My morning has been turned upside down. I know I need to be thankful for the PEOPLE in my life because they are what matter most but I'm stressing about money and the potential loss of a vehicle.
My husband was in a car accident this morning (he didn't have the kids, THANK YOU GOD!!) and everyone is fine but our car isn't. And now we will also have to replace our kids car seats. The car is nothing special at all but to lose a vehicle we need daily would be devastating since we have no extra money.
I'm upset, I want to cry and eat a bunch of junk, but I know I just need to pray and have trust and faith in God. He always carries me through everything.
So if you pray, please say a small one for me and my situation. If you don't pray, good vibes would be appreciated as well.
Lately, I've been done a couple DietBets to help me lose weight and give me extra motivation. I've done great and won the last two without any trouble.
Recently, I started a new one and sadly I've done nothing but gain since then. I've ate terribly and haven't exercised like I should BUT today and every. single. day. for the next three weeks I WILL! I know how to eat, I know that I need to cut back on my mindless snacking, and I need to kick my butt into gear and exercise! I CAN do this! I WILL lose 9 lbs in the next three weeks and WIN my third DietBet!
I need this DietBet because this is the time of year where I throw all my hard work away. I don't want to do that this year. I also don't want to waste weeks I could be losing by maintaining. I want to keep up my great momentum and be at my goal by my daughters first birthday. She is one of my biggest reasons for being healthy. I need to be a great role model and every day I CHOOSE to live healthy is doing exactly that!
One step at a time, one decision at a time, one moment at a time...I will win!
As I've gotten older I've realized I'm a VERY caring person. Some times I realize I care too much about things that really shouldn't burden me as they do.
One good example of that is working above and beyond my 40 hours to get things done ahead of a deadline because I care about getting it done right the first time and well ahead of schedule. This is great and I'm sure my bosses love it but sometimes it interferes with my personal life. I even was answer work calls while I was in labor with my daughter.
The reason I'm blogging about this here though is because every time I add someone to my "friends" list on here it's because I've read their page and care about watching them on their journey. So when they aren't active I start to worry because I know how hard this journey is and how important it is to get healthy.
I was on another Sparkers page and I noticed the came back for about a day and then disappeared again and I truly wish I could grab them and shake them out of whatever funk they might be in so we can work together on this journey. I try to follow up with my active friends or at least comment and like their accomplishment or statuses in my friend feed.
Losing weight is the hardest thing any of us with ever do but we do not have to do it alone! I know I shouldn't feel sad/upset about someone I have never met and them not meeting their own personal goals, but I am. Each and every one of you are worth the daily battles that lead up to winning the ultimate fight against FAT! We can do it, TOGETHER! I am here for not only me but YOU as well!
Well as I was looking at my AMAZING fellow Sparkers pages I noticed a common theme. They were honest (or seemingly so) about how much they weighed throughout their journey. So I changed my ticker to actual show my HONEST weight. I'm tired of hiding. I'm putting it out there and I'm going to work my butt off (literally) to get that football to the end zone!
Yes, on one of my pictures it says my highest weight was 235...LIE! BIG FAT LIE! My highest non-pregnant weight was 251 BEFORE kids! I know the numbers don't define me and the scale won't tell me I'm beautiful but it's time I get REAL and stop hiding.
So from here on out it's the truth and NOTHING but the truth!
This morning I was reading on the SP message boards and I read some HARD truths about food. Food is an object, like a pencil. It doesn't shove itself down our throat we CHOOSE to eat it. The best definition I found is below...
CHOOSE: to select freely and after consideration
The part that blows my mind is that I have mindlessly chosen to ALLOW food to control me. To allow food to have a voice and the strength to make me eat it. Realizing that I hold all the power has FINALLY flipped a switch! I don't have to eat junk just because it's there.
I feel like this is my "aha" moment and I will not CHOOSE to allow food to have power. I will allow it to be the OBJECT it truly is. I will select freely AFTER consideration.
I have the power to break this cycle and NOT pass it on to my children.