Wednesday, February 17, 2010
This big move my fiance and I are planning is a little overwhelming for me. I've taken all your wonderful advice and I've started to pack up some stuff, get some things fixed, and take little steps to making the summer *that* much easier. I can't do it alone, so of course I've asked honey to help with some tasks. Honey needs a little (well, a big) push to get things done. While I have been cleaning out my stuff and giving a lot to Goodwill and posting it on Freecycle (the mattress is gone! Wahoo!), honey has been content to appear to wait until the last minute to get things done.
We don't really fight; we have small disagreements, but nothing really escalates past us giving each other the silent treatment until we're ready to talk. One of the last of these episodes was something about him not getting the new sink put in and me not calling our realtor. I was supposed to call him to ask him "when do people come to the house after it's listed?" (The answer was "they could come the same day.") This means we have a lot to do before we list the house.
Honey and I don't use the words "I told you so," even when one of us does something stupid. I really appreciate this. But I REALLY feel like "I TOLD YOU SO." As in, "honey, you should start getting cleaned up for open houses." I am a little nervous about this experience turning into something that it shouldn't... I make tons of lists, honey *sometimes* does what I leave him to do. Today he was asked to take some stuff to Goodwill - I told him how much I need his help for this. I am only one person and I can only do so much. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe.
Our realtor is really wonderful. I told him I was a little overwhelmed, and he reminded me that I can only do one thing at a time. He's a really great guy and I'm very thankful to have him on our side.
So small steps it is.
Drink at least 4 Siggs of water (my body said THANK YOU!!! yesterday for me drinking so much water)
Go swimming after school (even though I have a lot to do with the house, I need to remember to take care of myself, too.)
Bring home two boxes from school and fill them with DVDs, videos, and other various items from bookshelves in the house.
Vacuum one room upstairs
Stick to the eating plan (which is "breakfast for dinner")
I think that's it for today. I don't want to overwhelm myself even more. If I get more done, great. But these are things I MUST get done today.
Yesterday's goals were all met. Snow didn't come, so I made it to my yoga class. It was totally relaxing and I felt really good after the class. Lesson learned: amidst all the craziness, don't forget to take care of ME.
Lunch is packed, swimming gear is ready to go... off to get a big glass of water.
Monday, February 15, 2010
To a sold out audience! What an awesome experience. Choruses from all over the US and Canada sang Carmina Burana under the direction of Vance George who won a Grammy for his 1995 recording of the same work. How amazing.
Rehearsals were in a hall next to Lincoln Center, and dress rehearsal was on Sunday morning at Carnegie Hall. As we walked up to the Stage Door entrance (where all the performers go in),
I saw our poster outside. Wahoo!
The performance was great and we got a standing ovation. Carnegie Hall is just an amazing place to sing - so beautiful. And now when I see performances on PBS where really famous musicians are on stage, I can picture exactly where I was standing!
Other fun things I did:
Went to the Tim Burton exhibit at the Museum of Modern Art. I could have spent all day in that museum.
I only took pictures of two artworks... I realized that it was more fulfilling for me to really study the art instead of taking pictures. Besides, the pictures are better in art books. But for your enjoyment, here are the two pics I took.
And of course, I had lots of good food. Nowhere have I found better Matzo Ball Soup than in Manhattan. And the soup at the Stage Deli was just delish. It was also giant.
It was really really really cold, so I didn't dig my camera out for much more. I couldn't take picture *in* Carnegie Hall, anyway, which would have been the best place to take pics. However, I *did* manage to secure the archival DVD for the group with whom I sing. Yippee! I can't wait for that to come.
Did some shopping; bought two CUTE shirts. I LOVED shopping. It was so wonderful to be able to fit into clothes from some of the stores in the city.
LOVED feeling thin and fit in the city. When I got a muffin for breakfast, there was no feeling of "I bet they're thinking 'why is *she* getting that giant muffin?'." I ate everything with no guilt. And believe me, there was a LOT of "everything."
Took the early bus home today and spent some quality time with my honey. We went out for sushi tonight as our belated Valentine's Day. I got right back on track with eating right; drank extra water today, spend a good hour at the gym doing some strength training, and I had lots of fruit.
Honey made some hot chocolate for our dessert (YUM-O) but I think I may have *another* apple just to get my body back from my weekend full of pastrami and pizza.
It's time for the couch and an apple. Secretly hoping for a 2-hour delay tomorrow...
Thursday, February 11, 2010
These snowy days really get me thinking. (oh no!) Last night's weather people talked about "blizzard-like" conditions. There was nothing blizzard-*like* about it. It WAS a blizzard. So anyway, the weather people's use of the word "like" stuck with me this morning. I'm upstairs putting the last of my weekend clothes into my suitcase, and I thought "you know, I am done thinking *like* a thin person. I *am* a thin person."
At first, I thought "oh my gosh am I vain or what?" But *then* I thought about one of the most important lessons I've learned on Spark - be kind to yourself. Don't treat yourself differently than you would treat someone else. So I imagined that I was someone else getting ready to go on a weekend trip - if I saw someone *else* wearing small sizes and being confident enough to wear leggings out in public (Can you believe it???), I would think "wow, they look great in that." So then I took a look in the mirror and thought "wow, I really *do* look great in this."
So back to thinking *as* a thin person. One of the challenges for me right now is being able to walk into a room or a store and not think "everyone is staring at me - the fattest girl in the room." Thin people don't think that way! Thin people walk into a place with their head high and with their body showing confidence (I know from years of observing thin people).
This weekend is a perfect time for me to try this thinking as a thin person thing. I will be in NYC - where I don't know anyone and nobody will look at me strangely as I walk into a place this new "thin"way.
This might seem a bit shallow, but at some point, I need to let go of the old me and embrace this new me. I think that keeping this image of the old me sometimes holds me back from really doing great things with the new me.
Goal for this weekend - think AS a thin person.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Up until today, the snow storms have missed us. But today - woohoo snow! It's so calming to watch. I have a snow day, honey has a snow day...
I have moved on from yesterday's eating debacle and am back on track. breakfast was oats with vanilla soy milk, apples and cinnamon; lunch was shrimp cocktail and a vegetarian tostada (fresh corn tortillas, fresh avocado and tomato, some refried beans... YUM), and a little Greek yogurt with honey and banana for a sweet. I am stuffed! Yesterday is but a distant memory to me now. I have moved on from the cookies and chips and am ready to get some fresh fruits and veg back into my body. I think honey is going to make some kind of chicken soup tonight; I think I'm going to throw together a large delicious salad for an appetizer.
Just got back in from shoveling a little bit. I figured that shoveling a little bit now would make tomorrow much less daunting, especially since the heaviest snow is still falling. Was only out there for 20 minutes and SP's fitness tracker estimated that I torched about 120 calories. Wahoo! I may go out in a couple hours again, before it gets too dark, so I can burn some more calories.
Moved some furniture this morning, did some vacuuming, and joined the local Freecycle network. Grad paper is sent, I'm drinking lots of water, and I'm all packed for NYC this weekend. Honey is taking a nap (he was skiing this morning) so I'm going to throw in some laundry and maybe go through my purses and get some ready to go to Goodwill (or maybe post them on Freecycle!).
Off to do some laundry...
Have a Super Sparky Snowy Day!
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