Monday, December 30, 2013
So, I went to the gym Friday and Saturday night. Did cardio and a little strength training. I've been feeling tired lately and I forced myself to go and workout hoping it would boost my energy a bit. My doctor switched my anxiety medication about 3 months ago and I've gained over 20 lbs since then. I have NEVER been this heavy. I decided to step on the scale Friday morning and I was SHOCKED when I saw the number on the scale. I figured I had gained a couple of pounds but not THAT much.
The last couple of months have been so stressful, with my daughter having leukemia, and having to have to drop out of school, I have been stress eating BIG time.
So much has changed, and with the year coming to an end, I think about how much has changed over the course of a year. You don't realize who your true friends are until there isn't anyone around any more. My phone doesn't ring any more. No text messages like before. Forgotten, alone, and going through probably the roughest time in my life, EVER.
I don't think I have felt more alone than I have the past two months. I always think to myself, I need to make my children's childhood the best they could ever have. Especially now more than ever. But how is that possible with my youngest being sick and my emotions being hard to control? What is a mother to do? I try watching funny movies just to laugh once in a while because I am having a difficult time finding joy in anything any more.
Hopefully I will keep pushing to do the elliptical every day or at least 5 days a week, and incorporate ST more each week.
Monday, July 01, 2013
The last week, I have become self aware. And I am trying to stay that way. Familiarity with actual hunger is key. Trying not to eat out of boredom is key. Drinking water is key. Lots of stuff to remember. But I know that I can keep this up. I've lost almost 7lbs in one week.
This is insane. Losing 6.6lbs in one week is insanity. I haven't been to the gym or worked out ONCE.
I've been reading "The Life You Want" by Bob Greene. Lots of inspiration and great info. I think my body is finally caught up on sleep. I have been sleeping in practically every morning until 10am.
I wanted to take a bike ride with my daughters today but my stinkin' bike tire was low on air and when I go to grab my BRAND NEW tire pump, the stupid part that latches onto the tire valve friggin' broke off. I was so mad about that. So by the time I wasted time trying to fix it, it started to rain, then I was mad AND disappointed. =/
I am trying to stay active. Not gym active, but physically active cleaning, and doing activities and stuff with my kids. Going to the gym isn't gonna happen. My hubby works INSANE hours and even if I did want to go the the gym at night I'd have to go super late or wake up at 430am. And I'm not doing that. Call it laziness, lol.
I am not going to over do it and overwhelm myself with 100% change all at once. That has failed many times in the past. For now, I am focusing on food and spending time with my kids. Then, if I can get some gym time, then bonus for me! Thanks for all your support!
Friday, January 04, 2013
How does a girl stop her sugar addiction?! I have never been this bad with sweets, EVER. I guess it's true what they say, the more you eat it, the more you crave it. I am especially addicted to these lemon cookies from a local produce market, holy moly they are delicious. BUT I have been controlling myself, I only had two with my coffee today. =) My only question is how do I stop eating them all together? lol I don't know if I can quit cold turkey.
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