Thursday, August 27, 2009
So as I've been posting about, a muscle in my leg has been bugging me. The guilt I feel for not running as much is driving me nuts! I feel like not running because of a bum muscle is an "excuse" and that I should just suck it up, even though I truly know that I need to rest it in order for it to heal. I packed my running stuff today, just in case my leg felt better, but I made the decision this afternoon not to go to running club. I felt a little twinge in my knee all day. Even with stretching it, the twinge was still there. Swimming was the cardio of choice tonight.
So the willpower. A teaching friend was going to join me at running club tonight - he's very much faster than I am, but he doesn't mind (or at least he says he doesn't mind) running slowly with me every once in a great while. So I told him about my leg, and he kept saying "well we could at least go and you could see how it feels; if it hurts, you can walk." It was very tempting to do just that - go and see how it felt, but a) I think by the time it hurt enough to walk, it would have set the healing back; and b) I didn't want to get "stuck" three miles out and then have to walk back those same three miles on a hurting knee. So this was the first instance EVER where I had to use my willpower NOT to exercise! I know I made the right decision. My knee will be in great shape for Sunday - I'll do some swimming tomorrow and then maybe some light swimming and running on Saturday morning. We'll see.
GOD I am so excited to get back into a routine! I didn't really gain any weight back over the summer, but boy did my weight loss stall. I know deep down that the scale is not the end all, but it sure would be nice to see it move down a bit.
I think there is going to be a bit of an adjustment period for my body, getting used to going back to school. My eating schedule is going to be very different, and so is my workout schedule. I'm really really hoping that once I get back into it, the weight will start coming off again, even if it's 1/2 a pound a week (which is my goal, anyway).
Off to watch some football and have a big glass of water!
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Well, last day of summer vacation, anyway. Tomorrow is a teacher work day in our classrooms. I have bulletin boards to put up and first cycle lesson plans to finesse. As much as I like being able to sleep in and have leisurely days, I am ready for a routine again. I ran some errands today and bought a new pair of running shoes. They are WONDERFUL. Wore them tonight to running club - my feet felt SO good. These new shoes were a long time coming.
My 5K is on Sunday! I have not run in a race since early July. I'm especially looking forward to Sunday because it will be the first one I'm running after running during the week. Before I started running with this running club at the beginning of August, I did a couple miles a couple times a week at the gym; now I'm doing between 12-20 miles a week. Wahoo! I'm really looking forward to seeing what kind of difference the extra miles will make.
Yesterday I went to visit my family for my brother's birthday. I took six shopping bags of too-big clothing to my mom. She was very happy to get them, and I was a little sad to be giving them up. But after I said I was a little sad, my mom reminded me "yeah, but probably not 30 pounds sad." She was right. I would not trade 30 pounds lost (25 with Spark) for all those clothes back.
In a previous blog, I wrote about my mom going on Jenny Craig. I don't think it's the best way to lose weight permanently, but so far my mom has lost almost 20 pounds. It's a little frustrating that she is losing weight so quickly just by eating that crappy food! It sounds so selfish... Bleh. But she did say to me "wow, you really *did* lose a lot of weight." We both can't believe how different I look now then I did at this time last year. Wahoo! I think my lifestyle change has inspired her a little bit, even if it *is* Jenny Craig. But! She is coming to my race on Sunday. I kind of jokingly asked her to come, and she sounded really excited to come. She sounded really proud of me that I can run a 5K. That made me feel really good. See, I was the absolute laziest kid. Didn't play sports after elementary school, ate like a pig, and drove to school, which was *maybe* a 10 minute walk. When I look back, I can't believe how different I am. So I think it amazes her a little bit that I am successfully changing my lifestyle. So that's the exciting news.
The not-so exciting news is that I have been stuck at the same weight for two months. ARGH. I know, I know... yes, my clothes fit better. Yes, I am getting better at running. Yes, I have more confidence.... hm... I guess the scale doesn't really matter, does it? I think I'll take a scale vacation for a bit... maybe I'll visit it again in about a month.
It pains me to type this, but I have to get ready for school tomorrow.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
I have a lot of clothes that are too big for me. They are in a range of about two sizes and they are accumulated from over 5 years of working in clothing retail. That's a lot of clothing! In the past I have lost 10 pounds here and there, but I always gained it back. It's a good thing I kept all those clothes.
But this time is different. It feels different. The way I eat and the way I move now... I can never go back to how it used to be. I *can't* keep those old clothes. There are too many stories and memories attached to those clothes... Pants from when I lost 5 pounds and thought I deserved a treat, skirts from when i couldn't fit into any pants, shirts I bought just because they fit, not because I liked them, but because I could actually close them... there are so many things I remember about those clothes. They have been sitting in my closet, waiting to go away. I haven't gotten around to take them away, but this weekend is ending all that. On Monday I am going to visit my family for my brother's birthday, and I'm taking all the clothes to my mom. All 6 shopping bags full.
When I first started finding that clothes were too big, like REALLY too big, I was a little sad. I spent a lot of money on clothes, and there were a few things that I really liked. I actually tried some on last night and thought "maybe I was being too harsh... maybe I can still wear them." No such luck. And I don't *want* to fit into them again. Today I had a skirt on just for fun; it used to be tight around my waist, and today it was falling off my hips. With a pair of shorts on underneath. That was a sign telling me that it is time to give my clothes away. I am DONE being that girl who wore those clothes. I am ready to wear clothes that reflect the new me - confident and feeling good. (I bought a new pair of black pants, and I tried them on with a white button-down - tucked in! I almost cried because I LOVED how I looked.)
It has been almost eight whole months since I joined SparkPeople. In that time I have accomplished more than I ever thought I would. I can run 6 miles non-stop and have run numerous 5Ks. I am into single digit size pants - something I used to dream about when I worked in clothing retail. There are muscles (real muscles!) on my body that I can see. I have inspired others to eat healthier and move more. I don't have to hide behind anything anymore - I chopped off my hair and I LOVE it. I can wear shorts! I discovered that I will eat a good bowl of homemade soup over Chicken McNuggets any day. I learned that a half-pint of Ben and Jerry's *won't* kill me... as long as I keep it to once or twice a month. If I deprive myself of these cravings, it's worse for me in the long run.
My fiance is a chef, and one of the lessons I've learned from him is that knowing how things work together is better than following a recipe. It lets me throw things together and experiment to find out exactly what works and what *I* like, which may be more beans and less onion, or a little more cayenne than what the recipe calls for. It's like SparkPeople. I've learned so much about how my body works and how exercise and nutrition work together to make a healthier me. A little more swimming and a little less dairy may work for me, but not for someone else. Maybe you need *more* dairy and more elliptical. It's not following a generic "recipe" for weight loss that probably won't work for everyone, but knowing how my body works and reacts so that I can do what *I* need to do to live a healthier and more fulfilling lifestyle.
And with that, I know that my body likes a little glass of bubbly before dinner, so cheers to SparkPeople and to all of you on this wonderful journey of living our best lives.
Friday, August 21, 2009
is apparently going to the state store after a workout. I swam tonight and then went to get some wine for dinner, and I got carded. I'm going to be 30 in about a month, and they carded me! Wahoo! I was wearing my gym clothes, wet from the pool, and I probably looked terrible. But it was nice anyway.
So tonight was a bit of a cheat night for me... I had wine and cookie dough ice cream (I was craving it like mad!) but now my craving is taken care of for a while.
Swam for 40 minutes tonight - hard work!
Tomorrow I am going to try a Pilates class at my gym - I think I need to do something more for my core. It will be nice to add something different to my fitness routine.
Made scallops and linguine for dinner tonight - YUM. I needed to get my protein in, so I decided to use the scallops I had in the freezer. Very tasty indeed.
This week I have gone a little crazy with the carbs - I think it's because I haven't been getting enough protein. I added some black beans to my salad tonight and some scallops to my pasta. Getting enough protein has always been a challenge for me. I am going to work on that! Since school starts next week, I have to get a system into place where I can eat healthy meals that are easy to throw together. The routine of school is actually good for me... I know exactly when I have to go to the gym, when I have to eat dinner, and when I need to go to bed. No more staying up late (wahoo!). I love going to bed early and getting up early.
It's time for a big glass of water, a hot bath, and sleep.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Went to running club tonight. It was hot. REALLY hot. And humid. It felt like I was running through soup. Boy was I glad when we were finished! Short 3.5 mile run tonight - never thought I'd be saying that 3.5 miles is "short!" Really shows how far I've come.
So this week and last week I've really been doing a lot of cardio. Which is good. But, I think I am going to take an easy weekend. I need to rest my knee a bit; swimming will be good for me. I think it will also be a good chance for me to recharge a bit before school starts. The start of school just kind of snuck up on me this year! Can't believe next Wednesday is the first day back for teachers already. Lesson plan thoughts need to start getting in my head.
I've been reading blogs and articles lately about how what we do with our bodies is our own choice, the consequences and/or rewards are because of our choices. I've been thinking twice about stopping for that ice cream on the way home, sleeping in instead of going to the gym "just this once," or putting that extra cheese on my baked potato. It's nobody's fault but mine (Led Zeppelin, anyone?) if I go over in fat for the day because of the extra cheese. On the positive side, though, it's also *my* doing when I can more easily swim or when i can push myself through that last half mile when all I want to do is fall over.
Football is on, so I have to go put on some decaf and get comfortable on the couch. I forgot how much I enjoy football season!
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