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It's over

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

As of 10:28 am this morning, my Cody left us. He is at peace now. I can't believe he is gone. It was so fast my head was spinning. I couldn't let go of him for almost an hour after the vet left us in the room. I keep looking for him to say, Mommy, I have to go out. He was the best friend I've ever had. I can't believe he's not here anymore. The house is so quite now without his nails on the floor. I stayed up with him all night last night and he couldn't even stand to go out. It was still all Cody but his body turned on him. He looked at me last night as if to say, Mommy, I think I've had enough and I'm ready to go. There was no way I could even think of asking him to stay. Tonight is going to be HELL without my boy. I can't stop looking for him. His body failed him. He was a beautiful yellow lab/golden mix. I think he was the only boy to have his own room with a queen size bed. He was King.

Rest in Peace, my old friend.....



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FUN-BEING-MUM 1/2/2010 3:48PM

    I'm so sorry to hear about your loss x

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JULIETEXAS 12/30/2009 7:24PM

    Maybe someday it will become clear why these creatures we love so much have such a shorter lifespan...maybe so that more of them can accompany us on our journey? I am so sorry that your Cody is gone.

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CHELLELEIGH 12/30/2009 6:37PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss. Sometimes we treat our animals just like family and it can be just as hard to lose them as a family member. My thoughts are with you while you are grieving.

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GILLYWEED 12/30/2009 6:35PM

    So sorry for your loss. emoticon emoticon

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Cody to the vet

Monday, December 28, 2009

We took Cody to the vet today and he doesn't have a sugar problem. The vet is thinking cancer! We took him home and took him for his last walk. He didn't sniff or wag his tail like he usually does. I can't stop sobbing. With the way today is going I can't ask my best friend to stay. This is not him. I have a feeling that my friend has already left and this is just a shell. Sometimes I still see my old friend in his actions. We told the vet Wednesday but it might be tomorrow.

I just don't know how to let my best friend go.......

I love him so much.......


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JULIETEXAS 12/28/2009 3:18PM

    emoticon I am so sorry to hear about Cody, I had to make the same choice about my beloved Lessa two years ago. A friend shared this site with me, hope it helps a little:

Peace to you and Cody.

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TULIPDAISYROSE 12/28/2009 1:24PM

    I am so sad for you! Most of us have experienced such losses and know how much it hurts. We all reach out to you and hope you can feel our strength. Hugs-Debbie

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AWYEAGLE 12/28/2009 1:18PM

    I'm so very sorry to hear that you had to deal with this. I have been there more than once and it is never easy. You will one day get to the point where you remember the good and not the end. Hugs!

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POOKIEWOO 12/28/2009 1:01PM

  Oh I am so sorry, furbabies always have a special place in our hearts! ((hugs)) Try and do what you think is best for Cody. Also if he has to go, try and remember all the great times and the love shared. emoticon

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I think I'm losing my best friend

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Cody has been my best friend for the past 6 years. Giving unconditional love and asking for just that in return. We live on the second floor and his hind end is giving out. He has done nothing except pee since October and water for him is just like a drug craving. He craves it. He canít get enough of it. Heís lost a lot of weight in the last couple of weeks. He used to be 11 0 pounds but now I think he might be 70 pounds. His balance is starting to go and he is breathing hard. He is my only friend and I canít let him go, but I have done nothing but just sit and sob since the 23rd of December when he fell on the stairs. I canít bring myself to take his life. He looks at me with those eyes and I just canít take his life. He was still playing with his ball as of yesterday! I donít know what to do. I canít, I just canít let him go, but if heís in pain I have no right to ask him to stay. I donít think heíll make it through the week. If he does Iíll be very surprised. This yearís Christmas has been awful. How do you say good-bye to your best and only friend who gave you love without question? I love him so much.

I just canít let Cody goÖ..I love him so much

I know some people can't understand the bond between a person and a dog but when you can't have kids, they become your only children. That bond is just as strong. How do I break that bond now by taking his life. I just can't let him go.......

I have two other girls that have gone to Rainbow Bridge, but unlike the poem, I don't think I'll ever see them again. Many times I have the feeling that I'm not going that way and I'll never see my dogs again. I have a lot of times felt like I would be going in the other direction, if you know what I mean.

Thank you for letting me start the process of letting by best friend go


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HEALTHYBEAR24 2/19/2012 1:52AM

    You're in my prayers.

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SANDRA0011 12/27/2009 7:41PM

    Heather...I am an animal lover and I know what you are going through. Please take him to the vet might be something he can do my heart goes out to you.

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TIGERJANE 12/27/2009 6:07PM

    This may come across as very unfeeling and obtuse, but I absolutely don't mean it that way: have you taken Cody to the vet to see what's wrong? Cause it sounds a lot like something with the kidneys/diabetes. With that said, my heart goes out to you and Cody. My dog is my best friend, and I know I'll be a complete mess when I lose her. I'll be keeping you both in my thoughts and prayers.

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FUN-BEING-MUM 12/27/2009 4:46PM

    oh bless you - i completely understand as i have had animals all my life. it sounds like you have given Cody so much love, i am sorry that you are sad. Message me if you need someone to listen **big hugs** Amy

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_DASH_ 12/27/2009 4:44PM

I am so sorry to hear you are going through this. Dogs really do make the best of friends. I just got my own dog this year and already I can't imagine what my life will be like someday without her. I hope you find peace and Cody doesn't suffer long- keep pictures of him everywhere and know that you had a great friend, one who unconditionally loves you and had a happy life because of you.

Take care of yourself,

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