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Thanksgiving 2014 is off to a great start!

Thursday, November 27, 2014

Good morning and Happy Thanksgiving!!!

I started off the day by ordering my friend, my boyfriend and myself all Fitbit Flexes. I used to have a Fitbit One, but lost it in a horrific laundry accident. My friend suggested the Flex because it's a wristband, and my bf and I jumped on board.

Then I did a great cardio workout on the elliptical and treadmill. After that, I made a broccoli and cheese omelet. I've got my mind made up to eat fairly healthy at dinner tonight. We usually go out to a restaurant (a tradition that sprang up a couple years ago), but this year we were invited to have Thanksgiving with a friend of the family. Since I don't eat meat, the bulk of my meal will be vegetables. My splurges will be mashed potatoes and wine. I don't eat pie, so that's good. I don't really know the people very well and I certainly don't know whoever they've invited (aside from my mom, her boyfriend and my boyfriend). In a weird way, I think this will keep me from overeating. I won't be comfortable enough to look like a pig in front of them! I would have honestly preferred to go out to eat, but hey, silver lining!!!

I feel very positive today.

I am so thankful for all of you! Happy Thanksgiving!

  
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TRAVELGO 11/27/2014 11:11AM

  I have a FitBit and LOVE, LOVE, LOVE it!! Happy Thanksgiving to you as well.

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A+ for today!

Monday, November 24, 2014

First, I'd like to thank those of you who read and responded to my blog last night. I desperately needed the words of encouragement.

So I had my first truly on-plan day in a while today. I woke up and worked out, went into work with somewhat of a smile on my face (hey...baby steps!), then worked out again with my boyfriend after work. I ate healthy, aside from a couple squares of chocolate...but that's for my mental health. I have my alarm set for early tomorrow morning so I can workout again. I think the endorphins from my workout made me slightly less psychotic about going into work today.

I am trying to remind myself daily that I'm thankful to be alive. I'm thankful to be healthy. I'm thankful for the most amazing future-husband a woman could ever ask for. I'm thankful for a family who loves me unconditionally. I'm thankful for incredible friends...both live and of the cyber variety. Mostly I'm thankful for being me.

Short blog today...I'm so tired! Ready to read for a little while and then pass out!

  
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KNYAGENYA 11/25/2014 8:14AM

    So glad the day went better.

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Changing my attitude...

Sunday, November 23, 2014

"If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude." -Maya Angelou

I have realized that I am burned out with my current job. I love being a social worker, but I can't work for this company anymore. I was off on Friday and my boss emailed me to follow up with one of my residents regarding something petty on Monday. I was stunned to realize that my first thought was "I DO NOT CARE!" That is so not me! I have ALWAYS cared. I have ALWAYS wanted to help. I have felt so used by my agency that I just don't know if I have anything left to give them. Not to mention I had a falling out with a co-worker who I was extremely close to. He never told me what I supposedly did to piss him off, and he refuses to talk to me. I know there's no hope of repairing that relationship, and I guess at this point I don't want to. It does make the work environment pretty sucky though. I think I'm just ready to move on. I'm applying for jobs and going on interviews. I've yet to find a job that suits me financially and emotionally. I know the right job will come around, but I'm an impatient person and I hate waiting.

In the meantime, my only option is to change my attitude. I am so happy with my personal life that I smile all the time! A year ago I would have given my right arm for the chance to be this happy. My weight sucks right now, but that falls under the category of things that are completely within my control.

Wow, it just occurred to me that my issue might be control. I've allowed my weight to get out of control, and work is using up so much of my brainpower. Maybe once I start to take control again, things will be better. Once my weight starts to move in the direction I want it to...once I make the decision to leave work at work. I know that's something that I have difficulty with. Even on my days off I sit around and stress about what's happening at work and what disasters I'll walk into each morning. I need to remember that those disasters are going to be there whether I worry about them at home or not. Hmmm, novel idea, Erica.

Thanks for listening to me vent. I think I need to do this a little more often.

Going to head to bed so I can get up tomorrow morning and workout.

  
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KNYAGENYA 11/24/2014 7:49AM

    Understandable! I hope things improve for you soon. The right job is right around the corner for you.

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JADED_CHICK19 11/24/2014 7:38AM

    I know exactly how you are feeling because that's how I felt at my last job! I finally found a new job that paid the same and was much better for me. So far I'm pretty happy although I'd love to win the lotto and not have to work at all...that would be pretty neat. Just keep trying you can do this. :)

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KNEEMAKER 11/23/2014 10:26PM

  Ericaann44 something I remember that has always made me think about worrying: 99% of all that we worry about never comes about, the other 1% we could not have changed anyway, SO WHY WORRY! It really makes sense to me. Enjoy life because we each get 86,400 each day that we live. Each day we awaken to 86,400 again. When we don't get 86,400 then it no longer matters as we are gone. With that said, enjoy everyone one of those 86,400 seconds each day. Keep on keeping on! emoticon

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KLH702 11/23/2014 9:55PM

    Are you my twin!? I feel the same way!! I've been with my current employer for 8 years - and the past year has just been plain miserable, my boss and a particular coworker are unbearable - I don't enjoy going to work anymore- but i found out im getting another raise at the beginning of 2015, I just received one at the beginning of 2014 - so I have been looking but nothing will pay me what I am making now at my current position. So my attitude at work kinda stinks and I hate feeling this way, but my attitude away from work is glowing - i always have a smile on my face outside of work and now that im taking control of my health i feel even more radiant!

Sorry, didn't mean to overtake your blog there, but I soo know what you are feeling!

working out seems to make me happier after work lol so i hope you have a great workout tomorrow and you have a great week! emoticon

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JO88BAKO 11/23/2014 8:21PM

    You have a lot going on. I hope this week is better for you.

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Stress and Taco Bell kicked my a$$ today!

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Well, I think the title of this blog just about sums it up. I had a hugely stressful day at work today. After eating super healthy all day, my boyfriend and I caved and went to Taco Bell. I'm a social worker and am in the middle of a massive project at work. My part culminated in moving the second of my two 45 person units to a newly renovated unit. It's a lot of work and a lot of stress.

What frustrates me is how easily I caved today. When I lost weight the first time around, I had iron willpower. Seriously! I could say "NO!" to anything! Temptation really wasn't an issue for me. I'm working very hard to rebuild that willpower and hope that it makes a speedy appearance!

I guess I can be happy that I had ONE bad meal. I also passed on the ice cream I almost ate. Funny thing...I don't really care for ice cream. I looked at my boyfriend and said, "I want that ice cream but I shouldn't have it." He responded with, "No, you shouldn't." So I ate a hard-boiled egg and am now watching "The Big Bang Theory" in bed while blogging to my Spark friends.

I've been sick lately and have another horrendous day ahead of me, but I have my alarm set for 5:10 so I can attempt to get a workout in tomorrow morning.

I have a lot of really amazing things to look forward to coming up, and I just want to build a better me along the way.

Time to lay back and wait for the NyQuil to kick in. Here's to a great Hump Day!

  
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KNYAGENYA 11/19/2014 7:47AM

    I so understand this. I am a social worker as well and I had a really stressful day last week and fell prey to emotional eating. You can do this. I have faith in you!

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BETRHO48 11/18/2014 9:55PM

    So you took a pause from your healthy eating program. It is okay to do that once in a while. Just not good to do it very often. You're back on your program now.
Best wishes!

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FEISTYLIZARD 11/18/2014 9:51PM

    It's okay to have a bad day occasionally. It might be good to figure out "healthier" options at your favorite fast food restaurants for nights like this?

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LIZZIECA55 11/18/2014 9:42PM

    Don't be so hard on yourself. It was one meal. You will get it together for the next meal.

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Starting over...for the last time!

Saturday, November 15, 2014

I am starting over for what feels like the millionth time! As I type this I'm also sending a text to my lovely friend Zana to tell her that I'd like to join her in her quest to lose 15# by Christmas. I think that's a good short-term goal. My 31st bday is the day after Christmas, and my boyfriend is planning something special. I want to look and feel amazing, and being 15# lighter will certainly help me achieve that.

How am I going to do this? Well, it's time for me to go back to basics. I lost 80# before and I need to revert back to that lifestyle. That included working out religiously, eating lean protein and veggies, and most importantly, show some damn willpower! I feel like I've completely lost that. My willpower the first time around came from my anger over my ex and what he did to me. I've lost that anger and am actually happier than I've ever been. I now need to refocus and allow my willpower to stem from the happiness that I feel. I want to be a mother someday...definitely in the next few years. I want to be healthy when I get pregnant and to have a healthy pregnancy. I also want to look sexy as hell on my wedding day in 2016. We're not engaged yet, but that's the agreed upon year for our nuptials :)

My downfall lately has been how busy I am at work (and how very much I hate my job). I'm working on that second part by searching for something new. In the meantime, I need some ideas for quick, easy late afternoon snacks to munch on before I get home. That way I'll have plenty of energy for my PM workout (which my sexy, amazing bf will be joining me in!) I have my standby snacks, but am looking for some new, fresh ideas. Please keep in mind that I'm a vegetarian...

So, I'm back...again...and not quitting until this weight is gone! Please continue to be here for me in my journey...I need you all!!!!

  
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IGNITEME101 11/17/2014 8:44AM

    A motivating blog!!

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LIZZIECA55 11/16/2014 7:08PM

    You can do it!!! Some of my favorite afternoon snacks are grapes, apples, pears, nuts (one ounce); cheese and pretzels, air pop popcorn. I'm not a vegetarian, but these are all foods/snacks that I really enjoy. Also like the Nature Valley sweet and salty dark chocolate with nuts granola bar. It's really good if you like dark chocolate. Another favorite are the popchips. I like to go to the 99 cents store and get low calorie snacks that are already pre-packaged so I don't have to worry about the portion control. This works well for me.

Good luck to you; it's a continuous thing we must do with this weight thing. emoticon

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