As a wife, I want to have given all that I had and made my hubby feel we have lived a life that we could not have lived without one another.
As a mother, I want to have given my daughter the ability to make choices and decisions that help her to be successful in all her life choices.
As a daughter, I want to have made my parents proud in all my choices and decisions in life.
As a teacher, I want to have made a difference in my students' lives.
Personally I want others to feel like I was creative, helpful and cheerful most of the time.
I am so upset about my Fitbit once again. I purchased my original wrist wearing fitbit a year ago this week. It is out of commission AGAIN!!! Now the company is great for customer service. I have had problems with it almost since the time I first received it. The company had since then replaced my whole unit 4 times since then. 4 TIMES!!! The units have given out in different ways each time; battery issues, charging cord issues, loose connection in the unit itself.
This time it said it was charged, but within an hour, the charge would be gone and it would be requiring a new charge. FRUSTRATION!!!! I plugged it in 5 days ago. It took until today to finally show it was fully charged, supposed to take 3 or 4 hours at the most. It has worked fine all day.
Now the company is acting like I am just making up these excuses so I can get yet another new unit. REALLY?!! I am so frustrated. I hate to waste my money because this unit was not cheap, but I am really upset that I can't track my walking program on the days that my unit is "down".
Prompt: What would you like to explore and learn more about?
I recently added a new puppy to my family. In all my years of having dogs I have never had a pup. While I love the challenge of the new family member, I now realize I don't know how to train a new puppy. So far potty training is getting better and Dakota is now sitting on command. BUT I am not so good at the anti-biting and "come". I want to keep my little one safe and happy for herself and the others she will come in contact with.
I have been feeling overwhelmed and frustrated. Dakota only seems to bite the hand that feeds and has taken to tearing my clothes that I am currently wearing when she wants my attention. When she does not want to walk on a leash and falls to the ground in what I refer to as an "alligator death roll" in order to end the walk. We finish with choking and panting from both of us, hurrying into the house for a drink.
I would love to explore more dog training techniques thru sessions at the local pet store, but I am waiting on her clearance from the vet to socialize with others. I am looking into more reading and video materials to educate myself on what I have to do to get us over this hump in the road.
My journaling challenge today was to discuss the benefits of accepting myself completely, all of the good and not so good bits.
I think I am pretty accepting of myself. I don't let my weight hold me back from the things I want to do. I have a quirky kind of personality, but I try to maintain the peace, lol. I do get super stressed out if I feel I am made to "look the fool" because I have not understood some direction I have been given. I don't like to feel ill informed. I have issue with people's criticisms, an ongoing issue I work on daily.
But with all these things, I feel I am a good person. I try to look out for the little guy. I try to get along with others even if I don't agree with them. I try to be helpful whenever I can. I pay attention to my hubby, DD and puppy daily even if it is just to give them a call and tell them I love them. I think the benefit of being me is that my life is enriched by others and I try to enrich others lives by living mine as well as I can.
I think through my weight loss journey I will become a healthier person with more energy so I can devote even more time to living my life to the fullest and doing even more for others.
It has been a stressful day today. I made the mistake of getting on the scale this morning, on a day I am NOT supposed to weigh myself. But I have been so worried this week because my doctors put me on steroids for the next two weeks for a health issue. I am about half way through the two weeks now. Yesterday someone at work pointed out that she was really sabotaged when her doctor put her on steroids. They made her gain a lot of weight rapidly. And she has had trouble getting the weight back off now.
I knew I was going to be down this week. I have been really excited because I have been really motivated. My clothes WERE feeling looser. I have clocked more walking steps this week then EVER and broke some of my personal records.
Then I got on the scale...
I am up 4 pounds. I am very sad. I am feeling depressed, which can also be due to the medications. I snacked and snacked and snacked all day. It was not good. I am tired, only 3 hours sleep last night, 4 hours the night before due to the meds I am told. SOOOOOOOOOO frustrated.
I did not even get all my water in today. Not good!!
I know, tomorrow is another day. And I will plug along, but I am very upset today...