So frustrated today. Stepped on the scale and somehow I gained back the weight I lost this month (5 lbs). I have no idea why as I've been keeping track of my nutrition, measuring out my food, etc. Granted I haven't been as active as I should be, I haven't done a work out in awhile, but to gain it all back I am sooooo mad.
My brain is saying why bother trying so hard when I can eat whatever and still weigh the same? But it's also saying hey maybe you had too much sodium...Maybe you didn't track that piece of chocolate you ate... So today I am trying my hardest not to let that number defeat me and keep on going.
My doctor also advised me to get my thyroid rechecked as after pregnancy my levels could have changed (I have hypothyroidism). This has been a problem in the past where my weight would go up, up, up because my levels were out of whack. So I should probably get on that.
So my small goals for today are:
1) Track ALL my food intake. Even if I do go overboard, at least I will be held accountable.
2) Get in some fitness minutes. Even if it's only 10.
OK, so I don't know about the rest of you Mom's but losing weight post pregnancy has been pretty hard for me. I've heard all these stories about women breastfeeding and their baby weight just melllllting off but for me that certainly wasn't the case. It's been 6 months since my baby was born and I still have roughly 20 lbs to lose. I feel really dissapointed in myself because I hear of other Mom's who have lost almost all if not all of their baby weight while I'm still stuck. Not trying to make excuses for myself AT ALL (I accept full responsibility!!!) but between a difficult c-section recovery (3+ months for the incision to close) and sleep deprivation I was in no mood to work out OR eat well. Now I didn't let myself go completely (New Mom's - Don't lose sight of yourself!) I bought new cute clothes, got my hair redone and still did my makeup fully to feel good about myself. After all, those things are EASY and I am a girlie girl who likes to feel pretty.
Anyways! Month 6 and I am finally getting some sleep again. I made the decision to sleep train my daughter last month and I am finally reaping the rewards of those long, screaming days. She is now sleeping through the night and I feel great. Today for the first time since giving birth I did my first real workout (Pilates - which I love). I have been doing a fair bit of walking and a ton of housework since she has been born but I haven't had the energy to carve out alone time to work out till today. Only 10 minutes but I was so happy I actually did it! I also started tracking my food intake today to get a sense of how much I'm eating and where my calories are going. I recently started breastfeeding less now that my daughter is eating solids. It's such a relief to not be the only food source anymore. This also made me feel like I needed to be eating constantly - I didn't want my milk to run out. The problem was I didn't make very good food choices.
I need to change my mindset about food again - my brain is stuck on "eating for two" and I need to retrain myself again. I might not, OK probably won't track my food forever, but for now I will till I can get back on track.
MORAL OF THE STORY: Never give up. Do not lose sight of your goals even if it takes a long time to get there. All that matters is you made a conscious decision to change and are taking that first step!
It's been a loooong time since I've sparked. I honestly can't remember the last time I was on here but it hasn't been far from my thoughts. However, I can't really say I'm looking forward to it this time. Last time I was here I was at the halfway mark of meeting my goal weight (-25 lbs!) but then surprise, life throws you a curveball and I found myself pregnant! TOTAL surprise and joy. I've wanted to be a mother more than anything and on Mother's Day 2012 I found out I was going to be just that!
Pregnancy was beautiful. I had no morning sickness and enjoyed seeing my body bloom (for the most part!) It was incredible feeling life growing inside of me. On January 2nd, 2013 I met my beautiful baby girl. Motherhood has been no easy task but it is a love unlike any other.
Needless to say, I've gained back almost all the weight I lost in 2011-2012. I gained about 35 pounds during pregnancy and have lost about 15 pounds of it so far. I am struggling to remember how to eat for one again! I am breastfeeding as well so I am constantly hungry/thirsty but I need to make better choices.
I also delivered my baby via C-Section so I am still recovering from my surgery. I would like to start small (walking for example) and trying new exercises once my body is healed.
Tomorrow I plan on weighing myself and getting myself back into the swing of things. Pre baby bod here I come!
Well...It has been awhile since I've blogged - May 22nd to be exact! There have been many ups and downs but mostly ups! I am happy to report that I am down 14 lbs since January 2011. I know that isn't much but I am pleased to have made some progress at least.
What have I been doing? For the most part trying to incorporate more fruits and veggies, ELIMINATING cheat days because after all this is a lifestyle baby and just really taking a laid back approach to fitness and nutrition. Portion control is really important. I only do pop for treats for example and stick to just one glass (whereas before I would binge and drink nothing but sweets all day) That's the secret, losing that all or nothing approach. It will only destroy you...
Other exciting news...I finally ditched the job that was making me stressed, sad and anxious and found an amazing new one!!! I start on Wednesday and I am so thrilled to be part of such a large and amazing company.
Have a fabulous day spark lovelies and keep working towards your goals.