Friday, September 27, 2013
TOM (my "Time Of Month") has come to call and my weight is up 3.25 lbs. You know you're really tracking when you watch your weight in fractions. Haha.
I ran out of Raw Perfect Food so the other morning I had extra brown rice protein powder in my smoothie. It was really nourishing. So, the day before yesterday, I added rice back into my diet.
Sometimes I eat monotrophically (just one kind of food, usually when cleansing for some reason or for a fast of some kind). I first heard of the rice diet a couple of years ago. It's not a fad, it's based in the research of Duke University Hospital Research physician Dr. Kempner. He was a cell physiologist, that was offered a research position in the Department of Medicine at Duke University.
I have copies of some of his original research documents, revealing test results of patients whose hypertension and other issues were resolved on his rice diet (which he discovered quite by accident). Dr. Kempner's rice diet program was founded in the late 1930s.
I know for me, that I feel less hungry when I eat rice (plain, no oils, etc). It seems to be a perfect metabolic food for me. I metabolize it and use it and have less inflammation. I also notice that, I don't crave it. Some "food stuffs" that I have eaten, mostly in the past, made me hungrier after I ate. Lol.
That's just not right. I believe that if we are eating food that is ideal for our body and being, it won't trigger addictions (meaning there is a lot of things, considered food, that I don't eat).
Hope everyone has a lovely weekend~*
Sending you smiles!
Friday, September 13, 2013
Okay, this is going to be short and sweet. ;)
I was ecstatic yesterday, to notice that my panties were just too large. Seriously.
Haha. They were hot pink with lace, highwasted, kind of a granny panty yet pretty, and they fit my body when I was 15 pounds heavier, but no more. I have bought new underthings, as I've been shrinking to my normal body weight... what I haven't done before now is throw out the overly large underpants.
I'm tossing them out. #yaye Here's to letting go of what doesn't fit us!
Friday, August 30, 2013
I am still going slow (even though I work today and tomorrow for my girls) and being gentle with myself. Don't feel like going to the gym but they close early tonight, so I am going NOW (as soon as my hiny leaves this chair).
Wanting to wish everyone a HAPPY WEEKEND~*
Thursday, August 29, 2013
Okay, today am tweaking some of my green juices (added to favorite foods) to try to accurately understand the vitamin and mineral contents and so on. Used an excel spreadsheet as all those veggies needed their own lines.
Am going to exercise tonight (instead of my normal AM workout), as I wrote this AM and Whoohoo~* the twins put a keyholder on at their bakery for tonight (so I don't need to be there from 9:30-11PM, so will only do that one night a week now). #gratitude
Trying to get caught up on scanning paperwork and details--the tiny things in life that make me feel cluttered, out of control, and keep me from putting systems in place so that my life flows and is ordered.
I notice that as I simplify my life, certain things reveal themselves. I've been doing to the gym/sauna about 5 x a week, sometimes more (or less one week, when I visited a girlfriend in Jax), since January 2013. I didn't stress myself about the specific workout. It was more important that I be relaxed, enjoy it, and go regularly.
So I've mostly done the treadmill for 30 minutes each time, sometimes less or more, and sometimes weight or machine workouts in addition, plus the sauna (usually before and after I work out, which my body loves).
What is curious is that, just recently, in the last couple of weeks, I have become aware that 40 minutes, at 10% inclines, makes me feel good, works with my schedule, and is a good calorie burner for me. It is fun to learn by doing, without stressing out about it.
Thinking of stress, my Psycho Hosebeast self came back ate some carbs last night (avoiding mentioning what, to avoid triggering others). It's highly unusual for me to be so upset that I consume avoids (foods that I know cause inflammation). It wasn't horrible food, just not food that works for my being and body.
So, I took the time to really tune in and realized that part of my stress this last week had to do with a thing that happened, on top of the other things going on (overly busy, fell at gym, experimenting with oil in diet, negative personal experience, stressed about adding in extra exercise) last week... it's hard to believe that I "forgot" that it was an issue.
A pervy guy exposed himself to a girl in a downtown shop a couple of doors away (I'm on creative/spiritual sabbatical in Florida and helping my girls with their businesses, which are next door to each other downtown). It's not something they arrest for here, unless the police witness it, or unless the victim is a minor. It was triggering for me.
It is hard to believe I wouldn't realize how upsetting that was. It reminded me of how much evil there is in the world, how in some ways a woman or girl can be dis-empowered by another person or someone's actions in certain circumstances.
What that made me realize was that an IC/Inner Child, or emotional parts of self, was flashing back to Georgia and a time when I was dis-empowered by a male grownup at a state park when I went to the bathroom unattended and a man was hiding inside and was inappropriate with me. I was less than nine, but it is so fragmented that I'm not certain how old I was. Being one of 6 kids, I know my mom wouldn't have let me go alone if she thought that there was any risk but she was unaware.
So, in working through all of this, I realized that of course part of me is a bit of a psycho hosebeast, part of me is very, very upset that they don't put men in jail for exposing themselves to ladies in shops.
More importantly, part of me is still quite upset about that incident in the park (which I haven't really journaled about, done IC work with, or made expressive arts about to heal) so I will work with that, instead of eating foods that don't make me feel well and aren't good for me. I can let all of those feelings out in a healthful way.
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
Okay, crude but potassium truly kicks assium. I had no idea that taking needed supplements would give me so much energy and also eliminate food cravings. Still waiting for my TOM to show up (and weight is still at 141, up 2.25 lbs) but the MAD cravings, PMS and so on have nearly disappeared by SLOWING my life way down. Trying to approach everything from a meditative peace, zen zone.
PLUS, I added in potassium (the Wal-Mart brand, my daughters started taking it and were so happy with the results they got me some), started taking the B-6 and copper that I had on hand (but wasn't taking) and am back on my Super Green Diet (I ate four HUGE slices of quiche on the weekend, two on Sunday night and two Monday morning due to being, shall we say, CRAZED with hormones--my body doesn't do well with eggs, wheat and dairy but it was veggie quiche).
A number of things had happened to contribute to a massive PMS blowout. I had non-restorative sleep (characterized by vivid dreaming, and waking with fatigue) for a couple of weeks, I was adding in yoga/callanetics in the evenings on top of my morning workout, I added in working at my daughters' cupcakery (as a keyholder, to close for a new employee) from 9:30 - 11 PM two nights a week, and I fell on the treadmill at the gym and bruised my shin/scraped both knees (someone left the treadmill running, and because they are always off I didn't pay attention/was turning on my Kindle and stepped on and got thrown backward and fell down), and then on Saturday I had a terribly draining personal experience with an aquaintance.
It just so happened that the same day I upped my dietary oil significantly, trying to play with a keto-like vegan diet to experiment with satiety. Whew--the oil I added in 2 TBL of on Saturday was extra-virgin olive. The events of the week combine with the relative larger quantity of dietary oil triggered a massive emotional sensitivity/psychic pain and made my tatas blow up like cantaloupes (my endocrine system must not be prepared to deal with it) and I was a psycho hosebeast for a couple of days.
I had to avoid all stress and activity so I stayed in and read/wrote, ate quiche, loads of SGD flax cereal, and some Calbee peasnaps (blew my calories up to 3K for a 2-3 days), and drank tea and green juices, and tried for a total reset. Skipped the gym/sauna Sunday and then went back Monday night, giving myself nearly 48 hours off.
So today, with the new supplements, back on the Super Green Diet, y body is calming down (and expect my TOM in a day or so). Whew~* Feel like a new woman. It really reminds me to be GENTLE with myself.
Like it or not, I am sensitive--to foods, events, circumstances and a slower pace of life and less stress/excitement is best for me.
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