I don't feel like doing this

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

I have been out of commission with a bulging disc and some arthritis in my lower back for two months now. I have gained 7 pounds from my lowest weight and I am feeling depressed. Today I just don't feel like watching what I eat, or challenging myself to at least 10 minutes on the treadmill. Yesterday I was more motivated. I did 10 minutes on the treadmill and 15 minutes of upper body strength work while lying on the floor. I also did my PT exercises. I felt really good. After work I took a 10 minute walk around the block to get some fresh air. Last night I ended up with the heating pad. I did track my food and stayed in the 1200 calorie range. So why am I feeling so defeated this morning? Hopefully I will get back some of my motivation.....

  

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BESTSUSIEYET 1/17/2010 3:49PM

Hi Cate -- I'm sorry to see you've had such pain, and are feeling discouraged. The journey to health is hard w/out that kind of problem holding you back. Please go back and remember why you started this in the first place -- refresh your commitment, and remember that You Are Worth Taking Care Of!! Maybe try more strength training (sitting down with your back supported?) -- or focus on a new healthy food goal (adding one more veggie or fruit every day?) would help you feel you are making progress in spite of the cardio fitness minutes # not going up too fast. Take care, my friend, and let me know how you are doing!

AMBERZADE 1/13/2010 12:43PM

It's hard to stay motivated when you are in constant pain. I think your body may have just needed a rest.

CALDEROB 1/12/2010 8:32AM

Take one day at a time and one step at a time. Don't ever give up and stop moving. Even if you have to do arm lifts sitting down and thats all you can do....at least that's something. You can do it!

OHYESITSME1 1/12/2010 8:30AM

Be kind to yourself!

JETTER4 1/12/2010 8:26AM

Sometimes you just need a break

Trying

Monday, January 11, 2010

I realized this morning that I am allowing myself to dwell too much on what I cannot do! Today I focus on what I can do and get back on track! I am going to sit down with my husband tonight and apologize for being such a cry baby and let him know what my goals are so that he can support me, as I know that is what he has been trying to do.

  

Looking at the Spark Fitness Minutes is depressing

Monday, December 21, 2009

Every time I log on and see my spark fitness minutes I get depressed. I'm waiting for results for my MRI and hoping the doctor can get to the bottom of why I can't walk without my leg going numb. I am working very hard to meet my nutritional goals so that I don't get too far from my goal. Things will get better, things will get better, things will get better......

  

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GINA7249 12/26/2009 12:20AM

i had that problem but they looked at haveing diabetis or the nerves in my legs. have they looked at those too. good luck thanks for posting on my blog. dont be so hard on yourself i am sure your doing the best you can do. gina

VICIOUS421 12/25/2009 1:01AM

Do the best you can do and that is all you can do! I hope everything turns out okay with your tests!

CATE195 12/21/2009 8:53AM

Thanks for the suggestions. I started doing upper body with dumb bells last week. I cannot do the bike as it aggravates my leg. I just really miss walking and aerobic classes. Sorry I'm being such a cry baby!

TORNADO40 12/21/2009 8:43AM

I agree with Yanska...do some alternative exercises to get your minutes. Do you have a stationary bike? This past summer when I had tendinitis in my ankle and couldn't walk I did my bike instead.

YANSKA 12/21/2009 8:22AM

Okay, you can't walk right now. So pick up some 3lb weights and do some arm exercises and build those fitness points! If you don't have dumbells, then do arm circles or grab a heavy book or two and use them as weights. That counts as fitness too you know! :) Work on your abs - practice some crunches, or do some stretching. It all counts towards fitness minutes! Don't let a doctor hold you back - do what you can do in the meantime and don't let yourself down! And DON'T beat up on yourself because you happen to have limitations right now. you must listen to your body and in time you will be out there walking around again. I wish you much peace, strength and focus right now. I know it's hard but you will get through this. Take it from someone with sciactica issues - I am now a jogger and I thought that would NEVER happen! Anna

It's Beginning to look a lot like ...

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Today I am winning the war of feeling sorry for myself that I cannot get out and exercise because of my hip and leg pain/numbness. I have been doing short bursts of decorating my house for Christmas mixed in with sitting and doing Christmas cards and lists of things to do. I think the turn around came two days ago when my husband was down in the dumps and said, "I hate Christmas, I'm not in the mood for it this year." I immediately said, "Bah Humbug Scrooge!" which is the only response I could think of at the moment . But then I thought about what I had been doing.. namely complaining about my condition, and realized it was time for a change in my attitude.

Well I started to think about how much fun it would be to have our kids and grandkids coming and I began to research ways to make it a fun and meaningful day for all of us. I then decided if I got going I could do a little each day and be ready for our big day. Well, guess what? My husband's mood has changed too. He has agreed to be the guinea pig in a decorate Grampa activity that I found on the Internet. The grandkids will decorate him with red and green crepe paper and aluminum foil. We will take a picture and name him the family tree. I know my grandsons will love doing this. Ok, have to go now and do a little more decorating. It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas!

  

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IMREITE 12/22/2009 9:51PM

my dad was always grinchy around christmas, but now that he is a grandpa he loves driving my sister nuts by attempting to feed her 1 year old ice cream and cookies. my dad wore more cookie then Emma ate. Sometimes you just need to take some time to relax and not stress the stupid stuff so the holidays mean more.

GRAMMIE1959 12/17/2009 10:43AM

up, up, and away with the humbugs! wonderful grandpa idea

FLORIDASUN 12/17/2009 9:52AM

This sounds like such a delightful idea! I love the decorate grandpa thing! Be sure and snap a pic and tell us all about it! Here's a few decorations for your page too! ha..ha...now don't you feel even MORE Christmas like? Big smile!

Going for an MRI

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

I saw the doctor yesterday and he said it is time to get a picture of what is going on with my back(?), hip, leg. I am learning that I am NOT a patient person. I want this pain to go away so I can resume my exercise schedule. Meanwhile I have gone back to religiously tracking my food. It's the only thing I really have control over right now.



I hated being in the wheel chair, but my husband would not take me to Epcot unless I agreed to be wheeled around.

  

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RENA1965 12/15/2009 10:33AM

I hope the MRI scan can give you answers you can use and the doctor can help you.. Good luck