Tuesday, March 04, 2014
This morning I do not know what I feel, but I think I know why I feel it.
I missed two days in a row at the gym, which has left me feeling deflated, or worse yet, as if my day(s) never really started. I am not a morning person, but given my work schedule, I have learned to adapt. And adapt I must. Even with my shortened commute since the recent move, I really have to be up no later than 5:20 in order to get a decent workout in ahead of the day job. After work is completely unrealistic, as at that time I am busy cooking, gathering food, or chasing around my 4-year-old. Sometimes chasing my daughter around counts, and I even log it in to Spark, but sometimes it really does not. For instance, last night we spent the better part of the evening drawing. That does not count, right? LOL.
So, I am not one for resolutions, but given the cruddy start two days running, I must resolve herein to just get to the gym, without worrying so much about what I do when I get there. So, I will get there tomorrow morning and be a better man for it.
Sunday, March 02, 2014
I have been stalling in the 230-range for about six months now. I realize that this site is about so much more than weight loss, and actually, I am proud to report that there have been many positive changes within me, aside from the plateau, within the last six months. I eat healthier, have cultivated a healthier repertoire of coping mechanisms, and am more cognizant of over-eating triggers. Still, the scale does not move, and it is frustrating.
For background, while my official start weigh-in was mid 250's, my highest, and most debilitating weight, was actually recorded at 268. I was so unhealthy then, physically and psychologically, and acted and coped accordingly. I cannot begin to tell you how embarrassed and disgusted with myself I was at that time, some three years ago, when a flight of stairs would leave me looking for breath. Given my athletic background, I just hated feeling that way. I joined Spark after losing about the first dozen pounds or so, and then more weight loss slowly followed, bringing me to where I am now, and have been, mid 230's range.
Given the blogs I read on this inspiring site, I am sure that at least a few members can relate. What do you do and say to yourself when the weight just stalls?
In retrospect, I think it has been more like 8 months in this range. Oh boy. I have work to do. I know this, and I have mistakes to avoid and healthy choices to make. I just wish I could be more consistent.
Monday, February 24, 2014
Feel good about getting up at 5:15 on my "day off" to get a head start on a project I have been pushing toward completion at the office. Taking the day allowed for a much-needed reprieve from my daily responsibilities while also providing the space to look ahead. It also served doubly to free me up for some family time. This respects an extension from a banner weekend in the household.
And btw I'm still on the oatmeal and loving it.
Friday, February 21, 2014
Well, I am definitely improving along this life quest for better health, but I still have a lot of learning and reteaching to do.
While I did not completely cave today, I certainly did eat more than my fill. Not enough to actually feel uncomfortable, but certainly enough to generate some food regrets and be reminded of my former, larger self. I kinda pigged out. And it's weird and a bit alarming how it all went down. It actually did not start with food.
I will spare the details, as this is not the proper place, but old habits certainly die hard. I was cruising right along at work, even plowed through rather merrily when considering I was on minimal sleep, when it hit me. The phone rings. And I acted on it. And then the poor eating decisions started.
I guess sometimes one bad decision leads to another. Consider me re-committed to doing the next right thing.
Monday, February 17, 2014
This probably does not represent a news flash, and the subject matter might be a bit of a bore, so you may want to tune out early. For what it's worth, I have discovered a few things about oatmeal, as follows...
1. Real oatmeal (not instant) has a different flavor that is delightful with fruit and is more hearty than the garbage processed kind.
2. A half-cup of oatmeal keeps me full until around 11:00, at which time I have a light snack to offset lunch start time, which in turn helps to thwart later, late afternoon cravings. Remember, these times are in line with an early riser schedule. I am generally in the gym by 6:20.
3. Oatmeal keeps medical professionals a safe distance away. I am going on what they told me when I had a gamut of tests done after my heart scare 50 pounds ago. They all talked about oatmeal and how much it could lower certain awful numbers. Those numbers are now down, and me thinks the oats had something to do with it.
4. They sell oatmeal dirt cheap at the local wholesale store. I bought 10 pounds worth for under $10. That's crazy cheap! I eat breakfast for pennies.
5. On days when I am feeling like a rebel, I put just a dash of brown sugar in my oatmeal. I know how to party.
Be well, Sparkers.
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