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Change- Its a Good Thing

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

So many people HATE change! I'm one of them. Deciding to move on from Sparkpeople for a time was a very hard decision. I even felt guilty about it. I was getting plenty of encouragement, I had lots of friends, and I had a fool proof plan (or so I thought). Why was I having such a hard time succeeding? I just couldn't seem to get going, couldn't manage to get the weight off. I was frustrated all the time. Logging in was a chore. I was soooo afraid of what people would think of me because I wasn't succeeding. I knew that it was time for a change, but I was just as scared and nervous about making it as I was about staying at SP. It seemed the easy route to bow out, find a new site, and start fresh. I was judging myself for wanting to even go down that path. But, I reminded myself that if its something that I needed to do for myself, then I was worth the effort. I looked at a few sites and wound up on My Fitness Pal. This was mainly due to a couple of friends that I grew up with who used the site. I've had success on MFP- 11 lbs to be exact- but the site is not much different from SP. I think I just needed a change to snap me out of my doldrums. I've learned a lot of things over the past 4 months and I just wanted to share. (I'm not back in the daily tracking sense- I'll still use MFP for that- but I am using SP to find more encouragement, to map my walking/running, and might use the recipes and fitness videos)

THINGS I'VE LEARNED:

1. Make a Change. Maybe this is transitioning to a different site, joining a gym or a diet club like weight watchers or TOPS, seeing a nutritionist, or even clearing out your favorites list on SP and starting fresh. If you've been stagnant for awhile, its time for a change. The best diet is useless if you're not using it. You're not a failure for trying something new. Give it a try- you might be glad you did!

2. Be consistent. When I was on SP I wouldn't track every day. I got burned out with tracking and made it a chore. When I joined MFP I made myself one promise, and that was to track every single day NO MATTER WHAT.

3. Find accountability. I made my food journal public so that others could go in and see what I ate. That was hard. There is that option on here, but on MFP its so much more out there because you literally post your food journal every night once you are done eating. If you're having trouble being consistent with your food here on SP, start rallying others to read your food log and encourage them to do the same. Having it out there works! You can't just say, "Oh I'm trying to eat right". Its right there and you can be called out if you're just BSing yourself. I've gotten sooo much help in this manner- from "Hey, I think you need to eat more protein", to "And why did you binge on all that chocolate?", and "Why were you up at 2AM in the kitchen anyhow?", and "here's a website to better understand..." There's plenty of people here on SP who are succeeding- shout out to TARANITUP, WUBBY82, and BOBCATGIRL76 just to name a few. I know there are more too. You can utilize online buddies to keep you accountable or if you're lucky maybe you can find a like minded friend at the gym, at your place of worship, or at work. However, I think the key is in those people- whomever you choose- to read your food journal. Especially if you're struggling like I did with binging.

4. Face your giants. I'm not talking about your trigger foods or your most hated exercise machine (although, those may help too). What I am talking about is the emotional side of things. Why are you overweight? What in your past has brought you to this point? Why are you using food as a crutch? Are you addicted to food? I faced all of these and man, was it hard! I'm not done dealing with everything, but I've waded through a considerable amount of emotions, cried a lot of tears, and faced the things deep down that were keeping me from succeeding. If you have absolutely no idea where to start, go to Netflix and watch the show Ruby. Oh my goodness, she is so encouraging! There are only 3 seasons on Netflix and the fourth you'd have to purchase (which I have not done yet, but probably will) on itunes. Join her facebook page and youtube channel too- she is amazing! Anyhow, there are some episodes that get to the nitty gritty. She has a group called "Woman's Fat Night" and had a 12 step counselor come and speak. That was when I really started dealing with some junk way down deep. I came to the knowledge that I had a food addiction. Then, I found that addiction ran deep in my family- not just with food but with alchohol too. I dealt with that spiritually and broke that off my life (you have no idea how much your family lines can affect you- you have to literally take a stand as say, "No, not me!"). I literally stated, "I reject addiction! I will not allow it to take hold of my life!" Once I did that, it was so much easier. Do I still crave bad things? Of course, but I don't allow it to have power over me like it once did. Maybe you need extra help to sort out emotions. There are trained counselors, there are free 12 step programs such as overeaters anonymous, and maybe there is a trusted friend or congregational leader that you can reach out to. If you need help, get it. Once you deal with the emotional side of things it makes eating right so much easier!

5. Do your research. Find out if the number of calories you are eating is right for you. Find out what the health benefits are to various eating plans. Low carb, veganism, juicing, low fat, paleo, etc. Before you decide to go all gung-ho on a particular eating plan peruse a few websites and look at the pros and cons. But remember, its all about calories in, calories out. No matter what anybody tells you, if you are eating too much or too little you will not lose weight.

6. Exercise. Yeah, I'm gonna say it- "Just do it". Find what works for you. Try new things. Definitely stretch though to prevent major DOMS! Trust me on that one! Don't just give strength training a fleeting glance though. Its important. I try to train with heavy weights as much as possible, although I know my limitations and am not willing to injure myself. Right now I'm doing a 25 lb sandbag. I try to focus on exercises that get multiple muscle groups- like squats, lunges, and pushups. Oh and one other thing- check out youtube. If you have limited resources, there is pretty much anykind of workout on there. Right now I am into the Fitness Blender channel on youtube. There is also beingfatsucks and lionsgatebefit to name a couple off the top of my head. If you're looking for a particular trainer or style of workout chances are its on there. I've done Walk Away the Pounds, Tae Bo, Jillian Michaels, Kathy Smith, and Denise Austin. I think there's even Zumba and Hip Hop Abs.

I said all of that to say this: Don't give up. Don't quit. You owe it to yourself to make the turnaround and REALLY succeed. Do what you gotta do to make it stick, but DON'T EVER QUIT!

  
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SHERYLP461 3/25/2014 7:56AM

    I think you summed it up with the Don't Quit!

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Taking a bit of a Hiatus

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

In case anybody starts wondering where I am... I have some friends that use another site and they have encouraged me to try it out with them. I figured I'd give it a try. I actually logged in all of my calories today and have been chatting with these friends of mine from my childhood days. It seems to be the push that I needed and I am getting very involved already and finding people just like me. After all, this journey is about what works for me and right now a change is what I need.

  
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KTLASERS 12/26/2013 5:49PM

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SDLOV3R 12/26/2013 6:43AM

    Sounds great! Weight loss is all about finding the right motivation. Which site is it?

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BTRX71 12/26/2013 5:27AM

    Best of luck to you!!!

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UNSWEETMAMA 12/25/2013 10:48PM

    Good luck and best wishes with whatever works best for you.
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BOSS61 12/25/2013 11:10AM

    Alrightly. Cough it up. What site?

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THINFITKINDVGAN 12/25/2013 6:11AM

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TXPATRIOT 12/25/2013 1:00AM

    Best wishes!

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CHIBIKARATE 12/25/2013 12:49AM

    What site and enjoy your holiday hugz

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Some Pictures and Goals

Thursday, December 19, 2013

Right now I am oil pulling. Yeah, that's right. I am using oil as a mouth wash. I had been intending to do it for some time. Even bought some oil for it. Probably not the exact oil I should be using- grapeseed- but I did look it up yesterday and found that I can indeed use that kind, although its not the best. I couldn't remember what kind to get when I was at Walmart... I knew coconut oil but I knew that there were some others as well. Turns out grapeseed wasn't the ones I was thinking of. So, I had done it once when I bought it a couple months back, but kept forgetting. I decided to go ahead tonight. I put some fresh squeezed lemon into the tablespoon worth of oil. I probably shouldn't do that on a regular basis but I figured that it would help me get through it this time. The other time I only lasted a minute before I got grossed out and spit it out. Its easier than I thought this time around. Specially with the lemon.

Other than that, the only thing I wanted to mention is that I am formulating a plan for January. I know for sure that I am going to do a juice fast. Probably for 3 days. The other things that I want to do is my homemade soups and homemade yogurt. I plan to do dark chocolate as my dessert, almond milk and stevia as my coffee creamer. I want to get back into fermented foods.

Oh, and my birthday is in January. I want to go non-traditional route with that and choose a meal and a dessert that is healthy or healthier so to speak. Haven't exactly figured out what that will be yet.

I tried to take a picture of me pre oil pulling, but it didn't turn out well. However, while uploading that one that I won't share onto my computer, I ran into a few that I will share. Keep in mind that these are from last year.

The first is from Channukah 2012. At this time I was about 236 lbs- slightly less than I am now.


Next is Purim 2012 sometime in Feb I believe. This is how I look in a formal dress. I'm not sure of my weight but its somewhere in the low 230's.


Finally, here are some pictures that were taken just before starting a juice fast in February. I don't know why I never uploaded them before. I think that I was about what I am now- in the high 230's or low 240's.





I'm thinking of growing my hair back out, LOL. So, I posted these pictures because I seem to be pretty much back where I started. Its been a hard year. A year that I would erase if I could. But I can't. I'll try and get a decent photo of myself tomorrow and post that soon. I think I'll start taking them often to show the results both in the oil pulling and in the weight.

Oh- and I made it 14 min on the oil pulling.





  
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AALLEY2 12/20/2013 8:38PM

    Never heard of oil pulling either. Thanks for reminding me to use my Stevie and almond milk for creamer! emoticon emoticon

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SHERYLDS 12/20/2013 8:15AM

    oil pulling.....interesting.....learn something new every day
good luck with your plans

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THINFITKINDVGAN 12/20/2013 5:15AM

    Great pics and great job on the oil pulling. I love doing that myself and use coconut oil.



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KTLASERS 12/20/2013 3:02AM

    I keep meaning to start oil pulling. I always remember when I'm already way too late for bed, though. emoticon

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IMAVISION 12/20/2013 1:19AM

    Oil pulling? Never heard of it --- will have to do some research!

God bless!

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LOTUSBURGER 12/20/2013 1:15AM

    I tried that for a few days......hmmmm, can't wait to hear what you think.

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HARPIE 12/19/2013 11:37PM

  What is the purpose of oil pulling?

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FLAMENM 12/19/2013 11:23PM

    Great job on the oil pulling. I've always wondered what that was like...

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Yoga from a Biblical Standpoint

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

This may not interest all of my spark friends but might be of interest to some who claim Christianity or Messianic Judaism like me.

I think I mentioned before that I had intended to do Yoga on Tuesdays and Thursdays. I know that there are some people who have a major problem with Yoga. As a believer, I have always thought that there is nothing wrong with Yoga as long as I do not pay tribute to any of the Hindu gods. I did some research on it today because I wanted to make sure, before I got heavily involved in yoga, that I could honestly say I'd done my research. I did find out that the yoga poses were created to worship Hindu gods. That didn't set well with me. Yet at the same time, I don't want to be one of those people that throws the baby out with the bathwater. I've seen it time and time again. People will get so over zealous about removing anything from their life that might have some root of evil in it that there's not much left that they can do. Then, when its too much to bear, they just go back to all their old ways- sometimes completely burned out on G-d altogether. When a decision is made, it has to be genuine. It can't be made because that person said this and this person said that. It can't be done to please others and it can't be done on a whim. I say that because I've made some of those tough decisions- like when I chose to quit celebrating Christmas and stop eating pork and shellfish. I don't push my beliefs on anyone. It is not for me to judge. But, I know that those were decisions that I needed to make and I've never looked back, never regretted them, never changed my mind.

With that in mind, I set out to make a decision that was right for me. I thought about when the Apostle Paul talked about eating meat offered to idols- that it wasn't the meat itself that harmed a person. He talked more about not offending someone. I think that in this sense its not just offending someone, but creating a stumbling block. So, I think that doing Yoga poses in and of themselves for health purposes is fine but that if it was offensive to another its not good. By that I don't mean when this person or that gets a proud aire and says, "Hmph, I would never do that. She must not have a right relationship with G-d." But if I were to lead someone astray to quit serving the G-d of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob and begin to serve idols; then that is what the Apostle Paul is talking about. I did make one decision- that traditional yoga with all the Hindu meditation is not for me. I don't feel comfortable with awakening my chakra or any of those types of things. I like the poses themselves for strength and flexibility, but any version that is more "spiritual" in the eastern religion sense is not for me. Most of the sites that claimed that Yoga is wrong stated that it is wrong because Hinduists will tell you that it cannot be separated from the religion. That's where I got a little belligerent. Really? Someone is going to tell me what I can and cannot do religiously? No one can control my mind or my heart. It reminds me of the people that tell my husband and I that we cannot be Jewish and believe in Jesus. Um, no, we can and we will.

There was one website that I was especially interested in. Its www.praisemoves.com and looks like something that I could invest in for homeschooling. PE is apparently the most neglected subject in homeschooling. I liked how many of her poses were G-d centered or based on the Hebrew Aleph-Bet. She even has one specifically for kids. However, this is not something that I can afford at this time and there wasn't much on youtube although there were a couple of videos. What I did find on Youtube was the channel called Holy Yoga. This appealed to me because very worshipful Christian music was played and there was most definitely a G-dly presence. That is the one that I will do tomorrow. I'm not even going to go as far as saying that I will not do any secular based yoga at all. I watched a Jillian Michael's yoga video on youtube and I didn't see anything weird or off spiritually. If that is something that I need to change at a later date then I will do so. If it turns out there are specific poses that I do not feel comfortable with, then I just won't do them.

In closing, I'm not making any grand statements or shoving anything down anyone's throat. However, I believe that when making a decision, one must always do research and be well informed. I think that holds true to everybody regardless of religion. Know what you believe and practice what you preach. Nothing aggravates me more than someone who spouts off about something with little to no knowledge about whatever it is that they are being dogmatic about. I appreciate people who intelligently research things and make decisions based on truth.

  
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IMREITE 12/11/2013 1:16AM

    i like yoga for dummies. it focuses on the breath and movement. i will admit i dont like meditation during yoga. i prefer to focus on breath and my range of motion when i stretch. i sometimes will offer a short prayer before i start but otherwise i try to get my mind clear so i can do moves with proper alignment.

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ENDUROVET 12/10/2013 6:07PM

    Thanks for posting - I have recently started a book about the history (& controversy) of yoga in America, "The Great Om"... I'll try to post a book review when I finish it!

I have dabbled w/yoga for many years, & never felt it interfered w/my spirituality.

Also putting in a vote for DDP "Yoga for Regular Guys" - just exercise, no spiritual emphasis! Not to mention Diamond Dallas Page is a hoot.

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MKC12108 12/10/2013 12:01PM

  Thank you for sharing your findings. I have found out that find that sometimes you have to adapt things to your life and situation no matter what other people feel or believe.

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UNSWEETMAMA 12/10/2013 11:22AM

    If you have a few minutes, you may want to read this article about how yoga poses may have been "borrowed" from Scandinavian gymnastics.

http://www.yogajournal.com/
wisdom/2610

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WENDYSPARKS 12/10/2013 9:29AM

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CHRIAMARIA1983 12/10/2013 9:28AM

    One little update to my research- if anyone is interested- the religious "non-yoga" program I mentioned forms some poses based on the Hebrew Aleph- Bet. I'd mentioned that bit, but in further study I found that there is an actual form of this called Ophanim. Its based in Kabbalah which is Jewish mysticism. I wonder if the lady who created that program was aware of this. If one would be against the practice of Hinduism they would also be against the practice of Kabbalah. It just proved to me more that you can't strictly take a few body stretches and label them as idol worship just based on the moves themselves. G-d created our bodies to move and we need to honor Him in our workouts.

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FEMISLIM 12/10/2013 8:51AM

    Thanks for sharing. Remain blessed!!'

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MSFROGGIE 12/10/2013 8:14AM

    Thank you for sharing. And it's between you and God. He knows your heart, and that is what matters!

Have fun!

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CELIAMINER 12/10/2013 6:14AM

    Guess I'm lucky to practice in a studio that focuses on making me stronger and more flexible. In the years I've practiced there, not one instructor has mentioned any gods, and the meditation involves going inside myself to find my stillness. There is nothing magical or worshipful about yoga poses unless you choose to acknowledge them as such, and I don't.

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HORSEHABIT 12/10/2013 5:45AM

    You blog was very interesting- thanks for sharing.
I'm thinking "pilates"...altho I haven't looked that up either!
Have a Blessed day!!!
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THINFITKINDVGAN 12/10/2013 5:28AM

    I applaud your research and adherence to your religious beliefs.

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BTRX71 12/10/2013 1:23AM

    Good for you! I admire that you researched for yourself and decided what would be right for YOU. Enjoy your workouts!

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In An Effort To Be Honest

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

I wanted to lie about this. I wanted to pretend that it didn't happen. But I decided to suck it up and be honest with myself, my spark tracker, and my spark friends. My embarrassment adds up to just one word: CAKE.

I did good yesterday. I came in under in calories but went to bed hungry. Drank water- not as much as I should have but made an effort in that direction. Told myself I wouldn't cave in to that homemade cake from the baby shower. Didn't.

3AM. Woke up thirsty due to the heater being on cuz its winter. Wandered into the kitchen to get water. Before I knew it cake was in mouth. Then pepsi and more cake. Bad, bad, bad. I didn't regret it till I went back to bed. It was then that I remembered that Channukah and Thanksgiving are coming up. Pfft. I really felt bad then and felt like giving up until this holiday mess is over and done with. I'm so tired of sweets being all around me. I never buy any of this stuff. It gets sent home with our room- mates because there are so many of us in this house (8- 4 of them kids). I try and have willpower and resist. I'll resist for days and days and then when its still there (because people will leave huge amounts of food at their house when they have Shabbat services on Fri or people send stuff from Bible study on Wed) I cave in big time. This time I didn't even make it 2 days before I caved.

When I logged in and read the comments on my blog I decided not to give up. Maybe someone is struggling just like me and is afraid to admit it. I'm just going to keep plugging away. I am going to keep track of my food even on days that I mess up. I am going to eat healthy during the day all of Channukah and then indulge at night. I'm going to try to limit myself though and not go overboard. And again, I am going to track it. I can't promise that I will be perfect. I'm not good at being perfect.

Today I tracked my splurge. That means I'll be over in calories. I am not going to skip lunch or dinner in effort to make up for my indiscretion, but I am going to try and eat less.

I think that sugar is really like a drug. I got this unexplainable surge in the roof of my mouth after eating my cake. I only get that feeling after eating a lot of sugar. It may take me awhile to break my addiction, but I guess admitting that I am addicted to the drug of sugar is the first step.

I can't wait until we move. I know that there will still be temptations. I know that my husband will still want his sweets and so will the kids. There will still be parties, there will still be people trying to send food home with me (I can refuse though or only agree to take a small portion), but I will have more control than I do now about what is in the house. Is only a few days until we move! I can't wait!

  
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SDLOV3R 11/26/2013 10:05PM

    You CAN do this. Keep pushing, hun. HUGS!

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LOTUSBURGER 11/26/2013 2:34PM

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IMAVISION 11/26/2013 1:47PM

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God bless!

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TAYGRL 11/26/2013 1:11PM

    All I want to say is that I hope you didn't beat yourself up too much.

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MIMMICA 11/26/2013 12:48PM

    The most important thing is that you didn't give up!

You can't feel bad about eating the cake. You tracked it all, and you were honest. Chances are that you may end up doing it again. As long as it's not happening every single day, you'll be ok.

Keep up the good work!

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MILPAM3 11/26/2013 12:36PM

  Admission is the first step to a good plan to improve.

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KIMPY225 11/26/2013 12:36PM

    Thanks for admitting this - many people don't like saying the tough times - but it happens to all of us!
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AZURE-SKY 11/26/2013 12:25PM

  Don't give up for the holidays, or you'll just have more to lose afterwards, and will be even more discouraged.

When I have cake in the house, I cut it into single portions, wrap in plastic and freeze it. Most cakes freeze well. If it's not on the counter staring me in the face, I often forget about it. And, I've never been desperate enough to try to eat a piece of frozen cake - LOL.

I do the same with homemade cookies, leftover pizza, even chocolate candy.

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CINDYAST 11/26/2013 12:05PM

    It's good that you've decided to not give up until after the holidays. I read a post not long ago that said
"Saying 'Oh I've already ruined my good eating today, I'll just eat crap. Is like saying, 'Oh I dropped my cell phone on the floor. I'll just take a hammer to it and smash it until it breaks.'"
We've all been there at one time or another, stick with it, you can do it!
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UNSWEETMAMA 11/26/2013 11:42AM

    I believe tracking is an excellent tool. You are right to not skip any meals today.
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