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Working through the challenges.

Thursday, July 24, 2014

This week is getting away from me in a big way.

I can't believe it is Thursday already! Tuesday was a bust with everything going haywire. Wednesday, I had so many errands to run after work, and I didn't get home until after 7pm. By then, I was absolutely famished and I accidentally ate a whole frozen pizza. I thought about stopping after 3 pieces, but then the fact that I had been hungry for so long took over and I got greedy. That shouldn't have happened, but it did.

So what can I learn from that?? Well, for starters, I should have had a snack when I started getting hungry instead of waiting until I was ravenous. Also, I wasn't sticking to my routine. My routine has everything built into it at the right time to keep me on course.

And finally... I am annoyed with myself because I haven't been out for a walk in three days. The other day was super hot and muggy and I do not function well in that environment, so I planned to do a yoga workout at home. I moved the furniture out of the way and got out my mat, only to find out that My Yoga Online channel on the Roku has disabled their free sample videos. Their monthly subscription is only $9.95 but I don't know that I would use it that much to justify the extra expense right now.

Overall, I am thinking that I need to be more resilient about when things don't go my way. If everything isn't just right, I give up and the lazy side of me takes over. Life doesn't run on a set schedule, so I want to keep my goals AND get through the daily challenges more smoothly. I feel bad because I was rude to some people on the phone the other day. My frustration and anger about the computer situation got the better of me, and I swear I do not want to be that grumpy person. In addition to losing weight, I think I need to shine up my attitude a little bit as well.

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STARLITNIGHT 7/25/2014 12:51AM

    80/20 rule, It gives you a little room to move, but still in the right direction for a positive change.


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GORDON66 7/24/2014 2:23PM

  Rolling with the punches makes life so much easier. As for the pizza, it happens. When I left the car dealership much lighter in the wallet, I spent some quality time with a good sized chocolate bar. Did I regret it? Sure, but I'm so over beating myself up. It changes nothing. Be kind to yourself and move on.

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IMUSTLOSEIT1 7/24/2014 1:54PM

    We all need to just plain blow it once in awhile. I think once in awhile we just need to forget about weight lose and just enjoy life, even if it is just for a few minutes. So don't feel guilty, just feel refreshed to start again. Linda

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WIFE48 7/24/2014 12:33PM

    Pick yourself up, brush yourself off. and keep going. Don't look back. Look forward. emoticon

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Looking for a better today.

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Had a great 3 day weekend and yesterday I went back to work. I'm using lots of sentence fragments today, but too busy to sit and fiddle with wording. My apologies to the Grammar Nazis.

Came home over my lunch break and turned on my computer and nothing happened. I panicked. This is a super nice, high dollar gaming computer, and I just made my second to last payment on it on Monday. I thought for sure it was going be be a pain and I was right. Called customer service, 1 hour and 20 minutes on the phone, 3 transfers and one disconnect. Troubleshooting. Up and down on the floor under the desk 5 times. Was late getting back to work from lunch. Had to explain to the boss. Didn't even get to eat anything on my lunch break so I was "Hangry" all afternoon.

Then I came home and was doing chores and the bag in the Shop Vac needed changed. But when I went to take it out, the bag broke through and rabbit turds and pine shavings went everywhere. That's fun.

Anyway, long story short- I had some peanut M&Ms last night to soothe my frazzled nerves. I know that food is not supposed to have an emotional affiliation, but it does. Big whoop. So today, I have to get straightened out. Lots to do. Errands to run. Chores need done. Slipped a little on my weight loss, but I can fix that..

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SUNDAYS_CHILD 7/23/2014 3:25PM

    Oh no! I hate days like that! I hate even more that it's hard to express the extreme level of frustration you feel though mere words and you just don't feel a release until you get a piece of chocolate in your mouth. My "chocolate" of choice is cigarettes and soda. I kicked the soda thing, but the cigs will take a long while. I know exactly what you mean. Think of it this way, the M&M's won't kill you.


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GORDON66 7/23/2014 2:20PM

  After being told by the dealership that both tail light assemblies would have to be replaced at a cost of almost $1,000, I used candy to relieve the stress. It happens.

Take care!

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STARLITNIGHT 7/23/2014 2:11PM

    Hope you stay strong and work through all the tough moments.

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15 Minutes

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Lazy day today. I was feeling slightly guilty about my lack of incentive, so I set the timer for a 15 minute burst to see what I could get done.

First I stared 4 eggs to hard boil.

Then I made a treat for my older cat. She doesn't drink enough water on her own, so I mixed a spoonful of canned Hormel White and Dark meat Turkey with half a cup warm water and served Her Majesty.

Then I took half a teaspoon of baking soda, half a cap of hydrogen peroxide, and a squirt of toothpaste and whitened my teeth.

Next I got a teaspoon of sugar and mixed it with my Cinique Gently Foaming Facial Cleanser and exfoliated my face.

Followed by moisturizing with Clinique Dramatically Different Moisturizer.

The eggs were basically done boiling at this point so I turned off the heat and covered the pan to let them finish cooking.

This all took about 13 minutes, so I had time to harness up my kitty and by the time the bell rang, we were out for a walk around the block.

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GORDON66 7/20/2014 8:26PM

  Good for you!!!!

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Dining out.

Thursday, July 17, 2014

Long day yesterday, so we went out for supper last night at the local Mexican restaurant.

It was after 7 when we arrived, and we didn't expect it to be as busy as it was on a weeknight. Normally they are very fast with your food and you don't wait long at all, but last night there was a big party of 15-20 people ahead of us.

They served our complimentary chips and three bowls of dips, 2 different salsas and one bowl of cheese dip. We ate all of it before we had even placed our order. They brought us another round of chips and the three dips and we finished it as well before our meals arrived. When we did finally get our meals, we were pretty full. My boyfriend didn't touch his meal and I ate a few bites of my burrito before asking for a box to go.

When the waiter brought the boxes, he leaned over the table and got really serious. Then he asked me if everything is ok because I am looking really skinny. I said I am ok, I just lost a little bit of weight and then my boyfriend chimed in with "She lost A LOT of weight." Now, I am not looking skinny by any stretch of the imagination, but it was nice that someone noticed. I just wish my boyfriend hadn't put so much emphasis on "a lot" because it is really not that much compared to what I still need to lose.

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STARLITNIGHT 7/23/2014 2:09PM

    Just smile and say thank you! This journey is yours, and only what you think counts. Everyone else can just be amazed by your Love for yourself!

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GORDON66 7/17/2014 10:27PM

  If you boyfriend said you lost a lot of weight, believe him. We tend to measure how far we need to go rather than how far we have come.
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LILYPIXIE 7/17/2014 6:32PM


That's awesome emoticon I love when people notice. Don't be hard on yourself it sounds like your boyfriend is just proud of you and wanted to make sure you didn't undermine your efforts by saying just "a little".

It's hard to accept things like that when you know that even after losing weight you need to lose more but seriously just take it as a "YES, I've been a awesome pound terminator and plan to ooze more pound dropping awesomeness at a later day so stay tuned!" emoticon

You're awesome and you've been taking strides to a more comfortable you. emoticon to that for sure. Keep up the good fight and don't let things people say cause too much inner turmoil you seriously have SO many better things you could be doing within your mind at those times like visualizing yourself at goal emoticon

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WIFE48 7/17/2014 5:54PM

    emoticon It is always nice when someone notices your weight loss.

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CHANGING-TURTLE 7/17/2014 5:31PM

    emoticon on your weight loss emoticon

Every time I go to a Mexican restaurant the chips and salsa are ate up before my meal gets here and I am to full for dinner

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Fighting the good fight.

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

My appetite peaks at the end of the day. I would like it to stop doing that because I spend a lot of time in the evening obsessing about food.

Last night for supper, I had a turkey/bacon/avocado sandwich with a 5 veggie salad. It was delicious and one of my favorite meals. After supper, I had a snack of a banana with Smucker's Natural creamy peanut butter. I mention the brand name because it is so good. Try it, you'll see. Then I sprinkled almond granola on top for a nice crunch. Excellent snack.

Then as it got later, I still wanted a snack. This is what I would call a craving, not a need to eat because of hunger. I had some Sensible Portions Veggie Straws, which are low cal and yummy, but I could have done without them. That is where I need to focus and work. I need to control these urges to snack when I am not hungry.

I feel like it's a waste of energy, because as Jillian Michaels said, "You can eat your way through any amount of exercise". So as much as I force myself to be active, I am kind of sabotaging it by indulging in these little snacks. It is work. I struggle with it, but I can do it. After all, I have nothing but time, every day, every choice, I can take the opportunity to be better.

I am already so reformed from the high calorie binge eater I was 6 months ago. I would eat an entire batch of cookies in a day or two and then make another batch to replace them. Entire pies. Entire pizzas. Entire cakes. Entire pans of brownies. Many, many of these goodies have been devoured by my binge eating. I used to go to bed with my heart pounding hard and scary fast because of overeating. I haven't had any relapses since starting SP and that is a victory.

I'm like Don Quixote- I still fight cravings. I saw a picture of smores the other day, and my little voice in my head has been trying to convince me to buy the stuff to make them. But I won't do it. If I do, I will seriously eat it all in one night, so I still have to be on guard against these irrational urges.

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FANNYMANSON 7/17/2014 9:55PM

    Yep, cereal has been a weakness of mine for years!

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SUPERMOMISFIT 7/17/2014 1:21PM

  I used to have a bowl of cereal every night before bed. Then it grew to "oh there's milk left, i'll have a bit more cereal... oh, there's too much cereal i'll add a bit of milk...." until the box was gone in two or three days.

I still get the urge for cereal at night (which is weird because i don't eat it for breakfast much), and I applaud your awareness and work to avoid snacks. I've discovered that after dinner, if my stomach starts growling, that means it's time to go to bed.

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GORDON66 7/16/2014 2:12PM

  Avoiding binge eating is huge. Good for you!!!!

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WIFE48 7/16/2014 1:10PM

    Good for you for not giving into binge eating. emoticon

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SUNDAYS_CHILD 7/16/2014 12:53PM

    Thank you for the tip about the banana! I hate bananas, apples too, but someone suggested that I add peanut butter to apples and now I like them (which is weird cause I don't like peanut butter did I get this big???). Is there a granola product you like too?

As much as I don't like food, I do understand the late night snacking. Because I'm up almost all night after everyone has gone to sleep, I get bored. Hubby likes cookies and snack cakes, so there's plenty around the house. Last night I reached for some Double Stuffed Oreos, but I checked the pack....about 100 calories per cookie. Seriously?? I really should go to bed earlier so I'm not tempted. One of my biggest weakness is soda. I was addicted, and it's still in the house. Ugh! ;)

Congrats on avoiding the binge eating since joining. That is a HUGE victory and you should be incredibly proud of yourself! Awesome job!!!!


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