Sunday, August 11, 2013
Well I know that vacation time can be a challenging time for anyone trying to lose weight. I accept that. We spent our vacation time last week with my family and our extended family camping. We went boating, played games, and toured the Amish countryside, basically having a lot of fun. But along with all that fun came tons of food. Most of which was not of the healthy kind. First of all the highlight of the camping trip was going into an Amish home and being able to partake in an Amish home cooked meal. Man was that good. Of course portion control was not really monitored and the food choices were not of the lighter variety. So that was one of my downfalls on this trip. Then the fact that we grilled out ribs and brats for some of the other meals also did not help. My mother-in-law is an awesome 5 star cook and baker so she brought many things to eat which were not very healthy either. She had just gained a bunch of weight back as well and seemed to want everyone else to do the same. I am telling you somehow I have got to maintain a kind of resistance or self control when it comes to taking foods I know are not doing my weight justice. I can tell my over indulging has caused the scale to move in a direction I do not like. Although I have yet to see what or how much damage I did, I am sure by the tightness of my clothing it was not good. Well I can mope around for the next week or so and let that effect my momentum, or I can see and learn from my errors and try to start fresh tomorrow. I think I have chosen the later of the two and will continue my journey again. I can see my ups and downs are also effecting how I feel inside. I become less and less motivated when I see the scale go up and feel like I have to repeat the same loss of 5-10 pounds over and over. This is a depressing venture and is part of what makes me want to give up at times. I really feel as though sometimes I am fighting a losing battle. I know that I want to look and feel healthy for my family and myself, but the mind seems to just say what the heck and goes into failure mode all over again. I think that if I can recoup what damage I have done and get back on track and keep doing that overtime when I slip up, I may eventually get to a point where I feel I can maintain a healthy weight. I don't want to be super skinny, that I know I can not keep up with, but I do want to be at a healthy BMI and weight. So again here we go and I will keep blogging and tracking the good, the bad, and the ugly of my weight loss journey!!