Sunday, December 08, 2013
OH MY GOODNESS !! Plz do NOT think I am putting myself down, I am NOT ! But, I AM TRYING to "GET DOWN" and it's NOT easy !!
They say "INCH BY INCH, It's a SINCH" !!! but, OH YEAH !! have they tried being quite overweight,,, and barely being able to use legs,,,and have arthritis in their shoulders and hands/wrists !
BUT !! I AM DETERMINED IF My body will "ALLOW" and it MAY NOT, but Hey, I am HAVING FUN TRYING !!!! in the past 4 nights,, and it IS getting a "little easier" I have been GIRLY PUSHUPS, or "WHAT I CAN of them !! WOOHOOOOO !!! Oh I can tighten my body,,, and NOT STICK that HINEY WAY YA UPPERS in the AIR !! We've ALL Seen the cartoons, we KNOW what it is I am referring to ! LOL !!!! So I can "get into form" , but at first that was about ALL I could do. Now 4 days latah,,, I may be going down 2 inches. Now you MAY WANNA GIGGLE if you have these over and over again,,or you might WANNA CRY thinking "OH I'd NOT EVEN TRY THAT" !!! but, me, I JUST SMILE, and SMILE. See my name,,it's a FITTING !!
Also I FINALLy got a new TV,,,, I've been using one from freecyle,,,, an older HEAVY model,,, and I just could NOT have the heart to use my Wii as I usually do. NOT tomorrow,, I MEANT to today and FOGOTTAHers,,, to go Blockbusters, and look at Dance for it. (I want the first one,,,with the REAL music,, not the kiddo's stuff !) I want some something retro. So I need to look around,,, I think I'll ONCE AGAIN go onto Amazon and Ebay tonight,,, MY OH MY !! People in hereah in the high rise are gonna think "WOW She REALLY CELEBRATES the Holidays !" since I have quite a few packages coming, but in fact I do not do so. I do not even celelbrate, but things this time of yr are on SALE,,,, and my income is better this month. I FINALLY have ALMOST everything I'd LOST from when I moved from ME to CO and back To Maine again. I had to leave A LOT of things out there,,, my heart breaks,, my guitar is still there. I BET they sold it,,,and I just can't get myself to ask,,,it's a CHERRY RED , Dean BABY Z !! it's TOTALLY ADORABLE and also has the amp for it. I am SCARED to ask. I SHOULD work up the nerve to ask my GD, but HER ****(((!!*** of a "father" who is NOT really a part of the fam,,,, would sell his own Momma if he thought he could dig her up and get something for it. Can he?
I have been back into my own place now since the middle of June,,,,,so it's been 5 months, and it FEELS SO MUCH like a TERRIFIC home. My neighbor across the hallway,, her apt is shaped in a diff way,, ,kinda squarish,, whereas mine is a rectangle shape,,, and it's wicked cool. I LOVE IT !! She HATES hers,, calls it a PRISON CELL. I giggle at that. She's kinda funny. I ADORE mine,,, it has 2 hallways,, one is quite long,, and I get throw balls down it (or fuzzy mice) and Izzy RUNS to FAST,,,, she SLAMS into the wall. ALWAYS A FUNNY PEOPLE on AMINAL Trick, I LOVE !!!
So now that I am here,, settled in,,,it's TIME to ADD in things I WISH to do to get MORE serious about this exercising stuff, by expanding what it is Ive been doing.
Than SOON , VERY SOON, since I've been starting to,,, I am GOING TO COOK !!! I do wish I had MORE counter space, but how many of us SAY THIS??? Even in my luxury apt I had,,, there was STILL NOT ENOUGH Space,,, and where we lived in CO,,, still NOT quite enough, though it was very nice in the townhouse. I liked that kitchen though it was MUCH TO SMALL for 5 people ! I LOVE having MY OWN place again.
Thursday, November 28, 2013
Today is Thurs,,,for "most" in the US it's a turkey day, but since I do not celebrate,,,,, I am having my friends ovah. We are going to play "Upwords" and I LOVE this game !! Just like scrabble, only instead of spreading the words out for a triple/double word score,,, you change the words and build them up. For instance if someone puts down "cat" you can change it "Cake" and get extra scoring for the K, E for putting them on top of the tiles,,, you get morah points. It's WICKED FUN !!!
I FINALLY took a pic of what foot looks like,,,, as it's healing,,,and it's FINALLY STOPPED hurting, as it was. SO HOPEFULLY it's doing well. I have another week and 4 days til I can put any pressure on it. This is a LONGGGGGGGgggg 3 weeks !! THANKFULLY I have my power chair,,, I have ZERO CLUE how others do it, who have NO Chairs to use. Its a coming in handy !! (It always does)
Here's the foot:
As you can see,,it's quite thick,,, driving me NUTO's !! I WANT IT OFF AND NOW !! but, of course that's NOT to be done. Feels like a very thick winter sock,,, and those I can SIMPLY NOT STAND. :) Patience is a virtue, but Diane does NOT have much.
I somewhat the best I could stepped on the scale,,,,,I can't put the weight on that foot though, but it's showing I HAVE GAINED. UGHERS !! I wanna SHOOT the scale. I have been tracking,,, and been in range. Also back to VERY LIGHT Exercises,,,, and doing what I can so that the other foot does not "freeze".
I am soo UNHAPPY with the gain. NO DOUBT it's MY OWN FAULT. STANGE that being in range,,, which b4 when I've had surg's I've LOST,, that this time I am GAINING. It HAS to be MY OWN FAULT.
The left leg is not swollen,but is "flabby" now compared to the right. I am not sure if this is a part of it? I DOUBT It. That's no doubt from not hardly moving it. I do not normally really walk,,,in case ur not familiar with me. I mostly use my chair, except for around the apt. I will need to work with that leg,,,once the stuff comes off it. Than when it does,,,,I know from the last time,,, I'll only be able to walk quickly to get things, use the ladies,, but NO standing still on it for another 2 weeks. Is this worth it??? OH YEAH !!! In case your not familiar with what happened for the surg,,,, b4 it,,, everytime I went to step on left foot,,,it felt like nails were being shoved in the big bone that's right after the big toe. That bone,,, below the toes on foot. Maybe for others this area is not that big, but my feet are soo disformed now. The "good" foot which hurts like mad also,,is a size 8.5 and the bad foot,,,is a size 7 from all the surgs,,and a partial amputation of the long toe.
Feet gotta LOVE them,,,for we "need" them,,,and yet,,, ,OUCHERS !!
THANKS ! Diane
Friday, November 22, 2013
HI ALL !! THANKS for reading this !!!
If you are a regular reader, you know that I had ALWAYS wanted to SIMPLY go for a walk again outside. I tried this when my shoes were updated, but though it was only a little bit, my foot developed a nasty blister,,, (my shoes are special made,,,,, and had just been worked on, as they do about every 2 or 3 months) my feet hurt,,,,, that's NOt good, and the pasrt that DOES the STOPPING is that my back hurt severely, my left knee wantedto lock up,,, but, I IGNORED IT ! at the same time,,,, I had a friend SMARTLY go with me,,in case I could not make the 2.5 min walk back from the store,,,, where I one item very quickly. It was NOT WORTH the SHEER JOY I had from that little walking.
So for the past 3 weeks,,,,,,,I've been thinking and thinking "I can't walk, there goes ALL WORKED FOR, but I CAN NOT let it go at that,,,, and stop living the new lifestyle I am at". I KNOW IF I were to STOP SPARKS,,, (Which I gave a little thought to, but that was out of DESPERATION of NOT knowing WHY am I DOING THIS?") I would QUICKLY go back to 3 packs of Twinkies a day, go back to regular soda (I had NOT liked water,,,,, so I went from 6 to 8 cans of pepsi, to doing diet,,, which was NASTY at first) than down to only Decaffinated soda's,,,, (I tried a little tiny sip of RedBull after not drinking caffeine in about a yr,,,and my heart started to race FIERCLY so,,,, I ended up in the ER on the verge of a stroke,, they were able to prevent it cos I got there "just in time". they ran A LoT of tests,,,, I am now HIGHLY allergici to caffeine and am NOT to touch it AT ALL Now,,,though I can do a TINY bit of milk choc, ut NOT dark,,,,, and NO Tea's with caff, or Soda's, coffee). I'd Easily do as I did b4,,,and than SOME out of DISCOURAGEMENT !! Funny how EASY it is to become DISDOURAGED ! GRRRRRR !!!
So I have been getting some magazines together,,,, and cutting out words I WANT,,,,, I know there's PIN INTEREST, but I want to do this by hand, I LOVE using scissors, the glue,,, neaon paper to look at whenever I wish). this is very motivating.
Ive also talked to a friend,,, not sure how "dependable" she is, but have also invited MaryAnngi,, who IS Dependable and FUN TO THE MAX !!! And once I get some bills paid off,,,,, thanks to my "Family" in CO, who when we moved together NEVER had cash,,,, and so theyd ask to use my credit cards,,,, and it didn't take long to see, their words were NO GOOD !!!! So now its UP TO ME to PAY everything off they NOW HAVE. Including things I had bought for MY OWN apt in Aurora or Denver. So it's quite a lot,,,for the family was very poor. Ive learned a VALUABLE lesson, DO NOT "LOAN" out money more than ONCE to someone and if they DO NOT PAY,, they do NOT get more !! But, they used my GS who was terminally ill,,, as the reason they needed this and that. SIGH ! That's CHEAP !
So it'll take me about 3 yrs to pay things totally off,,,, including I THOUGHT I had insurance when I had a surg,,, to widen my throat,,,,for it was very hard to eat,,,,swallow,, come to find out I DID NOT have insurance, and the hosp I went to, does NOT do charity care based on ur income, unless ur part of the bill is over a RIDICLOUS amount. GRRRR !!! Still a nurse there told me where to find the BEST neuro in the area,,,and known world wide,,,, he and I are still working together,,,, I need to find one here,,, he thinks he knows why I am so ill have been since birth ! WOOHOOO !!
So well once these bills are paid off,,, ,,,,,, and here's MY MOTIVATION For LOSING the WEIGHT which gives me BACK MY MOJO !!!! THE CRUISING AROUND to diff area's of the world !! I MISS THAT ! And I didn't think I had any friends who'd like to go,,, YEAH I DO !!!! I'd NEVER go alone,,, not needing the help I do. Of course they are really there just in case I fall,,,,,, or get sicker than normal (Which includes,,, HAHAHA ATTITUDE !) HAHAHA
By that time also,,, my feet should be done with all the nerve endings being taken care of,,,,,s o that will NOT hurt as they do now,,,, when even laying down and not moving. slowly with the past 2 surgs (One was just tues) this is starting to happen. I face another 3 to 5 surgs on them.
SO MOJO A!! WELCOME TO MY WORLD !! on the collage,,,, needs to be places I'd LOVE to go !!! some LONG Fancy dresses,,, to SHOW OFF my curves. :) And MONEY PILES OF MONEY !! For when I go,,,, I want A TON of $$PENDING $$$$$ !! I also want a massage DAILY, facials,,,, if feet have any feelings in them,,,, which they barely have now,,,,foot work,,, I want to be the PRINCESS GAL My Daddy says I AM ! :) He OUGHT TO KNOW,,,,, he's spoiled me over all these yrs. It's HIS FAULT I am a BRAT !! HAHAHAHA YOU GO DADDY!!! I LOVOUS YOU !
Oh yeah, my GD who has married is coming by today !! I am SOOO EXCITED !!! she lives in a diff city now,,,,,, about a 45 min / 1 hr drive from here now,,,,,,, I helped to raise her ,,,, along with some of her Mom doing it,,,it was TAG TEAM Effort,,, and she turned OUT GREAT !! We are both SO PROUD OF HER !!! Looking at the clock,,, hoping to hear from her on what time. I even have some of her fav food here,,,,, and a cup shes had for EONS of time,,,it's her fav,,,, I will NOT let her take it to her new home,,,, for when she "COMES HOME" (here) its still here. What a GREAT KID !!
HUGS !!!! SO HAPPY I have BACK my MOJO !! During the past 2 weeks weigh ins,,, I had GAINED and GAINED BADLY,,, today I weighed in (Thought it was Sat) and have LOST 3 lbs !!! WOOHOOOOOOOOO
PS: If this does NOT make much sense,, jumps around with random thoughts,,,, LOL I am on some heavy duty meds,,, it messes ya up !! HOPING by Next Tues,,,, I'll be back to the normal pain killers and NOT need to take them any longer for the surg.
Tuesday, November 19, 2013
The title about says it all.
Had surg for my foot this AM. Pretty neat what it is he was able to do. Made it so that when I step on it,,, the ball area,, under the left foot big toe,,, had felt like it was on FIRE and ALSO at the same time,,,,bein stabbed to death.
So he went into the foot,,, and made it the nerve can NOT connect /communicate with itself. So that pain WILL BE GONE !! WOOHOOOOO !!
THANKS ALL !!! HUGS !!
Monday, November 18, 2013
I wrote this to the Spirited Under Dawgs yesterday. Winnie who is a Dawggie owned by 1bearwife (Sandy) asked me to put this into a blog,,,so that ALL who are teams,,,, can ENJOY and MOST LIKELY Relate to it !!!
We "Fly" from country to country on the 5% challenge team,,, where 12 teams COMPETE FIERCLY in order to see who can earn the most miles, by exercising to "Land the . The first plane to land, gets an EXTRA 100 points,, 2nd plane gets 75 points and the 3rd plane gets 75 POINTS towards there FINAL Total at the end of the week !!! ALL TEAMS LOVE these POINTS !!!
We are hoping to LAND soon, and RESCUE ME !!
Here's the letter:
BIG DAWGGIES DO NOT LIKE TO FLY !!! Do you KNOW why? Now those LITTLE Dawggies, PUREBREDS and MUTTS do NOT MIND,,, but, us BIG ONES??? I went flying with my owner,,, and what DID THEY DO TO ME????
PUT me in a KENNEL (A new strange one,,,it just DID NOT SMELL RIGHT ! I had to "WORK" at that !) and than SHOVED me on some BELT that went UP AND AROUND the airport !! I was soooo SCARED !! "Where are Mary And Johnny)" ? Mu owners,,,,,, I thought !! I had WONDERED Why one of the kids, Randy, he's 9 and my FAVORITE for he doesn't like to bath,, and NEITHER DO I !!! We BOTH AGREE that the SMELLIER THE BETTER after ROMING ABOUT all day !! Though Mary, thinks I need to smell like some strange scent called "Lavendar"????? I was crying softly on that belt,,,, and than someone GRABBED ME HARD (well my kennel) and SHOVED IT onto the cargo part of the plane !! I GROWLED LOUDLY !!!! "WHAT WAS THAT"???? I WONDERED !! Than I saw when my eyes quidkly adjusted to the dark,,, there was ANOTHER BIG Dawg,,, a GREAT Dane,, OH I am SO HAPPY to see him, but he's ALSO SHAKING HARD as AM I !!!! We both agreed this was "NO VACATION" As they had PROMISED US !!! I had seen Randy crying as we were separated and begging "PLZ MOMMY/Daddy,,, I'll PAY the extra for her to ride up on the plane with us " !! but, I guess it must of costed more thanm the 5.00 he had gotten from his Gramma for getting an A (LOL His FIRST ONE !) on his report card.
As that plane RUMBLED down the jet way,,,, I thought for SURE my HEART WOULD COME OUT OF MY FURRY CHEST !1! SUCH NOISE !11 That's when Max (The great Dane) did something in his cage,,,, we are NOT supposed to do,,,and I had to hold my nose ! OH MY GOODNESS 11 Big Dawgs make BIG SMELLS 1!!1 I trembled some more,, but, my owners had given me some pill ???? I didn't have a headache, or a Dawggie flu,,, what WAS that for? OH SLEEPY I AM !! NON the LESS I DO NOT LIKE FLYING !!
So we NEED to GET ME AND MAX DOWN outta this PLANE !!
PLEASE HELP US !! Right now we are at 2307 miles in the air,,,, and to land in Kingson, (THIS HAD BETTER BE WORTH my FEAR !! They said I can GO SWIMMING ! ) we need 4255 total miles,,,if my Dawggie can think,, that means we need 1948 MILES left TO LAND !!
SO PLZ LET ME OUT !!!! Lets TURN In those Exercise miles NOW !!! For the other teams will start to land early on Mon,, and there's NO REASON why we can't be in the TOP 3 !!!! PLZ HELP GET ME OUTTA HERE !!
Ur LOVING Leader,,, who's currently NOT LIKING THIS "FUN" they PROMISED ME!!!! Next time PLZ leave me at the Dawggie Kennel with the OTHER UNDER DAWGGIES !A!!
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