Friday, July 25, 2014
So, I really like all the encouragement I received on the deep fried veggies (yesterday's blog)...and we are going to the state fair tomorrow...I'm sure they'll appear there too. I don't know what I will have tomorrow...but I plan to keep things in check...and stay food sober.
Today completed a week of being food sober. My big success today was giving myself a break when I could feel the stress getting to be too much...instead of pushing myself on. If I had learned to do this when I was young and when I began, instead, to turn to food to get me through my homework, maybe I wouldn't have to be re-training my behavior today. But, it is what it is...and I'm going to keep trying until it sticks. I am hopeful this is "it." I know it could be...it's up to me.
Today I noticed the difference in how I feel...after only a week of being on track. My jeans fit better. My belt is notched further. My ribs and mid section do not feel squished under the fat. It's getting better. That all means more to me than the scale...and the scale was not kind today...so what. While I do want and expect to see the scale drop, it's not "all that." There are other aspects of my obesity that bother me more right now than the number that comes up on the scale. The way I feel and the way the fat effects me on a daily basis are more of a motivator than the scale. Those are the true effects of the fat.
Tonight, I was watching Black Box. As I watched Katherine and all the challenges she faced, I got the point. She had just gotten back on track with her disorder and her meds and all these things were happening to her...any one of which could entice her to "lose it." But she just took it all in stride... Yep, that's it. That's life. Stuff happens. We just have to take it in stride and go on. And hopefully, some good stuff will offset the bad...but either way...just keep on keepin on. Going to a drug, alcohol, behavior, or food is not the solution. Pushing through and keeping your head through it all is the way to go.
Hope you all had a great TGIF! Keep up the good work! Have a great weekend! Thanks for the encouragement! Spark on!