Wednesday, June 19, 2013
A better day today - first, the scales showed a HUGE loss (customary for the first week, I know!), then my husband rode with me on today's commute - I went one direction (to a family farm waaaaaay down in the corner of the state) while he went to MA to help our Archeologist on a project: using ground penetrating radar to locate a mass grave, site of a 1700's massacre. It was a fun day for him, and he deserved a break in the job hunt. I miss that drive time with him (we always rode together before moving here for my job).
My day started with a present: our Congressman issued, to me, a very impressive-looking proclamation for a recent project. WOW! I'm sure they do that all the time, but still, it made the last 5 months of chaos seem insignificant. Public servants aren't often viewed positively - but this was such a nice gesture. SO....I will commit to also expressing gratitude more freely than I have recently. It might just change an entire day, or week, for someone and costs little.
Food - spot-on, except for a 1/2 slice of shortcake (the farmers wife made it for ME, so I couldn't refuse.) They are strawberry farmers, so of course, the shortcake was topped with FRESH just-picked strawberries (no sugar).
Garmin is strapped on, dog is leashed and we're ready for our 2 miles. Tonight, will be a very hilly course. Glutes will be a-burnin'.
I haven't had time to discover how to easily read blogs and posts....that is tonights project, as I have a ton of replies to catch up with.
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
My sweet, gentle Uncle Bernard lost his life in a basement fire. He was 89, has been dealing with health issues for 25 years, but with a smile, never complaining, and despite it all, found energy to attend reunions of his Army buddies, my sons weddings, trips to care for my grandmother, his mother-in-law.
So - a wave of guilt over not being able to make the very expensive last minute trip back to the Midwest for his service - has been hanging over me today. Food was OK until tonight - and I succumbed to a bag of popcorn (no additional butter). For the second day in a row, I skipped my workout. Yesterday started at 6 am, and I pulled back in my drive at 10 pm. I stayed perfectly on the food plan, but skipped cardio yesterday, too.
I miss my Uncle Bernard. I worry about my Aunt who is a tuffie on the outside, and must be crumbling on the inside - lost her partner of 70 years, nearly lost her home of those same 70 years.
Tomorrow, another early day and stacked up meetings. But, it's a new day ,the gym bag and lunch bag is packed, and I've just booked airfares for an August trip. There will be 20 pounds less of me when I board that flight on 8/13.
Peace, and comfort.
Sunday, June 16, 2013
No more hiding. No more fear of "what must people think" who haven't seen me since my 2011 temporary transformation. I learned then, that community was key for me, but I also have learned that my obsessive approach was not sustainable. YES, I will take progress photos and YES I will journal my food, and YES I will be transparent about my failures, as well as my successes. So, this may not be the last blog post of the day, but by posting, I am committing to:
1. Shed the guilt. Regain confidence.
2. Resume the healthy, active lifestyle that I created in 2011.
3. Journal, blog, and plan each day.
4. Aim for progress. Nobody is perfect.
5. Food as Fuel.
This is going to be another long hike - as I learned in 2011, it was not about the destination, it was about the journey. So, here we go......
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