100-249 SparkPoints
EGOSSELIN06's Recent Blog Entries

My biggest hurdle in life mentally with food other than anxiety and stress is..........

Friday, August 23, 2013


I dont think anyone that never had to deal with this before knows how HARD it is and how much energy it takes to keep fighting all your life to be healthy , happy and social in the "food is involved with everything" way of life. I usually try to find a way to have healthy food around me if I can!

Its a mental battle with food. Life events can make what should be a somewhat easy thing hard....whether the life event be good or bad....stress can trigger it and letting yourself have too much fun can lead you to being too relaxed and make huge mistakes with your diet and health. Always forgive yourself though! Thats very important.....

Ive always had triggers with food..and weight issues since I was a teenager. It was really rough quitting smoking because I knew it would make me eat more and that was the last thing I wanted since I worked so hard to lose and maintain.
Since stress and worry is a major trigger the upcoming back surgery at the time (in may) didnt help at all with my nerves.....its a scary thing to deal with.....
.ALSO the stress of not knowing if I could continue pursuing a career in dental assisting or not with my back issue didnt help either.....
Not being able to get my anxieties out with exercise after surgery was a bad dream in of course I gained almost 30lbs. Im NOW able to work out like I used to just about....its going on 14weeks since my NOW I can burn off the extra calories and build the muscle I need to eat alittle of the bad stuff........

So now to the reason for this the trigger of SOCIALIZING...

Portion control and damage control
is key to fix this though! But even knowing this doesnt make it easy if your too relaxed and unfocused because everyone else around you is not caring

Its hard because you want to enjoy life just as much as everyone around you that are ordering mix drink after mix drink (margarita girl drinks) when your out or ordering cheesy bread,ice cream and things like that ....

Food that is chuck full of sugar and sodium is EVERYWHERE. You have to get used to the fact that not everyone is battling your same weight battle and you alone have to fight it while your out and win ! Ive gotten alot better at this now that im older. Now that im older its easier to be aware that If I enjoy myself with cheesy bread I HAVE to behave extra and work it off a bit with cardio If I dont want to gain...
So I now ask myself: IS IT WORTH IT to eat that because its really yummy...I want it...and everyone Im with wants it to eat too?

When I was maintaining these past 5 years of course I said its worth it sometimes but I ALSO managed my eating and exercise around that to make it work for me and not gain. IF I gained 2 or 5 lbs from a celebration or outing with friends I cracked down on myself and it works. You have to be able to enjoy life (maintaining is much different than trying to lose weight though )

Its easier with buddies trying with you though (why this site is so nice)...and I havent always had that....all my best friends that ive had growing up have been naturally small and skinny for the most part...and if they werent skinny they werent into the weightloss thing...or they were being busy focusing on other things in life. Which is fine....just wasnt any support for my goals.
I lost all my weight before by myself....walking by myself and actually avoiding being social in fear it would mess up my was extremely challenging at such a social age....

I look back on that for encouragement now....because it never gets any easier to lose just have to figure out your priorities in life...and just know that its a life style not a diet when your changing your relationship with food.

I know my goals. I Just have to keep fighting the good fight when out at cookouts restaurants or where ever with people or with dating in general.

At this point I wont date a guy who doesnt enjoy being active . I need someone who thinks hiking and being active is fun so that would be what we were doing for fun. Someone who wants to go for the extra walk on a sunny day because they enjoy it..... It would make my life easier!

Support is important and I think this website is great!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

JMORRIS85 8/24/2013 12:00AM

    You are so right about all of the challenges. When you are dieting, you even dread holidays because they are so centered around food. I am glad that you are recovering nicely from your back surgery and are able to resume your activities. You have the right mind set to take you to success!! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
PRINCESS_SOFI 8/23/2013 2:19PM

    Yea I've pretty much lost my entire social life because I stopped drinking and eating crap. emoticon Oh well. More sexiness for me.

Report Inappropriate Comment
EGOSSELIN06 8/23/2013 10:46AM

    Thankyou for reading it ! ....its a long read lol I had a lifetime of stuggle to share and talk about and just get off my chest!

Comment edited on: 8/23/2013 10:49:06 AM

Report Inappropriate Comment
STINA6614 8/23/2013 10:05AM

  I wouldn't make it without other people and their support. I'm new to this site, I'm on my 5th day logging everything, and it gets easier every time I read someone else's thoughts and progress. So thanks so much!

Report Inappropriate Comment
SHARONCAPPS 8/23/2013 10:02AM

  You are so right. I love this sight and all the support it offers. Thanks for posting.

Report Inappropriate Comment

Another introduction to me and my goals

Sunday, August 18, 2013

Hello Im new here as of 8/18/2013 emoticon
This picture and my profile picture were taken before I had surgery and gained almost 30lbs.....and I STILL dont know why my pics are SIDE WAYS LOL

Im in Phys therapy still from my back surgery ...for the past 3 weeks Ive been doing some lower body and core strengthening...its been 13weeks since surg,
I need to be careful with how much I lift and how I twist or even tho I have PT to ask questions that I may have ..........................................
. emoticon ......................................

emoticon The support I would get on here would outlast how many visits I have left with them and the discussion would be good on here as real support emoticon emoticon emoticon
I thought it would be nice to be hearing personal experience on here from someone who delt with the same situation Im in... or is currently dealing with it and how they over came fear of working out to tone arms , doing aerobics, and other IFFY exercises that you should be careful with or maybe not even do at all.... emoticon emoticon

I used to be 260lbs went down to 150lbs within 2years with diet ,exercise and some crazy LOL
and kept it off for 5years since 2008 emoticon

5months ago I was 150 bouncing to 160 and I was happy with that.. I looked and felt great at that weight!
Of course I did I had dropped 14jean sizes and kept it off !!

BUT then I quit smoking cigs 5months ago and also had back surgery on my L5 S1 disc, they removed a piece of the disc to relieve my sciatic nerve ...(I had aching butt and leg pain for 2years before surgery)

but BEFORE my surgery I gained 10lbs because my nerves switched to food to comfort me when I quit smoking (I smoked for 12 years)

After my surgery one month later I went up to 185lbs :(

So Ive gained like 25-30lbs emoticon emoticon

My Goal is to be back at 160 for now... emoticon

Im fairly healed from surgery it is past the 12 week mark my dr gave me to be healed...and I am still in some physical therapy sessions....

The back issue and the no smoking is leaving me needing support from people who understand the struggle.... emoticon

Thankyou for reading my intro into your community :)


ANY TIPS Of any workout DVDS that are SAFE and maybe even made for someone with slipped discs let me know! !! PEASE! emoticon

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

EGOSSELIN06 8/19/2013 2:56PM

    haha Thanks! It might be staying that way haha emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
SADWHITEWOLF 8/19/2013 10:12AM

    I kind of like the sideways pic!

Report Inappropriate Comment
EGOSSELIN06 8/18/2013 9:48PM

    Thankyou DRTOVAH ! You too!

Report Inappropriate Comment
DRTOVAH 8/18/2013 6:08PM

  Welcome, I'm also new here too. Good luck with your weight loss.

Report Inappropriate Comment

my picture isnt side ways on my computer so why is it on this site??

Sunday, August 18, 2013

Someone please tell me how to turn it around its annoying lol......I went to edit and I dont see anything about turning your pictures around,.... :(

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

EGOSSELIN06 8/19/2013 2:58PM

    hahahaha!! Telling people that sounds easier! :)

Report Inappropriate Comment
ANGRITTER 8/19/2013 1:23PM

    Edit your original picture in MS Paint or Windows Life PhotoViewer. You will have to use the Rotate option and rotate it 90degrees to the RIGHT. That should set you up just fine. Resave the photo and then upload the corrected, STRAIGHT, photo.

Or you could just tell people you feel thinner laying on your side! LOL I hope that helps a little but. Uploading from your phone will usually make this happen as the high-resolution just fills the space however it wants.

Report Inappropriate Comment
KIRSTENLYNN62 8/18/2013 4:24PM

    I was wondering the same thing... I had the same problem last night loading some pictures to my photo album and they all turned out sideways.I wish I could give you a helpful answer, but I can't. I think it's a glitch in the system.

Report Inappropriate Comment