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Indulgence

Thursday, August 28, 2014

You know my co-worker brings treats all the time, but today her sister brought us some goodies that I couldn't say no to. Scotcheroos. I'm sure you understand.

So I indulged a little bit, I enjoyed 2 bars and every delicious calorie. I will have to just trim back my evening meal and definitely go for a walk. Just the walk alone should burn off most of the calories from the treats.

  
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GORDON66 8/28/2014 10:31PM

  You didn't turn the treat into a reason to eat anything you would like so good for you!!!

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KELLIEBEAN 8/28/2014 8:55PM

    I had to look that up, had never heard of it till I saw the recipe. I've had them before, just never knew what they were called.

Good for you enjoying an indulgence wisely!

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GEORGE815 8/28/2014 6:20PM

    Great treat if you can walk it off.

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IMUSTLOSEIT1 8/28/2014 6:15PM

    Maybe you had better jog emoticon a little, along with the walk emoticon

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BABY_GIRL69 8/28/2014 5:48PM

    At least you know how to enjoy savor & then work it all out!!

God bless,

Dee

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What size am I??

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

I mowed the lawn yesterday and I had to stop in the middle of it and come inside. Not because I was tired or anything, but because my pants were so big they were literally falling off in the front yard! Can you believe it!? I usually wear elastic waist knit pants, but I was in the mood for some denim. I came inside and tried on 2 more pairs of pants that were also way too big before I found a pair of shorts that fit me right.

I need to sort out my clothes and get my sizes organized. Then the dilemma becomes, 'Do I get rid of the things that are too big'? I want to let them go. I do not ever want to let myself regain this weight I am working so hard to lose. I just can't excuse my disregard for my health and the disrespect I showed my body while I was binging. I can only say that I stopped caring about myself and I looked to food for comfort.

In 2006 I weighed about 228 and I enrolled in college. I walked an hour a day and got down to about 202-203. That was the last time I tried to diet prior to joining Sparkpeople in March. Then I moved out of town for school and started gaining weight again. I ate so much that I made myself sick. I felt my skin pulling and stretch marks forming and I didn't care enough to do anything about it. I had to buy new clothes and I was self conscious about my appearance, so I became withdrawn and angry. It's actually sad to think about it.

I want to fix it now if I can. I will try. I will have a treat now and then that isn't 100% diet approved, but I will work to keep it in check. Being a plus size gal didn't make one single thing in my life better, or easier. It made it harder. I have to live better. I am aging. I will not live forever, and I am tired of being embarrassed by the way I look.

  
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WINNIE1978 8/28/2014 7:06PM

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GORDON66 8/27/2014 10:35PM

  Good for you!! You're making these changes while you're still a pup. I don't want anyone to endure 50+ years of obesity like I'm living through.
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IMUSTLOSEIT1 8/27/2014 9:57PM

    You are so right. You made a really good point, I am 70 and I don't want to leave this world not being who I want to be. So I need to make some changes. I don't want to be embarrassed anymore, I want to walk down the street with my head held high and proud of who I am.

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Things are looking up.

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

We are finally getting a break from the heat today! I can't wait to get off work so I can go home and mow. The yard is looking pretty scraggly at the moment.

I am also working on a wheelchair for one of my bunnies. Big Brown is handicapped in his right hind leg and drags on his hip wherever he goes. It just breaks your heart. We found a couple of videos online and got the frame built out of PVC last night. I just need to rig up a harness for him and make some adjustments to the frame so it fits him better.

In other news, the scale went down again. This was a happy surprise since I have been laying low due to the heat. I don't do hot weather, so I have skipped my walk for the last few days. I have compensated by being active around the house and carefully tracking my calories. I weighed in today at 238, another low since I started the program.

That being said, I want to say that if I can do this, anybody can do it. Losing weight is no joke, and it takes some effort and commitment, but it can be done. I had totally given up on myself and resigned to a life of fatness and eventual disability due to my weight. I am starting to feel really empowered and hopeful about the future. I still have some bouts with depression, but I am managing that better as well.

  
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HARRINGTON5 8/27/2014 2:15PM

    You go girl! Sounds like you have embraced the program and doing well.

I love rabbits. What a nice thing to do for your bunny. I used to raise French lop-eared rabbits - that was before I started raising butterflies.

If you want to learn a little more about butterflies, I have two websites; www.cynthiasbutterflygarden.com and raisingbutterfliesgardens.com

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ALIALI2013 8/27/2014 1:00PM

    That is so sweet, I love it and hope you find a way to help Big Brown.

Congrats on the scale going down again, great news, keep up the great work!

I love positive posts like this, keep it up!!

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GORDON66 8/26/2014 10:28PM

  Never resign yourself to a life of fatness and eventual disability. Just keep chipping away and don't give up!!!

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IMUSTLOSEIT1 8/26/2014 6:27PM

    Hope you are able to get things fixed so Big Brown can get to hopping. Cangrats on the lose, it can be hard at times to make progress.

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KIM22211 8/26/2014 3:42PM

    good for you and that is the key. doing exactly what you are doing. I hope we get a break from the heat soon. Although I feel bad complaining. We have had a most mild summer! I am in Kansas City MISSOURI not Kansas!!

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Being productive feels great!

Sunday, August 24, 2014

So. It's ten thousand degrees outside. Waaaay to dang hot for my cold blooded nature. A day like today is perfect basement cleaning weather because it's always extra cool down there!

I have half of my basement set up as an animal paradise. My rabbits are down there and two of our cats live in there as well. I have lots of climbers, and beds, toys, and litter boxes, kennels, etc. all for my babies. I spent several hours cleaning their things today. I shampooed the carpeted climbers, swept and mopped the floor, washed bedding. I did get outside a little bit, I hosed down the kennel and some storage containers and litter boxes out in the backyard.

I also bathed both of my rabbits hind ends. They spend a lot of time outside when the weather permits, and they were both dirty little boys. Also, rabbits have funky scent glands in the rear that need cleaned occasionally so I handled that bit of business as well.

I sorted through a couple of boxes of clothes and decided to wash some things that I might be able to fit into pretty soon. I also made the decision to recycle quite a few empty boxes that I was saving just in case I might need them again. Tomorrow is our garbage/recycling day so there is a couple of extra items out by the curb as well.

I didn't do a bona-fide workout today, unless you count my morning yoga session. It felt fantastic to sleep in, then get up at my leisure and do some light body work. I did however, go up and down the basement stairs at least a dozen times. Days like today rock so hard!

I also had the most magnificent afternoon snack, a Sparkpeople recipe that I modified just a tish. Its easy- 1 frozen banana, 1/2c skim milk, 1/4c of my dry homemade cocoa mix, and 1 T peanut butter. It makes a KILLER smoothie, and I enjoyed that as much as any ice cream treat.

To end the day, my boyfriend made steaks, fresh sweet corn and salad for supper.

Overall, today was amazing.



  
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IMUSTLOSEIT1 8/25/2014 10:00AM

    Sounds like a busy day to me.

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GORDON66 8/25/2014 9:14AM

  Wow!! You accomplished a lot, and you have something to show for it. Good for you!!!
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Resistance is feasible

Saturday, August 23, 2014

It's my weekend to work, and true to form, my co-worker has brought a tray of treats.

She is a very nice, grandmotherly gal. She works two jobs and goes a thousand miles an hour. She barely sleeps and gets up at the crack of dawn to bake treats. Cookies, brownies, banana bars, pies, you name it, this woman bakes it. I swear she is trying to fatten us up for slaughter.

You should see the way my co-workers hog down these treats with wild abandon. Yesterday, one of the guys ate 4 bars that I know of! I shouldn't judge, but I can't help but think how many calories is in these goodies and how can these people afford to indulge in such gluttony. I feel kind of like a hypocrite because it wasn't all that long ago that I would have been right there at the feeding trough, snarfing down all that sugary goodness.

Not anymore. I think of my calories like money in the bank, and I have to spend them on foods that aren't so rich and calorie dense. I did find the smallest cookie in the bag the other day, just a little morsel of about two bites to treat myself with. It actually gave me a sticky feeling in my throat and I probably won't have one again for quite a while. It wasn't as good as I thought it would be.

I avoid the table where the treats are. Out of sight, out of mind as they say. I am feeling really good about how much weight I have lost so far and it makes me eager to keep losing more. I am working too hard to backslide now.

  
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MTN_KITTEN 8/24/2014 9:41AM

    As a southern gal ... food has always meant love and hospitality. She means well.

You have changed the way you look at food.
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GORDON66 8/23/2014 3:36PM

  It sounds like your baking queen is the nurturing type, and it makes her feel good. Sigh. Unfortunately, that doesn't help you.
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IMUSTLOSEIT1 8/23/2014 12:46PM

    Maybe your co-worker lives alone and is lonely and bakes to fill her time. I know I do a lot more baking when hubby is gone from 6 am to 10pm during planting and harvest. You can only clean the house so many times a day.

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CANDYMOUSE 8/23/2014 11:05AM

    I am sure she means well. But I used to hate it when people did that..( bring junk food for everybody).Of course, no one would have suspected I hated it. I was the first and last to eat the chocolate.Then..came the guilt! I just people wouldn't bring it.

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