Saturday, October 13, 2012
So after hemming and hawing about it for MONTHS, I finally decided to get my personal trainer certification! I signed up today for an AFAA workshop less than 15 minutes from my house. It was like a sign, being so close. I think a big part of what pushed me to do this was the subbing. I am SO over being a substitute teacher. And since I'm going back to school in the spring and doing an internship in the summer to get my curriculum certification, I have at least another 8 months or so before I really start looking for a new job. I don't think I can sub for that long. I talked it over with hubs, and he is very supportive. I'll have more opportunities for jobs; I've been thinking about this a long time. Hooray!
But there's a part of me that's a little scared. It's something totally different - I guess maybe I'm afraid to fail? But in a way, that's already happened. Even though getting laid off didn't have anything to do with *me*, I still feel a little like I "failed" at that job. I am working very hard to get over this feeling. Getting my trainer certification is like a new beginning for me! I get to start fresh and that's kind of exciting.
I've picked up a new hobby - crafting! I discovered that crafting isn't all snowmen with squiggly-line mouths or googly-eyed cats. I can make nice things and feel proud of something I've made. I've made a few fun candle holders and some magnets; even a picture frame for a birthday gift!
This is a really exciting time in my life. I'm trying to embrace the time I have (thanks, unemployment!) and really discover more about myself. Every little thing I do makes me feel more at peace with myself and really excited to find out even more.