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Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Every day is getting a little better.

Yesterday I subbed for a phys ed class - wasn't my favorite thing; the class sizes are HUGE - 25 kindergarten kiddos is NOT all that fun.

Today I was in second grade for the morning. I had a GREAT morning! They class was so nice, they were respectful, and I got to see some old colleagues. There was a student teacher in the class and she gave me some great compliments on my teaching. Yay!

So the weekend triathlon. Turns out that I am a pretty good swimmer - my 1/4 mile time was 8:48 with a small current - 148th overall out of over 400. The trick, now, is to improve my bike and run so I can be a little more competitive, if only with myself. I got to see my best friend from elementary school and spend some time with my mom. The weather was beautiful!

I signed up for a triathlon class at my gym. I had some training sessions gathering dust, so I transferred the payment to the class. I'm looking forward to getting faster in the water and having someone push me to do better. It's also helping me to focus on GOOD things instead of wallowing in no-job sadness.

I'm still on the fence about my insurance, though. I got cheap insurance for the hubs and me, but I'm considering getting COBRA and paying for what I had with my job. I just feel better knowing that I can go to the doctor when I need to and that I'm able to get the prescriptions I need. I'm really going to have to think about this...

Off to make some cornbread!

  
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TIGGER622 9/20/2012 1:17PM

    things are really coming together for you!!! yay!!! glad to hear that subbing was good overall, it makes me nervous though I havent had any schools call me on my applications so i prob will never have to worry about it! anywho - great job on the tri!!! you rock girlie!!! miss you bunches!

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ACTIVE_AT_60 9/19/2012 8:01PM

    Nice job on the tri. I am glad to see you are happy with the swim. That is often people's biggest fear. Keep working on it over the winter, and by the season ... you will be a rockstar.

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BILLALEX70 9/19/2012 7:19PM

    Great job on the swim! You'll get the other 2 down and be a champ!

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CFMOSS 9/19/2012 6:32AM

    well...sounds like there's more positives than downsides from one point of you. Glad you're putting one foot in front of the other and continuing to move forward!

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RUNNERRACHEL 9/18/2012 11:37PM

    Sounds like a good experience to be working. Dealing with that many kindergarteners... sounds tough. But good job on everything.

You are doing so well with your tri experience and further training. Keep up the great work! emoticon emoticon

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JILLITA55 9/18/2012 6:58PM

    I'm sorry, but that was funny with all of those kids.

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Peace

Friday, September 14, 2012

I don't know how it happens, but life usually seems to figure itself out. The last few weeks have been SO overwhelming, and I just didn't know how I was going to handle anything. I've been very lucky and haven't really ever had to deal with anything hard (as an adult, anyway).

But anyway, here's the good. I had been going around and around with what I was going to do with my life - I didn't know if I wanted to stay in education or move to something totally different. After lots and lots of reading and soul-searching, I know the answer. I am going to stay in education - I've invested so much time, energy, and money into studying education. And you know what? I love it. So I'm continuing my education path. I'm going to take three classes in the spring, and then hopefully an internship in the summer. I'll have my curriculum supervisory certificate by the fall. I feel very at peace with this decision. Up until now, I haven't been totally sold on any of my other ideas.

Something good out of this is that I think I can finally start subbing. I really didn't want to, partly because I was sad about my kids, but another thing was that i didn't want to go back to school without a plan. I want to be able to show people that I'm moving on and this setback isn't going to own me. I feel confident now that I've made the decision to go back to school. I think on Sunday night I'll take any sub job that I get - it's a decent way to supplement my unemployment.

Time to get packing - I have a triathlon tomorrow and my mom and I are driving down tonight. It's in Atlantic City, so it should be fun. Happy Friday!

  
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MIAMIA7 9/18/2012 7:31PM

    Carrie-I am so glad you found answers to your searching! I think this is a great decision. You seemed to love teaching so much. Hugs!

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DEEJ4FITNESS 9/17/2012 3:43PM

    Carrie this is wonderful news!! I obviously have a lot of catching up to do and when I decided to come by and do that, you were the first I checked up on :) You're a jewel my friend!!

These life decisions can be tough!! So proud of you for facing the future with a confident attitude! I'd expect no less :)

emoticon ~Deej

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COOPSM 9/15/2012 5:26AM

    Awesome Carrie!!!! Love the plan!!!

Have a great TRI!!!!

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RUNNINGWILD 9/15/2012 1:15AM

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CFMOSS 9/14/2012 2:25PM

    Good going. Sometimes it takes time to develop a plan, to refocus and start moving and my experience with that particular time is that it is deeply unsettling, but once the plan is in order, the focus is found and the movement starts - then the peace settles in. Blessings to you.

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CAMROLA 9/14/2012 12:45PM

    Catching up on your lastest--an eventful time you've had! Things go work out. Very yogic, but however difficult the circumstances, they always say, you are where you need to be right now.

With that, I'm glad you're more at peace, and sending a major shout-out for your tri! You're going to rock it!

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JOPAPGH 9/14/2012 9:21AM

    Run/ride strong! Have a great tri.

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TDEMAIO2 9/14/2012 9:09AM

    emoticon Happy Friday too you and good luck :D

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NCSUE0514 9/14/2012 9:07AM

    Best wishes.

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The (new) story of my life...

Thursday, September 13, 2012

It just keeps coming! The last two weeks have been SO stressful. As if being unemployed isn't enough, about two weeks ago, hubby's knee started swelling up and about a week ago it got so bad that he couldn't walk on it. We went to the orthopedic surgeon and he took some blood tests and ordered an MRI. We had to wait a week for all the results - between being anxious about those and hubby's knee pain, I went the whole week without a good night's sleep, which made me miserable.

Yesterday we went back for the follow-up, and the news was actually better than we hoped. Turns out that hubs has Lyme disease and a sprained knee. NO surgery (Hallelujah!), and he's on antibiotics and in a knee brace for three weeks. I had no idea that it was stressing me out so badly until yesterday when I came home and took a 2+ hour nap. Last night was my first night sleeping all the way through in over a week.

My workouts have been sporadic, at best, even though every time I go I feel a gazillion times better. My sleep schedule has been a wreck. Luckily, my eating has remained pretty good, although I could be drinking more water. I have a triathlon this weekend for which I am underprepared (the story of my life) but it's kind of an "easy" one (ha!) with a ten-mile FLAT bike ride and a 5K on a boardwalk. And really, I'm more excited about getting away for the weekend so I'm not too concerned with my time. My entrance fee was only $50 (I had a coupon!) so I'm not even thinking about "wasted" money.

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I think the worst part about having so much time off is that I have a ton of time to think. And that's not always a good thing. In the last week I have considered going back to school for physical therapy, getting a wellness degree, getting elementary ed. certified, working as a floral designer, entering a doctoral program... and now that I know hubs is going to be ok, I've decided to finish what I started and get my curriculum certification. The silver lining to my unemployment is that next semester I can be a full-time grad student. There are three classes I need before my internship, and they are all offered next semester. If I can bust out these classes, next school year I can be applying for curriculum jobs and have a whole new field open for me. When I think of it that way, it's actually pretty exciting.

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I'm slowly coming to terms with the whole having-no-income thing. I'm on unemployment, so it's not *too* horrible, but it's a shock when all of a sudden I have to change my lifestyle, and not on my terms. I've been reading books on consumption, simple living, and consumerism (there is a really interesting book out there called Cheap) and it's been good for me. I've been crying less and less, and I'm almost ready to start subbing, although I don't know exactly what's going to happen when I see my "old" kids. I'll probably be a mess.

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Progress!

Today was the first day in about a month that I set my alarm to do a workout. Out of all the expenses I had, I really didn't want to cut the gym. So I have to get my money's worth AND I have to make sure I'm taking care of myself. One thing about going to the gym is that it's so helpful for me to deal with everything. It's an hour of focusing on ME - MY form, MY posture, MY goals. For one hour I don't have to think about paying the mortgage, about finding a job, about health insurance.

It's time to finish my coffee and head off to the pool. Today hubs and I are going to run some errands and I have some e-mails to send out about school. We are getting our house ready to rent out (we can move forward with this FINALLY because we know that hubs won't be laid up for months). And the sun is out and the coffee is good.

  
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CALIDREAMER76 9/17/2012 10:03PM

    So very many things on your plate that are all very overwhelming. Sounds like you are seeing some day light at the end of the tunnel.
Your plan sounds great. I'm glad your hubby doesn't have a long lay up!
Enjoy your tri - be strong! HUGS to get you through a rough road!

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BOBBYD31 9/17/2012 9:40PM

    good choice and cool that you will be full time next semester. keep your head up, things happen for a reason and you are young enough to handle the change, HUGS

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DEEJ4FITNESS 9/17/2012 3:49PM

    Thankful your hubs is okay Carrie!! And thankful you're making the most of your struggle!!

Continue to take good care of YOU! You're sooooo worth it!! emoticon

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2WHEELER 9/17/2012 2:49PM

    No one wants adversity, but sometimes the most amazing doors are opened to us. Focus on the positive; all will work out in the end. emoticon

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CHEPRBYTHEDOZN 9/14/2012 10:17PM

    WOW! I got unsubscribed to your blogs and look all that I've missed! I'm very glad that hubby's okay-that had to have been very scary. HOW did he sprain his knee?
And getting your cert. is a great idea-especially when you're so close. But, please tell me, what does that curr. cert. mean? What does it qualify you to do? (just curious). Best wishes on the house renting and all that is to come. And enjoy that TRI!!!! WOOT!!

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NIELSENSLADY 9/13/2012 8:43PM

    Yes! Good luck to you!

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LYNNANN43 9/13/2012 6:36PM

    I wonder what's Carrie gonna be when she grows up? emoticon

You are handling all the life is throwing at you, WAAYY better than I would. NOT easy!

Thoughts & prayers for Hubs recovery, renting your house out, & school decisions.

Have FUN at your Tri!!!

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ETTEZEUS 9/13/2012 12:46PM

    Good luck with your tri!!
And nice plan you have. Good luck with that too!!

(I also have been thinking about what I want to go back to school for., I've been thinking physical therapy assistant :)


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JOPAPGH 9/13/2012 11:50AM

    Good that you and the hubby have each other for support and that you are focused on some me time. Sounds like a good long term plan too.

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TIGGER622 9/13/2012 10:17AM

    Things are coming along! We do this one day at a time right??? This is a weird weird world of the unemployed, I say some days I feel like a mouse stuck in a shoe box... drives me wild, other days I am so busy I cant think straight! subbing will be good to get you out and back with the kids, might be weird at first, but youcan do it!!! HUGS! Thinking about you!!

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TORTUETOO 9/13/2012 9:52AM

    Good for you! I think finishing your curriculum certification is the right choice. And you are going to do GREAT at your tri - just treat it as a fun run. emoticon Super glad that Brad is ok - keep that positive attitude! HUGS!

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The sun came out today!

Monday, August 27, 2012

So today was a pretty good day. I did my swim (and I'm now absolutely exhausted!), I went to lunch with a couple girlfriends, and I had a wonderful salad for dinner. I got some books from the library about not working - I am finding that the more I get out of my little bubble, the better I am. I was worried about lunch today - I went with the phys ed teacher from my old school and a para who was also laid off. I was afraid I'd be a total emotional wreck, but it was actually really good for me to go. It helped to kind of see that the world is going to go on, and things will work out the way they are going to.

There is also cautiously exciting news - I think I may have found a compromise for renting our house. Hubs wanted to rent it out ourselves, but I thought we should hire someone to do it. It's expensive to hire someone to do that, so I asked our realtor if we found someone if we could use her services for the credit check and leasing forms, etc. She got back to me that there is a 50% discount if that happens. I think this might be the way we go. Cross your fingers that I can convince the hubs!

The other (cautiously!) exciting news is that i got an e-mail from a job I applied for - my application status has been changed to "under consideration." It is for an elementary music teacher position at a non-profit charter school in Philadelphia for low-income students. Keep your fingers crossed for an interview!

So today was a better day than most of my days have been lately. I didn't feel sad about my job situation, and I managed to sneak in a nap. Tomorrow I am going on a bike ride with my dad, and then to a chiropractor appointment in the evening. And I even drank all my water today!

  
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TIGGER622 9/4/2012 4:53AM

    OMG have I been behind!!! It sounds like things are moving forward for you!!! YAY!!! You sound upbeat and good!!! YAY!!! This is such a roller coaster, we just gotta hang in there!!! Keep us posted on that phili job, fingers crossed!!! HUGS!!!

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SEPPIESUSAN 8/27/2012 9:34PM

    Good luck with the job search!

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RUNNERRACHEL 8/27/2012 8:59PM

    Glad to hear you are feeling better!

Hope that the charter works out! That sounds like it could be a good one!

Keep up the great work and getting out there. emoticon

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CFMOSS 8/27/2012 8:42PM

    More hugs!

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Back-to-School, go away!

Sunday, August 26, 2012

I am having a really rough time with this no-job thing. I think right now it's mostly due to all the "back-to-school" stuff that's happening right now. And today I filed my first unemployment claim. I've never had to really be super-careful with my money (although I usually have been) but now I have to watch where every penny goes. The change of lifestyle thing is a tough pill for me to swallow.

This weekend I finally got myself to the gym, though. I haven't been as diligent about my workouts, partly because my schedule has been a total nightmare. I've been going to bed super late, sleeping in, and basically sitting around like a lump. And while I *know* that doing a workout would do wonders for my mood, sometimes I just can't bring myself to get up off the couch. I'm hoping that as the beginning of the school year fades away I won't have to think about it so much.

Drinking all my water every day has been a bit of a struggle, but I actually felt compelled to fill up my bottle right before I typed this sentence. I suppose I need to get back to Sparking regularly so I can keep myself accountable. Sparking has actually helped me - rather than stress-eat, I just get stress-lazy. So despite the lack of working out, I haven't really gained any weight.

But it's not all depressing and sad... it just helps me to get it all out there. So here goes - the bright side.

emoticon My hubs has been SO amazing during this time. He's putting up with my mood swings, my whining, my laziness, my snapping... I love him.

emoticon My friends, near and far, have been so supportive. It really helps to know I'm not in this alone.

emoticon I had a really great summer. I went on a road trip and it was a much needed break from all this. I did two triathlons, and I'm gearing up to do a third in just a few weeks.

emoticon emoticon emoticon While I'm not training as much as I should be, I have my next triathlon in my mind and I'm not *totally* slacking off. I've been doing the running, doing the swimming... I just need to get back into a biking schedule. I'm meeting my dad for a bike ride later this week. It will be nice to be on the bike.

emoticon I dusted off the Photoshop book last night, got out the camera, and took some pictures. I have to keep reminding myself of something a good friend once told me - something like "if you lose your job, it will give you the opportunity to do something you never thought you could." And it's true - I have the opportunity to take more pictures, to do more artwork, and to do more traveling (even if it's just a short little trip to a nearby park). I have all the time in the world to train for events, and I have the chance to really focus on some personal goals.

It's a popcorn kind of night (no, Rookies, not *that* kind. the kind you eat. I am home alone right now.) - I love this time of year. The nights are cool enough to throw on a sweatshirt...

  
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BILLALEX70 8/27/2012 12:40PM

    Popcorn = emoticon

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SEPPIESUSAN 8/27/2012 10:50AM

    Wow, three triathlons! You don't sound lazy to me! I know it must be tough this time of year, but I'm glad you're finding things you enjoy doing and have a great hubby and supportive friends.

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LAURELSPARK 8/27/2012 9:29AM

    Attitude is everything and it sounds like you're trying to remain positive. Good luck!

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RUNNINGWILD 8/26/2012 11:43PM

    I love the latest photo in your blog. Keep snappin'!
And get yer dang tooshie to the gym or I'ma gonna emoticon

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HEALTHYASHLEY 8/26/2012 10:29PM

    It is hard to not have a job and a place to go but I have enjoyed getting away from the grind of a 9-5. Good for you for finding joy in the things you didn't have time for before.

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DRAGONCHILDE 8/26/2012 9:21PM

    Good on you for keeping such a positive outlook. I know it's hard, especially when life seems to keep kicking you in the teeth, but the end result is worth it.

Hang in there.

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PATSYB7 8/26/2012 8:21PM

    Change is hard--hang in there. You've got all the tools for success. I hope you post some of your pics. I love photography, too. This could, indeed, be an unforeseen opportunity for you! Good luck.

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