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Smashed my record yesterday!

Saturday, January 04, 2014

I was so excited yesterday when I pushed myself at the gym and totally smashed my former record of 48 minutes for 5K on a treadmill. Made it in 44:52 and jogged a personal best of 18 of those minutes. Earlier in the fall when I tried it for the first time I was at almost 59 minutes so there's been definite progress. One of my goals for 2014 is to do a real 5K race and I don't want to cross the finish line anywhere near being last. I took this sweaty selfie right afterwards yesterday and you can see my pride in my face, I think. :-)

  
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RICKYDAF 4/2/2014 12:37PM

    congrats :) Keep pushing to achieve your goals! Where in BC are you I am in the interior...doing my first 5 Km April 27 :)

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CNJ91602 1/5/2014 10:31AM

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POUTINGPEGGY 1/4/2014 12:44PM

    Wow! I wouldn't like to race against you! You look very proud and also determined. I think we are looking into the eyes of a winner. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Back at it after a short break!

Friday, January 03, 2014

I purposefully and mindfully took about 10 days off my nutrition and exercise plan over Christmas. I know that most people probably think that was the wrong choice, but for me, I think it was right. Fall and into winter 2013 was difficult for me with some stressful things added to my life, and I thought taking that time to try to sort myself out would be a good thing before the new year. And I know myself well enough to know that I want this journey to be about real life and that means learning to live my life like I will once the losing part of this journey is over. And yes, that does mean treating myself occasionally.

Yes, I wish I hadn't gone as crazy as I did with some of the eating I did, but the damage wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I am up a few pounds but I have been back doing the things I know work for me for days now, and that feels good. I believe that I need to celebrate that as my whole life, one setback in diet or exercise program sent me in a months or years downward spiral. I am not that person anymore, and that makes me proud.

  
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DANCEMOM1970 1/4/2014 11:57AM

    I did enjoy it for the most part. I know that at times I fed my feelings, and did pay the price as far as how I felt a few times. But I was never as out of control as before this journey started. I didn't mindlessly stuff my face, and knew what I was doing as I was doing it. One of the positives is that I am back with renewed enthusiasm and excitement, and that feels good.

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POUTINGPEGGY 1/3/2014 5:04AM

    The question to ask is did you enjoy it? Now you're back on track. You can see the physical change in you and I bet the mental change has been just as dramatic. Good luck, again, for the coming year.

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Bringing in the new year with hope.

Thursday, January 02, 2014

I havenít been one for New Yearís resolutions for a long time because of all of the years Iíve said, ďIím going to lose weightĒ and didnít follow through with any long term results. This year is no exception, other than I am making several promises to myself. I promise to continue on with the journey Iíve been on and keep pushing the boundaries that have been in place all of my life. I promise myself time and energy spent on myself, knowing itís worth it and that I can give more to others when I give more to myself. I also promise to work on being gentler on myself and my emotions in hopes that this gives me more peace.

2013 was for the most part a great year. But this past few months have been difficult and Iím finding it hard to want to celebrate a good year. So instead, Iím looking ahead and planning for 2014 to be MY year for peace, joy, accomplishments yet to be made and limits to be pushed. Itís not selfish, itís about taking care of myself as itís only me I have to depend on.

  
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WILLIS9301 1/2/2014 7:29PM

    May you have a happy and successful new year!

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POUTINGPEGGY 1/2/2014 3:07AM

    I hope you have a wonderful 2014. I am sure you will overcome any obstacles in your way.

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BOPPY_ 1/2/2014 3:00AM

    In my experience, the best celebration of reaching your goals, is living with the goals reached.

Nothing beats not carrying around another 126 pounds (in my case).

Sounds like you figured it out.

Enjoy,

Lee emoticon

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Had a great experience this week

Saturday, December 07, 2013

Losing so much weight hasn't been the cure-all I had hoped it would be for the issues that created the weight problem to begin with. All of my life, I thought that if I was just thinner, life would be better. But, as in most things in life, it hasn't been that simple.

For me personally, the weight loss is accompanied by just as many, if not more, problems with body image than I ever had. This is the most frustrating part of this whole journey.

First, and most obviously, there's the extra skin that results from a massive amount of weight lost. It's giving my mind permission to believe that I look worse now than I ever did, even at my highest known weight of 338 lbs.

But for me, the bigger issue with this process is the reasons I put the weight on to begin with. When it first started, I put it on to protect myself in the only way a 13 year old's mind can subconsciously protect itself when traumatized. That is obviously the "short version".

I'm in a mental place now where I know intellectually that I've lost this much weight and I look (at least in clothes) so much better than I have in all of my adult life. But emotionally, I am very fragile when it comes to my body's appearance. It's a terrible conflict.

So about a month ago, I started thinking that I really need to address this as it's going to likely cause me problems when I start to head into maintenance or even in the final stages of weight loss. Coincidentally, a local lingerie store that I follow on Facebook scheduled a photo shoot for women. I signed up and almost bailed many times. But, I didn't. That photo shoot was this week.

I'm a teacher and the only posed pictures that I've had done in more than a decade are school photos. But for this photo shoot, I brought along a tasteful chemise to have my photo taken in. And when I got there, I purchased a sexy outfit after trying it on and being so overcome with emotion that it fit and actually looked good. I had about 100 photos taken from normal work clothes and in the other 2 outfits. I felt really good about myself after that. The photographer, despite having a certain deal being offered for this opportunity, is giving me access to the whole 100 photos. He's going to retouch the 12 I choose for the calendar I'm surprising my hubby with for Christmas. He is going to be so shocked.

  
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BOPPY_ 12/30/2013 12:59AM

    You are succeeding. Congratulations.

Nice adjustment, too.

There's an even better you coming,

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POUTINGPEGGY 12/8/2013 4:42AM

    What a wonderful idea for you and your husband. That took a lot of courage on your behalf and signals a new mindset. Great.

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PEZCATHY 12/7/2013 7:35PM

    That is so awesome! What a great present for your husband. I know he is very proud of you! The photographer must be very impressed to do that for you! You look awesome!
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GOLFGMA 12/7/2013 6:59PM

    The calendar is such a neat idea. Bet you looked lovely and your DH will be so surprised and happy! emoticon

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TIGER_LILY_613 12/7/2013 6:35PM

    It takes time for the mind to catch up with the body. While diet+exercise is the formula for weight loss, healing the mind isn't always that obvious. So, good on you for going through with the photoshoot ! I'm sure you'll look fantastic, and sure your husband will certainly be pleasantly surprised !



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LIZZIE138 12/7/2013 6:18PM

    What a great way to deal with your insecurities... Head on. I know you do look great and now so do you. And your husband is going to love the present! Big emoticon

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BUSYGRANNY5 12/7/2013 6:10PM

    How awesome that you had pictures taken for you and your husband!!

Have a great day!!!

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Accomplished a goal today

Sunday, November 24, 2013

7 months into this journey, which began with focusing only on exercise to learn to like it and to increase my fitness level from the point where turning over in bed was an ordeal and carrying a basket of laundry one floor up had me stopping to rest on the way, I think I got a little cocky. I decided to tackle a popular local hike called Teapot Hill (so named because of the many cute little teapots hidden along the trail and in the trees). 17 minutes in after stopping to catch my breath about 5 times, I had to turn back and was humiliated as I was there with a friend.

To be fair, I was also still around the 300 lb weight but had made a lot of progress in 7 months of 3-4 times a week of aquafit.

A year after that attempt, about 75 lbs lighter, I went on my own (wasn't going to risk humiliating myself again...) and made it to the spot I had previously given up at in just 9 minutes. I kept going and only turned back when I realized how stupid it was to be there by myself. Not to mention that the trail gets smaller with much steeper hills right next to it....one fall and you could be seriously hurt or even die. I didn't know it then but I was only about 15 minutes from the top of the trail.

This week I was invited by a friend to give it another try. In 45 minutes, we made it to the top and I was able to talk and walk the whole time with only a handful of "catch my breath" stops on the way. I'm so proud of myself!

  
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CNJ91602 11/25/2013 9:21AM

    emoticon That's amazing and very inspirational! emoticon

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KIPPER_KID 11/25/2013 8:12AM

    Wow, that really shows how far you've come - emoticon

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POUTINGPEGGY 11/25/2013 4:41AM

    You should be proud of yourself! You are the Julie Andrews of Spark People. 'Climb every mountain.......'

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NIKIZAHA 11/25/2013 3:55AM

    Wonderful! emoticon

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