on the day). It doesn't sound *so* bad, but it's just enough to make my pants uncomfortable, my self-esteem much lower, and my mood pretty crappy. Especially today. I put on a pair of pants that used to be almost too big, and they are no longer anywhere CLOSE to being too big. Ugh. 5-10 pounds?!?!? WTH
So anyway, I snapped at Brad this morning because I felt fat. I blamed it on the computer, but then I ended up telling him I felt fat. So the wonderful man that he is, he told me that he was going to take care of me and that he would make me dinner tonight instead of us going out to eat.
And I also feel bad because I didn't go to the gym yesterday, and I didn't go this morning. So I'm going after school today for a little run.
So here are some good things:
My sleep has been FANTASTIC.
Brad has been packing me really good, healthy lunches to take to school.
I am narrowing down my ideas for my future career path. I've been doing a lot of thinking about this, and I think I'd like to go further into early childhood education.
Off to an early faculty meeting... our superintendent is going to be there, so I want to make sure I'm early!
Monday, October 24, 2011
I have a nice variety of workouts planned this week. Back to yoga and stretch class, and I'll keep going with the ST, running, and swimming. Yesterday morning honey and I drove out to a really neat place called Boulder Field (if you are northeast PA and haven't ever been there, I highly recommend it. It's amazing!). Boulder Field is, literally, a field of boulders. There is no grass in between the boulders... it's so fun to walk on! I got a great workout yesterday just from walking on all the rocks trying to keep my balance.
My eating is still improving. Honey has been cooking some amazing meals for me, and I don't feel the need to snack on huge snacks in between meals. I can always improve on the amount of water I'm drinking...
I decided to add a different kind of focus for this week... I'm going to not gossip the whole week. And the baby step is that I become aware of when I'm gossiping. I feel like I've been doing a lot of gossiping at school lately, and I don't really like it. I'll see how I feel after this week.
Off to the pool... have a super day!
Monday, October 17, 2011
It's time for my morning swim. I think it's time for me to add on another day or two of working out each week. I also think it's time for me to hide the scale for a little bit. I know I know I know that weight doesn't just fall off when you start eating better, but I just can't accept that. I've been eating better for almost two weeks! Why haven't I lost any weight? Ha!
I can't say that my pants are fitting any better yet, but I can say that my sleeping has been SOOOOO much better. Regular exercise, better food, less stress - yesterday I got up at 5:30 without the alarm! On a Sunday?!?!?! Crazy. But I got lots done and it felt good.
I've been snacking less, and I even find myself more positive. I am happier, I am friendlier... and one positive is that I didn't have to buy all new pants just because of my little gain. I caught it in time! (Thank goodness school started - I think if I'd have gone another month wearing summer skirts and shorts I would have definitely needed to buy new pants - those summer skirts sure are stretchy!)
So today's plan:
- school! And while I'm there, I'm going to drink lots of water.
That's about it.
On an unrelated note, I ran a race on Saturday and discovered something about myself. There were three of us running together; we decided to stick together during the race. I discovered that I just don't like running together during a race. During a training is only OK, but I would much rather have been by myself during the race. I don't know why - I love talking to these people, I just don't like it during a run. I guess I prefer to be alone with my thoughts. Plus, I think I would have listened to my body more and not have caused my IT Band so much pain. Lesson learned.
Off to the gym... Happy Monday!
Friday, October 14, 2011
I keep telling myself some things that just aren't true. And those little lies are why I gained back about eight pounds and why I'm so uncomfortable in my pants.
- I run, so I can eat what I want. Truth is, I haven't run regularly since, oh, the spring. But yet I somehow convince myself that I run a lot, so I can eat that extra piece of cake.
- I eat very healthy! I *do* eat healthy (sometimes), but nothing close to "very" as of late. While Brad was working crazy hours and I was stressed out, I was going out to eat SO MUCH. And not eating good stuff, I didn't even care what it was. Chinese, fried chicken, pizza, pizza, pizza, large hoagies and chips... and this was becoming the norm for me.
- I am a gym rat! I used to be - I haven't started the next section of The New Rules... workout, and I don't even have a plan to do that.
- My pants are shrinking! Ha. This is just total BS.
So what am I going to do about this? I can't stand it. I'm really bummed out that I let this happen, and I'm really disappointed in myself. But that's not going to get rid of the flab. ACTION is going to get rid of the flab!
The eating is already improving since Brad's been home. He has dinner ready for me so I don't have to stop somewhere on the way home. This is HUGE! Also, he's been packing me healthy lunches and snacks for school. Snacks at school are actually a huge problem for me. I make up excuse after excuse about why I should have a snack at school, when I'm hardly EVER hungry for a snack. Time to get back to mindful eating...
Working out (and eating) - This coming Tuesday is our last CSA pickup for the season. While I love to get the veggies, this year has been a little bit rough. I decided that I'd pick up the veggies on Tuesday instead of Friday. This didn't work out as well as I'd hoped - Tuesday night turned out to be the WORST night to pick up veggies! I missed my yoga class all summer, it took a night out of my schedule for doctor's appointments, and the veggies basically sat around all week until we could deal with them on the weekend. Next year it's back to a Friday pickup.
So my point is this. Now that the veggie thing is over, I can get back to Tuesday night yoga, and I'll use the time in between school and yoga to run. When I'm ready, I'd like to go back to the running club one day a week.
More working out - I just have to get my arse out of bed and go to the gym. I LOVE morning workouts. Swimming is a great "rest day" workout for me... it's low-impact, and I only have to go for 20 minutes if I want an easy little workout. I'd like to start adding swimming back into my schedule on my "off day."
So there you have it. Already this morning I've told myself "no, you don't need a graham cracker. You are going to Starbucks and wouldn't you like to actually *enjoy* a treat?" (Because I don't really want to *give up* anything, I am going to focus on eating mindfully and deciding if I really want something or not. And I really want a pumpkin spice latte.) I didn't snack yesterday - I was so busy that I didn't have time. Which made me realize that "huh, if you stay busy, you won't think you're hungry." Because really, I wasn't hungry. Sure, by the time I got home I was SOOOO hungry, but Brad had a meal ready for me so I didn't have to shove my face full of raisins, bread and hummus BEFORE dinner.
It's Friday!!!! Yahooooooooo!
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