Tuesday, October 02, 2012
I love October. Not just because it's my birthday month, also because of the wonderful changes that happen! The leaves, the temperature (last night on the news they said how the average temp drops ten degrees in October!) and the change of season always refreshes me.
We had someone come and look at our house to rent it, and while I'm not sure it will work out, I'm still thrilled that somebody is actually interested! I am putting flyers up wherever I can, and hubs and I are updating our listing this afternoon.
For the first time in about a month I actually feel like getting my duff up off the couch and doing some workouts. I signed up for a triathlon training class and I guess I had better get my money's worth! It includes a 1x per week swimming class, which is really going to be good for me. I'm already a strong swimmer (it's my best out of the three in a tri) so I'm looking forward to getting even better.
Hubs is going back to work today - I am glad (I've missed my alone time) but I'm also a little sad. I've kinda gotten used to him being around, and I need to make sure I'm eating good foods even when he's not around. I think it would have been really easy to eat away my sadness with take-out, but hubs made sure that I wasn't. He's the best.
One of my fellow laid-off teachers is coming over for pizza and beer tonight. We're making our own pizza - I'm really looking forward to this since I haven't had pizza in FOREVER. It's been really good to have her for support. Although I've been really grateful for everyone's kind words, it's really nice just to sit and complain about the unfairness of it all with someone who is going through the same thing.
Time to get my gym stuff together...
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
Every day is getting a little better.
Yesterday I subbed for a phys ed class - wasn't my favorite thing; the class sizes are HUGE - 25 kindergarten kiddos is NOT all that fun.
Today I was in second grade for the morning. I had a GREAT morning! They class was so nice, they were respectful, and I got to see some old colleagues. There was a student teacher in the class and she gave me some great compliments on my teaching. Yay!
So the weekend triathlon. Turns out that I am a pretty good swimmer - my 1/4 mile time was 8:48 with a small current - 148th overall out of over 400. The trick, now, is to improve my bike and run so I can be a little more competitive, if only with myself. I got to see my best friend from elementary school and spend some time with my mom. The weather was beautiful!
I signed up for a triathlon class at my gym. I had some training sessions gathering dust, so I transferred the payment to the class. I'm looking forward to getting faster in the water and having someone push me to do better. It's also helping me to focus on GOOD things instead of wallowing in no-job sadness.
I'm still on the fence about my insurance, though. I got cheap insurance for the hubs and me, but I'm considering getting COBRA and paying for what I had with my job. I just feel better knowing that I can go to the doctor when I need to and that I'm able to get the prescriptions I need. I'm really going to have to think about this...
Off to make some cornbread!
Friday, September 14, 2012
I don't know how it happens, but life usually seems to figure itself out. The last few weeks have been SO overwhelming, and I just didn't know how I was going to handle anything. I've been very lucky and haven't really ever had to deal with anything hard (as an adult, anyway).
But anyway, here's the good. I had been going around and around with what I was going to do with my life - I didn't know if I wanted to stay in education or move to something totally different. After lots and lots of reading and soul-searching, I know the answer. I am going to stay in education - I've invested so much time, energy, and money into studying education. And you know what? I love it. So I'm continuing my education path. I'm going to take three classes in the spring, and then hopefully an internship in the summer. I'll have my curriculum supervisory certificate by the fall. I feel very at peace with this decision. Up until now, I haven't been totally sold on any of my other ideas.
Something good out of this is that I think I can finally start subbing. I really didn't want to, partly because I was sad about my kids, but another thing was that i didn't want to go back to school without a plan. I want to be able to show people that I'm moving on and this setback isn't going to own me. I feel confident now that I've made the decision to go back to school. I think on Sunday night I'll take any sub job that I get - it's a decent way to supplement my unemployment.
Time to get packing - I have a triathlon tomorrow and my mom and I are driving down tonight. It's in Atlantic City, so it should be fun. Happy Friday!
Thursday, September 13, 2012
It just keeps coming! The last two weeks have been SO stressful. As if being unemployed isn't enough, about two weeks ago, hubby's knee started swelling up and about a week ago it got so bad that he couldn't walk on it. We went to the orthopedic surgeon and he took some blood tests and ordered an MRI. We had to wait a week for all the results - between being anxious about those and hubby's knee pain, I went the whole week without a good night's sleep, which made me miserable.
Yesterday we went back for the follow-up, and the news was actually better than we hoped. Turns out that hubs has Lyme disease and a sprained knee. NO surgery (Hallelujah!), and he's on antibiotics and in a knee brace for three weeks. I had no idea that it was stressing me out so badly until yesterday when I came home and took a 2+ hour nap. Last night was my first night sleeping all the way through in over a week.
My workouts have been sporadic, at best, even though every time I go I feel a gazillion times better. My sleep schedule has been a wreck. Luckily, my eating has remained pretty good, although I could be drinking more water. I have a triathlon this weekend for which I am underprepared (the story of my life) but it's kind of an "easy" one (ha!) with a ten-mile FLAT bike ride and a 5K on a boardwalk. And really, I'm more excited about getting away for the weekend so I'm not too concerned with my time. My entrance fee was only $50 (I had a coupon!) so I'm not even thinking about "wasted" money.
I think the worst part about having so much time off is that I have a ton of time to think. And that's not always a good thing. In the last week I have considered going back to school for physical therapy, getting a wellness degree, getting elementary ed. certified, working as a floral designer, entering a doctoral program... and now that I know hubs is going to be ok, I've decided to finish what I started and get my curriculum certification. The silver lining to my unemployment is that next semester I can be a full-time grad student. There are three classes I need before my internship, and they are all offered next semester. If I can bust out these classes, next school year I can be applying for curriculum jobs and have a whole new field open for me. When I think of it that way, it's actually pretty exciting.
I'm slowly coming to terms with the whole having-no-income thing. I'm on unemployment, so it's not *too* horrible, but it's a shock when all of a sudden I have to change my lifestyle, and not on my terms. I've been reading books on consumption, simple living, and consumerism (there is a really interesting book out there called Cheap) and it's been good for me. I've been crying less and less, and I'm almost ready to start subbing, although I don't know exactly what's going to happen when I see my "old" kids. I'll probably be a mess.
Today was the first day in about a month that I set my alarm to do a workout. Out of all the expenses I had, I really didn't want to cut the gym. So I have to get my money's worth AND I have to make sure I'm taking care of myself. One thing about going to the gym is that it's so helpful for me to deal with everything. It's an hour of focusing on ME - MY form, MY posture, MY goals. For one hour I don't have to think about paying the mortgage, about finding a job, about health insurance.
It's time to finish my coffee and head off to the pool. Today hubs and I are going to run some errands and I have some e-mails to send out about school. We are getting our house ready to rent out (we can move forward with this FINALLY because we know that hubs won't be laid up for months). And the sun is out and the coffee is good.
Monday, August 27, 2012
So today was a pretty good day. I did my swim (and I'm now absolutely exhausted!), I went to lunch with a couple girlfriends, and I had a wonderful salad for dinner. I got some books from the library about not working - I am finding that the more I get out of my little bubble, the better I am. I was worried about lunch today - I went with the phys ed teacher from my old school and a para who was also laid off. I was afraid I'd be a total emotional wreck, but it was actually really good for me to go. It helped to kind of see that the world is going to go on, and things will work out the way they are going to.
There is also cautiously exciting news - I think I may have found a compromise for renting our house. Hubs wanted to rent it out ourselves, but I thought we should hire someone to do it. It's expensive to hire someone to do that, so I asked our realtor if we found someone if we could use her services for the credit check and leasing forms, etc. She got back to me that there is a 50% discount if that happens. I think this might be the way we go. Cross your fingers that I can convince the hubs!
The other (cautiously!) exciting news is that i got an e-mail from a job I applied for - my application status has been changed to "under consideration." It is for an elementary music teacher position at a non-profit charter school in Philadelphia for low-income students. Keep your fingers crossed for an interview!
So today was a better day than most of my days have been lately. I didn't feel sad about my job situation, and I managed to sneak in a nap. Tomorrow I am going on a bike ride with my dad, and then to a chiropractor appointment in the evening. And I even drank all my water today!
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