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Addicted to chocolate?

Thursday, September 18, 2014

I wonder if I'm addicted to chocolate. I think about it all the time. When I am upset, I want chocolate. When I am happy, I want chocolate. When I am bored, I want chocolate. When I am uncertain, I want chocolate. When I want to reward myself, I want chocolate. And, when I eat chocolate, all I want is MORE CHOCOLATE! At least it's not the first thing I think about in the morning. No, that's probably coffee.

I feel silly. Yet, at the same time, I can see the 12 Steps applying here to some extent:

1: I feel a little powerless over my desire to eat chocolate.
2, 3: I believe that God can restore me to sanity, and I turn my life over to Him.
4: It's time to make a fearless examination of myself, seeing how I substitute chocolate for my need for God.
5, 6, 7: I admit to God, to myself and to all of you reading this, that I have been approaching food the wrong way, and I know God will help correct this in me and I humbly ask Him to do so.
8, 9: If there is anyone I have wronged by my behavior, I will right that wrong.
10, 11, 12: I will seek the Lord at all times, and in so doing, will grow closer to Him and lead others to Him as well.

I think that's worth working on!

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PATTYCAKE17 10/18/2014 1:29PM

    If GODS_SERENITY is correct, and she probably is, then perhaps a calcium-magnesium tablet with your vitamins might help. I have been taking one for more than a year and I really don't have the craving for chocolate anymore, Also, I rarely come in contact with chocolate anymore, so maybe out of sight is out of mind. Don't know for sure. I'm just so grateful that when I recently prayed for Him to take my huge compulsive appetite from me, He did!!that's when I started crocheting instead of snacking compulsively, and it became a win-win blessing while serving God!

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GODS_SERENITY 9/26/2014 11:34AM

    Usually if your craving chocolate it could be your low on magnesium. Try aiming for more magnesium and see if that helps. I know this week I was craving chocolate. Now the milk chocolate is of no value. BUT Dark chocolate does have magnesium in it. Only 1-2 squares though! If that doesn't help then could be an addiction. I'll be praying for you either way! Seeking the Lord is your best way first. You can have victory! emoticon emoticon

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DJ4HEALTH 9/18/2014 10:04PM

    Is it milk chocolate or dark? If you are eating the milk then it is the sugar that is driving the cravings for it. Switch to the dark and go at it slowly because it is bitter but then it tastes better because you get more of the chocolate taste

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PURPLEPEONY 9/18/2014 8:42PM

    I think everyone has one food that is irresistible. Ironically I`ve found the more I abstain from sweets the least desirable they become. Maybe you have a magnesium deficiency, doctors claim it can cause chocolate cravings. As long as it`s not in my house I don`t think about it. If chocolate was here I`d dream about it too until I ate it all.

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When given the choice, don't choose like Lot

Monday, September 15, 2014

This morning as I was reading and praying Genesis 13, God reminded me not to choose like Lot. Abram and Lot had been traveling together, and both had large herds and many possessions. Fights broke out between Abram's herders and Lot's herders. So it was necessary to part ways.

Abram gave Lot the first choice of where to go, and Lot chose in the direction of Zoar, where the "whole Jordan Plan was well watered like the Lord's garden or like Egypt." (Genesis 13:10, God's Word Translation) That sounds like a logical choice, right? The land looks good, not much has to be done to make it work well for the livestock--yes, it will be easy going from here on out. But as we find out in subsequent chapters, all does not go well for Lot.

This is a message for us, too. How often do we choose the easy way out? How often do we say, "Oh, I would just like to eat that candy bar. It's there, I'm hungry and it will make me happy." But one bad choice leads to another and before we know it, we have gained more weight and feel worse than we did when we made the decision to eat the unhealthy food. It doesn't make us happy.

Rather, choose God's way. Rely on Him, not on your emotional, or even logical choices. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." (Proverbs 3:5-6)


Learning what it means to be hungry

Thursday, July 03, 2014

The past couple days I've been doing partial fasts. I find in doing so that it's like hitting a "restart" button for my eating habits. It wasn't too hard, especially since I drank water whenever I felt "hungry."

I put "hungry" in quotation marks because I realized that I don't necessarily know when I'm really hungry--when I really need food in order to fuel my body, or when it's noon and I should be eating lunch now or it's early evening and it's time for dinner. So much of my eating habits are, well, habits. It had become habitual to eat in the evening. Was I really hungry? I don't think so. I think it had more to do with a block of time that was otherwise unoccupied and I wanted to fill it. Or, I was working on something and got frustrated and food comforted me.

I have never lived in a situation where I have been really hungry, like so much of the world. This puts my own "hunger" in perspective. But there's another side to hunger, a hunger and thirst for the righteousness of God. It occurred to me that I can't know how to hunger for the Lord if I don't know what it means to be hungry!

I think there's more to be said about this, but it's pretty late and I'm getting up early to go to the gym. What do you think? Do you know what it means to feel hunger?


God will transform the situation when we make the sacrifice.

Saturday, May 31, 2014

It's all about sacrifice, isn't it? We have to give up something in order to get something. To get work done, we sacrifice time spent in leisure. We sacrifice for our children so they can have what they need. Jesus sacrificed His life for us so we could have eternal life. Love equals sacrifice.

So, why don't we sacrifice for ourselves? I don't say this in a selfish manner, for there is sacrifice involved, after all. But if we give so much for others, why can't we give up for ourselves?

Today was not a good day for me, foodwise. Lunch was rice crackers with homemade peanut butter, which on one hand isn't so bad...except that I love peanut butter and put LOTS of peanut butter on my crackers. And then, instead of eating an orange and some carrots, I had an ice cream bar. OK. Not so good, but if I control myself I can make it through the day without blowing everything.

I did fine until three o'clock, and then all of a sudden I wanted to do nothing but eat. I don't remember all I ate, but it was quite a bit. More than was necessary for sure. At one point, I realized what I was doing and knew I had to stop and ask God why I can be doing so well with something, and then suddenly blow it. So I sat down and pulled out my prayer journal. I opened it to the last page and found these words that my husband had included in his sermon last Sunday: "God will transform the situation when we make the sacrifice." And I realized I had the answer to my question.

Why do I suddenly blow it? Because I'm not making the sacrifice. I'm not getting up early for quiet time (hence the reason the last entry was notes from last week's sermon), I'm choosing leisure over work, I'm choosing food over reliance on God. I'm being brutally honest here.

But thanks be to God that He is merciful and forgiving! He reveals these things so I can trust Him more. And I'm admitting it to all of you so I can be free! Amen!

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MILPAM3 6/4/2014 8:49PM

  Yes, God can transform any situation, and yes, we must be obedient. It bears saying that our time and God's time are not always the same. Add to that, sometimes when we want our situation changed, God's answer is "no" or "not yet." In our patience we possess our souls. Ah...

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PURPLEPEONY 6/1/2014 11:54PM

    emoticon Thanks for sharing!

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MSBEKANATOR 5/31/2014 8:50PM

    Very thought provoking! So much truth. Thanks for sharing!

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What does my craving look like? A bratty version of myself!

Thursday, April 03, 2014

The question to ponder today is what my craving looks like. The first time I went through "Made to Crave," I think it looked like a big comfy couch, something in which to curl up and forget about the world. But now, as I am consider other studies I'm doing, I'm thinking my craving looks more like me as a spoiled child.

Always looking to do something better...actually it's more like realizing I HAVE to change my behavior or there will be dire consequences...I began working on something that Pam Young (of the Sidetracked Sisters) developed some years ago about naming your inner brat. There is part of us that always wants our own way, and that part of us has to be trained not to be such a brat. This brat does NOT want to get organized or clean or do any of the things she should do. She only wants to do what's fun. So I think my craving looks like that spoiled version of me, who wants ice cream NOW, so I will have it NOW.

In addition to the training of my inner brat, I'm also in a church study group of "Experiencing God," where we are currently learning how when we hear what God wants to do through us, it requires us to adjust our lives to God's call. That is, to not give in to the brat inside us who doesn't want to change. I should say, the brat in ME who doesn't want to change.

Of course, it will get me nowhere to refuse to adjust to God. I will have no witness for others to see God working. So today, when I came home from church, I was a little hungry and thought maybe I would stop at Dairy Queen and get a Mini Flurry. After all, it's small, and I hadn't had any dessert today. I wrestled with myself, especially as I turned the corner and saw the Dairy Queen. But I did NOT stop! If God is going to work through me, I have to say to my inner brat, "No. We will not have ice cream right now. We can have it another time, but not now. It is important for you and I to be able to have self control. You may not like it right now, but you will appreciate it later."

Thank you, Lord, for today's victory, and for loving me AND my inner brat!

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PURPLEPEONY 5/5/2014 5:48PM

    emoticon My inner brat & I constantly battle!

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SUE5007 4/3/2014 6:33PM

    Good for you! emoticon

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