Thursday, July 24, 2014
This week is getting away from me in a big way.
I can't believe it is Thursday already! Tuesday was a bust with everything going haywire. Wednesday, I had so many errands to run after work, and I didn't get home until after 7pm. By then, I was absolutely famished and I accidentally ate a whole frozen pizza. I thought about stopping after 3 pieces, but then the fact that I had been hungry for so long took over and I got greedy. That shouldn't have happened, but it did.
So what can I learn from that?? Well, for starters, I should have had a snack when I started getting hungry instead of waiting until I was ravenous. Also, I wasn't sticking to my routine. My routine has everything built into it at the right time to keep me on course.
And finally... I am annoyed with myself because I haven't been out for a walk in three days. The other day was super hot and muggy and I do not function well in that environment, so I planned to do a yoga workout at home. I moved the furniture out of the way and got out my mat, only to find out that My Yoga Online channel on the Roku has disabled their free sample videos. Their monthly subscription is only $9.95 but I don't know that I would use it that much to justify the extra expense right now.
Overall, I am thinking that I need to be more resilient about when things don't go my way. If everything isn't just right, I give up and the lazy side of me takes over. Life doesn't run on a set schedule, so I want to keep my goals AND get through the daily challenges more smoothly. I feel bad because I was rude to some people on the phone the other day. My frustration and anger about the computer situation got the better of me, and I swear I do not want to be that grumpy person. In addition to losing weight, I think I need to shine up my attitude a little bit as well.
Wednesday, July 23, 2014
Had a great 3 day weekend and yesterday I went back to work. I'm using lots of sentence fragments today, but too busy to sit and fiddle with wording. My apologies to the Grammar Nazis.
Came home over my lunch break and turned on my computer and nothing happened. I panicked. This is a super nice, high dollar gaming computer, and I just made my second to last payment on it on Monday. I thought for sure it was going be be a pain and I was right. Called customer service, 1 hour and 20 minutes on the phone, 3 transfers and one disconnect. Troubleshooting. Up and down on the floor under the desk 5 times. Was late getting back to work from lunch. Had to explain to the boss. Didn't even get to eat anything on my lunch break so I was "Hangry" all afternoon.
Then I came home and was doing chores and the bag in the Shop Vac needed changed. But when I went to take it out, the bag broke through and rabbit turds and pine shavings went everywhere. That's fun.
Anyway, long story short- I had some peanut M&Ms last night to soothe my frazzled nerves. I know that food is not supposed to have an emotional affiliation, but it does. Big whoop. So today, I have to get straightened out. Lots to do. Errands to run. Chores need done. Slipped a little on my weight loss, but I can fix that..
Sunday, July 20, 2014
Lazy day today. I was feeling slightly guilty about my lack of incentive, so I set the timer for a 15 minute burst to see what I could get done.
First I stared 4 eggs to hard boil.
Then I made a treat for my older cat. She doesn't drink enough water on her own, so I mixed a spoonful of canned Hormel White and Dark meat Turkey with half a cup warm water and served Her Majesty.
Then I took half a teaspoon of baking soda, half a cap of hydrogen peroxide, and a squirt of toothpaste and whitened my teeth.
Next I got a teaspoon of sugar and mixed it with my Cinique Gently Foaming Facial Cleanser and exfoliated my face.
Followed by moisturizing with Clinique Dramatically Different Moisturizer.
The eggs were basically done boiling at this point so I turned off the heat and covered the pan to let them finish cooking.
This all took about 13 minutes, so I had time to harness up my kitty and by the time the bell rang, we were out for a walk around the block.
Thursday, July 17, 2014
Long day yesterday, so we went out for supper last night at the local Mexican restaurant.
It was after 7 when we arrived, and we didn't expect it to be as busy as it was on a weeknight. Normally they are very fast with your food and you don't wait long at all, but last night there was a big party of 15-20 people ahead of us.
They served our complimentary chips and three bowls of dips, 2 different salsas and one bowl of cheese dip. We ate all of it before we had even placed our order. They brought us another round of chips and the three dips and we finished it as well before our meals arrived. When we did finally get our meals, we were pretty full. My boyfriend didn't touch his meal and I ate a few bites of my burrito before asking for a box to go.
When the waiter brought the boxes, he leaned over the table and got really serious. Then he asked me if everything is ok because I am looking really skinny. I said I am ok, I just lost a little bit of weight and then my boyfriend chimed in with "She lost A LOT of weight." Now, I am not looking skinny by any stretch of the imagination, but it was nice that someone noticed. I just wish my boyfriend hadn't put so much emphasis on "a lot" because it is really not that much compared to what I still need to lose.
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
My appetite peaks at the end of the day. I would like it to stop doing that because I spend a lot of time in the evening obsessing about food.
Last night for supper, I had a turkey/bacon/avocado sandwich with a 5 veggie salad. It was delicious and one of my favorite meals. After supper, I had a snack of a banana with Smucker's Natural creamy peanut butter. I mention the brand name because it is so good. Try it, you'll see. Then I sprinkled almond granola on top for a nice crunch. Excellent snack.
Then as it got later, I still wanted a snack. This is what I would call a craving, not a need to eat because of hunger. I had some Sensible Portions Veggie Straws, which are low cal and yummy, but I could have done without them. That is where I need to focus and work. I need to control these urges to snack when I am not hungry.
I feel like it's a waste of energy, because as Jillian Michaels said, "You can eat your way through any amount of exercise". So as much as I force myself to be active, I am kind of sabotaging it by indulging in these little snacks. It is work. I struggle with it, but I can do it. After all, I have nothing but time, every day, every choice, I can take the opportunity to be better.
I am already so reformed from the high calorie binge eater I was 6 months ago. I would eat an entire batch of cookies in a day or two and then make another batch to replace them. Entire pies. Entire pizzas. Entire cakes. Entire pans of brownies. Many, many of these goodies have been devoured by my binge eating. I used to go to bed with my heart pounding hard and scary fast because of overeating. I haven't had any relapses since starting SP and that is a victory.
I'm like Don Quixote- I still fight cravings. I saw a picture of smores the other day, and my little voice in my head has been trying to convince me to buy the stuff to make them. But I won't do it. If I do, I will seriously eat it all in one night, so I still have to be on guard against these irrational urges.
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