Sunday, July 20, 2014
Thumbs up on keeping Saturday as Sabbath - panicked when I remembered on Friday (b/c of all the stuff I had to do this weekend), but I kept the Sabbath anyway and Saturday was great. When I got tired and yawn-ie, I simply went to bed early Sat night - no guilt. It was a great day and was not nearly as hard at all as I thought it'd be. It was really wonderful, in fact.
Unexpectedly, Sunday morning was also great b/c I didn't feel pulled in two directions or have dividedness in my mind - it was "ok" to do work & business things, all day, with no guilt. The easing of my mind on Sunday morning was pronounced. The easing of my mind was pronounced, and the surprise that I was feeling relief to begin with, was pronounced. Prior to this experience, I didn't even know I felt divided or had these feelings.
This week I went to the Soup Kitchen for lunch more than I ever have - 4 days.
In the after-lunch grocery line, Tues was a big (bountiful) day like it usually is. However, this week, Wed was NOT a big give-away day like it was last week. You really DO have to go every day, as there's just no way to predict what will be donated. So b/c Wed was spare and I was out of lettuce, I went back Thurs. Then I had planned since last week to go Fri this week to see what I could get for my friend that I donate the other food to. So that's how I ended up going Tues - Fri. On Thurs I got personal size watermelons from the Soup Kitchen, I had one this morning and it was really good - something I had never tried since they came out a few years ago b/c they are expensive. And for the first time ever on Fri, they had nice bananas. They were giving away extra bananas, pressing them on people since they had beaucoups and it was Friday. So I took 3 bunches so I could give my friend two of them.
I went to the other place, the Mission, for my last allowed food pantry visit this month on Thurs, and back there again on Fri for 2nd Harvest. My friend has had 2 good weeks of at least partially free groceries from me. It's unusual for there to be this much. As usual, Food Fairy delivered lots of bread and rolls, and assorted sweets donuts and muffins; plus a big apple pie, and a decorated, round, 2-layer cake. On the healthier side: bananas, watermelon, 3 huge zucchini from Soup Kitchen, 3 huge yellow squash from Mission, sweet potatoes, tomatoes, lettuce, and other stuff I can't remember.
Keeping the day of rest was good, and all the free food was good, and playing Food Fairy was fun, but the rest of the week was bad. I'll skip the details.
Today I called my brother, he is 7.5 yrs older. (He has been in trouble all his life so he's not the kind of family someone like me could go to for help.) But since my sister and parents passed away, we've kept in touch sporadically. Today I found out he is having blood clot issues in his upper legs - DVT from crotch to calf, especially in his thighs, with a disabling huge blood clot in his upper thigh. Very weird; I thought that stuff was always lower legs. My dad had lower leg DVT, and a metal butterfly filter permanently installed in his carotid. But only when he was much older. My brother is on a new blood thinner called Zarelto (2014 technology*) and says it's not helping but he doesn't want the hassle of going on coumadin (1980s technology*). (*According to him.) I consider most pharma poison, but will look up Zarelto. He cannot exercise at all - zilch. So there is nothing he can do AT THIS POINT other than keeping his legs up, drugs, surgery, traditional medicine. Also it came out of the blue - woke up in bed with huge swollen leg one morning. Scary!
My legs are still swollen as usual. Yesterday at Planet Fitness I saw I have some skin issues in the same 3 places on each of my ankles - really weird - not leg ulcers. That was very sobering. So I am still having leg issues and of course I don't expect the swelling to get better until I can sleep with them propped up. Today's call to my brother, who is not nearly as overweight as I am, and is much more active and fit, was a huge wake up call to me personally. This week, I will exercise and take my supplements like my life depends on it. Because, I got the wake-up call: it does.
Another not-good day. However, I am grateful for the wakeup call. Unlike my brother, I can still exercise. I might, if I take drastic action, avoid the same fate. I need to improve my whole-body circulation by exercising heartily, and I need to get the weight off. While I'm doing that, I need to take supplements to address my family history that is like a time bomb . . . coming soon. My legs and feet are giving me all the signs. Unlike my brother, I am getting the luxury of an advance notice.
For my family history, I will be ordering nattokinase from VItaCost or Swansons, in my next order after I get a job. And will be taking fish oil from my current supply until then.
I also read Women's magazines at checkout today, and they were talking about the benefits of water, which I have to drink more of. I have not been drinking 2-4 bottles a day. I will start with 4 bottles and add lemon. I used to drink 1/2 my body weight in pounds, in ounces of water (if you weigh 200lbs, drink 100 ounces per day; Mayo Clinic). It's too easy to let good habits go. Keep them up!