Monday, November 04, 2013
Excuse me if I complain today, but I just have to get it out of my system. I've been feeling down today. Things just don't seem to be going my way.
Sure I still LOVE my activity tracker, and I use it every day, and I get my 6,000 steps in all the time. It's wonderful to get the glow getters awards, the silver medals, the trophies. But sometimes I wonder if I should even be getting these since my weight is not going down and has even gone up a little.
I'm also on a maintenance team. Sometimes I wonder if I should even be on that team since I'm not at goal and I'm not maintaining.
I know most of it is due to overeating. I eat mostly healthy things but now and then some unhealthy things too. I tried to track my food and start out with good intentions in the morning but by afternoon I'm not tracking again.
Every year my I decide that this is the year I will reach goal. And every year I end up gaining a couple of lbs. And now it's getting scary. This morning I hit the limit on the scale. ..my limit, I mean, as to what a little gain was that I thought was acceptable.
What is one to do? I don't know what is happening and why all this walking doesn't seem to be helping. When I lost the weight at the beginning, I never did any exercise at all and I dropped 13 to 15 lbs. in the first 6 months.
Then I decided that I would never eat again. LOL Well, I know that is not going to happen. So today I tried to eat much less and now I feel miserable because I'm hungry.
I'm afraid I will get back to that weight I was when I started and I sure don't want that, and I don't want my blood pressure to go back up, and to have to take another pill for that.
Thanks for listening! I needed to get that out.