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Pace Car Journey

Tuesday, December 02, 2014

I went to North Carolina and back over Thanksgiving. It was a long drive ... Over 9 hours ... And I did all the driving. One thing that helped me was finding a car in the traffic that was going the pace that I wanted to go and just following along and using it as my "pace car". Since my cruise control doesn't work, it was nice to just follow along and not have to worry about my speed all the time...the pace car did that for me.

Today I weighed in... Something I've been dreading. I'm at 243...the exact weight I started at back in 2010 when I started SP. During my journey here, I lost 90 pounds. But now I've gained it all back. emoticon I need to follow a pace car back on this long journey. Since I blogged my way thin before, I'm going to use my blogs and tracking from before as my "pace car".

My first entry on SP was...
"So I begin another weight loss journey. Will this be the journey to the destination? I hope so. I'm really tired of trying, starting, failing. :( I want to try, start, succeed. I think I can do this. I know I can do this. I am smart and I like to write and I like to interact with the computer. So, this should be a perfect fit, right? I think so.

I would love to just ride this wave all the way to the finish without looking back, without falling off, without having to start over again. Well, as of right now, I'm 100% on track. :) So, why not? I CAN do this. Now, I begin. "

It rings true today for me. So I begin...again...and my plan is to go all the way to the finish. I CAN do it. And right now, I'm 100% on track. emoticon emoticon emoticon

  
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KRISZTA11 12/4/2014 3:17PM

    Great thoughts, as always!
This is a safe and effective way to get back to your healthy lifestyle.
Good luck to your journey!
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MORTICIAADDAMS 12/3/2014 8:42AM

    I like to do the same things with the pace car on my way to St. Louis. I like to go the speed limit and not speed or too slow and I do have cruise control so it's nice to find someone else to stay with. I'm always disappointed if they leave me early. LOL.

I can relate to your problem. Due to health issues and my having to go on steroids and antibiotics for an extended time, I gained a bunch of weight too and for me it's hard to get back off but I am making small changes and they will help.

Good luck with your plan! emoticon

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KANSASROSE67 12/2/2014 6:42PM

    Good blog!

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1CRAZYDOG 12/2/2014 1:04PM

    Love the pace car analogy! Awesome.

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THETURTLEBEAR 12/2/2014 8:40AM

    That is a brilliant analogy. You are so right - Spark was my pace car too.

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DS9KIE 12/2/2014 8:27AM

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ALOHAEV1 12/2/2014 8:00AM

    You have a lot of crew members to help keep you right on that pace car, just keep thinking of great that new driver's suit is going look and feel.

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Stopping...Beginning

Monday, September 29, 2014

I've begun...again...my journey to thinness. I've really lost my way and gained almost all my weight back. emoticon I weighed in this morning at 234. But at least I'm not at 243...which is where I originally started SP back in 2010. I had gotten down into the 150's. What happened?

This new job, mainly. It's a good job. But very stressful. I went through a major ordeal with someone from management when I first started. It really knocked me for a loop. I ended up with PTSD from it. But that is all past me now. I feel I have recovered from the PTSD. And now I'm in a management position...and the offensive individual is gone. So, it was a long road...but life has righted itself.

Now to right my weight. I know how to do this. I've been with SP off and on since 2010. I was 100% in back when I lost all my weight. Then I've been off and on while I gained it all back. So, that's a pretty good indication of where I need to be to accomplish my goal of weight loss.

Good things currently happening in my life...my daughter just had another baby. I have 3 granddaughters now. Here's a picture of me with her two daughters...taken just a week ago...


My other daughter recently moved out so we are working on cleaning out her old living space (half of our basement)...and we are going to put in a workout room...yay! That should help.

Bad stuff...over the weekend my husband had a seizure while driving. It was really scarey. He usually only has them when he is sleeping. Luckily, we were at a stop light and I was able to put the car in park and turn it off and call 911. So, we didn't hit anyone and no one hit us. But, it was just really scarey for me. I've had a hard time getting over it. He goes to see the doctor today. He is not allowed to drive currently (which is fine with me...after that, I don't want him driving). But we came to find out that he had missed one of his pills for a couple of days and so his levels of that medicine were nil...which was the probably cause of the seizure. I am going to take him to his doctor today. I have a lot of conflicting thoughts about all of this. Needless to say, it was a heavy eating weekend for me. I really need to quit having food be my "go to" when life gets hard. I'm 234 lbs of life being hard. emoticon It needs to stop...today...so I'm stopping. emoticon

Time to get ready for work. Hope you all have a great day! Keep up the good work! Thanks for the encouragement! Spark on! emoticon emoticon (I'm fighting sinusitis...ugh.)

  
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DUXGRL1 11/2/2014 3:07PM

    Good to see you! I have been out of the loop. Congratulations on your new grand-daughter and glad you and your husband got through his seizure safely...very scary.

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LOPEYP 10/19/2014 6:43AM

    Cathy I hope this finds you and Paul well.
How are things? I miss your updates.
Hugs
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WISHICOULDFLY 10/18/2014 5:02PM

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LOSINIT52 10/3/2014 8:02PM

    Wow! That is a lot to handle. Congrats on the new GD. Very exciting!
Hope the meds are a simple solution to your DHs seizures.
You CAN do this.
I loved that Harry Potter quote someone added.

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SHARON10002 9/30/2014 3:29PM

    emoticon Cathy! I've missed you.
emoticon on that new granddaughter! emoticon That should help up the endorphins! emoticon
Glad the work issue is behind you. I agree with KansasRose in that you've lost the weight before, and all you have to do is access those feelings again.
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KANSASROSE67 9/30/2014 12:19PM

    Glad you have the bad stuff at work behind you and are celebrating three beautiful granddaughters!

My sister has a seizure disorder so I understand how scary they can be. I hope the dr. appointment goes well and your husband is able get things regulated again.

Are you a Harry Potter fan? If not, this comment might not make as much sense. But there is a time when Harry has to do something really difficult, almost impossible. But because he has traveled back in time, he says, "I know I can do it, because I've done it before." My point is, you know you can lose the weight and get healthy, because you've done it before.

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EBURGITE 9/30/2014 12:31AM

    thanks for sharing what's up. hang in there. we will keep pressing on. hugs to you, friend.

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WORLDSERIES11 9/29/2014 4:44PM

    Wow, so much going on!! Congrats on the new granddaughter!! Sorry to hear about your husband, hope the doctors are able to find a solution for him. Like you, I have gained back most of the 75 lbs I lost. And also, like you, I know how to do "this", just need to get back at it!!
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KRISZTA11 9/29/2014 3:26PM

    Welcome back Cathy, you know so much about healthy lifestyle, after getting through that high stress period I'm sure you can do it this time.
Sorry about your husband's seizure, I hope his doctors will find a safe and effective treatment for him.
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MORTICIAADDAMS 9/29/2014 2:59PM

    Congratulations on the new grand daughter!!

I'm so sorry to hear about your hubby. I hope you and he are back to 100% soon. And that you can get back to healthy soon and stay there!

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LESS_IS_MO 9/29/2014 2:16PM

    Hi Cathy,
I was inspired by your blog about stayin food sober. So I decided to make a food sobriety team. I thought your idea of eating for nutrition only was wonderful. I'd love it if you joined the team. You can find it via my page.
I hope your husband is able to get back to normal, and therefore you too. emoticon
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PURPLE_ROSE_BUD 9/29/2014 10:56AM

    emoticon emoticon Glad to hear your work situation is now better and sorry to hear about DH health problems. emoticon

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JOHGLO2011 9/29/2014 8:21AM

    I have gained most of my weight back too and it is so discouraging! But if you can do it, so can I !!! Best of wishes to you and me. :) emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 9/29/2014 7:31AM

    ((((HUGS)))) Sorry to hear about your DH's seizure, but glad things ended at least safely.

Glad you're back. Here for you.

HUGS

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LEANJEAN6 9/29/2014 7:17AM

    so happy to read that you are back--Spark is something you can do for yerself!--Lynda emoticon

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BUSYGRANNY5 9/29/2014 7:13AM

    Life does have a way of getting off track from time to time... welcome back... You've got this!

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Day 7/One Week Food Sober...Feeling Some Relief

Friday, July 25, 2014

So, I really like all the encouragement I received on the deep fried veggies (yesterday's blog)...and we are going to the state fair tomorrow...I'm sure they'll appear there too. I don't know what I will have tomorrow...but I plan to keep things in check...and stay food sober.

Today completed a week of being food sober. My big success today was giving myself a break when I could feel the stress getting to be too much...instead of pushing myself on. If I had learned to do this when I was young and when I began, instead, to turn to food to get me through my homework, maybe I wouldn't have to be re-training my behavior today. But, it is what it is...and I'm going to keep trying until it sticks. I am hopeful this is "it." I know it could be...it's up to me.

Today I noticed the difference in how I feel...after only a week of being on track. My jeans fit better. My belt is notched further. My ribs and mid section do not feel squished under the fat. It's getting better. That all means more to me than the scale...and the scale was not kind today...so what. While I do want and expect to see the scale drop, it's not "all that." There are other aspects of my obesity that bother me more right now than the number that comes up on the scale. The way I feel and the way the fat effects me on a daily basis are more of a motivator than the scale. Those are the true effects of the fat.

Tonight, I was watching Black Box. As I watched Katherine and all the challenges she faced, I got the point. She had just gotten back on track with her disorder and her meds and all these things were happening to her...any one of which could entice her to "lose it." But she just took it all in stride... Yep, that's it. That's life. Stuff happens. We just have to take it in stride and go on. And hopefully, some good stuff will offset the bad...but either way...just keep on keepin on. Going to a drug, alcohol, behavior, or food is not the solution. Pushing through and keeping your head through it all is the way to go.

Hope you all had a great TGIF! Keep up the good work! Have a great weekend! Thanks for the encouragement! Spark on! emoticon emoticon

  
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LOPEYP 7/31/2014 7:06AM

    Glad things are going well for you! May it continue!!
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MORTICIAADDAMS 7/27/2014 5:16PM

    I hope you have a wonderful week with minimal stress and lot's of accomplishments!!

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SHARON10002 7/26/2014 11:03PM

    Great NSVs for you to finish the week! emoticon emoticon Noticing your clothes fitting better and looser is always a great feeling and incentive!
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WORDLILY 7/26/2014 7:35PM

    Hope it's been another good day!

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MOBYCARP 7/26/2014 2:39PM

    Yes, Life Happens to all of us. How well we do depends in great measure on how we react when Life Happens.

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DS9KIE 7/26/2014 7:25AM

    There is nothing better that loose pants emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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_RAMONA 7/25/2014 11:08PM

    You are awesome... your uncompromising stand at this point is such an encouragement to me. Your honesty inspires me to ask what could I be more honest about in my own process.

I'm with you on the whole scale thing... it really is not "all that" ...I value my NSVs so much more. The scale is much too mercurial, and is so easily affected by so many other things over which I have no control.

Keep rockin' this process! I'm rooting for you , and thanks to you I'm rooting for me once again.

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Day 6 Food Sober...Listening to Fullness Cues

Thursday, July 24, 2014

Completed Day 6 of being "food sober." I didn't track as I went through the day but did enter all my tracking this evening and was in range. I just try to set a limit for each meal or snack as I go throughout the day so that, when I do the recording, I should be okay...and it worked.

For lunch, my co-worker and I went across the street to the county fair. We shared a plate of deep fried veggies. We jokingly called them health food. They were good...and somewhat healthy...we were eating veggies...wrapped in deep fried batter. But the batter wasn't real thick and we did share the plate. I was not hungry when we got done and didn't get anything else...really didn't want anything else. I was pleased that I was listening to my stomach and not feeding any desires for the chance to have the other fair food that was available.

Work went well again today. My new girl is doing really well. There's still a lot to do and a lot to train her on...but we're getting there and I'm seeing a light at the end of the tunnel.

Hope you all had a great day! Keep up the good work! Thanks for the encouragement! Spark on! emoticon emoticon

  
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DUXGRL1 9/2/2014 6:37PM

    Catching up after a month of intense work, hope you are OK. I have to laugh at this one....I did go to a county fair a few weeks ago where I had my annual FUNNEL CAKE! But I did budget it in and now I am OK...we may go to another fair in a few weeks and do not feel the desire to have it again then. One a year will do me!

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1CRAZYDOG 7/25/2014 9:05PM

    Good job! This journey is all about learning how to handle all kinds of different situations. You did good!

HUGS

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DS9KIE 7/25/2014 11:49AM

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WORDLILY 7/25/2014 11:19AM

    I know there's deep fried everything (at fairs especially) these days, but I think the closest I've tried was deep fried pickles (and yes, I thought they were yummy).

Good for you, staying in range even with out-of-the-ordinary food and delayed tracking! That's excellent, and good job listening to and heeding your hunger / fullness cues! Keep up the great work!

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MORTICIAADDAMS 7/25/2014 9:05AM

    The deep fried veggies sound delicious. I didn't know that offered things like that at fairs now.

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MILPAM3 7/25/2014 8:59AM

  Congrats on your attention to eating better. I find myself not wanting to waste food and eating what DH brings home and forgets to eat. He has a metabolism that allows him to eat whatever he wants and not gain. How I envy his genes!

Glad you have a new trainee who has a high learning curve. Isn't it great when you can be "on the same page" and the training goes easily. It says a lot for you, being able to pass on your knowledge in a way that she can assimilate. It's a gift.

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_RAMONA 7/25/2014 8:45AM

    "I was pleased that I was listening to my stomach and not feeding any desires."

What a great example you are! I am encouraged sharing this journey!

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KRISZTA11 7/25/2014 6:29AM

    Deep fried veggies are good, and in the small amount you ate I believe they count as healthy.
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Congrats to your progress!

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LOPEYP 7/25/2014 4:22AM

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Day 5 Food Sober...Stress and Weight Down

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Today was Day 5 of being "food sober" and I saw 225 on the scale...nice surprise. It's going down. But lately, I've been hitting about this weight and then slacking off and gaining it all back up into the 230's, then panicking and getting back on track. So, I know I really need to buckle down at this point, not feel "safe" and push on. It's the only way to break the yo-yo'ing. I'm wary and pushing on.

It was a good day at work. My new girl is doing really well. I'm starting to feel like we are catching back up again. Ah. Nice. But, again, not getting too comfortable...just pushing on.

I went out to eat with my new girl today and we went to Sonic for National Hotdog day. I chose the dog that I thought would have a better calorie count and enjoyed it with apple slices and ended up in range for the day. I laughed a lot at lunch...she is a really funny story teller. For supper, I fixed Steph2003's Chicken Dumplings...so good. I had picked up my granddaughter from the sitters and then DD came here from work and ate supper and picked her up. It was a nice family evening. She walking now! So cute! She's so proud of herself when she takes steps on her own and doesn't fall. It's really adorable.

Hope you all had a great day! Keep up the good work! Thanks for the encouragement! Spark on! emoticon emoticon

  
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DS9KIE 7/25/2014 12:58AM

    yippy for you emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DUXGRL1 7/24/2014 7:41PM

    Sounds like another good day! Keep it up! emoticon

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ALOHAEV1 7/24/2014 6:51PM

    Dang, I knew there was a reason I wanted to go to Sonic yesterday! The special treat is their pretzel dog.

So glad you had a great day and get to spend time with the little tyke. Great job!

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LOSINIT52 7/24/2014 11:09AM

    Way to go! You are doing great . Stay strong!

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WORDLILY 7/24/2014 9:19AM

    Glad it's working for you! Stay vigilant!

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MORTICIAADDAMS 7/24/2014 8:54AM

    I'm trying to watch carefully for carb and calorie creep. I've lost 13 pounds recently and don't intend to regain it.

Your food sounds delicious.

So cool that your grand daughter is walking now.



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MRSKATEDUVALL 7/23/2014 11:08PM

    rooting for you

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144AUTUMN 7/23/2014 10:30PM

  You can do it!!

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_RAMONA 7/23/2014 10:14PM

    What a lovely day... laughter and love are the seasoning that makes all our efforts worth it!

Great job on your 'food sober plan, too! I'm rooting for you. I have been 'food sober' for sugar and starches for six months now, and how good I feel keep me going. you can do it!

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1CRAZYDOG 7/23/2014 10:13PM

    Good job!

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