Wednesday, December 17, 2014
Just throwing out random thoughts...
I do not agree with the gay lifestyle. I have gay friends. Disagreeing with someone does not mean I disrespect them, dislike them, or need to speak down to or bully them. Really, no one in the world is going to agree 100% on every topic (although DH and I are pretty darn close...creepily so...lol.) So why, because it's a "controversial" topic, does it make me "intolerant" to disagree with something you do.
I don't go on and on to my gay friends about how they should change. They know my opinion on the topic and I don't need to "beat it into their heads."
Someone once said to me "Well, you just don't like me because I'm an atheist." No, I dislike you because you are genuinely the worst person I have ever come across in my life. (No exaggeration, sadly.) Why should your religious beliefs dictate whether or not I like you? There are plenty of friendly atheists (yes, I have atheist friends) and there are plenty of "Christians" who are complete @$$holes....and everything in between.
Why do people feel the need to make controversy out of everything, even when no controversy is present? I can disagree with someone and their beliefs and still love them and be friends with them.
Quite often, I wish I could live a life of "Little House on the Prairie" (with WiFi, lol.) Simple life, out in the country, dealing with few people, when society wasn't all screwed up and people didn't make every little thing to be a big PC issue. (Probably why I like camping so much, lol.)
Monday, December 15, 2014
A few weeks ago I blogged about someone who was mad at me (for something I really didn't do) and decided she wanted to ruin my life. (Her words, not mine.) Here's the blog if you want to read it...
After a VERY thorough investigation.... I was cleared of all charges. I work for a VERY large healthcare system. And had it come down to her word vs mine, they would have fired me in a heartbeat to avoid a law suit. They went back and traced everything I have ever done on any computer for the past 8 1/2 years Ive worked here. (Seriously thorough!) I was fully exonerated! Innocence has a way of protecting a person. I'd done nothing wrong, and God protected me.
Im not angry with her for what she did. I understand why she's so upset, though she chose to deal with it poorly. Chances are karma will get to her sooner or later, as it always does. (But as much as I can't stand this woman, I hope Karma goes easy on her. Her life is already pretty "wrecked."
Ok, moving on. Daily headaches are still tormenting me. You'd think after 16 years I'd be "used to it." I am, but it doesn't make them more tolerable.
Here's the blog about my appointment with pain management.
So, it's been just over a month.... Ive been in physical therapy twice a week, ive done all my stretches and exercises (almost) every day as Im supposed to. (It gets to be a bit much, since I have 3 strengthening exercises and 7 long stretches that all take a bit of time.) I have NOT been good about doing yoga 5 times a week...or even twice... It is seriously so hard to motivate myself to exercise when my head is pounding. I mean, thinking about holding an easy pose, like downward dog...with a massive headache. Doesn't sound like fun, does it?!
Well, the therapist is impressed. I have gained 10 degrees to the left and 15 degrees rotation to the right with turning my head. It's been a long time since Ive been able to trn my head that far! (Still hurts, but always improving!) So, the exercises and stretches are definitely helping me and my neck and back pain, but it isnt affecting my headaches (yet?) .
So I will continue to do PT, and probably dry needling....ugh..... until my appointment with Pain Management in Jan. And then? WHo knows...we'll cross that bridge when we get there.
Friday, December 12, 2014
1. What is your best childhood memory?
~ One of the many summers I spent with my Grandparents at their cottage on the lake.
Or...when I was 16 my Mom and I went hiking out in the mountains in Wyoming. We got very lost and were gone for hours. (We had a great time though....I miss my Mom so much RIP.) And when we got back my Dad was so mad from worry. Apparently it was 108* in the sun that day.... But we were just hiking and exploring and talking. I love her so much.
But really, despite my Dad being a major butthead my whole childhood.... I have a TON of great memories! We didn't have a lot of toys or stuff but we always had fun!
2. If you had a chance for a “do-over” in life, what would you do differently?
~Not a thing. Anything done differently would change who I am today. Although if changing something didn't affect everything, aka the butterfly affect, and I could still be basically who I am, where I am, and with whom I'm with.... I would go back and stay in gymnastics instead of dropping it to get a job. I was varisty when I first started Freshman year (had been doing it through clubs and such since I was 5.) I was good. And I really miss it, even still!
3.What do you feel most proud of?
~Who I am today. I am honest. Always. I'm terrible at lying. People know who I am and what I'm about. (That shouldn't be something to be proud of...that should be the societal norm...but alas...it is not. )
4. What is your favorite music?
~I love a TON of music. I have everything from a polka cd, to System of a Down, to old school southern gospel in my car. I most often prefer Christian Contemporary /Worship
5.If you could travel anywhere, where would you go and why?
~Anywhere with my hubs! We have so much fun! Buuuut, aside from that totally cliche answer......Vietnam. The caves out there look amazing!!!!!!!
6. What do you want your tombstone to say?
I don't need a tombstone. But my urn should say um....... "Devoted Wife, Mother, Sister, Daughter, Friend." I dunno. I just try to be there for everybody, and I hope people can see that.
7. What was one of your most defining moments in life?
~Letting go ... the freedom I have is refreshing.
~Joining my current Bible study group. I joined about 4 years ago....basically because God made me...I really didn't want to. But it has blessed me beyond belief!
~Meeting my husband....he is seriously so amazing!
8. How do you spend your free time?
~Putzing around on the internet. Reading/studying/learning. Hiking/Camping.
9. If you won the lottery, what would you do?
~Pay off credit cards, pay off medical bills, pay off family's bills, donate to Alzheimer's research and Lupus research, pay tuition to go to seminary.
10. What are you most afraid of?
~Losing the people I love. Watching my Mom die was the hardest thing I've ever experienced.
11. What is your strongest personal quality?
~I'm nice/helpful to a fault. I put everyone else's needs above my own. My counselor and my mentor have really been on me about this, but I just can't change. I know it isn't always healthy, but it's who I am.
12. What was your most embarrassing moment?
~I have WAAAAY too many to pick from. I embarrass myself all the time. Seriously, I am so embarrassing. Just yesterday at physical therapy, I said to my therapist "I love balls!" ...I was talking about using tennis balls to dig into knots in my back...but all that came out was "I love balls!"
13. If you could witness any event of the past, present, or future, what would it be?
~The resurrection or Second coming of Christ!
14. What is a skill you’d like to learn and why?
~Well, I just wish I was a good singer. I love singing, I sing all the time, I'm not terrible, but I'm not good. I'd also like to start learning French again.... but there is no reason behind it.
15. What does a perfect day look like to you?
~Sleeping in, waking up in the tent next to hubs. Just camping with him is perfect. We get along so well!
Friday, November 28, 2014
"God meant it for Good." - R.T. Kendall
A bit redundant, but some things have to be to get the point across. It is an overview of the life of Joseph and how things that seemed utterly horrible eventually lead to his great success.
I recently went through an unbelievably scary thing... (read more here www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
During this time I was reading this book. This book is what really helped me to be calm. (Don't get me wrong, I was still pretty worried and terrified, but I ultimately knew God's hand was in it...whether I lost my job or not.)
As it turns out, good trumps evil and I was proven innocent based on a very thorough investigation of everything I have "electronically touched" in the 8 1/2 years I've worked here.
Anyways, this book helped me to not only trust that God was in control, but also when I had the chance to punish her.... I didn't take it. Afterall, God says that vengance is His!
Here are a few tidbits I have underlined throughout the book.
"R.T., You must totally forgive them. Until you do, you will be in chains. Forgiveness is the only way."
~This quote resonated not necessarily with this situation, but another one I had the mispleasure of dealing with for about 3 years. And, although I have always known this truth, I definitely needed (and will continue to need) the reminder.
"It is so encouraging to know that we don't have to be perfect to be wonderfully used of God."
~Um, can I get an Amen!?
"A sculptor was going to make a horse out of a big block of marble and somebody came along and asked how he was going to do that. He replied "It's simple. I just started chipping away, and I chip away anything that doesn't look like a horse."
And so with us. God takes the big block we give Him and he begins chipping away anything that is not like Christ."
~Excellent analogy for God using hard times to make us better!
"The fear of offending Him [God] must be the worst thing we can imagine."
~Perfectly said. And yet none of us truly live like this!
"You can be living the most godliy kind of Christian life and quite suddenly be tapped on the shoulder by God saying ' I have got a little trial for you.' "
~Reassuring for people who may think that being a Christian should excuse you from trials!
"Many people haven't fallen into sin because they haven't yet met Potiphar's wife! That ought to stop many of us from being critical of others."
~Love it! Good reminder not to judge anyone for anything!
"God will not greatly use anyone who harbors a grudge."
"Jacob couldn't see how insensitive this remark was, but self-pity is like that. We become absorbed with ourselves and ourown feelings. We don't realize we are hurting other people."
"it's really a vain presumptuous thingto think that God's trying to punish you."
"It is the unforgiving spirit that wants the world to know our own hurt."
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