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Still Struggling

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

I have really struggled since coming back from vacation. I start tracking each day - but by dinner I have stopped tracking. Ugh. Don't think I have done a full day yet. I have tried to start back up my exercise routine. Its slow and struggling but this week is better than last week, but it is sooooo frustrating! I go between trying to celebrate small victories and getting so mad at myself for not doing what I KNOW I need to do.

Big Old Yuck


Back From Vacation

Sunday, August 24, 2014

I went to the beach for a week with every intention to track the whole time. But, that lasted about a day. Not only did I not track, but I ate whatever I liked. Amazingly, I got on the scale this morning and it hadn't changed a bit. I didn't burn a zillion calories a day at the maybe that was it....or maybe it won't hit for a week or so. We shall see. Back to tracking today!

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PLMITCH 8/24/2014 5:49PM

    Or maybe you've developed some really good eating habits and that was your reward for the week. Just a thought...


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GRANNIEC1 8/24/2014 12:04PM

    Your back now and headed in the right direction again. You didn't throw in the towel and quit. so kudos to you and good luck, I hope that scale continues to stay where it is emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Why did I just eat that?

Thursday, August 07, 2014

Haven't been feeling great recently, and have been walking instead of running and not working out every day. Add to that an extra dessert here and there and the scale today says I gained almost 5 lbs back. Ugh.

Then I am sitting here not wanting to call someone at work because I know it will be draining and exhausting. Instead of just making the dang call and getting it over with I walked down the hall to the co worker with the chocolate basket (you know the one - there is one - always skinny btw - in every office) and got a big old handful of candy. Several hundred calories later and I still need to make the call, am now regretting eating the junk and actually still feeling like I want more food. WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS PICTURE?!?!?!?!?!?

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  You are stressed like all of us, I do the same thing-and also regret it later. Take a deep breath and make that call!!!!!

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The Changing Palate

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

I am pleased to say I got a cortisone shot in my knee last week and it has helped a lot! I have been able to run on the treadmill and the local train again. I still get really sore in various and sundry places, but it is MUCH more manageable.

What I am really excited to notice recently is my change in taste and craving. I have battled a sweet tooth forever. I am fully addicted in full sugar cokes and I have never met a dessert / candy / sweet snack I couldn't love. But, I am slowly starting to see that evolve.

Last week I made an AMAZING caramel sauce for my dad's birthday party. It has been in my fridge and screaming my name ever since. But, instead of a whole bowl (1 cup) of ice cream and a 1/4 c of sauce, last night I was TOTALLY satisfied with 1/4 cup of ice cream and tablespoon of sauce. It satisfied the sweet craving and totally let me stay within my calories. I was sooo pleased with myself for 1) even thinking of a small portion which would not have occurred to me 6 months ago and 2) being satisfied with it. We have to re train our brains how to live - but we still have to live and enjoy food!

Secondly, I have started to notice a slight decrease in my Coca Cola addiction. 6 months ago I had 2-3 cans a day. When I start SP in April I tried to limit my intake to 1 bottle, and then 1 can a day - and have been mostly successful. But, the past few days I have noticed that I don't really need my whole can in the morning. I used to have it in the morning when I got to work. I decided I needed to break that routine, so I started having my soda at home. If I am still groggy at work, I have been having tea where I use two tea bags - 1 breakfast tea and 1 apple cider tea that sort of masks the regular tea flavor. Having done that for a while, I am noticing that I don't always want my whole soda at breakfast. Haven't smashed the addiction - but I am loosening its grip!

This whole journey really is about evolving and growing small bits at a time! Don't get me wrong - I wish it was 70 more pounds down from now....but I know if I magically lost all the weight overnight I would gain it right back. It is these small, evolving changes in my brain and tongue and habits that will truly allow me to be successful in the long run.

Go me!

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Pain - the pain of stopping vs the pain of keeping going

Sunday, July 20, 2014

I keep chugging away at things. I am continually walking that fine line of pushing myself and balancing the pain in various parts of my body. My knee is really hurting but I am still working hard at it I don't know if running and losing the weight will help the knee pain or if running itself is making it worse. Ironically, it doesn't hurt that much while I am running - so I keep doing it. It is afterwards when I try to walk down a flight of stairs that I am in some real pain. Seeing the doctor Wednesday. Hoping for a steroid shot or something. Meanwhile its OTC meds and ice packs, along with exercise. I know that if I were to feel a real acute or sharp pain I would stop, but it is this full, aching pain, so I keep at it. STicking with it for now....c


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