Saturday, June 11, 2011
My Peace is awaiting me and I must take every step I can to retrieve what's mine. I had a goal and I was unable to make it happen, so I gave in to despair. Pain has laid inside my bed, daytime, nighttime , eat and sleep, awake and eat to sleep.
I tried to stop the pain, but I was called selfish. I backed away and laid in the wet, soft, dark pit of my bed trying to get ahold of myself. I had to stop blaming others for being who she/he was in that moment. If I could resolve to grow and move forward that so can family and friends.
My greatest pain would prove to be a moment that would shine for all to move and make things happen. They talked negatively about me then profited off my pain to grown their own lives. It may be hard for most to see it this way, but we all learn from each-other - life is so short and striving for more is what its all about now.
Today, I workout daily and have decided to cut out white bread, white rice and white potatoes. My main priority is me and through my metamorphous my family will appreciate a better life.
Hope I don't sound too egotistical - I must pour into me so all can reap the joy from my heart.