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SO WHERE DO I GO FROM HERE?

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

This is a question that has been asked of me from everybody in my sphere of influence. I have been on chemo since July and it doesn’t get any easier. This new cocktail, which is really an old one that has been put into service due to failure of the modern formularies, has had very limited success as indicated in my last blog.

A byproduct of this formula, called ASHRAM, is that after the 5 straight days of taking the chemo, one is really sick for up to 2 weeks, then a week off and then get back on the merry go round. I have been told by my team of doctors that there will come the day when everyone says, “I have had enough of chemo. Let’s just stop it and let things naturally progress,”

I must admit that there have been a more than a few moments when this has entered my mind. Then I think of Marj, my wife of 56 years, our five sons and 11 grandkids and one great grandbaby on the way and I change my mind. I think of the good times, and the bad, and I don’t say it out loud for fear someone will hear me. Yesterday we went to a baseball game at the local HS where my grandson plays and it was all I could do to steer the walker from the car to the bleachers.

I have come to the stark realization that there is LIFE and there is QUALITY OF LIFE. I do get some level of exercise in that I still shop for our food and stuff, and I count this every time. However, my quality of life is definitely diminishing and that defines my quandary. There is no answer to the question that becomes obvious, but it just keeps nagging at me asking for MY answer. It is up to me and God to answer the challenge.

As to my continuing involvement in SP, it will not stop but I do intend to pull back. I have been blessed with all of my friends in SP and the incredible support and prayers that you have poured forth my direction. They do help and I cherish the sentiments and continual listening to my ramblings.

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GENRE009 4/19/2014 7:10AM

    Frank, you once answered a blog of mine, and because you never returned, I just never kept in touch. you may think that you are at your final stage, but I tell you from being a survivor, that there is a cross roads in every health issue, where even in the bleakest time, you can turn your health around. I am a living testimony. I will email you things that are cheap, and easy to do that can help you, have faith. eva

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BEBARB149 4/17/2014 11:36AM

    Bless you, Frank. Try not to wonder about the future. Concentrate on making the best you can of each day and let what comes come. My thoughts are with you.

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FANNYMANSON 4/16/2014 2:53PM

    Fingers crossed for you! I hope you are feeling better and enjoying your day!
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LUVTOBOWL 4/2/2014 7:45PM

    You have such a positive attitude my dear friend, I pray for health and life over you today.

God bless!

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SCOTMAMA 3/31/2014 6:03PM

    I, myself, don't know what you are going through, as I have not walked that path as yet, and pray I never will. It is hard to know that you are the only one that can say "I have had enough, pull the plug, turn off the machine, or stop the treatment." When you see your loved ones around you, naturally you don't want to leave.

I remember when my husband was on his last few days, he turned to me one day and said "I'm going to die." I knew what he meant, and I gathered up my strength and smiling at him, I said "I know, and I am ready to let you go. I will be fine." I may have cried like a baby later, when I was alone, but support and permission to release the one who is sick is the best gift you can give a loved one who is dying.

My prayers are with you, Frank, along with all your friends here.
Eve

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PLANTAGO 3/30/2014 8:08PM

    I try to pray for you everyday. God bless you.

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JOYCECAIN 3/28/2014 3:54PM

    I would never have looked in the comment sections for info to see if you were checking in. I love you and think of you all the time. I know it must be difficult. I am keeping you in prayer. Love Joyce emoticon

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ANGELFMABV 3/26/2014 9:04PM

    My thoughts and prayers are with you my friend.

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CECELW 3/26/2014 5:07PM

    We will continue lifting you & your family before our Lord!

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RHOOK20047 3/26/2014 4:10PM

    All I have is a sincere promise to remember you in my prayers. This is a difficult situation you are in. I wouldn't know how to answer the question either. I think I would say I would fight til the end, but I don't know the pain you are going through. I just hope that you can get some peace and get to make more memories of your family to carry you to the end. Sounds like you have had a Blessed life. God Bless You!

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CTUPTON 3/26/2014 1:53PM

    We are praying for you. Thank you for commenting on my blogs. So many women are here--it is nice to have a guy's comment occasionally. 56 years married and you have raised a wonderful family. I am sure your attention to your health has given you more quality time with them. That is important. I wish you well.

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GARDENCHRIS 3/26/2014 9:26AM

    All my love and prayers being sent your way... you and God are the only ones to answer that question..... I pray for strenght and stamina for you. emoticon

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FUNLOVEN 3/26/2014 8:52AM

    As said as this may sounds, Frank, you will know when God is ready to call you home. emoticon

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GEMINI-SKY 3/26/2014 7:27AM

    Good Morning Frank...
I really do not know what to say, I have no grand words of wisdom.
Just know that we are all with you and are praying for you and sending you all of our strength vibes...
God is by your side and will let you know what to do and when.
At least that is what I believe.
Thank You for sharing with us, Enjoy your Family and God Bless You.
OXOX

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FLEMIDG 3/26/2014 12:23AM

    So sorry to hear of all you're going through. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
May God bless you.

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ALLENJOSEPH 3/25/2014 8:21PM

    I never feel like you are rambling Frank. I enjoy listening to all you talk about.
I will be emailing you after I sign off here. I hope you may have a moment or to to answer it.
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"One of your Catholic Friends"

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MOM2ACAT 3/25/2014 7:34PM

    emoticon My prayers are with you to guide you to the right decision, the one that is right for you. As someone living with stage IV breast cancer, that is something I have given thought to also; I'm not there yet, but I'm sure even when I do feel "ready", it won't be an easy decision.

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4KWALK 3/25/2014 7:22PM

    Dear Frank, I can only pray that you will make the right moves for you with God's guidance.
You are such an inspiration as you have shown me how to keep on going despite tremendous obstacles. Thank you for that.


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SEABREEZE64 3/25/2014 7:22PM

    Lots of HUGS from me to you. None of us, as we age, want to face the day when we say enough is enough. Thank you so much for sharing this with us. It is a lesson so much greater than - our next carrot or next run. We are each on the road that you have reached sooner than some of us. My heart goes out to you and your wife.

I am hoping you continue to post as you are able and willing.....

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IOEINC 3/25/2014 6:31PM

    Many blessings to you Frank!! Marj is one very lucky woman!!! You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers always!!

God Bless!!

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MICKEYH 3/25/2014 5:29PM

    You are in my prayer Frank. emoticon emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 3/25/2014 4:56PM

  Quality of life issues . . . . very, very difficult individual decision. I will tell you that my little sister has fought lymphoma and also has stage 4 renal disease. So, she really has had to make those choices and for HER, she has chosen NOT to do chemo. I really feel for you , but the truth is, you will know if and when you need to make that choice.

Wishing you many hugs and blessings. Your family too. I think your choice to pull back from SP to send time w/your family is absolutely the ONLY choice you could possibly make. That's certainly the choice I would make.

Just know you're in my thoughts and prayers daily.

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LILY_SPARK 3/25/2014 4:17PM

    I think that your SHARING on SP is probably therapeutic and that's VERY worthwhile, for you and for others.

When I had a cancer scare in my mid-20s (I was told that it seemed I was full of tumours throughout my intestines, as in wide-spread and quick-moving). They were wrong. BUT while I think it's fair to say that I internally, completely freaked out before the invasive tests could be done, one thing that I 'got' from it was that I dearly had things that I wanted TO DO or to SEE. My immediate fear was that I wouldn't have the time or ability (fast-moving) let alone the money (young and paying off college debts, I paid my way through school) to do much more than be sure to contact people.

That broke my heart. I'd done nothing but be an excellent student (and daughter and granddaughter, if you listen to my family!).

I'd think it's about not just doing what you can but what you WANT. I'm simply sharing my experience and I totally understand it's nothing to what you're going through -- but I didn't know that, waiting for 2 weeks before surgery.

For me, it's definitely doing what you can, while you can, if you can afford it. Luckily, it's our family and friends that mean the most and that doesn't usually take a great deal of money (unless you have to travel to see them).

I know that your family loves you and I hope you can still have great times with loved ones.

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SKIRNIR 3/25/2014 3:54PM

    I am hoping that this chemo is only for a time, even if it is a fairly long time. IE I assume it has an end date, where they will then retest and see how things are going. Hopefully then your quality of life will increase. I do understand the life verses quality of life. Barely being alive, not able to do much, isn't being alive to some degree.

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ALIHIKES 3/25/2014 3:23PM

    You are in my thoughts and prayers as you travel this very tough treatment program. emoticon
Best wishes in making the decisions that are best for you
I am glad you are surrounded by a loving family
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KLMEIRING 3/25/2014 3:11PM

    Blessings as you continue to travel this journey. You are in our thoughts and prayers.

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LAURIE5658 3/25/2014 3:04PM

    God bless you, Frank. My prayers will continue.

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MTN_KITTEN 3/25/2014 2:55PM

    Life is what we make of it ... you are doing great!!!!!!

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MY FINAL GOAL HAS BEEN MET

Friday, March 14, 2014

Yep, that's right.

I went over 100,000 points today. I am NOW ON LEVEL 20.

Been a long time coming so celebrate with me.

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  emoticon Hooray walking is good.

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    Way to go! (Doing the Happy Dance) How great you must feel to have reached your goal! Now comes the hard part and her name is Maintenance! Show her what determination can do. emoticon

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UNSWEETMAMA 3/15/2014 10:35PM

    You did it!!!
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4KWALK 3/15/2014 7:30PM

    Frank, You absolutely ROCK. What an amazing Sparker you are. You inspire by example. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DYNAMICDEB53 3/15/2014 12:43PM

    WTG and yes time to party and celebrate!!

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    congratulations

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FUNLOVEN 3/15/2014 7:54AM

    emoticon That is some tremendous determination and dedication, Frank!

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CECELW 3/14/2014 11:54PM

    YAAAY!!! I'm so happy for you!! emoticon
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    That is so fantastic. It is time to celebrate!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MT-MOONCHASER 3/14/2014 10:32PM

    HooRay!! for you!! I am glad that you accomplished it.

Now on to 125,000!

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WEGENERCS 3/14/2014 6:30PM

    What a stunning accomplishment! Yay you. Again I say, yay you. Now, I want to know about your next goal.

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    Hip, hip, hooray!!! emoticon

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PHOENIX1949 3/14/2014 4:24PM

    Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious !!

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    emoticon I know from your past blogs how much of an accomplishment that is. I am happy for you reaching your goal. emoticon

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JOYCECAIN 3/14/2014 2:55PM

    I have been checking everyday to see if you posted. I am so happy that you made your goal. Truthfully, I knew you would. Keeping you in prayer. Love emoticon

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SEABREEZE64 3/14/2014 2:48PM

    WTG - I have got a ways to go....only 42000 here.....

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HOLLYM48 3/14/2014 2:02PM

    Congrats! So so proud of all that you have accomplished! Keep up the fight!

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MARYJOHANNAH 3/14/2014 1:27PM

    ...My gosh You ROCK.......how cool are you.....very cool

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    Yipee!!! What an acheivement!!! Congratulations!!!
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    Congratulations!

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  Awesome!

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    Sparktastic!!!!!!!

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ENTER CANCER STAGE LEFT, MARCH 2014 UPDATE

Sunday, March 09, 2014

I will admit that I am having trouble finding the right words to compose this report. First an apology to each and every one of you wonderful folks in SP who have offered prayers and good thoughts to me.

I normally always respond to all mail and blog comments to each and every one personally. I find that I just don’t have the energy to do this so I apologize. Please know that I read and savor each and every contact with me as I travel this really dastardly path.

For those who are not familiar with my situation, a short recap is in order. I was diagnosed with Large B-Cell Lymphoma in July of last year and began chemo immediately as this is a particularly aggressive form of Lymphoma. The first chemo used is R-CHOP. Worked well for 3 treatments and then was no longer effective. My body, for some unknown reason, rejected this treatment.

Started again with GEM/OX with RETUXIN. Same thing. I rejected the cocktail. Now on EASHAM and this is the last cocktail available for my condition. If I reject this one, there are no other regimens available. Clinical trials might be available but the doc is not sure if I am a candidate. A bone marrow transplant would be a good thing, but at 78 years old and having a bad ticker, I am not a candidate.

I start another round of chemo next Monday. I will receive the chemo every day for a week and then 3 weeks off. Of course, after the chemo week, there is a 1 to 2 week period of feeling really crummy. Not really sick, but darn close to it.

I am scheduled for a PET scan on March 12th. Then we will know if there is a positive result i.e. a reduction of the size of the primary lymph nodes. I they haven’t grown (or better yet shrunk even a smidgeon) there is some cause for hope. I must tell you that I have been warned that if there is no improvement or worse, they will want to stop all CHEMO. Bone marrow transplant would help, but my age (78) says no to this. It is quite invasive and survival of the procedure is not probable.

My goal at this juncture is to continue in SP with gusto. I WILL make it to level 20. I only need 800 points or so to get there. So, as usual, it’s DAMN THE TORPEDOES, FULL SPEED AHEAD.

We are planning on moving in with our son and family. Marj and I find that we can no longer take care of our home and I am very close to being unable to drive. We had high hopes of making three trips this summer. First to Portland to see my family, on to Seattle to visit our kids and friends. Second to Houston to visit Marj’s family and finally to my home town of Grand Junction, Colorado. This is looking less likely to happen due to the degradation of my health but we will try to pull it off. PLUS WE JUST FOUND OUT THAT OUR FIRST GREAT GRAND BABY IS ON THE WAY. So guess what, a NEW GOAL. Hang on till arrival!!!

I have had a great life. Married to my wonderful wife for 56 years on the way to together forever. Five wonderful sons and 11 grandchildren. I am comfortable in my faith and ready, but not really willing, to close the chapter in my book of life.

Looking at this blog looks like I am rambling, but the truth is, I have so much I want to say, that I have trouble getting it organized in my head. I have turned into an emotional idiot. Thank all of you for being so supportive and patient with me.

God bless each and every one of you out there in SP land.


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LINDAM.1 3/20/2014 10:34PM

  Prayers to your wonderful wife as well as you. Did you get some traveling done?

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IAM_HIS 3/18/2014 9:32PM

    My prayers are with you.

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1BEACHWALKER 3/16/2014 4:18PM

    So sorry to hear this...my heart goes out to you! I am glad you have your family there to help you through this. You are a true blue Sparker-most people would shut their page down to deal with it all. Not you...you rock..a special dedicated Sparkfriend of SP! Take care and enjoy your family visits! emoticon

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GARDENCHRIS 3/15/2014 10:55AM

    a big huge hug to you! I pray that this round of chemo does it's job so that you CAN do your bucket list. Also praying that you get to see your new grand!
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HEALTHYSLIM2 3/13/2014 2:30AM

    First of all - hugs and a reminder that you are in my prayers, too!
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Frank, you wrote an EXCELLENT blog! One can only imagine how many thoughts must be in your mind and heart - waiting to be expressed... things that are each important in their own right. Then trying to find the "main points" and put it together in a blog - whew! But you did it so well!
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So sorry that the first 2 chemo approaches didn't work. We will be praying that the third one is just what your body needs and it will be not only effective but also not make you feel TOO totally terrible.
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I want to tell you again that you have been a true inspiration to me (and so many of us Sparkers!) and this update was greatly appreciated. I see you're still exercising too, and that is simply awesome. Keep up the good work, but don't push yourself, so your body can use all it's energy for healing and restoration.
I'll end with one of my favorites - a benediction blessing:
May the LORD bless you and keep you;
May the LORD make His face shine upon you,
and be gracious to you;
May the LORD lift up His countenance upon you,
And give you peace
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CLEOLEFT1 3/12/2014 1:33AM

    Special prayers for you dear sir. You are a blessing

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JOYCECAIN 3/11/2014 10:07PM

    Today is March 11th, just checking in to see how my friend is doing. I am praying that all goes well. I am here, to let you know I love you. emoticon

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ELISELOVE1 3/11/2014 9:19PM

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I-CAN-DO-IT-2 3/10/2014 11:36PM

    Hi. Hope things get better. I read your blog once in awhile. Wish you strength and peace and G-d's mercy.

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CATLADY52 3/10/2014 7:27PM

    Don't apologize for your blog. I think it is perfectly fine to let us know what your status is. I hope this third 'cocktail' works for you. emoticon emoticon

I hope you are able to see your first great-grand-baby! That is quite an achievement by itself. Best of everything to you. emoticon

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MOM2ACAT 3/10/2014 4:43PM

    I think you have expressed your thoughts very well, and I feel honored that you are sharing this very personal part of the journey with us.

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NHES220 3/10/2014 10:12AM

    Keeping you and your family in my prayers that this treatment works.

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LAURIE5658 3/10/2014 10:04AM

    Please know that you are very much in my prayers.

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GEMINI-SKY 3/10/2014 9:22AM

    Gosh Frank, I rarely go thru the Friends Feed but today I decided to scroll away.
And there was your blog.
I don't know what to say but for you to know that you have made me smile, you have inspired me and I have felt your Love.
Now it's My turn...Our Turn.
Feel Our Love, Our Strength, Our Gratitude and our Hope that You Know We are Here for You as You have been for Us All along Our Journey.
OXOX and Prayers to You.


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SEABREEZE64 3/10/2014 7:20AM

    Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experience. I do not think you have rambled at all. In many ways your blog is a great gift to many - for me. Actually, this blogging may be a gift for you as well - a great outlet for the emotional ups and downs at this time.

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COLLEENROSTE 3/10/2014 3:07AM

    Continued thoughts and prayers are with you. Mostly that you will be able to fill each day with warmth and love in the company of those closest to your heart. If health prevents you from going to them, let them come to you. Praying also that this next round of chemo knocks out the lymphoma but not you, that you would have peace and not be in pain . Our journey on earth is a race, we are called to be faithful with our eyes on the prize - loving Him first and foremost until we reach home. emoticon

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ALIHIKES 3/10/2014 2:03AM

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POSITIVEHOPE 3/10/2014 12:41AM

    My DB (79) recently got a terminal diagnosis of stage 4 Esophageal cancer. He is receiving chemo now. He lives in another state and we have spent a lot of time on the phone. He was feeling sick and was sitting in his recliner pondering his dismal future. After we talked for quite a while, I asked him if he felt better, what would he like to do? He thought about it and told me he would love to be able to go play poker and pool with his buddies. We made it a goal of his chemo to try to get strong enough to do that. I am happy to say, he is doing just that. He plans on doing that every day until he can't do it any longer. His prognosis hadn't changed but he is focused on living every day to the fullest.
I pray that your caregivers will be guided to the best possible treatments for you. I pray for comfort for you and your family as you walk this new journey together. I celebrate with you your peace in your faith.
Just like your SP journey, YOU CAN DO THIS! God bless you.



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EJB2801 3/9/2014 10:14PM

    When the number of days left to express all one feels is uncertain, it is hard to know how to start. You are not rambling but allowing us the privilege to listen in on your thoughts. Thank you SO much for blogging. I hope you and your family experience wonderful blessings in the midst of this valley.

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MT-MOONCHASER 3/9/2014 9:56PM

    Today, I was wondering how you were doing, and lo and behold, there was a notice of your blog in my inbox...

I wish that your news was better and hope that this newest chemo treatment works for you. It is a difficult fight you are fighting and I wish you well.

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WEGENERCS 3/9/2014 9:44PM

    Your ability to communicate your thoughts is always so strong, and I find myself often rereading your words. I sincerely wish we had crossed paths on SP much earlier, but am happy for the time granted. Peace to you and your wife during a most challenging time. So many are sending prayers. Myself included.

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JOYCECAIN 3/9/2014 9:42PM

    My darling friend, You Never Rambled.

Since being off sparks for 8 months, I just can't get into the mood to do all I used to. I am so sorry to hear that the chemo is not working.

I have cherished our time together especially since our first talk about Sensa, being like cat litter. I will keep you in prayer. Love Joyce emoticon and emoticon

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CITYDWELLERS72 3/9/2014 9:33PM

    Praying for you to have stamina and peace. Fight hard! emoticon

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    emoticon Thank you so much for letting us know, praying for you and your family. emoticon

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IMAVISION 3/9/2014 8:51PM

    I believe the most important thing you shared is that you are comfortable with your faith. I am joining my prayers on your behalf with those of others. My prayer is that God's perfect will unfold each day of your life.

I will, also, be sharing your need for prayer covering with other prayer warriors --- rest assured, my brother-in-Christ, that you will be well covered in prayer --- as will your precious Marj.

May the Lord bless you both, with His unique & wonderful brand of peace & comfort, as He continues to walk with you through this trial!

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SCOTMAMA 3/9/2014 8:30PM

    Frank, your blog was well thought out and well presented -- your body may be sick, but your mind most certainly isn't.

I thank you from the bottom of my heart for this update, for I have been wondering, as well as all your friends on here, how it has been going for you. I know it took a lot of effort and energy, to say nothing of emotion, to put it all down on paper.

If your friends and family could will you well, or pray you well -- we would do that. There is always the chance of a miracle, of course, and we'll see what your body thinks of this last "cocktail" they have mixed up for you. Maybe every heart has a certain amount of heartbeats allocated to it, and only God knows just when that last one will come. I hope for you it will be a long time from now.

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CECELW 3/9/2014 8:28PM

    You must've known I was thinking about you! I haven't received a report from your blog in awhile, and at last, there you are! God has plans for all of our lives dear one. He has not forgotten you which I'm sure you know. The valley is a very difficult place to be. However, you are certainly being "carried" by the Holy Spirit Himself! Your tenacity and spirit are truly strength giving to all who are blessed by your blog. Please hug your sweet wife for me will you.
You and your family are in my prayersl

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1CRAZYDOG 3/9/2014 8:12PM

  (((((HUGS)))) and prayers for you and your dear wife. You have many people who love you and are cheering you on.

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4KWALK 3/9/2014 8:07PM

    Dear Spark Friend,
I am so sorry that you must go through this trial but I do know that every trial that is sent our way that the Lord will guide us through it.
I admire your spunk and I admire your tenacity. I hope you reach that level 20 very soon.

Praying for you, Frank. I have learned a lot from your blogs and posts here on SP - Thanks for sharing.

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TREE57 3/9/2014 8:01PM

    To Frank and his beloved,
You are in my prayers and held tightly in God's arms. I thank you for sharing your life, the ups and downs with us. I have learned strength and humility through your words and think of you both often.

Full speed ahead!

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DOVESEYES 3/9/2014 7:46PM

    So glad to have heard from you with an update. Thinking of you.


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ANGELFMABV 3/9/2014 7:43PM

    My thoughts and prayers go out to You and Your Family! May this protocol work for you. I pray you will be pain free and live in peace and total comfort. In Jesus name I pray, Amen

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DIANNEMT 3/9/2014 7:36PM

    Prayers going up for you. Pay most attention to the people right there in your life--blog to us once in a while and earn your 800 points!! God hold you in the palm of His hand!!

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MADEIT3 3/9/2014 7:19PM

    I am praying for a positive result. Glad that you have family support and a great grandbaby on the way.



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JEREMY723 3/9/2014 7:16PM

    Thanks for the update, keeping you in my thoughts, you have absolutely no need to apologize for anything! Hang in there and do what's best for you!

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FUNLOVEN 3/9/2014 7:06PM

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HOLLYM48 3/9/2014 7:04PM

    I am so sorry to hear that you are going thru all of this. It is a hard journey to travel but I am glad you have many by your side walking the path with you. Keep on praying and hanging in there. Only God knows when the time is right for us to leave this earth and enter eternal peace. My heart and prayers are with you.

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THAT WAS THE WEEK THAT WAS.

Monday, January 20, 2014

My granddaughter had her marvelous wedding on January 3rd and it was a hoot, to say the least. Being grandparents, we did not anticipate being in the wedding in any formal nature.

Yeah, right—

Hailey and Matt had some surprised in store for us.

She asked for us to be at the rehearsal so we went only to find out that Marj and I were to lead the wedding party onto the large patio where the wedding was to take place. SURPRISE NUMBER ONE.

A beautiful ceremony followed by a great dinner. But SURPRISE NUMBER 2 was to take place before the dinner. Hailey came to me and asked if I would say grace for the guests. Ever know a grandpa say no to a granddaughter? Well, I was not going to break that tradition and I proudly accepted and did so in grand style.

Marj and I both use canes so when she commanded that we try one dance together, we agreed. So here comes to old codgers, onto the floor and away we went, our canes clanking together (my cane was leading, of course). I noticed that as the dance progressed at least for 2 hours – at least it seemed 3 hours, the dancers were leaving the floor until we were the only ones still afloat, uh, rather, moving.

This is SURPRISE NUMBER THREE.

The MC approached me and he introduced us to the crowd. He then asked to turn to face the head table and there was Hailey and Matt and then he asked me how long we have been married. I stuck out my chest and proudly stated, FIFTY SIX YEARS and the crowd oohed and awed in approval.

I was then asked … “Do you have any advice to give the newly married couple on how you have managed to be married so long?” I said I certainly did.

My advice is this. “Your grandmother and I were married in a time when it was the norm to fix things, not take the easy way out and just throw it out and start over. When something breaks, and believe me, it will break once in a while, everything does. Don’t throw it away and start over. FIX IT. That is my challenge to the two of you.”

  
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JOYCECAIN 3/10/2014 7:30AM

    Sad to say that I am getting around to reading your blog. Not much of a supporter, am I. I love you. We all do. Take it easy.

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BEESPARKLE 3/7/2014 3:36PM

    Thanks for comment on my blog today. About the fire of the Farmhouse.

Wow that is great Many years you and wife.. I thought my man and I were the oldest 52 years married on spark people..

You beat us. Awesome!

I really liked your stories and you and wife still dancing on the dance floor. Click,click canes,

My parents lived to 95 and 96. They were married 60 years.

So keep up the happy spirit. Amen.

God Bless!

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CAT-IN-CJ 2/21/2014 12:34PM

    What a wonderful experience, for everyone!
You are such a blessing and a fine example.
Way to go!

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IFDEEVARUNS2 2/11/2014 4:21PM

    Some great advice!

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KIMALEE54 1/30/2014 10:14AM

    What a beautiful and touching story. Bet the event was even more so. Warmest congratulations to BOTH happy couples.

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IAM_HIS 1/28/2014 10:07AM

    What a beautiful blog! n You gave your granddaughter such a beautiful message! And most of all, the priceless gift of love.

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SCOTMAMA 1/24/2014 9:58PM

    Frank it sounds as though you raised a GD that knows what life is all about, and although you are ill, she still wanted to make sure you were a big part of her happy day. This will be a wonderful day for her to remember.

It just shows "it's not over till the fat lady sings" so glad you could get out there and show everyone what it's all about.

You are a wonderful Grandpa!

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FUNLOVEN 1/24/2014 9:08AM

    Sounds like it was a wonderful time for you and I am glad you are feeling well enough that you could attend all of those events and kick up you heels a bit!

I agree with you, Frank, that fixing things when they break. This has become such a throw away world. I think the fix it attitude is what has kept my DH and I together for 40 years with many more to come emoticon

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TERRIEHICKS 1/23/2014 12:15AM

    This blog is so great! Thank you so much for sharing!!

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4KWALK 1/22/2014 12:04PM

    Dear Spark Friend,
Glad to read your blog and I could picture that special dance that you and your best friend shared.
I think the advice you gave the newly weds was the best you could have given them.

Trusting they will follow that advice and fix every problem that comes along in their marriage.

You are truly an inspiration to your fellow Sparkers and I'm sure you must be to your family as well.

Enjoy each day.
May God give you joy and contentment as you continue your journey.

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CATLADY52 1/21/2014 5:20PM

    emoticon job you did there. I'm sure the bride was thrilled to have you there.

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ANGELFMABV 1/21/2014 2:26PM

    Awww, you are truly a blessing to your family! What a touching blog! I would be proud to call you "grandpa" or "dad". What a lucky family you have!

Love n hugs, Penny

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MDMNINA 1/21/2014 12:22PM

    What a lovely experience! Sounds like you had a wonderful time!

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MSDOUBLEJ 1/21/2014 10:50AM

    Awesome blog!

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SEABREEZE64 1/21/2014 10:39AM

    What a great blog. Loved it! And some great advice to your granddaughter and husband.

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GARDENCHRIS 1/21/2014 7:01AM

    aww.... what sweet memories! and so fun for you both.

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COLLEENROSTE 1/21/2014 4:04AM

    what a wonderful legacy of love

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IOEINC 1/21/2014 12:13AM

    Oh how lovely for you!!! It brought tears of joy to read your blog!! Just so absolutely perfect!!! You have a lovely family!! And what wonderful advice to the newlyweds!! Hailey's Matt has big shoes to fill after a granddad like you!! But then I am counting on him...after all he has the perfect teacher!!!!

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WEGENERCS 1/20/2014 9:00PM

    You are such an expressive writer! Can easily visualize this wedding and and you having your say. Well done!

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  emoticon Glad you had such a wonderful time. HUGS and you're thought of often.



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MT-MOONCHASER 1/20/2014 8:35PM

    I think that you gave them the best advice I've seen in a long time.

It's great that you were honored so much.

I hope you all have many more anniversaries.

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TREE57 1/20/2014 5:38PM

    Frank,
What a wonderful legacy! Your granddaughter definitely has a heart of gold to honor you and your beautiful bride of 56 years! Congratulations to your family!

My husband and I just celebrated 20 years of fixing it!

Thank you for sharing this moment with us.

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EJB2801 1/20/2014 5:14PM

    Such a wonderful memory for all involved! You have built a legacy. I'm glad you posted this.

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MADEIT3 1/20/2014 5:05PM

    What a touching picture you describe!! I want to be sure that I'm around to dance at my grandchildren's weddings - and the advice you gave them was perfect.

Good for them for the respect they showed their elders. Good for you for being elders worthy of respect!!

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LAURIE5658 1/20/2014 5:04PM

    *Fanning tears* This is one of the best blogs I have read in a long time. Congratulations to the new couple and CONGRATULATIONS to the old codgers for marriages just beginning and for the marriage that has stood the test of time.

Sidenote...my wonderful hubby and I are at 37 years and we have made it through some pretty tough times. The years just get better and better.

I continue to think about you and pray for your health.

God bless.

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ELISELOVE1 1/20/2014 5:02PM

    that so sweet that your granddaughter did those three things for you. emoticon on fifty six years

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PICKIE98 1/20/2014 5:01PM

    I wish I had a grandpa.. Never had one.. Good one died before I was born and the other would never acknowledge us because he had my mother. You are wonderful.

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ENTER CANCER STAGE LEFT. IMPORTANT DECEMBER FOLLOW UP

Thursday, November 28, 2013

Well, before I get into the meat of this blog, I want to extend my heartfelt thanks for all of your wonderful comments and prayers. I would like to send a personal message to each and every response to this serious matter. Unfortunately, my condition has degraded and I find that I just don’t have the energy to do this.

I want all of you to know that I cannot find the right words to really show my appreciation.

NOW …

The primary reason for this issue is to tell each of you that my Lymphoma has now been classified as TERMINAL. As to my time line, it is not cast in stone, but has been described in two expected possibilities.

WORST CASE is 3 to 6 months.

BEST CASE is 1 to 2 years.

I am now on a different chemo cocktail. I started on R-CHOP which is touted as the Cadillac formula but I was not responding to this protocol. As a result, the oncologist changed to GEM/OX plus RETUXIN. I have had one treatment and was scheduled for number 2 today, but it has been put off for a week because the platelet count is too low. Hopefully this count will recover enough to proceed next week.

I asked my doc this morning what will trigger the WORST CASE and he said nothing specific is involved. I will begin to simply start going downhill. Loosing lots of weight, low appetite He said you will know.

About 10% of patients will experience a longer time, but he does not know of any confirmed cures. A very small numbers may live up to 5 years. THAT IS MY NEW LONG TERM GOAL.

Marj and I are hoping to make three trips next year. The first to Houston to visit her family, who I love dearly. Then on to Portland to visit my family and Seattle to visit our sons and families and dear friends.

We hope to have time to make a trip to Grand Junction, CO, my birthplace, to visit friends and the Colorado National Monument, which is one of my favorite places on earth.

Remember what I wrote in my first blog about this matter. NO PITY PARTIES.

I have had a wonderful life. Married to a wonderful woman who is my friend and partner for 56 years, 5 sons, 3 daughters in law (who we lovingly call our daughters). And 11 grandchildren. We don’t have great grandkids and I really wanted to hold another baby, but this is not likely. We have one granddaughter that is married, and another getting married on January 3rd.

When the time is right, we will move in with our son in Chandler, AZ. This means selling our home and settling in with family.

I will stay as active as possible in SP for as long as I can. My immediate goal is to make that magical LEVEL 20. I will make it, I promise.

So keep up the great attitudes that is exemplified in our SP friends and send them my way if you can find the time.

I wish all of you, HAPPY THANKSGIVING, MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR. You will not hear any Happy Holidays from me.

God bless us all, each and every one. (I think Tiny Tim said that on Scrooge).

  
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GARDENCHRIS 1/21/2014 7:04AM

    you are such a sweetheart! I will be praying that you get all those trips in AND hold a new grandchild! GOD bless.

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CECELW 1/20/2014 7:55PM

    What a beautiful legacy you have taught your family. The love they have for you is immeasurable!
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JUSTRY2 1/4/2014 3:16PM

    You are really something else ;) Thank you for spreading your delightful spirit around this place.

Peace to you and yours, now and always.

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CATHEMARIE 12/29/2013 10:53PM

    Praying for you and your dear wife and family.

May the Lord bless you and keep you and make His face shine upon you ~

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CECELW 12/27/2013 4:39PM

    Thank you very much for commenting on my blog. I am however very sorry to hear your news. My daughter was diagnosed with terminal brain cancer 2 yrs ago. She is now in remission. It is God who determines our days. They have already been counted. He knows our end from the beginning. Father, by the power of your Holy Spirit, I pray for your anointing upon Firecom and his family. Touch them from the crown of their heads to the souls of their feet. Give them peace that only the Holy Spirit can give. Thank you Lord, for this dear man. I ask you Lord, to strengthen and encourage this family. In Jesus name. Amen

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CLEOLEFT1 12/27/2013 2:26AM

    God bless and keep you. Praying for your strength and comfort

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MOM2ACAT 12/12/2013 7:03PM

    Just wanted you to know you are in my prayers. I am on chemo, and I know how hard it can be. I pray that the chemo gives you a lot more time, and that that time is quality time. My prayers that you achieve that goal of 5 years, and hopefully even longer!

Wishing you and your family a Merry Christmas!

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WEGENERCS 12/12/2013 9:23AM

    Just stopping in to send warm greetings to you. Think of you so very often.
Michigan is in the middle of a blizzard. Looking out over my lake from my living room. What a view.

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HEALTHYSLIM2 12/9/2013 1:14PM

    There are so many things I could say, but I'll keep it simple for now:
1) I am VERY grateful to have you as my Spark Friend. You are an encouraging and uplifting spirit, and that is a rare and wonderful thing here on earth!
2) You are in my prayers daily for all the things you mention above and more. May the 5 year mark come and go with you holding another baby (or two?) in there somewhere!
3) Thank you for this blog - although we won't hear from you, we'll miss you...
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Take care, Frank. I'll be stopping by...
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IAM_HIS 12/2/2013 10:54PM

    My thoughts have been with you and now I know how things are. Right now is your time to celebrate your life and live it to the fullest that you can. May you be able to tell the ones you love your true feelings and to let your friends know how they touched your life. May you do the things you did not take time to do before and most of all may you see all the beauty that God has put before you.

Enjoy your life to the fullest...thank you for having touched mine.

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WEGENERCS 12/2/2013 1:16PM

    While I am saddened at this recent turn of events, It is sooo refreshing to read that you continue to set personal goals for yourself and your family. You are an example of what I hope to achieve; the level of faith and and dedication to making my life mean something to others. Recently I delivered a sermon/message at my church that addressed this very issue. We all leave a legacy for those who follow. And it is up to each of us what that will be.

Well done, my friend! Warmest regards, Cris

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LINDAM.1 12/1/2013 9:33PM

  Thank you for the up date . We live in Portland Oregon If you need to rest while traveling. Feel free emoticon

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PAULINLIM 11/29/2013 12:17PM

    Thank you so much for sharing this important news. Your blog posts have been so uplifting and inspirational. We're all on our way home; you're lucky in that you have foreknowledge of it and can say goodbyee to your loved ones, and visit the places that are dear to your heart before your final departure. I wish you a speedy, comfortable journey, and I wish you a joyous arrival on the other side.

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4KWALK 11/28/2013 10:06PM

    Thank you for posting this update. I often wonder how things are with you.We are given some hills in life as well as some valleys but we never have to go through them alone. I pray God will make His presence known to you and your family in many loving ways.
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HEALTHYSLIM2 11/28/2013 5:38PM

    Thank you for the update. You are in my prayers! Praying for a miracle, and for complete healing and remission of the cancer. I have seen it happen amongst friends before, so never give up hope. In the meantime, good for you that you are planning trips to visit with loved ones. You will continue to be in my prayers!!
Conserve your energy for the important things, and take care!

Happy Thanksgiving Spark Friend!!
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NASFKAB 11/28/2013 5:14PM

  all the best to you

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    emoticon emoticon emoticon & Have a Happy Thanks Giving

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SLOPOKE_SAL 11/28/2013 12:01PM

    Eat as much raw fruits and veggies as u can. Drink the purest water you can find. Find some pure air and sunshine. Getting this from a book I just finished reading. It's worth a try, I'm going to try it, hoping it helps my pain be a bit more manageable. God bless and Happy Thanksgiving.
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MICKEYH 11/28/2013 11:08AM

    My prayers are always with you. Have a wonderful Thanksgiving to you and your family.
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EJB2801 11/28/2013 11:05AM

    Thank you so much for blogging about your hopes and plans and news about your illness. I know that your family is glad that YOU are still you no matter what happens to your body. As you are on my friend list, I will see your photo often. I will then pray for beautiful blessings, beyond those you already have expressed, to be apparent to you and your wife and your beloved family. It would be great to do all the things on your list and even more. Thank you immensely for your part of SparkPeople!

II Corinthians 4:16 "...We do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day."
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JEREMY723 11/28/2013 10:16AM

    Keeping you in my thoughts for sure.



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GARDENCHRIS 11/28/2013 10:12AM

    you and your family are in my prayers ...... God willing you will accomplish the things on your list before HE calls you home. Blessings!

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 11/28/2013 9:17AM

    Wow, dude. That's a lot. Especially to process while heading into the holiday season
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hope the friends and family you'll be seeing on Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year's can stick with your "no pity party" rule. If not, you beat it into 'em!
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My mom died of lymphoma when she was 60 and I was 15. I think her sense of humor helped her (and us) cope with the situation, and in that regard you've got a similar advantage.

And I wish you much happiness visiting Houston, Portland/Seattle, and Grand Junction!
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CAMEY13 11/28/2013 9:01AM

    Seems those of us that have endured cancer know what you are going through.
Having a positive attitude always helps. They say that being negative only helps the cancer. You have the right attitude. Going on with your life is the right thing to do and be happy. Miracles do happen and they happen when we least expect them. I pray that you will receive one and get to hold another grandchild again. Today, cancer is hitting many families and friends and we have to learn to cope with it. They say it is what we are eating but who knows. I got through breast cancer, my dil got through it and so did her mother, and I have know people who only had a few months to live and made it. Your life is in God's hands now and all the prayers you are receiving are being heard by God. Prayers are wonderful healers. Please keep in touch as you have touched my heart and I pray that God finds a way to heal you, so you can continue your many years with your wife and family.God bless you and keep you safe. emoticon

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LILY_SPARK 11/28/2013 8:22AM

    I know that you don't have time or energy to respond but I hope even if you cannot sit up, you can close your eyes and listen to someone reading comments to you. When you feel like speaking or writing, many of us are still uplifted by your words.

I can say that in the past, while I'm not the most communicative with you, I have been uplifted by your presence on SP, so thank you.

I love that you had so many years with your wife and eleven grandkids sounds pretty good! Children are a blessing to watch play, even if you cannot hold your own blood, maybe somebody can bring their wee ones to visit?

I grew up visiting shut-ins with my mammy (grandmother who raised me). I used to think that she took me to teach *me* (which she did -- she'd say, 'this is what we do') but also, now that I'm older, I wonder if she didn't know how uplifting a short visit with a well-behaved child can be for somebody house-bound or bed-bound?

It's an idea! When you get less able to move about, there are services with visiting dogs, too. It sounds little but my mother was visited once (that she can remember) when she was very, very ill and she talked about it for days (she doesn't remember that part, ha!). So, I know that it lifted up spirits.

Let people help when they want. It's a wonderful gift if you can let them (I mean to *them*). People really want to share time with you.

I pray for the best for you and your family.

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1CRAZYDOG 11/28/2013 8:10AM

  OH there are very few times when I am really speechless, but this is one of those times. I am just going to say you and your family are in my prayers daily. My little sister has lymphoma as well, but at this point it is stable.

I pray that you get to make those trips to see family. I pray that you and you family find some peace.

I pray you can celebrate all that you've shared as a family. (((HUGS)))))

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FUNLOVEN 11/28/2013 7:53AM

    Thanks for the update, Frank. I love the saying "Live each day like it could be your last". I think you are doing that and I applaud you for it. Sounds like some great plans for 2014. May God's grace be with you every step of the way !

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MARINEMAMA 11/28/2013 5:47AM

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RASPBERRY56 11/28/2013 5:44AM

    Words are failing me, but I wanted to at least express my support for you as you face this journey.......you and your family will be in my best thoughts......

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FITNHEALTHYKAL 11/28/2013 5:24AM

    As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them.

It sounds to me like you ARE! I want to see you hit that magical Level 20 on spark and will celebrate the day.

When you get back to Grand Junction be sure to see the Book Cliffs for me please. I particularly love them at sunrise with a great cup of coffee.

Making magical memories in places and with people dear to you is living life to the fullest and you HAVE and you ARE! L'Chaim!

Living Life - "Life is not a race - but indeed a journey. Be honest. Work hard. Be choosy. Say "thank you", "I love you", and "great job" to someone each day. Go to church, take time for prayer. The lord giveth and the Lord taketh. Let your handshake mean more than pen and paper. Love your life and what you've been given, it is not accidental - search for your purpose and do it as best you can. Dreaming does matter. It allows you to become that which you aspire to be. Laugh often. appreciate the little things in life and enjoy them. Some of the best things really are free. Do not worry, less wrinkles are more becoming. Forgive, it frees the soul. Take time for yourself - plan for longevity. Recognize the special people you've been blessed to know. Live for today, enjoy the moment." Bonnie Mohr emoticon

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PHOENIX1949 11/28/2013 2:23AM

    emoticon emoticon Hope you are one of those individuals who exceed the expected maximum projected and get to hold a great-grandbaby(ies) in addition to making each of the wonderful trips you listed.

Happy Thanksgiving.

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BTRX71 11/28/2013 2:04AM

    My thoughts and prayers to you and your family. I am sorry this cancer is attacking your world the way it is. I wish you the best with this new chemo cocktail. Have a Happy Thanksgiving. emoticon emoticon

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JUDYAMK 11/28/2013 1:14AM

    I am sorry about this cancer, my beloved brother is 59 and has stage 4. Our grandfather had colon cancer we were always told to be checked every 10 years, my brother did that . Last February my brother had his routine test they found cancer as big as his fist in his colon, the doctor ask why he waited so long he told him what the family Dr. told him the Stanford University Dr, sad "NO it is every 5 years when it is in the family. He changed all his eating no wheat as that stuff has been reenginered years ago he read the book Wheat Belly also my pharmacist had me get that book what an eye opener about our foods. I eat bread that is not made of flour only sprouts called Ezekiel bread he does also I get it at health food store or Wegman's He also puts all fresh fruit plus raw spinach in a blender along with a banana pears apples strawberries etc, He drinks this he has nothing with wheat in it due to how they have changed it to feed people of the world.His white count was 3 ,since he changed this diet plan his count went up to 7.9 he also read this book called Dying to be Me love spaghetti so does he ,so I had him try spaghetti made out of rice, I know it sounds awful, but I will never go back to the floured spaghetti feel no bloating from this f you get it cook for 17 minutes and you will need to stir it all the time as it foams up real quick I get it at either store I mentioned above His picture is on my front page and in my photos. He has a port in him that he has chemo in for 48 hours, plus every other Tuesday. He does not want us to be angry at God and wants us to praise our Lord for all things that he has done for us through out our lives I have 5 brothers,But being human I have an anxious heart. I will pray for you as our Lord is the Great Physician. Dying to Be Me is an extraordinary book to read plus Wheat Belly You and your family have a most Blessed Thanksgiving!
Judy

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DOVESEYES 11/28/2013 1:12AM

    Thanks so much for this blog

I am thinking of you and your family. It must be so hard for you and your family.

I hope you get your holidays and they are a wonderful time for you and your wife.

There are so many platitudes but they mean little at such a time.

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GRANDMAFRANNY 11/28/2013 12:35AM

    HI !! HAVEN'T SEEN YOUR BLOG BEFORE, BUT emoticon . SAY, YOU'RE ONE "TOUGH MAN" TO GO THROUGH ALL THIS AND BE ABLE TO POST. NOT THAT IS emoticon . THOSE COCKTAIL'S SOUND WELL YOU KNOW MORE THEN I. SAY GOING TO WATCH emoticon GAME . MY DETROIT LION'S HMM ARE TIED FOR 1ST PLACE * PLAYING GREEN BAY OH BOY.
BUT WANTED TO PUT A LITTLE SOMETHING TO MAKE YOU SMILE.
GOD BLESS YOU & YOUR WIFE AND A BLESED THANKSGIVING.

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LINDA! 11/28/2013 12:22AM

    Happy Thanksgiving!

You are in my prayers. emoticon

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