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Not an April Fool's Joke

Tuesday, April 01, 2014



Not my usual upbeat, creative blog today. It's a sad day for me.



For today would have been my brother's 65th birthday.



I miss you so much, Ralph!



It is such a sad birthday without you.



There's nothing to celebrate but old memories, and I feel so alone.



It's a birthday I celebrate with tears.



Happy Birthday, Ralph, though it's not happy without you.



This last pic says it all about how I feel right now:



  
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LYNN-LOVESLIFE7 4/5/2014 11:12PM

    XOXO Happy Birthday to your brother.
I wish you well friend, the loss of a love one is really hard.
I'm praying for you friend.


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AURORADAWN5 4/3/2014 8:19PM

    Those first few special occasions after you lose someone can be very difficult ... and, to be honest, I've found that they remain bittersweet even years later, but it does get to be a little easier with the years. The happy memories begin to outweigh the sad and lonely ones ... and sometimes, if you're very quiet you can almost hear your loved one walking the sunny pathways of your heart.

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JAZZEJR 4/2/2014 2:48PM

    So, so sorry it's a day of missing your brother. Hope you can still remember the fun times with a smile.

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POSITIVEHOPE 4/2/2014 12:46PM

    Loving those we've lost is so hard. We have one last hug, kiss, smile and tear to share with them and and to receive from them but just can't reach each other.
Tell God about your love for Ralph and trust He will whisper it in Ralph's ear.


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PLMITCH 4/2/2014 10:52AM

    My wife has the same feelings when her late brother's BD and passing date come around. Been over 22 years since he past, yet I think for her, it feels just like yesterday.

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LAILATN 4/2/2014 9:36AM

    Lean in to the sad feelings, and cherish the good memories.

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LOFLLAMA 4/2/2014 8:39AM

    BIG BIG HUGS!!! My grandpa's name was Ralph! He was the greatest man I knew!

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I'm so sorry you're missing your brother. Cherish the happy memories to help get you through.

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BROOKLYN_BORN 4/2/2014 6:37AM

    It is so hard to lose someone we love. emoticon
Take care of yourself.

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111BUTTERFLY111 4/2/2014 6:17AM

    Sending big hugs.

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SVELTEWARRIOR 4/1/2014 11:29PM

    emoticon Your brother is always with you.

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REGILIEH 4/1/2014 11:06PM

    How VERY, VERY sweet YOU ARE!!!

HUGS!!!

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HEALTHY4ME 4/1/2014 10:35PM

    Oh sweetie HUGS.... It is hard isnt' it. I know I miss mum when her day of passing june 1 and her birthday june 30th come around. I will never forget the day cos she always said you pass near your birthday.... not everyone but she did.

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HEALTHY4ME 4/1/2014 10:35PM

    Oh sweetie HUGS.... It is hard isnt' it. I know I miss mum when her day of passing june 1 and her birthday june 30th come around. I will never forget the day cos she always said you pass near your birthday.... not everyone but she did.

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NANCYPAT1 4/1/2014 10:21PM

    (HUGS) Happy birthday to your brother - I know it is really difficult to move through birthdays and anniversaries and special occasions without our precious loved ones. I am sure he knows how much you love him and miss him.

I found myself in tears on my way home today too - Sunday would have been my son's 44th birthday and today is his cousin's 44th birthday and for some reason after nearly 8 years, the tears just ran down my face today. I suspect I too will not be my usual cheery self when I come to his b-day this weekend.

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ZANNACHAN 4/1/2014 10:18PM

    *hugs* I know I can't make it better, but sending lots of hugs and warm thoughts your way.

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KANOE10 4/1/2014 10:16PM

    Hugs to you. It is hard to miss your brother on his birthday. Sending warm thoughts to you today. Your brother is living in your heart.,

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AUNTRENEE 4/1/2014 10:11PM

    Happy Birthday to your brother. He's smiling down at you right now.

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Surrounded by Crows

Friday, February 07, 2014



It's been disastrous for me, weight-wise. This time last year I was at 205. Now I'm at 235. This time last year, I had lost over 100 pounds and was hoping to get below 200 for the first time in many, many years. So what happened?

I seem to be in thar movie The Wiz.



Now, I'm surrounded by the crows who are mocking me, saying I can't win, I'll end up gaining all my weight back.



And they want me to sing their anthem.


www.youtube.com/watch?v=3r1ssg1LIt4

But I can't let them win, and I won't, with the help of all of you.



It's time to get back on the yellow brick road!



And make THIS my theme song!

www.youtube.com/watch?v=oGxBx8RzzrM

And with your help, I can make this a brand new day.



And be able to celebrate like this:

www.youtube.com/watch?v=zy8dUJEOqos

So how about it? Will you all be on the yellow brick road with me?



It won't be easy, but we can lick this thing.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=MFxigJayXpg

And together, we can make it to the Emerald City!

  
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TERMITEMOM 3/14/2014 6:33AM

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  emoticon Focus on that goal and I know you'll get there!

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VAMPYRE03 2/19/2014 10:18AM

    I'M HERE WITH YOU!!!! You can do this, We can do this!!!... you did it before so you know you can do it!!! It's going to be harder now because now you have self doubt sneaking in with self pity for doing so good before, and "blowing it." But I think you were just testing your wings you Robin!!! I think you were figuring out what you can and can't get away with!!! You didn't gain the 100lbs back yet instead your taking charge again, and now you're going to be better than ever... I know you're going to start dropping the pounds and keeping them off for good this time!!! Whatever helped you fall down is what's going to inspire you to not only get back up, but soar higher than you've soared before!!!! Please tell us what's going on, tell the people in daily life what you need, what you don't need, and how much of their crap you're willing to take, cause this is the year of you!!! This is your time to shine, and we're all here to help you, just tell us what you need from us... You've helped many of us in the past, now its our turn to repay the kindness... /HUG We're in this to win it with you!!! 199 and below is in your very near future, and we're all here to help you reach it!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LYNN-LOVESLIFE7 2/11/2014 1:41AM

    Marc, I'm easing on down that yellow brick road with you. Let's light up the path with sunny days ahead. emoticon emoticon I'm all IN!

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MAW_OH 2/9/2014 7:39PM

    I'm just around the bend there, dodging those trees throwing apples. I'm ignoring the fudge cake throwing trees and going to get the apples for a quick snack!

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DAS92687 2/8/2014 9:20PM

    Today is the perfect day to get on track !!


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NILLAPEPSI 2/8/2014 8:34PM

    You can get back on track -- I know you can!!!

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AURORADAWN5 2/8/2014 8:32PM

    Right there with ya my friend. I've gained a few pounds over the last couple of months myself and that"s quite enough, so it's time to get back on that yellow brick road - back to eating more fruits and veggies, watching the fats, logging the foods, counting the calories and getting in the exercise. Let's head for that celebration in the Emerald City.

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MELODYTARYN 2/8/2014 8:30PM

    You might have gained last year but all is not lost. Look how far you have come already. Now that you are determined to press on figure out what it takes to get to Onederland. Don't forget to reach out to us for help. emoticon emoticon

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JMOUSE99 2/8/2014 7:17PM

    Thanks for the pep talk. Em City seems like a long way away to me right now, but we won't get there unless we keep walking.

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HEALTHYGRAMMY49 2/8/2014 4:20PM

    You'll make it to ONEderland (Emerald City). The whole Teddy Bear den is here to cheer you on to your goal. We all have bad seasons, I'm coming out of one myself...and you'll come out of this one too. Review & Recommit to doing what has brought you success in the past. We are on your side and staying right beside you.
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111BUTTERFLY111 2/8/2014 12:26PM

    emoticon And we're all here with you to help you attain your goals!!

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    You can do it. Determination is the best motivator. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NOCALORIES 2/8/2014 12:14PM

    emoticon Thank you for this blog. You are awesome in your ability to write and share. I believe in you. Now let's believe in each other and see the Emerald City in our future.

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LAILATN 2/8/2014 11:56AM

    You can definitely do this!!

We are here for you, rooting for you.

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KANOE10 2/8/2014 8:32AM

    We are with you on that road. You can do it! Today is a perfect day to start a new healthy eating plan.

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WORDGIRL830 2/8/2014 1:49AM

    I'll join you. I want to ease on down that road too. Loved your blog...

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FUNZ81 2/8/2014 1:36AM

    What a "cool" blog. I loved the videos--thankyou.
Yes, Let's all "Ease on down the road" together.
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    I will join you on the yellow brick road!!!!! emoticon emoticon

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IMLOCOLINDA 2/8/2014 12:23AM

    I'm skipping right along with you and the Cowardly Lion and Toto toward the Great Wizard!! We'll get there.

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ZANNACHAN 2/7/2014 11:32PM

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Last year was a rough one for me, too--I tried so hard but still gained 20 pounds. emoticon But this will be OUR year! Because we are not alone and we are strong and do NOT GIVE UP.



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Saying Goodbye to a Brother is hard!

Thursday, January 30, 2014



This is in memory of a brother that departed some weeks ago, and only now am I realizing how much I loved him.



And the strange thing is, he wasn't that nice when he was alive, he was downright abusive at times, to all of us.



So why is there such a big hole in my heart when he's gone?



Why am I so broken up?



It's only because I really did love him,



And I miss him so badly.



Nobody should die like he did, all alone.



And nobody finding him until days later, even if he did push everybody away months before he passed.



Sort of like that song by Paul Simon, "I am a Rock"

www.youtube.com/watch?v=JKlSVNxLB-A

Nobody should die like that!

Who knows what inner demons he faced?



And all I can do is cry.



I miss you, Ralph!



I keep thinking I'll get over it, but then it hits me again and I have to cry again, like this song by Poco:

www.youtube.com/watch?v=QON3cHRo5vw

It's this crazy love that won't let go.




I feel so alone.

  
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GODZDESIGN95 4/5/2014 12:40PM

    emoticon death is so ugly and God did not design it that way. The enemy got us twisted up and we listened. But one day God will wipe all tears and there will be no more death or crying. I am looking forward to that day. emoticon

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LISALGB 2/2/2014 7:42PM

    I am so sorry for your loss. Grief is a process. There are seven stages, or so I was told. Just give yourself time. It takes time for the heart to mend after a loss.
You are in my prayers.

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MNNICE 2/2/2014 1:04PM

    Some food for thought. We love family members, even though we don't always "like" them, or the things they do. We all need to grieve in our own way. My condolences on the death of your brother.

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MELODYTARYN 2/2/2014 8:54AM

    Sorry for your loss.

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DEERLADY45 2/2/2014 8:27AM

    So sorry for your loss! i lost my Brother3 yrs a go and i still miss him every day! He was my support when i needed help and my hero cause he spent years in his wheel chair and never complained ! he was amazing! It was an honor to take special care of him! he died suddenly from a Blood infection! He seems to be with me still in away! I feel his presence daily! Im glad for this support he still seems to give me! Blessings, BONZ
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_RAEVEN_ 2/1/2014 10:19PM

    I'm so sorry to hear about your brother... emoticon

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AURORADAWN5 2/1/2014 2:43PM

    Sorry to hear about your brother's passing Marc. No matter how things end or how broken they are, family is family and if you're not seriously broken yourself, it's hard not to love them. A large part of grieving is about regrets, and if you're relationship with the deceased wasn't what you would have wished, that can make those regrets very painful now that there are no tomorrows left to make things better
Treasure the good times and know you have my sympathies.

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HMJ5053 1/31/2014 10:32PM

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I know you said that you weren't that close to your brother, but his passing is obviously affecting you more that you thought it would; I think that is catching you by surprise. Writing this blog is a good step for you to begin to accept the loss you feel at his death. Seems that no matter what the relationship has been between family members, a death is felt as a true loss to those left behind. Grieving is a normal and necessary process.. Let yourself cry and feel the emotions, whatever they are. That is all necessary. Hoping you are feeling the support your friends here are sending out to you.
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SLIMMERJESSE 1/31/2014 6:42PM

    Very sorry for your loss.

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NOCALORIES 1/31/2014 6:37PM

    Marc this is a challenge to live without your brother, but you are not a lone. You are the child of God and He will be with you as you step forward in your day.
Isaiah 54:10 For the mountains shall depart, the hills be removed; but my kindness shall not depart from thee, neither shall my covenant of my peace be removed, saith the Lord that hath mercy on thee.

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JENSHAINES 1/31/2014 5:21PM

    Oh Marc, echoing what others have said - I'm terribly sorry for your loss, and just allow yourself the time to grieve - take good care of YOU during this time. emoticon

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LYNN-LOVESLIFE7 1/31/2014 3:37PM

    emoticon I'm so sorry for your loss, Marc. I'm praying for you. I know in time you'll start to heal, but keep on pushing, you're worth every push you make. emoticon emoticon

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A_SIZE6 1/31/2014 1:41PM

    I am sorry for your loss of your brother. my daughter dealt with the loss of her dad this last week. I only have 2 spiritual brothers I bond very closely with and love. but they are really sweet. I would miss them to pieces if anything happened to them.

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HEALTHYGRAMMY49 1/31/2014 1:19PM

    Marc, I'm so very sorry for your loss. emoticon We all grieve differently for those we love. Give yourself time & focus on the precious memories you have of your brother. I remember my painful loss after losing my younger sister. You'll be in my prayers.
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FEISTYOWL 1/31/2014 12:30PM

    Marc - I'm so sorry. Losing someone is a painful thing. It's all the "what could have beens" that seem so hard. Crying is a good thing, grieving is important. And grieving takes time. So please take time to care for yourself. emoticon

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LINDAK25 1/31/2014 12:27PM

    Marc, sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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TEKRU1 1/31/2014 10:54AM

    Take care of you and give yourself time to heal. I'm sorry you're hurting so much. emoticon

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ZANNACHAN 1/31/2014 10:36AM

    *Hugs* It's no surprise you are torn up--the grief is both new and came very much as a shock, and the past ambivalence is just going to make it that much harder to deal with.

Jen wrote a great blog recently about sisters--while she's focusing on sisters, a lot of what she says also applies to brothers or even brothers and sisters. Our siblings--even when we don't get along--have a special place in our lives because we grew up together. We shared certain experiences. We often compete with each other, and sometimes fight with each other--but that helped define who we are as adults.

http://www.sparkpeople.com/
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RGOCEAN 1/31/2014 10:08AM

  I am so sorry for your loss of your brother. What you wrote and told us about your brother shows to me unconditional love by you. Stay strong with family and friends I can see you have great strength within you. God Bless You! Ralph is with you all of the time arm to arm. emoticon

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HDHAWK 1/31/2014 9:05AM

    I'm sorry for your loss. I'm sure you loved him and I'm sure you not only grieve his loss, but the fact that he was alone makes it harder. emoticon

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KANOE10 1/31/2014 8:20AM

    I am so sorry for your loss. It is is so hard to lose a brother. He chose to be alone, but I bet that he knew that you loved him. I am keeping you in my prayers. emoticon

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NILLAPEPSI 1/31/2014 7:13AM

    I am so, so sorry!! A brother is still a brother even if he isn't very nice. I can see why you miss him -- he is part of you. My heart goes out to you & I pray God will comfort you as only He can. emoticon emoticon

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DAS92687 1/31/2014 6:55AM

    emoticon Marc, It sounds like you are grieving for so many things. Not just for missing your brother, but maybe also for missing what could have been; missing what you thought you two maybe still had a chance to make happen.

Give yourself the chance to mourn. I am praying that God brings you comfort and the assurance of love, right where you are.

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LILYGAL 1/31/2014 6:48AM

    emoticon emoticon Hope that you can find peace. Maybe you could do something special in his memory. Give to his favorite charity. It's OK to mourn your loss.

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111BUTTERFLY111 1/31/2014 6:41AM

    Sending heartfelt emoticon . Loss is so very difficult. What a beautiful tribute to your brother.

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WENDYJM4 1/31/2014 6:27AM

    so sorry for your loss

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REGILIEH 1/31/2014 6:23AM

    I AM SO emoticon FOR YOUR LOSS.

YOU ARE SUCH A SWEET, SWEET GUY!

I AM KEEPING YOU IN MY PRAYERS!

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CHALLENGER15 1/31/2014 5:56AM

    What a beautiful blog, Marc. I can see that you got some very good advice here, and I do hope that some of it helps.


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GYMRAT_AT44 1/31/2014 5:50AM

    So sorry. Very touching blog and should help with the healing. I can only imagine what you are going through.

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SEAGLASS1215 1/31/2014 5:34AM

    emoticon emoticon Your grief is still fresh and it takes time to go through all the emotions and pain...give yourself time but allow yourself to feel everything - it helps, even though it hurts. So sorry for your loss...

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TRIANGLE-WOMAN 1/31/2014 5:33AM

    We are all connected in our love and hopes for our loved ones. This was a beautiful tribute and testament of love to Ralph. He was a lucky man.

XOXO

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COLLEENROSTE 1/31/2014 3:32AM

    praying that the God of peace would comfort you and fill you with His peace. emoticon

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LE7_1234 1/31/2014 1:31AM

    Sorry for your loss.

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AMYISSUCCEEDING 1/31/2014 1:29AM

    I am sorry for your loss.
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CATHYGETSFIT 1/31/2014 1:19AM

    emoticon I'm so sorry for your loss. It hasn't been that long it sounds, since he passed. It's perfectly normal to still miss him. It's never easy to lose someone we love especially when it's so sudden and unexpected. It's going to take time to heal and mourn the loss of your brother. Remember all of the times you had with him good and bad. I hope you can find some peace as you try to heal. emoticon

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STEPH-KNEE 1/31/2014 1:07AM

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POSITIVEHOPE 1/31/2014 12:47AM

    Sorry for your loss. When we lose someone it hurts so deeply. Because of the difficulty in your relationship you also lost ALL the potential you hoped for in that relationship. That loss is of things not done, words not spoken and feelings not felt and it can leave a lonely, empty place in your heart.
Until your heart has time to heal, I pray you find some peace in knowing his struggle is done. You are a loving sister.
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EJOY-EVELYN 1/31/2014 12:00AM

    Prayers for healing, peace, and comfort as you grieve the loss of your loving brother. Hug, hug -- Evelyn

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LEGRETTA333 1/30/2014 11:57PM

    Holding you in loving prayer. You are grieving because you miss him and you miss what part of you wishes you could have had with him. It's ok to feel sad and angry and frustrated and all the rest.

If you think it would help, see if there is a bereavement group near you. Most people find it most helpful a few months after losing people, but if you hurt A LOT, make the call earlier. Sometimes it helps to be around other people who are also dealing with loss. Most hospices can direct you to such a group, even if you weren't using their services. Some will also have people on staff and/or counselors available...-- or can direct your towards free or lo-cost services if that is a concern.

And we are here too......

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WORDGIRL830 1/30/2014 11:43PM

    I hurt for you. You are always so encouraging to me on my blogs. I am praying for you on your loss. You miss your brother because he meant something to you and because you loved him. I don't know you personally, but I can tell from your blogs and posts that you are a caring person and that you have a big heart. You feel free to cry when you need to cry. Hold on to the good times you can recall. Keep being the encouraging person you are. I don't know what it feels like to lose a sibling, but I do know what it feels like to be pushed away by one. Even though they fight their own inner demons, and that may affect how they treat you, you love them in spite of their flaws. You keep hanging in there and take it easy on yourself. May God bless you and wrap you in His unchanging love and comfort you during your time of bereavement.

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SVELTEWARRIOR 1/30/2014 11:31PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon I am so sorry for your loss.

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JD394471 1/30/2014 11:29PM

    I am so sorry for your loss and hugs to you. emoticon

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SNOWFLAKELILYM9 1/30/2014 11:23PM

    I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a loved one is so hard and worse with extreme sad circumstances. That is a lot to go through and handle. Grieving takes time and all you are feeling is normal and will get better with time, and the pain will slowly get better and the sweet memories will take its place. It doesn't seem like it right now but it will happen eventually. Take it one day at a time, be good to yourself, and remember now matter what bumps there were in the road. I'm sure he loved you too as much as you loved him. Your Spark friends are here to support, encourage and lift you up. emoticon

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TIRED49 1/30/2014 10:54PM

    My heart is breaking for you! I have a similar story except it was my sister and she passed too young do to Alzheimer's. Even though we only saw one another on holidays, I still think of her often. Though we had our differences one thing we had in common was our love for our mother.

It's ok to grieve and you will grieve often, but that is part of healing. Hold those good memories in your heart.

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WALKINGGRANDMA 1/30/2014 10:52PM

    Your brother's death is still very fresh. It is totally OK to miss him, to cry, to struggle. You have a lot of unfinished business in mourning his loss and your losses. Take time and miss your brother. Feel bad and remember the sadness.

As time goes on, please remember the happy times and the good times. Remember the things that made you love your brother. Remember the way you used to do things together.

Loving and missing a loved one is very important. I hope you find peace and can remember the good things about him and not have to focus on the things that were painful and hurtful.

Heal, find peace. Take care of yourself while doing it. That is all you can do right now.

I do hope from time to time you find a way to check in with us and find the friendships that are here.

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HOLDINGMYOWN 1/30/2014 10:47PM

    emoticon Marc~

What a lovely Blog tribute to your brother~maybe he can feel all your love now~and send some back to you~
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LINDA! 1/30/2014 10:45PM

    Very sorry.

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A Theme Song for 2014!

Tuesday, December 31, 2013



I've been looking forward to 2014.

2013 was a disaster for me, and I say goodbye and good riddance to that year.



I'm making a new start with a clean slate.





And an old song from World War II was going through my head lately, and this has become my theme song for 2014!

www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wy5maENuo3Q

We did it before and we can do it again
And we will do it again
We've got a heck of a job to do
But you can bet we'll see it thru.
We did it before and we can do it again
And we will do it again
We're one for all and all for one
They'll get a licking before we're done
Millions of voices are ringing
Singing as we march along
We did it before and we can do it again
And we will do it again
We'll knock them over and then we'll get the guy in back of them
We did it before, we'll do it again

I remember all the successes of 2012, that almost came undone this year with a gain of 25 pounds. But I did it before, and I can do it again!



I'm back on track!



This is no resolution that is easily broken. I don't believe in them.







So instead, I am hitting the delete button for 2013



And making a fresh start!



And yes, I CAN DO IT AGAIN!



Anybody up for joining me?



2014! BRING IT ON!!

  
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PEGGYO 1/28/2014 8:26PM

    Missing your posting on the team

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LILYGAL 1/10/2014 7:33AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon Love this attitude!! I need this very much. I didn't do well in 2012 either. Just not a good year for me. emoticon

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CTUPTON 1/9/2014 9:03AM

    What a wonderful blog to get me started for the day!

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EMERALDELEPHANT 1/4/2014 9:14PM

    emoticon Great blog - and here's to a great 2014!!

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BSTMAMAS 1/4/2014 12:51PM

    Yes we are all in together. To a better year 2014

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TIME2BLOOM4ME 1/3/2014 10:05PM

    I love your blogs.

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DIANER2014 1/3/2014 6:16PM

    I'm with you! Let's have an awesome 2014!
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    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon and.. We WILL do it!
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LYNN-LOVESLIFE7 1/1/2014 2:14PM

    emoticon I'm not about the resolutions (most) post, because I've made them time and time again and found myself disappointed when I don't show up. I don't make them because there is no value in them to me. The value is, when you understand what you want right off, and my resolution from 2012 is still in progress, why keep after the same one over and over again. I just say. Dust off and get the one you started over with and done. emoticon

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CINDHOLM 1/1/2014 2:04PM

    emoticon m emoticon emoticon HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! emoticon

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WATERMELLEN 1/1/2014 9:58AM

    Super blog! Failure is not permanent, that's for sure: and most of us have many many experiences of failure before we sustain weight loss. Each one of my own failures taught me new stuff -- and yup, tracking everything I eat is the thing I've gotta do most consistently.

I share your optimism that 2014 will be a better year. I appreciate your encouraging comments!

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BUSYGRANNY5 1/1/2014 9:54AM

    Keep on keeping on...

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KANOE10 1/1/2014 9:45AM

    That was an inspirational blog. I love all of your pictures. Let's make 2014 a great year together.




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HARMONYAGAIN 1/1/2014 9:43AM

    Marc this is going to be a successful year

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    emoticon We can sooooo do it in 2014!!! emoticon

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    emoticon emoticon blog! emoticon emoticon Happy New Year!!

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FITNHEALTHYKAL 1/1/2014 7:45AM

    Happy New Year Island Brother! You CAN and you WILL toss the old and head into tis fresh, clean slate with renewed vigor and self love and nurturing that you deserve!

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SEAGLASS1215 1/1/2014 6:12AM

    I'm with you - 2013 was NOT my year for success so I'm bidding it farewell and welcoming 2014 with open arms!
Happy New Year!

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ZELLAZM 1/1/2014 4:04AM

    Great post, Marc - let's do this!

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COLLEENROSTE 1/1/2014 4:03AM

    count me in- I am ready to take on the new year and find success again
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RICKI157 1/1/2014 2:43AM

    I'm with you!!!! 2014 is going to be an AMAZING & AWESOME Year!!!!!!!
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BROWNSUGAR2828 1/1/2014 1:07AM

    I will start this journey with you! Let's do this!

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    I am with you!

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IMLOCOLINDA 1/1/2014 12:17AM

    Marc, I loved this blog. There are fireworks going off and they have bee.n going off for a couple of hours now and we're still 2 hours to 2014 here!! I think the song is wonderful. Had never seen it before. I may use it as my own theme song...it's definitely in the Top 3. Wishing you a year that brings good friends, good health, good luck and good things...and the weight loss you are aiming for!!

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    Happy new year!!
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Happy New Year!!

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SVELTEWARRIOR 12/31/2013 11:30PM

    HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!

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    emoticon It takes patience and determination, but there's no better time than the present to get started.
Happy New Year, alnd all the best for 2014.

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Screwtape said it best!

Friday, December 06, 2013



I've been thinking of the annual hysteria about the so-called "war on Christmas," and something came to me. One of my favorite writers is C.S. Lewis,



And one of his most famous books is called the Screwtape Letters.



letters from a senior devil to his apprentice. Something really inspired me to write a 21st Century version of a letter. I'd like to share it with you:

My Dear Wormwood:

Your last letter made me wonder if you were asleep at the last briefing. You mention alarm that your patient is alerting his companions on this 'war on Christmas,' mobilizing his companions to make sure merchants say Merry Christmas.

I wish you would listen to your betters. Your patient is playing into our hands. Yes, there is a war on Christmas, but not on the battlefield these Christians expect. Misdirection, my dear Wormwood, misdirection is the key! There is no harm alerting these people to this war, as long as they are directed to all the wrong battlefields.



Notice how he snarls at poor, beleaguered clerks who dare say things like “Happy Holidays,” and screams at them to say “Merry Christmas,” then walks away smug and self-satisfied that he has obeyed the Enemy's directive, or so he thinks, leaving bewildered clerks in his wake. It encourages them to indulge in our cardinal virtue, the one known as Pride.



We need to encourage them to do what the Enemy discourages, to strain at gnats and swallow camels, and so they think they are winning this war, when they are nowhere near the right battlefield.



It has not been our aim at all to “take Christ out of Christmas.” Indeed, we encouage it, as long as they leave the Enemy's Son as a helpless babe in the manger. And after the festival, he is forgotten, the nativity scenes are put away for another year, and the sentiments around it are once again swept away like the pine needles of their Christmas trees.



Not that we haven't tried to take Him out. The very first one, we tried to squelch the event of His birth. We moved upon Herod, who was ours from the beginning, that this Child was a threat to his rule. He moved immediately to slaughter all born on that date, even hedging his bets by killing all two years and younger. And so we thought, problem solved. The prophecy was nipped in the bud. It was only later that we discovered that our quarry had escaped. We had killed all the children except one that got away to Egypt. The Enemy was too quick for us.



Remember the hoopla about the word “Xmas,” which was an ancient abbreviation called a nomina sacra? An abrreviation for Christmas? People screamed it was an attempt by atheists to “X” out the name of the Enemy. It wasn't, but we made people think it was. We've been trying to do that for ages, and have yet to find the secret to doing it, Herod's actions being an example.



No, that hasn't been our aim. Our true goal is to take all the “Merry” out of Christmas. And our strategy is many-pronged. One is exciting the merchants to avarice, and the rush of people tend to a weariness and draining of joy from the holiday, and so there is no merriment left.



Another is the misdirection we are doing. In spreading hysteria that there is a war on Christmas and urging these poor fools to make blacklists of stores that do or do not observe Christmas, we lead them around by the nose in every direction we please, and blind them to our true war on the holiday.



One master stroke of genius happened during the Puritan era, when Christmas was banned altogether. They pointed out pagan practices in it and so, “threw the baby out with the bath water.” Somber criers went through the villages clanging harsh bells, crying out “No Christmas! No Christmas!” And so the joy was extinguished.



Causing people to bemoan and bewail the events of this holiday plays into our hands, once again taking the Merry out of Christmas, encouraging the sober, austere spirit we value in the realm of Our Father Below.



So remember, Wormwood, we are not to teach, but to becloud and misdirect. Do that, and the danger of this season is blunted if not completely squelched.

Your affectionate uncle,
Screwtape

Let's light a candle in this Advent season, spreading the hope.



a light in the midst of darkness, hope in the midst of despair.

Then, we shall truly put the 'Merry' back into Christmas.



And be kind to us poor, overworked cashiers as well.



And.....

  
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TIME2BLOOM4ME 1/3/2014 10:06PM

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ZELLAZM 12/26/2013 5:14AM

    Marc, great post! I am finally catching up on almost a month's worth of SP friends's blogs. So am actually reading this the day after Christmas. I had forgotten this passage of Screwtape Letters. It's amazing how C.S. Lewis hit the mark many years ago. His thoughts - and your very appropriate illustrations - echo so many of mine as I watch the Merry Christmas - Happy Holidays battles on Facebook.

Blessings on this second day of Christmas (so glad we have 12!)
Michelle

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UPPITYANN 12/19/2013 11:59PM

  C. S. Lewis said just about everything best. And you made a MASTERFUL PRESENTATION of this. I wish it could be displayed elsewhere too.

The thought is so "spot on"! It should be published in every church bulletin.



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BRADMILL2922 12/19/2013 12:18AM

    Really enjoyed this blog! Merry Christmas!

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    Loved it! and emoticon Jesus!

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JENSHAINES 12/12/2013 10:25PM

    Lovely, Marc! BTW... I am working with two students this fall - and for one, we just finished work on "The Great Divorce" and for the other, I'm going to be helping her with a research project on "Perelandra". I feel quite steeped in Lewis right now. ;-) Merry Christmas! And may it be merrier when your schedule lightens up!

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WATERMELLEN 12/8/2013 9:47AM

    Great blog: both witty and pointed!

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SNOWFLAKELILYM9 12/7/2013 12:09AM

    Well said, loved it!!! Merry Christmas!!

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FROMNDTOGA 12/6/2013 11:08PM

    Well done!! And, MERRY CHRISTMAS to you and yours.

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SVELTEWARRIOR 12/6/2013 5:25PM

    Fantastic Blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!

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ZANNACHAN 12/6/2013 12:45PM

    Great blog! And I hope that you are able to find some of that holiday spirit these holidays.

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    emoticon Merry Christmas!!!! emoticon

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LINDAK25 12/6/2013 10:48AM

    Fantastic blog! Lovely sentiment. Have a Merry Christmas!


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FEISTYOWL 12/6/2013 10:40AM

    Love your letter - well done! Merry Christmas!

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    Thanks and have a Merry Christmas :-)

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    So well done, Marc! (From another Screwtape fan)
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PEGGYO 12/6/2013 8:24AM

    great story

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KANOE10 12/6/2013 8:03AM

    Great blog. Let us focus on the joy of Xmas and keep it peaceful. You wrote an excellent letter!


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That was terrific! I'm working hard to keep the JOY and LOVE in the season and to make it last throughout the year. What great a great reminder. I will light my candles and spread hope.



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LOFLLAMA 12/6/2013 4:46AM

    Merry Christmas AND Happy Holidays, Marc! This was wonderful!

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IMLOCOLINDA 12/6/2013 1:46AM

    Absolutely adored this one!! Thanks so much for writing it and sharing. I agree wholeheartedly!!
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SUSANBEAMON 12/6/2013 12:59AM

  been a while since i've heard old screwtape and his trainee wormwood mentioned. Most people just want a trip through the wardrobe. enjoyed your take on the season. all the sales and colored days have sent me into hibernation until about the 20th.

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ZRIE014 12/6/2013 12:39AM

  nice

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