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"I believe I can FLY" !

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Many of us may remember this song???? If not, or if your younger than when it came out,, I THINK??? In the late 80s, early 90s???? NOT quite surah,,, here it is on youtube


"I Believe I can fly, I think about it day and night, spread my wings and fly away" This is one of the MOST UPLIFING SOngs there POSSIBLY Is !!! It helps us to see what EVER we WANT ,, we can GO FOR IT !!! WE CAN ACHIEVE so MUCH more than "we think" if we do NOT dream,, and than GO FOR IT WITH ALL WE HAVE !!

If one is depressed,, which I was over 10 yrs ago,,, one GIVeS this UP ! Belief in one self that they CAN Do WHATEVER they wish !! if you are feeling this way,, PLZ do listen to the song,,, talk openly with a Dr or therapist (MY Opinion, based on ALL the HELP I have received,, after suffering FOR SO MANY YRS UNNECESSARILY).

Now I can safely say "I LOVE MYSELF and NO MATTER what my FOOLISH body does to me,,,,, I CAN KEEP A GOING and do my 60 to 120 Mins A DAY (Unless I am in severe pain,, than its GREAT to take a DAY or 2 OFF and HEAL !) (or on the Dawggie team,, is that "HEEL GIRL !! HEEL " !!! :)

If you are a new reader,,,, I'll just say I have 4 back chronic illnesses,, of which ANY ONE of them could "EASILY" be an EXCUSE for me to NOT move !!! And also neuropathy,,which if you know anyone with this,, its one of the MOST PAINFUL Illnesses one can HAVE !! I've even broken my foot in TWO Places,,, I hd NO CLUE and I was WALKING ON IT !!! That's how HORRIBLE neuropathy is,,, it feels like you have needles and pins in ur feet, and for me,, including my lower legs,, knees down.

THANKFULLY I had a surgery for that in Nov,, it helped OUT SO MUCH !! So if you happen to ALSO have it,,, know that meds (often which do NOT work,, or only "somewhat" ) are NOT ur ONLY Option. Ive also had cold or hot infrared light work done on them,,, but I was to far gone. My Dr's ALL LOVE ME !! For I am very willing to let hem try "new idea's" on me,, and I am OFTEN a GUINEA PIG For them to do.

I find out tomorrow,, if I am headed in for surg 18 soon,, on feet. (Ihave also had 4 other surgs on top of these). At this point,, we are "chasing around nerve endings which haven't died, but HURT HORRIFICALLY felt in my feet still. In Colorado,, they were going to amputate them,, here in ME though I have a Dr who STRONGLY believes he can help me. I am having him "at this time" work on it. There are of course NO Guarantee he can get ALL the nerves.

It has also affected me Greatly on exercise,,, for I was old last week,, NOTHING Like dancing,, or ANY TYPES of Dance,,, esp cos they include picking the foot up and than bac kdown,,,, at times quickly n' some can ALSO include junping,, which is a HUGE no no ,,, the last surg on the nerve for the bottom of my left foot,,, big bone under the big toe area,, It can UNDO what he has done,, and I DID NOT do he surg for NOTHING !!! ALSO I DO NOT want to go back to "that part" of the foot feeling like its on FIRAH when I step down.


Does that make you feel like you can ALSO over come UR OWN Obstacles? IHOPE SO ANd I wish to THANK Cheri (CHeririddell) for HELPING to SEE THIS with NEW things to try and ALSO Penelope' (MaryAnnGI) Also on the Dawggie team,,, for helping me to see this !! I CAN DO AS I WANT WITHIN REAL Limitations, but they do NOT STOP ME !

"I believe I can soar,,,, thru the open door" (FIND UR OPEN DOOR ! AND GO FOR IT WITH ALL YOU HAVE !! NEVER SAY "I AM DONE" or STOP reaching out MORE AND MORE,,,and PRESSING UR BODIeS to their LIMIT WITHOUT an injury !


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    I believe you can fly!

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IOWAGRAMMA 4/17/2014 5:20PM

    Diane, you have an awesome attitude and I know you can fly...just keep flapping those wings, Girl, and away you go! You are right, Cheri is another one and I have no doubts that she has been a huge help to you. I'm so looking forward to getting back with the Dawgie's with the next challenge. Hope it works out. I miss you all!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DOLLYHOLLY 4/17/2014 10:12AM

    emoticon song! I LOVE it.

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MARYANNSQUEST 4/17/2014 2:09AM

    My Sweet Diane,

Thank you for this Blog! This one is the one that really helped with some decisions I had to make Today

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CHERIRIDDELL 4/16/2014 11:19PM

    We can fly!

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GRANNY2B2 4/16/2014 10:57PM

    emoticon I found the door today!!!! Thanks to you, emoticon

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TRAVELGO 4/16/2014 6:22PM

  Great blog!

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I am obese,,, and it'll stay this way.

Friday, April 11, 2014

I talked to a Dr today,,,, about how I KEEP TRYING SO HARD to lose. we talked about "how are your eating habits"? He was quite impressed over all the changes I've made,,, agreed that SHOULD WORK !!

Than he asked about my exercising. I told him,, some days 60 mins of swimming,, other days swimming and yoga or yoga and some walking (though at the moment the walking is becoming less and less,, as I head towards,,, surg #18 on feet,,, hmmm I'd have to guess that 13 of those have been the left foot,,, which it'll be AGAIN !)

Than he said "you should be losing weight, but you know with all the changes you have made, are you aware of the latest studies in which states that an obese person can be HEALTHIER than a thin one? It's about being healthy which matters". I had read this, but I had NOT taken it to heart,, now I need to try too.

For some of you it appears easier to lose,,, and lose and lose,,, and yes,,, while I CONGRATS ya,, I also cry for myself,,,, in that it's JUST NOT WORKING FOR ME !!

So with his words,,, I of course HAD to AKNOWLEDGE that I AM MUCH Healthier, though my "BMI" does NOT reflect this,,,,

I had a Dr once who said to me "you NEED to LOSE WEIGHT to help your back !!" And he was sooo UGLY about it. He WIZZED ME OFF for HE had a POUCH that stuck out quite a bit. I resorted back to him "So do YOU" !!! How I WISH I could now talk to him,, and point out to him ALL the changes I've made,, how much "HEALTHIER" I am now than I was at that time. I NEVER EVER thought I'd be STRONG enough to NOT have pepsi thru the entire day,, let alone GIVE IT UP (now I am highly allergic to caffeine,, wonder if it's cos I drank so much? I ended up in the ER after a sip of it,,, was told to NEVER Have it again,, I was on the verge of a stroke from it). So who knows,,, maybe in that ALONE, I've saved my life? That cant of course be answered,,,, for I didn't continue on with it.

So I must resign myself to be being OBESE at 220,,,, so today I went out and bought some new cothes at my CURRENT LARGE SIZE that REALLY Fit,, and you know what? I FEEL GOOD about it. I have gone the usual up and down,, was into a size large on top,, and an XL on the bottom,,,, but, for the past 5 or so months,,, Ive NOT bought new clothes til recently,,, and realize I am clearly a size 24 on the bottom,, and WOW DO THOSE JEANS LOOK GREAT ON ME !!! And on the top,,, I've gone back up to a 1X. I do not of course "like the sizes" , but I DO LOVE MYSELF,,,, what else could be MORE PRECIOUS than that???

I ve decided I am going to to into maintance and FORGET the effort of "LOSING" for my body just wants to be HEALTHY and the weight does NOT MATTER !! What DOES matter,, is that I am a HAPPY person,,,, who's still of course going to KEEP ON WORKING on STAYING and even getting HEALTHIER !!!!

HUGS !! may YOU EMBRACE URSELF at where it is you are at.

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SHERYLP461 4/13/2014 10:32AM

    Accepting yourself is so important. Good for you!

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CHERIJ16 4/12/2014 5:07PM

    emoticon Life is not a destination it is a journey. Enjoy the journey. If you are eating for good health and you are happy where you are that's what counts!

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    truly, size is just a number.

I was positively euphoric at 210 - what freedom I had to eat whatever, whenever, however much I desired.

then the reality with my heart set in - and this was the only thing I could afford to try to avoid the coming heart attack. I have no insurance, Mississippi is not "with the program" and I cannot afford to take 15 meds like my dad took daily.

type A blood is the thickest so the risk factor for stroke & heart attack is high.

anywho - we loves ya just the way you is!

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CATLADYX8 4/12/2014 8:33AM

    Good for you!!!! Being healthy and feeling good about yourself is all that matters. Wish i could be at the place where you are. I am so proud of you for finding what makes you happy and sticking to it. WTG!!!!

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CHERIRIDDELL 4/12/2014 1:42AM

    Massive progress , we love you just the way you are !

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MISSLORI5 4/11/2014 10:18PM

    I had to accept the fact that my body didn't want to lose, also. I guess my body going through menopause, and my life in itself was creating so much conflict that no matter what I did or ate, the weight stopped coming off at about 210. After a 3-yr. plateau I have finally started losing again, but it's real slow. I credit this with the fact that I worked real hard on accepting myself, as you say, loving myself as I am. Not only that, but I decided, like you, to live healthy San emphasis on lower calories. I also talked to my doctor who gave me the formula of just how many calories I should be eating each day . She said to take your goal weight times 12, which is the amount of calories in a pound, and you'll get the amount of calories your body needs to attain that weight. For me, my goal weight is 115. 115x12=1380, so I try to keep my calories around 1300 everyday. I wish you most of all peace, as that is the best feeling in the world!!!

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MARYANNSQUEST 4/11/2014 10:06PM


Healthy is the best goal to be! Enjoy you, Part of being healthy is being happy with you. You have accomplished so much! I love your sponke, and please stay the way you are. I've always said journey to a healthier lifestyle. You have reach your destination. Now its time to enjoy you.

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MERRYMARY42 4/11/2014 9:30PM

    if you feel good and feel good about yourself, well that is what it is all about, this is the reason I am on this journey, to feel better, be stronger, more stamina, now of course to look better is ok too, but my pounds do not drop off me anymore, either. and that is ok

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KAYOTIC 4/11/2014 9:30PM

    Healthy is the way to go, keep up those good habits and continue to just feel great about yourself!

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HELEN_BRU 4/11/2014 9:08PM

    You've come a long way, baby! Sometimes we forget, but it all takes time. Just keep on the road and not stress over whether you have lost or not. It isn't worth it.


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DBEAU57 4/11/2014 8:17PM

    You are absolutely right! It is more important to be healthy. It is more important to love yourself as you are. You have to live with yourself, so you might as well enjoy your life. Do the things that make you happy. If swimming makes you happy, then keep doing it. Don't think you HAVE to do it; do it because you enjoy it.

I'm so proud of you for all the things you have already accomplished. You overcame your bully self. You gave up Pepsi. You eat more veggies.

I love you just as you are!

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Down for a couple of days

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Today I saw the DO who does my back, neck, legs and ribs. I told him how much pain I was in after the last session 2 weeks ago. He agreed to be MUCH easiah on my ribs. Still as I sit here,,, and usually the first day I am "ok" ,,,, I can feel my ribs.

its the 2nd day (Tomorrow Fri) and the following day,, that REALLY have me BEGGING FOR MERCY !!! OH YEAH !!! So why do I bother to go? I NEED to get better,,, and once Sunday will come along,,, I'll be sooo much off,, that it's worth it !!! Though tomorrow I will barely be able to breathe,, also the D.O. is teaching methods to be "kinder to my body" and how to sit up properly etc. I do have a back brace,, which when I wear it,, if I am going to be up for a 1/2 hr or longer,,, that helps A LOT !! THANKS to that foolish brace,, I can attend my religious meetings now,,,, without it,, NO WAY !!

This coming week,,, will be a TERRORIZING WEEK upon my body !! A LOT of religious meetings.

sun ,, normal 1 hr and 45 mins
Mon, Memorial of Jesus death ,,,, about 45 mins
Tues , special speaker,,, 1 hr 45 mins
Thurs, special speaker,,,, 1 hr 15 mins
Sat, I jump over circuits and go to a special day all day assembly for us,,, will be from 9 to 5
Sun, back to our meeting place,, special speaker,,,

SO ALL but, Weds are TAKEN !!! HOW WILL I DO THIS?? I can BARELY at times do 2 meetings,, and this is 5 !!!! So well,, I can also tie into the meetings by phone,, so I will prob do so on Sun, tues, the following Sun. I am just not strong enough.

This will greatly affect my exercise this coming week. This week, I've been shooting for 120 or ORE a day,, for it helps soo much with the pain I am in. Next week,, we are going swimming 2 times instead of 3,, and I know I am not going on Fri,, not sure about my swimming partner or what days she wishes,,, for the swimming as with me,, also helps her.

So yeah,, I am down and OUT for a few days.

I have also been stepping on the scale,, it's the "USUAL" I stay in range daily,, track even the smallest morsel that goes in,, and this week,,, the scale is saying I have gone UP a lb. SIGH !! I REALLY NEED to see my Doc,, but, that's not til May 8th. SO FAR away when I feel like I am dying inside of discouragement at this,, other than KNOWING For SURE I am DOING the RIGHt thing,, and it HAS to pay off???? Well with my body,, and all I face,, maybe I'll never lose,,, but at least I am A LOT healthier than I was even a yr ago.

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GOULDSGRANITE 4/11/2014 3:27PM

    Love and strength to you Diane. Knowing you, all your meetings and fitness will be done. You are having so many NSV's. Don't you dare get down about the scale. Sending some sunshine and spring flowers your way. Hugs emoticon emoticon

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SHERYLDS 4/11/2014 7:41AM

    you are emoticon
and the numbers aren't as important as the health
Hope this week works for you emoticon

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CHERIRIDDELL 4/10/2014 11:42PM

    Diane I know you do not like to say quit just as I don't but all those meetings sound like they might be a bit much for you.Can you pick the ones that are most important to you? Surely they would understand.I just do not want to see you suffer all Easter weekend .love and hugs,Cheri

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MARYANNSQUEST 4/10/2014 11:28PM

    Lots of Hugs emoticon !!!!! emoticon If you need to rest in between all those meetings, just give me a holler and I'll do the figures and stuff. You take Care of You!

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GRANNY2B2 4/10/2014 10:38PM

    Hi Dianne, you are such a sweet heart!! Thank you so much for thinking about me and always stopping by my page to wish me well. You always make my day !! Sooooo, I want to return the favor. Chin and tail up, you're a Dawg and you can handle the thing that you have to do. Yes it is hard, but this too, shall pass. Bow wow!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon m

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MISSLORI5 4/10/2014 10:31PM

    Oh, Diane, you are such a brave dear!!! I really pray for you this week, because I truly believe in prayer these days-it's what is keeping me sane!! Is it arthritis that is creating this immense pain in so much of your poor body? You have gone through so much, and have always come out a fighter-keep the faith, girl, and believe in yourself-you are a survivor!! I love you, Lori S. emoticon

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Next thing I just tried,, WOW ! Water AEROBICS !

Tuesday, April 08, 2014

Tonight I tried WATER AEROBICS Deep end !!


It was ALSO HARD in that I could NOT see what it was I was doing. I had thought that water googles may help, but my head is above the water ALL the time. MOst DO NO EVEN get their hair wet !! but the instructor wears his glasses,, and they have a TON of spots on them,,,, and I cannot STAND ANY SPotTS on my glasses !! So that's a NO GO !!!

I am also hard of hearing,, and depend on lip reading,, with the limited hearing I do have. And of course they were playing music,,, and it was NOT good for me,,, I need complete silence, but many have no clue of this. He got out and "turned it down"???? I couldn't tell he had.

He was VERY NICE !! there was a nice mixture of men and woman. Can be up to 20 plus taking a class,, thankfully tonight only about 10 ! YEAH GOOD NIGHT FOR THIS !!

It was FUN and INTERESTING,, and ALSO kinda FRUSTRATING cos they go REALLY FAST,,, all else have been for quite some time. They do not start out with new classes,,, just keep them going and going. So I have A LOT TO LEARN !! I think I'll look some of the moves online,, and see if I can "see" "hear" them to understand them.
I was clearly the LAST to finish when we swam up and down the pool,, HAHAHA SO I GOT TO CHEAT and do the 1/2 of it that others were doing ! WOOHOOO I LOVE IT !!

Did you KNOW you CAN get HOT in the water,, and FEEL like you are SWEATING??? I HAD NOT had this feeling since I was a JR life guard,,,, and had to swim over 5 miles with my clothing (Long jeans,,, long sleeve shirt,, bra,, panties, socks, and sneakers on),,,, that was HARD back then,,, and after 30 mins,, that's how I felt again,,, FINALL 10 mins before it was done for cool down,,,,, I was READY TO LEAVE !! NOT BAD !! it took me 40 mins to get to that point !!!! NOT BAD for the 1st time ! WOOF HOOO !!!

ALSO I HAD TO PEE !! LOL DO NOT U HATE THAT????? Its hard to hold it,,,,,,,, but, yeah,, who wants the water to turn color,,, ?????

Will I do this AGAIN????

OH YEAH !! Probably again on Weds !


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SHERYLDS 4/8/2014 6:54PM

    emoticon good for you .... and I am sure it will get easier

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    WTG!! I wish we had water aerobics here too. But it's just too far to drive to a pool.

Hugs, Diane!

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JESS0107 4/8/2014 2:01PM

    emoticon Have some fun!!

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STONE815 4/8/2014 1:25PM

    Love water aerobics - I tried the deep water and it is different. Takes a while to get use to not being able to touch the bottom and I believe you use your core a lot more than regular water aerobics. Just staying up straight is a challenge.

Have a great week.


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MSHEL7 4/8/2014 10:49AM

    Sounds great Diane, I'm so glad you are trying new things.

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POLYANNA2 4/8/2014 9:51AM

    Way to go, Diane! Doing new things always makes fitness fun. When I was in Aruba there was a water aerobics class at our pool every morning. Of course I joined in. I had never done it before and fell in love. First thing I did when I got back was join a water aerobics class. In fact, I'll be on my way there shortly. Great way to exercise the heck out of your body and feel no pain. Another thing I just started for the first time is yoga. I am loving that too. Sometimes you just got to get off the treadmill...lol
You just keep it up and you'll know the routine in no time. Besides, I'm sure they won't send you to aerobics jail if you have to modify or take time to learn it.
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EDENZMOM 4/8/2014 8:08AM

    That's awesome!! I hope you're not too sore today! lol
As for the hearing the instructor, the acoustics in the pool are terrible as it is. Maybe email the instructor and ask him to signal you... or at least tell him you need an extra bit of communication from him, I'm sure they will help you out. I'm so proud of you!

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RAINBOWCHOC 4/8/2014 4:01AM

    love aquafit, all the lumps and bumps don't show under water!

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A unique experience with the 'Dr's"

Friday, April 04, 2014

today was quite an interesting day 11

I met with my Foot surgeon (I also have a foot dr),,, and he was teaching a bunch of Dr's who have been in practice for quite some time,,,, one of them had a lot of white hair,, as does he. there were about 10 to 12 of them, pls my dr. (hmm caps aren't working sorry !)

he wanted to show them my leg from the neuropathy surg,, which wAs a BOOMing success 11 I told them how I went from 8 pills down to 3,,, from being in my wheelchair ALL the time,,, to now being able to WALK 2 MILES when I am up to it,,, that's my back,, not feet though.

Also he told them how the recent surg in nov,,, was ALSO a Huge success,,, it was to tuck a nerve which felt as if it was on FIRE under neath a huge callous of my left foot,, big toe. he did the surg,,, and the fire is gONE !1 woohooo 111 it is great to not feel that now 11 oh YEAH 1!1

they all poked, prodded my legs,,, had me stand to do this and that,,, and than sit,,, and do morah,,, than I showed my Dr a new problem which has cropped upped,,, and they AlL discussed what to do. It was a great opportunity for them to learn from such an experienced, and WIse Dr. For one Dr there would of done an unnecessary surg ! oh my goodness 1

that was sooo much fun to the MAX 111 I laughed,, joked around some, but was mostly very serious,, for I want others to ALso benefit,, esp if they have neuropathy,,,,,, it hurts sooo wickly much,,, that I had broken 2 bones,, and wALKED ON them 111 I knew they were broken only cos I was sick to my stomach,,, and had a special type of headache,,, but hey, I could walk on 2 broken bones in the left foot. that foot Dr was shocked,,, kep;t saying 'it can't be broken, ur walking on it" than as I went to leave his office,, he decided he had better be safe,,, took xrays,,, came into the room,, put them up on the light thingie,,, as he was saying 'I know you didn't but, we will look",, than his mouth dropped ! I had. hehehehehe poor thing,,, see if you also have neuropathy,, you Know how very painful it is. I was put into an air cast for the longest time,, as I am a slow healer.

so today was a ball !!! I hope if any of you have any foot probs,, you will get them looked into quickly,, perhaps if I had,, i'd not be in so deep as I am. maybe???? My entire fam has feet pr;obs,, and I was born 2 1/2 month early,,, that's a part of why I do not do well health wise.

LOVE TODAY !! On my way now to go wimming,, and RUNNING LATe !!
BYerS !! BYERS !!

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STONE815 4/6/2014 12:30AM

    Hope you enjoyed your swim. emoticon

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FIT4MEIN2013 4/5/2014 10:22AM

    Wonderful news!

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HELEN_BRU 4/5/2014 9:44AM

    Oh, what good news, Diane! So happy for you. emoticon

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I_WILL_ROCK_125 4/5/2014 7:47AM

    Glad your foot is much better, and glad your not walking on two broken bones in your foot anymore. It is nice when you can teach other doctors through your own experience as a patient. It helps to make some really great doctors.

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CHERIRIDDELL 4/4/2014 11:53PM

    That was awesome Diane .Don't you just love being a medical specimen LOL!

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