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Warm, Then NOT! Then SNOW!!

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

It was 85 degrees when I woke up today, HOT in the house I was SWEATING profusely in a tank top night shirt! Then it stormed and was humid as hell, but cooler, then it got downright COLD and I ma back in my fuzzy fleece! Bottom line to all this: My sinuses have been pissed all day and I have had less than zero energy and a chronic sinus headache! emoticon My eyes feel like they are going to explode out of my skull! Boo! I am doing an overnight tomorrow, I have to try and stay up tonight to prepare. Planning on the Y at 8:45 tomorrow night before work at 10p.

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LPRUNWALK 4/16/2014 12:09AM

    Yup, snow up this way too. :(
My daughter screeched with indignation this morning when she saw that the world was covered in white stuff AGAIN.
So annoying. But it has to be over soon.
Has it ever snowed on your birthday? It snowed on mine once -- May 11. I was living in Andover, Mass. at the time.
Hope the sinuses improve. Lots of advice from others here. I like the netti pot. Actually we use the Nasal Jr., which is more of a syringe than a pot, but it's the same idea. Pretty awful process, but really effective!

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EDDYMEESE 4/15/2014 3:39PM

    OMG such seasonal whiplash!

Hope your overnight went well!

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MRS.CARLY 4/15/2014 3:34PM

    This weather is insane, thats all i can say.

I hope you are feeling better!!!! I think in may, we will finally be done with the wishy washy weather!

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LILY_SPARK 4/15/2014 12:03PM

    We didn't have 85 but it snowed like mad last night (hard freeze but no accumulation this AM).

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WOUBBIE 4/15/2014 11:31AM

    Ugh. Seasonal allergies coupled with unseasonable seasons = head misery.

Just started flaking here a few minutes ago. Bleh. Time for "Let's Pretend!"

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JSTETSER 4/15/2014 6:38AM

    Feel better soon!

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RASPBERRY56 4/15/2014 5:47AM

    I simply *cannot believe* just how extreme this weather has been throughout the US - my area was hit with snow the likes of which I haven't seen in *many years*...........I'm sure my sinuses are starting to feel the impact of this (I sometimes get dizzy when the sinuses are whacked out badly enough)..........hope you feel better!

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_RAMONA 4/15/2014 1:37AM


It's snowing here, too.

I hope you have a better day tomorrow.... have you ever treid oil pulling for our sinuses? Since I started, I haven't had any trouble with mine, and I used to have chronic sinusitis.

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Friday, April 11, 2014

It was 70 degrees here today!! emoticon emoticon emoticon Charlie woke me up early being naughty, which I was mad about! He had my stockings and taunted me with them! I am NOT a morning person, so I was mad that he woke me up in the first place at a little after 9am, and then he was taunting me to boot?! NO. Straight into the crate he went! I was too mad to go back to sleep, so I just got up. He was doing so well, and now he is on his last strike before he is back to being crated when we are sleeping too. I like cuddling with him, but he also just ate a shoe the other day, the insole to my shoe this weekend and now took my stockings! All while I was sleeping! SO he does it again, its back in the crate for naughty boy! emoticon

He was right, that it was a nice day and I should get up though! But taking my things is not the way to accomplish that! He used to wake me with puppy kisses, which is much more acceptable. I still might have been mad for a minute, but then I would think "Aww he's too stinkin cute!" and get up! I guess I should have told him my alarm was set to take him for a walk anyway?! emoticon We had a nice 45 minute walk, along the Erie canal, which I spent most of it trying to keep him from diving into!! I was not prepared today for swimming! No towels, and not that much time before work. Plus the water has to be frigid still! ALL I said for 45 minutes was "EH-EH! LEAVE IT!" "good boy!" "Eh-EH! LEAVE IT!" "good boy." emoticon

After work I went to the Y because I had not done my strength training. I walked, I went on the elliptical (for me is ST for my legs! It hurts!) and I did the weight circuit. I cooled down with another short walk, and stretched. I got over 15,000 steps today!! But that darn Fitbit site gave me only 28 instead of 30 Very Active minutes!! I want ALL my smiley faces!! Dumb, I know. But I want to see ALL the boxes light up with smiles!

I am on my way to getting fit for Jamaica! I must say the more I force myself to the Y, the better it feels. Gotta keep on the roll! I can't go tomorrow, but I will try and change my rest days so I have Fri, Sat off then go all next week until Sat. emoticon

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EDDYMEESE 4/15/2014 3:38PM

    Ugh, my poor fitbit did not survive for long.

Now I'm using "moves" on my iPhone but have to lug it around!

LOL @ "eh-eh, leave it"! Sounds like my mantra on a walk!

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_RAMONA 4/14/2014 11:30AM

    Aren't you just awesome-sauce?!

...walking with your Charlie is not all that different than walking with my Divine Miss O, LOL!


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MRS.CARLY 4/13/2014 9:47PM

    You are doing great! That is an awesome number on the fitbit!

I remember when baby was a puppy, omg she chewed up everything. I had to pay extra when I left my apartment because she chewed up the blinds. Those days are long gone. Both dogs are senior citizens now and much more well behaved. I don't know if I could do the puppy stage all over again, but I'm sure I will have to one day because I know my babies won't live forever emoticon

You are gonna be SMOKIN hot for Jamaica

P.S. we have had a few days getting up to the 90's down here !

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JSTETSER 4/13/2014 6:47AM

    I'm looking at a 70 degree day today!

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PRUSSIANETTE 4/11/2014 3:26PM

  Yes, the nicest day of the year here too!! We needed this soooo much... emoticon

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LILY_SPARK 4/11/2014 12:28PM


I'm sure you have a zillion toys for him but have you done the 'replace' training? When he has something he shouldn't, take it from him and shove the GOOD thing in his mouth and make it fun.

Bobby doesn't have too many toys. I always keep him a 'hedgehog' small thing. He tears them apart quickly and I just let him keep the gnarly de-flated toy (no more stuffing or squeaker inside) til I get a new one (about 2 a year). I know it's gross but he still loves it. He also has A SOCK (just a sock) and then 3 tennis balls inside 2 socks that are knotted at both ends. I replace the socks when a tear happens.

In other words: he loves our old socks!

You'd think that would confuse him but the most he does is 'kiss' (lick) my shoes.

I'd definitely make it a point to 'correct' by shoving a GOOD thing in his mouf :)

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ZRIE014 4/11/2014 12:34AM

  have a good day

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First Hike of the Season!!

Monday, April 07, 2014

Yay!! Bring on the mud Mommy!! He snuck a swim I wasn't going to let him do as well! I was trying to navigate a tough area, and he just dropped right in the creek out of nowhere! He does that when I don't LET him go in! emoticon Trail conditions were all over the place! Some of it perfect, some muddy, some just a little wet, some completely flooded shin deep, some still had snow! All in a 3.5 mile loop! It was great to get out there though, and I realized how much I have missed my trails! The quiet of the woods, the scenery, the sunlight, the peace. Charlie always does something cute, and today was no exception. There were some very frightened miniature dogs, I am not sure of the breed, looked like tiny whippets. He was so gentle with them, and so careful while meeting with them, it was adorable! He reassured them that big dogs aren't all bad!

After that, I showered, ate, and went out shoe shopping. Need something for my dress, what I have are not appropriate. Everything closes early Sunday so I have to go back out tomorrow, I didn't find anything. I am looking for flats, that have a little bling or some shine to make them look more like dress shoes. I prefer black, but we will see what I can find to go with purple.

Have to get up early tomorrow, lots to do! Food prep, some spring cleaning, rotating winter and spring shoes and clothes, the list goes on! A neighbor, also in the fire department, is coming over to go shoe shopping with me again. Neither one of us found anything. I would like to get out on the trails again too if it's nice out. We shall see!

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EDDYMEESE 4/8/2014 9:03PM

    Trail running/hiking is the absolute best! The scenery, the quiet, the nature. I love it. I hope I can take the dogs out this year - I'm worried about Shandi running with her bum cancer leg :/

I'm curious what color flats you got! With my purple dress for my brother's wedding I got gold strappy heels :) They looked great. Gold or silver is always a good choice and you can get them simple without extra bling because the are blingy on their own!

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NAYPOOIE 4/7/2014 4:59PM

    Gotta love dogs!

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LILY_SPARK 4/7/2014 11:58AM

    Good boy, Charlie!

Remember those brooches for shoes in the 80s? You could maybe find them. It was bling for shoes that slipped on and off.

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_RAMONA 4/7/2014 10:54AM

    Your dog is so cute and looks so happy! :)

I can't wait until things have melted and dried up around here! Nothing liek a great hike!


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WOUBBIE 4/7/2014 10:48AM

    That look just says "Come on, let's go, Mom!" So cute!

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JSTETSER 4/7/2014 5:44AM

    Dogs make great hiking partners!

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HOUNDLOVER1 4/7/2014 2:54AM

    So glad you got a hike in. I've not done any real hiking in a while, looking forward to getting in the woods later this spring.
I love dogs, they always remind me that I shouldn't try to be in control all the time. emoticon

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SKATER787 4/7/2014 1:53AM

    Excellent. Nice dog! emoticon

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Heart Concert!

Saturday, April 05, 2014

We had a great time! It was funny because we go there early and everyone around us was older! We were confused because we know they were popular in the 80's too! We then started to see people our age trickle in later. Either they knew the venue well (we hadn't been there in a long time so weren't sure) or people our age just aren't prompt! emoticon It was very funny too seeing all the 80's hair in the crowd!

The band was amazing! It is awesome to me that these women are 60 years old and they still perform as they always have! There is a power to Ann Wilson's voice that is just beyond what I have words for. A great inspiration to me!
Me and DH waiting...

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EDDYMEESE 4/8/2014 9:00PM

    Awesome - cute pic of you and DH!

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_RAMONA 4/5/2014 12:47PM

    ...where's the green with envy emoticon?!?


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WOUBBIE 4/5/2014 10:36AM

    Love them! Last time I watched them was a video of them playing Stairway to Heaven for Led Zeppelin - the boys were actually crying.

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MJEFFERSON23 4/5/2014 10:25AM

  Sounds like fun! Heart rocks!

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MRS.CARLY 4/5/2014 8:32AM

    Looks like a fun date night!

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DIANITAH 4/5/2014 1:29AM

    I had a similar reaction at a Bryan Adams concert...

Why are all these old people here?


Glad you had fun!

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Thoughts On Time And My Life...

Friday, April 04, 2014

Last night as I was up way too late again and bored, I was scrolling through FB posts after I couldn't do another practical task. As I was seeing other people's posts and thinking about milestones coming up, I realized that my life is so amazingly different than it was 10 years ago! Even 5! It is just amazing to me how much things can change even though you don't always choose it or see it coming. My post would not fit here as my status.

The abbreviated version: 10 years ago, this time of year, I was both excited about planning a wedding in October, found my dress, and was happy about that! I couldn't wait to share it with my Mom, who couldn't come to pick it out with me as she was home sick from chemo and radiation. This had been the case before, she beat breast cancer in 1997, so I was not prepared. Yes, she needed a lot of care and her boyfriend was useless. I still thought she would recover again. After about a hellish year of little sleep and running myself ragged running 2 households, I became her hospice caretaker and struggled through the worst time of my life! My life has not been easy any time, I have learned to suck up a lot, but I was so traumatized by all this, I couldn't even SPEAK to people half the time. It was either sit quietly, and hold myself IN, or lose it completely and not go on. I held it together, other than trying to physically hurt my Mom's boyfriend at one point, as he stole her Oxycontin to get high, and then had the guts to complain to ME about some trivial BS!! While he sat there and refused to help take care of her!!! The morning she passed away, the flood gates opened!! I was not functional for about 2 weeks, maybe longer. She passed away 5/4/04. Just in time to make my birthday (5/9) hard. I don't really like my birthday anymore. I usually keep it low key.

So, 5 years after that, I decided to get myself and MY health together! It took about 5 years to settle her estate and calm down from all that and just LIVE again! I did the hardest thing after that, and quit smoking. It was ridiculously hard for me, and the withdrawal was unbelievable! I was a true chemical addict, with also a component of using it to numb my emotions. I spent months crying or yelling because I couldn't cope anymore! It masked my GI disruptions, which I soon figured out were numerous.

My motivations for doing it soon evaporated, and my BP never even improved, which was one reason my doc pushed me to quit! But I held on and joined SP! I started running and continued working on my health and fitness and here I am today! I am heavier than I was then, but I am stronger and most certainly healthier. Yes, I came here to lose weight, but to me my fitness and overall health is much more important anyway. I WILL NOT become my mother! She literally fell apart starting at 30-35, and it was a neverending cascade of problems until her death at 50. I had to take on more than anyone should when this all started. I don't want to be sick, and I don't want to burden anyone with the mess I had to deal with either!

Now, my everyday life has changed, my focus has changed, our lifestyle has changed immensely for the better! I buy better food, we have more active lifestyles. When we go on trips, I LOOK for ways to be active outside and workout! We are going back to Jamaica, I will actually WANT do do the physical stuff, that I didn't before! I want to run on the beach!! Barefoot!!

Since I am now almost 40 and have not had a major illness or hospitalization, I feel I am meeting my goal! I am NOT turning into my mother health wise! I may be in other ways, but I have surpassed that 30-35 year old decline! I am ahead already and am thankful for that time! My gene pool is not a good one for every major problem is there! I just hope to at least stall it and maybe even win this spin of the roulette wheel!

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EDDYMEESE 4/8/2014 9:00PM

    It is amazing how little we know of the struggles of others and what makes them who they are...You truly have come a long way in such a a short amount of time and only continue to make strides in the direction that you've chosen. True courage means pushing through the fear and doubt and you do that every single day.

Good for you quitting smoking - I know how hard that is.

I totally get that feeling of wanting to run on the Inside, we feel like we can fly...we just want our bodies to match how we feel! As you said, you may be heavier than you were back then, but you are absolutely healthier. It is taking me time, but I am learning that the number on the scale is NOT a measure of our fitness!

I can't wait for some amazing Jamaica pics :)

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JSTETSER 4/7/2014 5:42AM

    Keep moving forward!

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PRUSSIANETTE 4/6/2014 10:23AM

  Whoa, Cindy, you truly did have a rough time, there. Both of my parents died when I was in my 30's--my Dad from Leukemia and lymphoma, my Mom from atrial fibrillation that triggered ventricular fibrillation. So, not only were you younger, you had less of a support system, and had to deal with that jerk of a boyfriend! And.....although I had to settle the estate, it only took me a year--OMG ---it took FIVE years???!!! I suspect you could write a whole other blog on that issue!

But, I really "get" how your Mom's death motivated you to get healthier. When my Dad was dying of cancer, I was in my early 30s. I remember the weaker my Dad would get, the harder I pumped iron at the gym. I mean I would get this vision of my Dad's shrinking, weak, bony body (and he was a very strong man prior to cancer), and I just kept pumping that iron!! The men were in awe of me--some actually embarrassed because I was using the same weights they were. They never knew what was motivating me.

Good luck on you journey to healing (in every sense of the word)!!

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MRS.CARLY 4/5/2014 8:36AM

    What an amazing story of strength! Losing your mom had to have been incredibly hard and a really difficult point in your life, but man did you persevere!!!

I know your family, friends, and husband is so incredibly proud of how far you have come, and I know us sparkers are too!!

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SKATER787 4/4/2014 6:52PM

    Sorry to hear about your mom. Check out this video if you can. I've been doing research on various cancers. I like Dr. Bob. I think he's good. Japanese women have 1/10th of breast cancer rate compared to the U.S. I think there's a lot we can learn from the Japanese but we are not because the medical establishment is only interested in keeping status quo. There is no real preventative advice given.

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LPRUNWALK 4/4/2014 1:31PM

    Cindy, I knew some of this, but not all of it. When I think of you doing your mom's hospice care and then losing her at such a young age it makes me cry. What you've been through is nothing short of traumatic, and traumas transform us like almost nothing else. Your response has been heroic. You could have caved in to your genetics, said oh well, I'm going to die early anyway, pass the poutine, but you didn't. You have saved your own life and are prolonging and improving it with every right decision you make on the health front. I just know your Mom is out there doing happy dance and looking forward to your birthday. I like to think that a little cosmic crack opens on special days like that where we get a smidge more access than usual to our lost loved ones. It's a bit of a crackpot theory, but I cling to it and look for evidence that my Grandmother and my Dad and my boyfriend James are out there waving and cheering me on from the other side. xo

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_RAMONA 4/4/2014 12:29PM

    What an amazing journey, Cindy! I can only imagine how proud your mom is of you... the one thing every mom wants is for life to be better for her children, than it was for her.

I pray for you that now is your time for all of the changes to bear wonderful fruit, and that every day is a new manifestation of goodness and change!


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WOUBBIE 4/4/2014 9:12AM

    (((hugs))) Thank you so much for sharing that! I can only imagine your mom weeping with relief that her daughter won't have to go through the same awful struggles that she did. You've done a wonderful job of getting yourself through rough times and coming out on the other side stronger and healthier!


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JSTETSER 4/4/2014 7:06AM

    You are AMAZING!
I am 58, and my story is quite similar.

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HOUNDLOVER1 4/4/2014 2:32AM

    That is an amazing story. I had no idea how far you have really come. I'm glad that you are making so many good changes. I have times where I don't keep up with many things at all but I don't mind any more. My priorities are now people who are close to me first, then my animals and then everything else.
It is very important to make time for ourselves and treat ourselves just as well as we do our loved ones. That can be easy to forget.

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