Tuesday, November 04, 2014
My story is not unique. I have been overweight since the age of ten and I am now 56! I lost weight in my 20's using medically supervised diet pills. I regained that weight with my first pregnancy. I lost weight again following Weight Watchers but regained that and more after my second pregnancy. My children are 34 and 25. For the last 25 years, every New Year, every summer (I'm a teacher).....every MONDAY, I resolved to lose weight! I've read, I've researched, I've blogged, I've shopped, I've planned, I've shared, I've discussed, I dreamed, I've hoped, and I've prayed about losing weight.
I have been here on SparkPeople for 6 years and have witnessed amazing weight loss! As the summer ended I prepared to return to work and I was at my highest weight EVER! I have had the support & encouragement of my Spark friends and teams, yet I felt like it would never be me. I tried again this summer. I know what to do and what not to do, the problem was doing for more than a week! The only thing stopping me was me! Then I was on Facebook and a colleague who struggles with weight posted she had lost weight thanks to Weight Watchers. While I happy for her; I was envious too. Why can everyone else do it and not me!!! What is wrong with me? I thought about joining Weight Watchers but knew I had joined many times before and just wasted my money because I didn't follow the program. Yet I knew I need to do something.
It was the Saturday of Labor Day weekend. I looked online and found that there was a meeting at 9am on Sunday. Perfect! I could go to the meeting and then be to church by 10:30! I told myself just give it a month. That's what I did! That is what I continue to do every week! I have lost 29 lbs so far. I have a long way to go, but for the first time in 25 years, I feel hopeful and no confident that I can do this! What is different this time? ME!!
When I make a poor choice I get back on track. I eat more vegetables and fruit then I ever have and most of all I focus on how good it feels to have success. I want to keep this feeling going!
So the answer to the question, When is it time to give up?
Wednesday, July 02, 2014
I love summer because I am off from work and I have the luxury and freedom of time! Most of all I love summer because I can spend time at the beach!
Sunday, April 27, 2014
On the morning of Tuesday March 25, my dad who lived with us, called me on the house phone intercom to tell me good morning and that he loved me. He use to come upstairs to say that each morning, but in the since his knee replacement in January, he would just call up. I told him I loved him and to have a good day. He had told me the previous evening that the physical therapist was ready to release him form PT. At the age of 91, he had full range of motion in his new knee. He had chosen to have the surgery because he was in constant pain whether sitting or standing. He was 91 and a veteran of World War II yet he didn't seem "old". He had a love and joy for living. He was on Facebook and would Skype with his grandchildren. He was looking forward to the summer when I would be home, and he could get out and walk. He wanted to travel more. That Tuesday he was planning to go to the Senior Citizens'Center for his weekly poker game. I left for work that morning as usual, but by 9:15 my husband called telling me I needed to come home. I knew at that moment that my father was gone. While getting ready for poker, the Lord called him home. He was just one month shy of his 92nd birthday, which was last week. The day after mine.
Seven years ago when my mother was dying, he had promised her that he would be ok. He kept that promise for almost seven years! My mom died here at home on hospice. It was my daily prayer that my dad would live a long, healthy life and when his time came it would be quick and without any suffering. God answered my prayer.
People I don't know come up to me to tell me what a remarkable man my dad was. He always had a smile and kind word for everyone who crossed his path. There were times when we were out together and he would wave at someone and say hello. I'd ask him, "Who is that?' He'd say, "My friend!" I'd ask, "What's his name?" He'd respond, "I don't know."
Everyone he ever met, he counted as a friend!
For the last 22 years my parents, lived in our home. The lower level of our bi-level was their place. When my mom passed 7 years ago, we changed very little out of respect for my dad. My husband and I are now in the midst of trying to reconfigure and re-purpose our living space with both of them gone. No matter how we change the space, it is filled with a lifetime of memories. They helped us raise our daughter & son and did so much more. They were a constant source of emotional, spiritual, & physical support. Our son, who is still at home and has never known a day without his grandfather is grieving deeply this loss
The sadness comes over me like a wave at times. I am trying to stay in a place of gratitude and not in the sadness. My father told us everyday....."Just do your best! That's all anyone can ask of you!" I am my father's daughter! I am his living legacy....I will do my best.....my very best!
Wednesday, January 01, 2014
I am actually happy to greet you! I have welcomed years before you...NO you are not my first! Yet I know, you will be one I remember! I am ready for you like I have never been before. Yeah, so I am at my highest weight ...again...292...well 291.8 but I'm not going to quibble over 0.2 pounds! You know the saying...it's not you, it's me! Well that is the truth! It's not you New Year, sorry to tell you, but nothing really changes when you arrive accept the calendar! Sure you have many people fooled into believing hat something magical will happen when you arrive but I have learned, as most people will in a few days, weeks maybe a month, that you are just like the ones that have gone before you. Change come from with in! So I am happy to greet you because I am ready to change...NO MAGIC....just me! I will welcome you again each and everyday for the next 365 days just as I did tonight because each day will be another chance for me to do better, be better, live better! Hello 2014! I know we will do well together!
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