EVER-HOPEFUL   124,375
SparkPoints
100,000 or more SparkPoints
 
 
EVER-HOPEFUL's Recent Blog Entries

hospital update and new op date

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

i donīt know if it is me or if one dr doesnīt know what the other dr is doing.today had check up on my leg re operation(knee replacement and thigh realiangement)it was sechuduled for the 2nd time for 14th april but got postpone because of an open sore on the leg.went today.now not only is the sore exactly the same as it was when i went for the last checkup but i also have the tail end of a chest infection and cough still.it was a differant dr who got a professor(again)a differant one.they have given the ok for op and took blood build etc.they said by the time the op comes around the chough etc would be cleared.so new op date is 23rd may i have to go on 20th may for pre op check.this means that with hospital and rehab i definately wont be up to going to tunisia with the kids in summer holiday.so will just have to decuss with lotfi what we are doing.i think it would be best for the kids if they go for at least 4 of the 6 weeks holiday with lotfi to tunisia.they have all their cousind to play wioth and auntyīs and uncle etc to help lotfi withthem and it is less than 10 minutes to walk toi the beach which has a lovely sa and sand for them to play on.question is would i be up to staying and looking after myselfby them .food and stuff lotfi can buy before hand save me carrying up the stairs etc i guess i can have frozen veg and fruit for once the main problam would be the rubbish.being on the second floor without list will be hard as i will still be on crutches.so carrying the rubbish down while struggling on crutches not certain yet.anyway something we will have to descucc as if we donīt book for tunisia shortly there will be no places left to book.descission,descisions and of course this is all depending on my op being a success and no complications.so there it is as i said with the op being delayed like it was has sort of put the holiday plans out.suggestion welcome.here to hoping that this third operation date happens.you know what they said 3rd time lucky.having said that duas and prayers wont go amiss.hope you are all ok.take care and keep smiling.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

JUDITH1654 4/23/2014 2:07PM

    I agree - surely there is a neighbor close by that could at least take the garbage down for you. In the meantime, concentrate on getting well!!! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
MICKEYH 4/22/2014 9:27PM

    I can understand your dilemma my dear. You are such a great Mom and wife and you think your family first then you. But I think you need somebody when you get back home to be sure. Do you have any relative or friends maybe neighbor to look after your post op?

Report Inappropriate Comment
KAYTIE22 4/22/2014 8:36PM

    I know it must be so frustrating. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and hope that all goes well and everything falls into place. Hoping to hear some good news soon.

Report Inappropriate Comment
LINDA! 4/22/2014 7:09PM

    emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
1CRAZYDOG 4/22/2014 4:51PM

  Sending good wishes that the 3rd time definitely is the charm!

Report Inappropriate Comment
CIPHER1971 4/22/2014 3:56PM

    Fingers crossed that it all goes well for you. I agree book the holiday, there must be at least one decent neighbour who will run the rubbish down stairs for you, or maybe someone from your mosque would keep an eye out and help you.

all the best

Report Inappropriate Comment
FITNHEALTHYKAL 4/22/2014 3:14PM

    Karen, praying that it all works out and you have a speedy, safe and incident free recovery! Love, Kal

Report Inappropriate Comment
RAINBOWCHOC 4/22/2014 1:46PM

    I'm for an extra delay so you can go to Tunisia too. I know you need the op but sounds like the timing is all wrong. I'm sure God has it in hand
big cwtches
xxx

Report Inappropriate Comment
CAKEMAKERMOM 4/22/2014 12:07PM

    I hope that your surgery goes as planned this time. Is the sore on your leg from poor circulation? My husband had some, but after a vein surgery it finally healed.

Report Inappropriate Comment
TRUNKJUNK 4/22/2014 11:32AM

    Karen,
Book the vacation for Lofti and the kids and if you get to go fine if not it'll all work out. As far as the rubbish can you have a neighbor to come get it or can you drop it down to them. Since it's only going to be you you shouldn't have that much. I'm still praying for you.

Report Inappropriate Comment
MANDYSCHELL 4/22/2014 11:26AM

    emoticon Do what you need to do to make yourself better! I hope that nothing else goes wrong and everything goes according to plan from here on out!

emoticon for you!

Report Inappropriate Comment
ENTIRELYBEVERLY 4/22/2014 10:05AM

    emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
POOKASLUAGH 4/22/2014 8:33AM

    you've been in my thoughts. I hope you can make everything work. Is there any way a neighbor or friend can help with the rubbish or anything else that makes you do stairs?

Report Inappropriate Comment
FORBANDE 4/22/2014 8:02AM

    Hope your surgery goes as scheduled. I'm sure it is frustrating to have it delayed time and time again.

Hopefully you can find someone (maybe a home health nurse) to help you out while the rest of your family is on summer vacation??

Hope you get lots of answers soon!

Report Inappropriate Comment
SUSIEPH1 4/22/2014 7:53AM

  Hi Karen ,
emoticon emoticon emoticon I think booking the op for late may is a good idea. You should be feeling a lot better by then and the antibiotics will have done their job .. Hopefully the hospital may arrange help for you in your home or perhaps you may need to go to rehab ... What ever happens it will be for the best I am sure .. Sending love and healing vibes your way my love susie xx

Report Inappropriate Comment
MUSIC66 4/22/2014 7:16AM

    Glad u have a new operation date still waiting on a surgery date for my knee but have to have a pelvic ultra sound on the 3rd of May then I see the gyno on the 13th of May for ultra sound result and Pap smear results then they will book a hystoscopy to see what is going on inside my uterus and to put a miriner in to top that time of the month if all is ok so that will be twice in the same hodpital

Report Inappropriate Comment
SAASHA17 4/22/2014 7:10AM

    praying for u!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
DMEYER4 4/22/2014 6:29AM

  you are in my prayers. I hope the surgery goes well and you are able to go on holiday good luck

Report Inappropriate Comment
BRENDAF761 4/22/2014 6:20AM

    Wishing you good luck and I hope you get your surgery! Keeping you in my prayers! Hugs! emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
CRYSALLIS1 4/22/2014 6:15AM

    If they were gone sounds like it would be a lot less work for you. Is there a friend who can pop in to help with a few things? I'm sure it will be a challenging recovery & you will need some support. Are you doing too much now? I worry about you dear friend. As always you are in my thoughts & prayers. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment


didnīt feel like writing this blog,lol.hospital update.

Monday, April 07, 2014

well was at the hospital 5 hours today for pre op checkup.basic outcome.operation has been canceled till future referance,lol.i am really down about this decision even though deep down i know the drīs have made the right decission it doesnīt stop me feeling depressed about it.first the aneatestic wanted me to see the lung specialist for test before she gave her ok as what i thought was my allergies causes my shortness of breath the aneatestic thinks it might be another lung embolie.but it doesnīt matter what she thinks as when the surgeon that is doing my op saw my open sore on my leg he cancelled it till the saw is totally healed.so i have the lung specialist tomorrow and the surgeon sechduled for a check up on the open sore the 22 of april.as i said i am down as i was all pschied up for the op.it means by delaying it i wont be walking unaided by the school summer holiday so will probably mean the kids will not be able to go to tunisia for the holiday.been trying to look for the plus side to cheer me up.we will be able to go on little day trips in the school easter holiday.i wont be in rehab alone on my birthday 1st the may and you know what they say about third time lucky.this is the second time this operation has been rescheduled so who knows third time lucky.thanks as always for listening to my rambles.take care and keep smiling.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

KICKINGKILOS 4/20/2014 12:10PM

    hey Karen..this is for the better. I hope you dont feel very upset for long.
I am sure you and family will enjoy short trips too.
I wish you luck. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
MUSIC66 4/12/2014 9:27PM

    So sorry ur op was delayed I am still waiting for operation date my middle son took my down for a holiday on my parents farm knees hurt getting in and out of 4 wheel drives also went to visit my 98 year grandmother in her new apartment which has access to nurses etc meals are provided in dinning room she had to move there because of to many falls walked on the farm but knees did not like it the last time I took a holiday was about twenty years ago it was cool in Bathurst had a bad trip back as sons 4 wheel drive had an aweful noise in front end almost did not make it home but i did

Report Inappropriate Comment
FINDINGME8 4/9/2014 2:59PM

    Delays are difficult - prayers and hugs for you. Take care dear friend. Things will work out. emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
CAKEMAKERMOM 4/9/2014 11:02AM

    I'm sorry things aren't working out for you. Hopefully things will line up soon. Keep on taking the best care of yourself you can.

Report Inappropriate Comment
CRYSALLIS1 4/9/2014 12:21AM

    So sorry. I know you wanted to get it done & move on. I'll keep you in my prayers. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
TRUNKJUNK 4/8/2014 1:12PM

    Karen things happen for a reason let's just trust that it was best that the surgery was cancelled.

emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
POOKASLUAGH 4/7/2014 9:53PM

    Ah, I'm sorry they had to cancel it again. :( I hope all the complications get better quickly, and I like your brights sides.

Report Inappropriate Comment
ACIMPEGGY 4/7/2014 9:40PM

    Me, too! Eventually it will be behind you!

Keep us up to date, dear friend.

emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
1CRAZYDOG 4/7/2014 8:50PM

  So sorry! HUGS and prayers. The important things now are to figure out what's going on with the lungs and get that treated if need be and get that wound healed. So disappointing!

Report Inappropriate Comment
KAYTIE22 4/7/2014 8:15PM

    I know you are really disappointed because you were all set for operation but considering the circumstances it is for the best. Hang in there. Will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
.

Report Inappropriate Comment
MICKEYH 4/7/2014 5:04PM

    emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
ENTIRELYBEVERLY 4/7/2014 5:01PM

    emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
MOLLIEJEAN2 4/7/2014 2:34PM

    emoticon emoticon , it will all work out just have to have faith.

Report Inappropriate Comment
JUSTYNA7 4/7/2014 2:22PM

    emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
SUEPERWOMAN 4/7/2014 1:17PM

   

Praying the very best for you, my friend!

Love, Sue

Report Inappropriate Comment


fear(i guess is as good a title as any)

Friday, April 04, 2014

fear,why have i picked that as this blog title?especially when in islam the only fear a person should have is a fear of god.does this make me a bad muslim or a less of a person because i am abit afraid ?i hope not .i know it took alot of courage for me to admit out here openly that i have fear as somehow it is associated as a form of weakness maybe even a lack of character?not certain on that one.i know my father would see it that way but that is getting away from what i intended to write i guess.i am sure several of my spark friends have noticed i have been using more emotions than words when answering their blogs or that i have not been as chatty or as active as i usually have and i know most have put it down to the fact that i am recovering from an op and have alot onb my plate at the moment with lotfi being away(by the way he is due back late saturday/early sunday morning depending on traffice)so not long now.that has been abit of it but mostly it has been fear,of the up and coming op.my ability to put them fears in words.not even certain which i have the most fear from,my next op due on the 14th of april or the fear that at my pre op check up on monday they might decide that they canīt do the operation.for those who are my friends and follow my blogs you all know i have a blood disorder.that disorder is called antiphospholipid anti body syndrome.for those who are interested in what that is and actually entails here is the link to it in sparkpeoples A-Z
www.sparkpeople.com/resource/health_
a-z_detail.asp?AZ=34

i actually have what is classed as catastropic antiphospholipid anti body syndrome which is mentioned briefly on page 8 of the article.this desease,disorder however you want to call it has effected my life drastically in one form of another over the years.it has caused me to have three miscarriages over the years and also caused meto nearly loose all three of the children i have which thankheavens didnīt happen but i often wonder if all the problems i had in the pregnancies with them and going into early labour etc is not the causes for all the health problems they have and have to deal with for the rest of their lifes.fear has touched my life often when one of them was ill,in hospital,fitting for their lifes etc.this desease has also caused me to have 8 lung embolisms(blood clots of the lungs)in the last 31/2 years.caused me to have constant anemia.weather it had anything to do with me technichally dieing on the operation table in 2010 and having to be resusitated i donīt know but i do know because this next operation is quite a big one i am afraid that i might have the same problem re the 2010 operation.i am afraid that maybe this time they might not bring me back.then i worry about the kids and lotfi,how would they cope without me.i wonder if i am being selfish to want to be out of this constant pain i have been in for years now.i saw my mother and my nana ending up in wheelchairs i donīt want that for me i want to be active and able to walk,run,play with my children even grandchildren.is that selfish do i have the right?what has brought this fear on at the moment is because my two sisters and my niece have the same desease and my sister tracyīs desease is in a more advanced stage i see what she is going through and i can see what might be there for me.tracy also has lupus though which i donīt she has had a stroke in the past when she was 41 but she has had no blood clots.what she has had is ulcers(open sores )on her legs for years now and this last month she has started having problems with her liver and kidneys which the drīs are still doing tests on.this is scareing me.i am scared for my sister and i think if i am this scared how scared must my kids be.what is it doing to them phychologically.they know i am going into hospital and that i will be away between 2-3 months maybe more.this week ayyub was actually caught stealing in a local shop(somethinghe has never done before)and which really shocked me which was the reason for my stress status the other day.i kno0w it is hard for them i was still recovering from my last op 4th march and lotfi went to tunisia as his father is really ill and we donīt know when he will be able to go again as we donīt know how long i will need to recover from my op.sorry this seems to be getting a really longer blog than intented.as i said at the start of this blog i am scared that they might decide not to do the op as scheduled.why you wonder.well this is the first time i have admitted this last week i also got an ulcer(open sore)on the back of my calf on the leg to be operated on.it is not closeing and not clearing upit is also in a place that i canīt access t so good or see.on top of that i am feeling really rough.weather it is allergies which zakariya also has pretty bad at the moment or that i am coming down with somethingmy throat is all cratchy am my voice is very horse.my nose and eyes are bunged and my chest is burning that i sometimes have problems breathing(which i hope isnīt another lung embolie brewing)anyway i am worried what they are going to say on monday when they see my ulcer(open sore)also hear me speak etc.hope this blogs make sense i am writting it more for me to get my thoughts out and hopefully by putting it out in the open my fears will lessen abit.i have always believed that allah/god doesnīt give us anything he doesnīt think we canīt handel and also that our lifes is pre written before i was born so if my time is up it is up but still i worry and am scared.more for lotfi and the kids if that makes sense.because of all theese beliefs i can usually brush off my fears but since i seen this opensore i canīt as i just see my sister how she was when she first started getting her open sores a few years back and now how she is having problems with her liver and kidneys etc.i know it might not happen the same with me as it is for her but it is there in the back of my mind.i know all my trails have made me the person i am today and i am grateful for that .i am a stronger,more compassionate,hopeful person because of it all so i know what will be will be and whatever it is i can deal with it because god thinks i can and who am ito disagree.seen this poster today which made me decide to have the courage and actually admit not only to myself but to you my friends my fearsl.i thank you for being there for me and all your support.foe taking the time to read this blog and aan extra thanks if you reply.i donīt know if it has achieved anything by thisand as it is nearly 3 am i best i should try and go to sleep lol
.
here is to us handeling stress incredablly well.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

MUSIC66 4/12/2014 9:30PM

    I don't blame u that u a frightened I would be

Report Inappropriate Comment
RAINBOWCHOC 4/7/2014 12:36PM

    feeling some anxiety about things you have no control over is very normal, it isn't an irrational fear. You are an amazing lady who has touched the lives of so many people, your Sparkfriends are honoured to know you and we are all wishing you well for the op.

It is scary when you see close family members having similar health issues, let's hope there is something the German doctors know that the Welsh ones don't!

big hugs

Report Inappropriate Comment
JUSTYNA7 4/6/2014 11:32PM

    You have courage because you are here and you want things to change. Fear is bad when it paralyses me, when I can think of nothing good. It is good when I can say "OK what can I do to feel safer or more secure". I made and "I Matter" list of things that I can do to work towards health or feeling safe... from taking my mediations on time to going for a walk or getting to bed on time or spending time with my kids. emoticon emoticon emoticon Or playing my harp. You will find things that you can do.

Comment edited on: 4/6/2014 11:34:11 PM

Report Inappropriate Comment
CRYSALLIS1 4/5/2014 10:23PM

    Karen,
Thank you for sharing with us. Fear is a normal human response. Especially after everything you have been through. Your faith will get you through. Allah is there for you to lean on. You are a dear friend to do many on Spark. I wish I could help you through this time. Your in my prayers. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
CIPHER1971 4/5/2014 6:27PM

    I think fear is normal for most people, I hope everything goes well for your op.

As for being a good muslim - I have no idea, but you are a good human being, which is all most of us can every hope for

Wishing you strength and courage.

Report Inappropriate Comment
SUETINGE 4/5/2014 4:37PM

    emoticon Karen, you are an incredibly strong woman, and I would be more concerned for you if you didn't have some fear at this point. It's perfectly natural. I know that God has set you on this path for a reason and he will be holding you every step of the way. I will keep you in my prayers, so that you will feel His touch while you are going through this.

Report Inappropriate Comment
TRUNKJUNK 4/5/2014 3:37PM

    Karen - I think fear is common and natural emotion in spite of the health issues you're faced with. I don't think the kind of fear you're experiencing is the fear that would be looked down upon. I know you're deep into your faith and you know who holds your tomorrow. I will be praying for you and your entire family. I pray that you'll have peace. I pray that when you go to the doctor Monday that the best decision concerning your upcoming surgery on the 14th will be made on your behalf. It may or may not be what you want but we must trust that it will be the best health decision for you. I pray that the ulcer on your leg heals. I pray for your sons and Lofti. I will be in constant prayer for you my friend.

emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
ENTIRELYBEVERLY 4/5/2014 11:53AM

    Karen, you have every right as a human being to feel fear! Feelings just are. It's OK! I hold you in such high esteem for your ability to express it and move forward anyway!

I love you!!! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
TRUTHNOW2 4/5/2014 8:49AM

    I think it is very brave of you to post a blog about fear... for some people that might not take courage, but for you I can feel that it does.
You have a lot you are facing... maybe some things you would rather not have to face... but you are facing... dealing... trying....
I found a short comment by Deepak Chopra to be of help to me.... you can acceot the diagnosis but you don't have to believe the prognosis.... hmm. i think i have not quoted it exactly... but it helped me.. meaning doctors deal with percentages etc.. but they never truly know who will fall into which...
I believe between your courage and strength and experience and faith you will come through your fear and the operation and feel so much better than you do right now... and of course, knowing you in even such a limited way, you will light the path for others facing similar trials.

with care,
Sharon

Report Inappropriate Comment
PRAIRIECROCUS 4/5/2014 1:55AM

    KAREN, I hope, and pray that everything will turn out fine !
emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
POOKASLUAGH 4/4/2014 10:27PM

    Honestly I think fear is a natural feeling/reaction to all the stress you're under. I can't even imagine! You will be in my thoughts and I really do hope everything goes well for you and your family.

Report Inappropriate Comment
1CRAZYDOG 4/4/2014 10:15PM

  Oh my goodness. You have more than enough on your plate and MUCH reason for the fear you're feeling. It is NOT weak. It is HUMAN. Anything which makes us face our own mortality is scary. I know in the conscious mind, we know all our days are #'d. We will not live on infinitely. That is scary. Then when you factor in missing your family, what will your family do without out, it is overwhelmingly scary!

I am proud of you that you spoke of this fear. Know you're in my thoughts and prayers. You are doing what you can to take care of yourself and that's about all that you can do. Don't neglect to let those you love KNOW that you love them. That's important. Don't leave that unsaid.

HUGS and prayers.

Report Inappropriate Comment
SUSIEPH1 4/4/2014 10:13PM

  Ohh Sweetie, you have every right to be frightened .. I understand how you feel having been your friend for so long ..
The medical profession has really worked some miracles in this time and age .. Be assured they will do the very best for you ..
Know that my love and prayers will be with you and I will be sending healing vibes ..
The boys will be fine ..
The sooner this op is done the better ..
The younger you are the more easier the healing will be ..
Thinking and Praying for you my Darling ..
Love Susie .. Give the boys a cuddle from me .. emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
MICKEYH 4/4/2014 10:10PM

    Karen, I am so sorry to hear that you are going thru a lot in your life emotionally and physically. I am so glad that you've found this poster to I courage you. You are stronger then you think. And I do have faith in you that you can over come your fear. And things will get better. Nothing will get done or make you feel better worrying about your unknown future. I believe positive thinking/energy will bring positive result. Much love and **hugs** to you. emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
MOLLIEJEAN2 4/4/2014 8:59PM

    emoticon , my friend, you have the right to have fear of the unknown. Just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers and God will help you through all that is coming your way. Know that your friends on here will be here to encourage you along this journey and will be here when you return.

Report Inappropriate Comment


asking for help

Friday, March 21, 2014

for a sparkfriend of mines daughter that suffers from CP and as such needs a special bike so she can ride like other kids her age.there is a raffle going on to win such a bike.the more votes she has the better chance she has of winning one.i havenīt posted the link as a link as it doesnīt work that way but if you put it in manually on search it will take you to the page.once again i thank you for reading my blog and a double thank you if you take the time to vote for lexi.

http://www.friendshipcircle.org/bikes/20
14/03/lexi-3/

take care and keep smiling.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

KHADEEJAH1 3/26/2014 8:51PM

    By the grace of Allah everything will work out

Report Inappropriate Comment
CRYSALLIS1 3/23/2014 9:48PM

    Will do

Report Inappropriate Comment
MISS_VIV 3/22/2014 11:55AM

    I voted and then posted this on my FACEBOOK page.....She has 296 votes right now.

GOOD LUCK,.

emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
MILLISMA 3/22/2014 9:31AM

    emoticon it worked this morning!!!! DONE!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MRSBIGGLESWORTH 3/22/2014 5:39AM

    Done!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MILLISMA 3/21/2014 11:13PM

    Karen, I got to the page but it wouldn't let me vote. Will try again tomorrow. Would be so wonderful if she could win!!! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
SUSIEPH1 3/21/2014 9:41PM

  A ll done xxx emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
MICKEYH 3/21/2014 6:19PM

    Did it!

Report Inappropriate Comment
CIPHER1971 3/21/2014 4:18PM

    kk

Report Inappropriate Comment
1CRAZYDOG 3/21/2014 4:10PM

  done!

Report Inappropriate Comment
AZ_CAT_PERSON 3/21/2014 2:44PM

    done

Report Inappropriate Comment
SUEPERWOMAN 3/21/2014 2:28PM

   
sure!

Report Inappropriate Comment
SUEPERWOMAN 3/21/2014 2:27PM

   
sure!

Report Inappropriate Comment
SUEPERWOMAN 3/21/2014 2:27PM

   
sure!

Report Inappropriate Comment
SUEPERWOMAN 3/21/2014 2:26PM

    sure!

try this website instead https://www.friendshipcircle.org/bi
kes/2014/03/lexi-2/

Comment edited on: 3/21/2014 2:28:36 PM

Report Inappropriate Comment
SAASHA17 3/21/2014 1:58PM

    Done...

Report Inappropriate Comment


blog long over due

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

donīt know why i have been putting off this blog,i guess i have been a bit down.op went well no thanks to the surgeon who was suppose to do it.they did 15 incisions in total and i am really wasnīt expecting it to have hurt as much as it did ,still does to an extent and hoe tired it makes me there are times when i am so exhursted .i canīt remember feeling like this after other ops.maybe it is to do with the new medication i am on instead of my normal bloodthinner which i am on a rest from till after the next op scheduled 14th april they are called xarelto,or maybe it is the antibiotics as i seem to have got an imflamation of the leg.what ever it is making me down.i am still only suppose to be lying down or walking.no sitting and when standing have to lean against something(not that i feel i need too but drīs orders,lol)lotfi went to tunisia to see his family.he had already postponed it with me not being so good as he was originally suppose to have gone last tuesday.he wanted to postpone it again but i sort lied to him saying i was ok when i wasnīt really and insisted he went.for those of you who donīt know lotfiīs father is end stadium cancr and is now bedridden,incontanant and finding it hard to eat.we have seen him deteriating when we see him on skype.i think lotfiīs brother getting shot and killed didnīt help mentally when i saw lotfiīs dad on skype yesturday i knew i made the right decision to lie to lotfi how i was really feeling for the first time in along time his father had a smile on his face and looked animated ,alive.he was even sitting up in bed instead of the usual lying.the reason i said lotfi had to go now as after my next op we donīt know when lotfi would have been able to go and see his dad next as i am going to be away around 3 months with hospital and rehab and the dr said i should be prepared for 6months to a year alot of pain and that i will have to learn to walk all over again.we donīt know when the next time he would have been able to go or weather his father would still be here then.also a break before he has to look after the kids all alone when i am hospital will do him good.anyway because of having to lye down i am not so often on the computer or use my new (secondhand laptop)that lotfi got me so i will have computer access in rehab(isnīt that sweet)but even using the laptop i seem to get a stiff neck and sholders so donīt do it so often.anyway that is the update.take care and keep smiling and thanks for reading my blog.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

CHOOSE2LOSE2014 3/25/2014 3:25PM

    my thoughts and prayers are with you Karen

Report Inappropriate Comment
JUDITH1654 3/21/2014 7:28PM

    emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
TADZIO 3/19/2014 9:55AM

    Karen --- you amaze me --- and you're so caring --- and considerate of others --- I'm so glad we're friends!

Take care of my friend!!!

Randy:)

Report Inappropriate Comment
SAASHA17 3/19/2014 6:48AM

    HI KAren...
hugs!1 Hope u heal well and soon..U are an amazing person to do that for Lotfi and his dad...u take care and I know you will get back more for your sacrifice...glad I know such a strong lovely person..

Manasa

Report Inappropriate Comment
DEEGIRL50 3/19/2014 6:25AM

    You made a big sacrifice in letting him go to be with his father. The smile let you know it was worth it. Take care my friend. Heal quickly.
emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
RAINBOWCHOC 3/19/2014 4:46AM

    sending a big cwtch

Report Inappropriate Comment
SUSIEPH1 3/19/2014 2:19AM

  Dearest Karen, was lovely to " emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon chat" this morning .. Just know that I am here for you anytime xx thinking of you my friend .. Much Love Susie

Report Inappropriate Comment
PRAIRIECROCUS 3/19/2014 1:59AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
ENTIRELYBEVERLY 3/18/2014 11:48PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
POOKASLUAGH 3/18/2014 10:32PM

    I hope you feel better soon. That sounds so terribly painful! I'm glad he could go visit his father though! That was real sweet of you. :) *hugs*

Report Inappropriate Comment
STEPH-KNEE 3/18/2014 9:24PM

    emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
CRYSALLIS1 3/18/2014 8:46PM

    Dear Karen,
Thank you for the update. I was wondering how you were really doing. Don't feel bad about not being on Spark much. I was surprised how well you were getting around etc. You must do whatever the Dr. says. Feeling down is pretty normal I'm sure. Wish I didn't live a half a world away I would come cook, clean, & take care of the boys for you.
It's probably a good thing Lofti went to see his father. Are the boys able to do any of the cooking or cleaning for themselves?
Do you need someone to help you with your team or anything? That's something I could do.
Love & Hugs, emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
PEGGYO 3/18/2014 8:44PM

    emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
MICKEYH 3/18/2014 8:32PM

    So sorry to hear that you are feeling down a bit. It is so tough being wife, mom, good DIL and getting recovery the all same time. Also feel so sorry to hear about Lofti's Father being sick. Sending prayers in your way for your entire family. It's hard to get good rest time like this, but you do need to get well in order to take care of your self and family. So pls, take some time and rest as much you can and get well soon. emoticon emoticon


Report Inappropriate Comment
1CRAZYDOG 3/18/2014 7:34PM

  You are an incredibly strong woman! Sending healing vibes and hoping that the pain diminishes.

That is food for both Lofti and his Dad that he went. You made the right choice.

HUGS and prayers.

Report Inappropriate Comment
JFROGSPYDER 3/18/2014 7:23PM

    Hope you are feeling better real soon!!!! What kind of surgery did you have?? Sorry about your Husband's Dad!!!! It is so hard to watch them deteriorate!!!!
Hugzz ~ Jae emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
TRUNKJUNK 3/18/2014 6:49PM

    Karen

You're in my thoughts and prayers for a speedy recovery.

emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
GODZDESIGN95 3/18/2014 5:22PM

    Take this time to heal and recover. having surgery of any kind is a shock to the body. Rest up and get better. emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
WENDYSPARKS 3/18/2014 5:14PM

    emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
CIPHER1971 3/18/2014 4:40PM

    take it easy and I hope you heal quickly.

All the best

Report Inappropriate Comment


1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 Last Page