Tuesday, March 12, 2013
For the last couple of days I've kinda been down in the dumps. I've been especially concerned with my unemployment. Most days I'm really okay with it - I am doing awesome things with my time, and I'm actually being productive. So I realize that I'm not frittering away my not working time. But I was getting bummed about the whole productive member of society and regular paycheck thing. It's a light year for racing - I just can't afford all the entrance fees. Which stinks, because there are a lot of really fun races I'd love to do. Sigh. I just have to be patient.
Today I was so tired and I had a little headache this morning. Ugh. I need my spring break sun and break from all this. When I come back from spring break I will be teaching my cycle class - I'm glad I have something to look forward to when I get back!
My state of mind led to me look up symptoms of overtraining. One of them was depression. And I know I'm not depressed, but I'm not my normal sunny self. I have been killing it at the gym. And while I feel pretty good, I think it's taking a toll. I actually tweaked my back at some point yesterday. While it's not *too* bad, I think it might be a sign that I'm overdoing it. So maybe this week I'll just concern myself with getting my running miles in and taking a break from everything else. I don't want to be hurt for Florida! I am planning on paddleboarding there so I want to be at 100% for that.
Also, I had a gigantic lunch today. I met my brother for lunch and ate a meatloaf sandwich and mashed potatoes (both with gravy), and a piece of cherry crumb pie with ice cream. And it was awesome. I mean, I don't feel wonderful now, but maybe I haven't been eating enough? Who knows. I think I may tweak what I'm doing a little bit...
This is kind of a rambling blog. I've been thinking about this stuff a lot lately, mostly because I need to focus on something until I leave for Florida. I can't even stand the wait. Seriously. I feel like screaming because I'm so excited to go. Not a mean scream, just an excited scream.
So anyway, I think I'm going to get that coffee because, hey, I have a midterm tonight and I need to get myself out of this funk somehow. And I think a caramel macchiato might just do it for tonight.