Wednesday, April 16, 2014
I participate in a weekly Bible Study; ongoing for about 2 1/2 years now. We meet every week, and have daily homework in between. ( I love it.... it is what made me realize that I want to go to seminary! I especially enjoy the homework. I love digging into His Word and learning new things.
Well, this current study just isn't holding my interest. It is more self-reflection than learning. I don't mind self-reflection, of course, but I am just not into this study for some reason. Well last week, for the first time in 2 1/2 years, I didn't do any of my homework. I figured...what's the harm?
I went to the study meeting last night (actually , I led it, as our usual leader had a meeting she couldn't get out of.) As I was reading through some of the discussion questions... I realized why I hadn't done the homework.
Satan wiggled his way into my brain, telling me I didn't need to do it; that I wouldn't "learn" anything anyways. Well, the week was about a topic I'm in dire need of resolving in life.... hatred and forgiveness. So, he got me. Satan is indeed a butthead.
God was looking out for me though, as usual. I was going to skip the Bible Study meeting last night, since I hadn't done the homework, any of the reading, and didn't have an interest in going (very odd for me..) But last minute, my friend called me to ask if I could lead, thus guaranteeing that I would attend and see the topics that I otherwise wouldn't have seen.
I'm now working back to finish all the missed homework that I so need to do. It may not resolve any of the issues going on in my heart, but at least I am recognizing satan's attempt to keep me unhappy.
Wednesday, April 02, 2014
Ok, God...I get it! Haha...
Pastor, sweety and I have been discussing forgiveness. Namely, forgive because God told us to...not because we "want" to. We may never "want" to.....especially if anger, hurt, hate etc seem justified.
Anyways, the key note Pastor keeps making is Forgiveness = Freedom. Yes, I know this in my head, but my heart doesn't want to! Well, as I mentioned in my last blog, God keeps bringing it up, haha. (He's cool like that.)
Well, today I picked up some dove candies. (White chocolate, since I gave up chocolate chocolate for Lent.) If you know your candy trivia, you know that Dove candies have little inspirational sayings inside the foil wrapper. My first two wrappers said "Let yourself be free."
I actually laughed out loud. Gee, God....are you trying to tell me something?!
(I gave some to my coworkers....none of their's said "Let yourself be free" ... but I had one more...and Guess what mine said!? YUP! "Let Yourself Be Free!"
Monday, March 31, 2014
I was raised in the church. I went to church 3 times a week until I was about 15. Then, we switched churches, we didn't go quite as frequently, but still attended regularly. Growing up, my parents always imbedded in us (me and my sisters) that when we grew up, we needed to marry a Christian man. I always brushed it off. There were approximately two fellas my age in my church....and no thank you. I thought it was a great idea, but wouldn't translate to reality.
Fast-forward to adulthood. I married an agnostic guy. He would go to church with me, but just for my benefit. At the time, my faith had fizzled and it didn't much matter to me. We split. I started dating a professed atheist. I still didn't think it would be a big deal.
As my faith strengthened and my relationship with Christ grew, it became apparent that it was a bit of a roadblock between us. (Well, everything was....we were a horrible couple. The kind that break up and get back together every three months and fight non stop.) But he would scoff when I'd talk about my faith. And I would look down on him for his lack of faith. And whenyour faith is so strong, benig insulted for it can really cut deeply if you aren't quite as mature in that faith.
After him, I met a man at church. The feeling of being able to share our faith, have serious discussions about it, and lean on each other in Christ....is unbelievable. It is more impoartant than I ever could have known.
You'd never realize it until you experience it. I want to encourage any single Christians to not sell themselves short. You may have to wait a little bit longer until you meet your perfect other...but it is well worth the wait.
Friday, March 28, 2014
~Forgiveness does not equal forgetting. Short of a miracle, it's impossible for humans to just 'forget' bad things that have happened.
~Forgiveness is a choice.... it is a crisis of the will. Humans naturally feel justified in holding on to anger, etc. (This is a big one for me! Lord, help me use Your strength to accept that I need to forgive.)
~You do not forgive someone for THEIR sake...you forgive someone for your own sake.....it will bring freedom! ( I could use some freedom from this...)
~Forgiveness is not between you and the offender...it is solely between you and God. (This is the one that gets me!)
~Forgiveness boils down to agreeing to live with the consequences of another person's sins.
~True Forgiveness means you cannot use the sin against that person in the future.
~To forgive, you need to honestly acknowlede the hurt and the hate.
~Do *not* wait until you feel like forgiving someone...you will never 'feel like it.'
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