Monday, August 04, 2014
If there is anyone out there who consistently reads this blog, you will know that I am having issues with an ex.
Specifically, I am having trouble letting go of what happened.
I consider it a successful day if it takes me more than 10 minutes to think about it on the way home from work. It always creeps its way back into my mind.
I have to see him in September for a hearing about when he broke his foot. It is going to kill me inside to be there with him.
I don't know how I should act, if I should say anything to him. I don't know if he will even acknowledge me.
What if he doesn't, my scarred heart will shatter again. What if he does, it will be too painful to talk to someone I was so in love with.
I still cry myself to sleep sometimes, and for the most part I shed a tear over it everyday.
I just want to be able to leave it behind me, but it catches up to me all the time.
Right now, I am sad. I wish I wasn't, but I am.