Monday, July 15, 2013
I know that if I don't want an answer I should not ask the question but sometimes it really still makes me feel bad and I have to fight it.
Yesterday it was hot I could not wear a t-shirt or sweater. I have a black tank top that is lose fitting but nothing I wear right now looks good because my mid-section is larger then I would like. I have a "spare tire" so to speak.
Before we were getting ready to leave I made the mistake of asking my husband if I looked ok.
HIM "I don't know, turn around."
ME *spins around like a show dog*
HIM "I guess it is ok."
ME "What is wrong with it? Ok means there is something you don't like."
HIM "Well it is a little tight."
ME "Tight in the sense that my boobs look huge or tight in the sense that you don't want to me seen with me because I look fat?"
HIM "Why do you ask me?"
ME "Because what you think matters."
HIM" I just know that you are self aware of your sides and if you really look you would not like how that top fits, I love you and think you are sexy and prefect but you don't believe me and then I get in trouble when I tell you the truth. I love you, can we go now?"
My poor husband. I know that he loves me no matter what I look like or weigh and I am way harder on myself then I should be sometimes.