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Overwhelming Sunday

Sunday, January 29, 2012

I know I've blogged about this before because it's a constant issue for me. I get myself totally overwhelmed with a project and don't do anything at all. We are getting the house ready to sell (for real this time!) and we're at the part where we get the house painted. There is a lot to pack up and move in the house to get ready. We decided to hire someone to paint the house. The conclusion is that we would be fighting like crazy if we decided to do it ourselves, and having someone come in will make it that much easier and that much quicker.

Got to the gym this morning for some leg and shoulder strength training. It was tough! But I'm definitely feeling myself getting stronger.

Eating was pretty good today, too.

Off to get some water and make a to-do list...

  
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RENLA6991 1/30/2012 9:07PM

    I totally know what you're going through! I'm in the last stages (finally!) of prepping the house for sale. I meet with a Realtor tomorrow, and hope to have it on the market within 2 weeks. I don't know if I'm more excited or scared at this point! Good luck to you & your hubby!

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CITYZOZO 1/30/2012 6:50AM

    way to get to the gym.. we are so much the same.. we hire our friend to paint and another handyperson to do the guy stuff my guy gets grumpy about... it is worth every cent you will find.. zo

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BILLALEX70 1/30/2012 6:48AM

    I feel your pain...literally. We're preping our house for sale as well. My back is so sore from moving things that it hurts to breathe. If I can sell the place quickly then all of the work will be worth it.

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CAMROLA 1/29/2012 6:50PM

    I'm the same way! Don't get overwhelmed b the big pic... One baby step at a time & map it out.

Good for you for getting to the gym & getting in a workout. That will help keep you sane with everything else going on!

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RUNNERRACHEL 1/29/2012 6:44PM

    Good job getting exercise done! Good job on the eating too!

What if you break the project into smaller, more manageable steps and give yourself a break or reward each time you complete one of the tasks? I got this idea from another sparker. She wrote a blog about it you might want to check it out.

http://www.sparkpeople.
com/mypage_public_journal_indiv
idual.asp?blog_id=4708648

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Hm

Saturday, January 28, 2012

So today we got down to business. I started packing up some stuff getting the house ready. The painters were here, and when they give us an estimate, we're going to schedule the painting. It's so exciting!

Not much to say tonight... didn't make it to the gym today, but I did a lot around the house and I was too busy to eat poorly. Drank lots of water...

Tomorrow:
- drink water!!!!
- leg and shoulder strength training
- work on the house a little bit more

Have a great night!

  
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RUNNERRACHEL 1/29/2012 12:10PM

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BILLALEX70 1/29/2012 9:03AM

    I was with Suezette...thought you'd picked a new race to run.

Getting home repairs/work done is exciting as well.

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RUNNINGPFUHL 1/29/2012 8:30AM

    YAY!! Fresh paint!! I love it!! This reminds me, I need to paint! LOL

Good for you - you're staying on track!

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CFMOSS 1/29/2012 8:00AM

    Onward my friend....onward:)

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BOBBYD31 1/29/2012 12:33AM

    love to have fresh paint, feels like a new home

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ETTEZEUS 1/28/2012 10:55PM

    Ha! I sen Hm and thought I was going to read about you running the HM at JASR. I was really excited..... You faked me out....LOL

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Oh chips, why do you tempt me so?

Friday, January 27, 2012

Tonight I ate a whole bag of chips. In the car. On the way home from the grocery store, which is less than a 15 minute drive. When I got home, I crumpled up the bag, popped in a mint, and acted like I hadn't eaten anything. "Yum, dinner sounds great!"

Well, I didn't eat a whole lot of dinner, and Brad knew something was up (so he tells me) because I didn't ask him for something to eat when I got home. I didn't tell him I ate chips. Not until about five minutes ago. And he's so good... he doesn't get mad at me, he doesn't tell me anything bad, he just gives me a hug and says "thank you for telling me." And we both knew that I *had* to tell him or else I'd get in the habit of sneaking food and that would not be a good thing.

So my conscience is clean and I can go on with my evening.

We are having a painter come in tomorrow to give us an estimate on getting the interior of our house repainted. I know it's been a while since I've talked about it, but home improvements are taking place and we're getting ready to put the house on the market! I don't think it's going to be a quick thing, but it's back in our minds. Yahoo!

The drywall is fixed, the piano is tuned, the siding is done...

I've been keeping up with my morning writing. It's been wonderful. I even started writing whenever I feel stressed or overwhelmed, which happens more than I thought. I don't think it's necessarily a bad thing, I just think I happen to get overwhelmed easily. Writing is a way that I can deal with that - I can sort my thoughts and figure out SOMEwhere to start so that I don't look around and see a million things that need to be done. Writing has even helped me admit some things that I didn't want to admit. Some positive, some just kind of "huh" things. I am easily overwhelmed, I am a total introvert and love being alone, I am happiest when I get lots of sleep, lots of water and lots of exercise... it's amazing what I learned about myself when I just took the time to listen!

It's time to drink a bit of water and do some cleaning. I took a long nap this evening, so I'm kind of awake. I'm not going to stay up super late, but I'm not really ready for bed yet. I think some cleaning will take care of that.

  
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CAMROLA 1/28/2012 5:27PM

    My trifecta is salt, carbs (and vino!). They can break through the strongest of willpower! All is not lost, and it's just one day. Keep making good choices, and focus on all the good stuff. There's so much of it in your life!!!

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STLCARDSFANS05 1/28/2012 1:02PM

    i feel ya spark sister!!! salt and grease and wine are my weaknesses hands down

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BE-THE-CHANGE 1/28/2012 11:53AM

    I did that last night, too, but didn't tell anyone before now. I paid for it, though, I felt sick all night long and now I am exhausted today. Think I may have learned my lesson...

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SEPPIESUSAN 1/28/2012 9:40AM

    Wow, it's almost weird to know I'm not the only one who eats a bag of chips in the car right after the grocery store. I feel tons of shame about it and have never written about it on Spark (until now!) or told my husband about it!

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BILLALEX70 1/28/2012 9:29AM

    I feel your pain. I've done that plenty of times and the only person I'm cheating is ME.

Have a great weekend!

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KATZABELLAMAMA 1/28/2012 5:43AM

    I have done the same thing. My bf usually has no clue, cuz he is not home that much. It has been weeks since I have done this and I think it has a lot to do with the fact that I now go to yoga after work. Now I drive a different way home so I am not tempted.

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KAYECAN 1/27/2012 11:03PM

    To bad you didn't read my last two blogs about how I got rid of junk food. It might have saved you on your way home from the store.
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Been there....been there....will probably be there again. But we learn a bit more about how to handle those situations each time they occur. You are blessed to have a hubby that is understanding and you can be honest with. And I agree, writing is a good outlet for our feelings. I do the same.
Good luck to you!!!
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JUSTBIRDY 1/27/2012 10:46PM

    oh, live and learn

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Fear of Failure

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

The good intentions were there - I had my gym bag packed, I read a bunch of inspirational blogs, I even posted that I was going for a run after school! But 4:00 rolled around and it felt like I got run over by a bus. Seriously?!?!? So I came home and spent the evening on the couch drinking tea and sleeping. I even slept in late this morning - got over eight hours of sleep. There is nothing like a cold to smack you back into reality.

So today I'm taking it easy. I'm not going to make a decision on after-school stuff until it's actually after school. Sigh...

It's hard not to feel let down after something like this happens. I was SO excited to get to the gym yesterday, but I just couldn't bear the thought of it. I don't know how it affects any of you, but I feel a little bit like a failure - like I have to justify it to everyone because it's such a disappointment. I know that I'd be kind to anyone else, but I just can't get past my own feelings of guilt.

I guess that's why it's so hard for me to post goals or plans - I'm so afraid of failure. I'm embarrassed that I said I was going to the gym and I didn't go. I get humiliated when I put up a weight-loss goal and I don't meet it. But if I keep it all in, then I don't have to worry about it. Sigh... I guess putting myself out there is what Spark is all about. To learn not to be so hard on myself.

It's time to head off to school. Have a great day!

  
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DMURPH409 1/31/2012 7:20AM

    Here are a fwe inspirational quotes for you to try and help you along... (I have no idea who said them though!)

“Life's real failure is when you do not realize how close you were to success when you gave up.”

“The greatest barrier to success is the fear of failure.”

“Try and fail, but don't fail to try.”

“Failure is a detour, not a dead-end street.”

“Failure is the tuition you pay for success.”

Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough.

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SOUTHGOINGZAX 1/25/2012 1:19PM

    Hey, you.

I hope to be back here more often, eventually. Sometimes you just have to get through things, minute by minute, you know? We all sometimes create standards that are too high. I'm tired of being sad, for example, but I can't expect myself to just be better tomorrow. Baby steps, you know? Take care of yourself. Feel better, maybe take a walk, first? Something small.

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SEPPIESUSAN 1/24/2012 5:33PM

    I think I feel the same way. I used to write long detailed blogs with my plans and I don't anymore - and I think my reasoning is the same as what you're describing here!

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RUNNINGWILD 1/24/2012 1:19PM

    I agree with Jenny. Do you know how many times I've been motivated by one of your posts? (no really, do you? I've lost count.) Keep your gym kit in the car. When you find the time to go you're ready. If not, it'll sit in the car until tomorrow. Don't stress. Don't apologize. You'll get there when you get there.

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RUNNERRACHEL 1/24/2012 11:30AM

    It happens sometimes that we don't meet our intended goal. Try for a smaller goal. When you reach that you will feel successful. I have as a goal that I'll do one Spark video a day. Even if I don't have any time that is my minimum exercise and when I do it I'm happy. If I do more it's a bonus. Or if you want to set 10 min goal a day and then if you meet that you can stop or keep going, depending on how you feel.

Sounds like that cold hit you pretty suddenly! Hope you feel better!

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TORTUETOO 1/24/2012 11:19AM

    Bah, you're one of the most motivated people I know! If you skipped the gym, it was for a good reason. Good listening to your body and getting some sleep instead. You don't need to feel embarrassed. I've had my goal weight ticker at 130 for like 5 years and during that time, I think I've lost 3 lbs. Talk about failure! LOL No one is judging you except you - that's not what we're here for.

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SRMACEY29 1/24/2012 8:38AM

    Your entry is titled Fear of Failure. I think my problem is a fear of success. If I manage to become the fit, healthy-eating person I wish to be, then the pressure is on to continue to do so for the duration. I once told a friend of mine that it's easier to be sick/unhealthy, than it is to well/healthy. At least it feels that way to me.

I think if I was to reach my destination, all the hard work and knowledge gained in getting there would be second nature and not such a chore to continue. But I'm having a hard time getting over the hump of convincing myself that this is true...

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HERE I GOOOOOOOOO

Sunday, January 22, 2012

The more I read, the more motivated I become. Amazing.

The trick, though, is to take action based on the motivation. I can't just snap my fingers and lose 20 pounds. I need to act on what I read. Like that someone is running three miles a day? Lace up those shoes and get out there! Think it's great that a friend is making smoothies for breakfast and getting lots of good nutrients? Get out the blender and start using it!

The best way to get something done is to do it.

I used to really talk up this idea - I think it helped me with my initial weight loss. But with time, I got lazy. No more.

I am motivated and ready to go.

  
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YOUNGNSMYLIE 1/23/2012 8:13PM

    Awesome! That's right! Speaking of which, I'm headed out for a run now ;)

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CHEPRBYTHEDOZN 1/22/2012 8:09PM

    WOOHOO!!!! Get to it!!! :)

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HEALTHYASHLEY 1/22/2012 7:04PM

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JOPAPGH 1/22/2012 6:49PM

    I'm right there with you. I stayed on top of the exercise but let the nutrition go and gained back the bulk of what I lost.

Taking things slow and steady. Tracked more days than not, plus have done at least 30 minutes of exercise a day. Nice to start seeing some results again.

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KATZABELLAMAMA 1/22/2012 6:48PM

    Woohoo you can do it! I challenged myself this year to run in the winter and I finally did it.Now I can train all year round. Think of some challenges for you and work towards that goal. emoticon

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MIAMIA7 1/22/2012 6:37PM

    Go Carrie! I'm with you!
Anne

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