Tuesday, May 07, 2013
I've decided to give this program a try - taking advantage of the first 3 months being free, and the 2 free DVDs!
I think I need some fresh motivation!
Monday, January 23, 2012
I've just realized that it's been a year + a day since I last blogged! The last blog post was a bit of a rant, so I think I'd like to start off 2012 with something a bit more positive.
This last year my weight loss slowed down a lot, I guess because I'm getting closer to my goal. So I'd call the last few months(many months) a plateau. I took a break from counting calories, and was fairly pleased that I was able to manage not to run(eat) like a dog whose just been let off it's leash! Measuring portions, and guessing calorie content/nutritional values etc. has because part of what I do - I don't really think about it, it just happens whenever I go to eat.
I also I very aware of when I'm eating emotionally, still a struggle and I think it always will be a part of me - even then, denial doesn't work for me anymore so it keeps the damage to a minimum.
I read somewhere that emotional eating is about control - you can't control the stressful things that happen in your life, but you can totally control opening the fridge/cupboard and feeding/soothing yourself. It's action that can be taking, and produces immediate feeling of comfort. In spite of the fact that it's short lived, and is a dead-end because of the consequences(weight gain and all the lovely ramifications of a life lived out of balance both literally and figuratively!)
Sometimes you trade one food-fix for another in your comfort-seeking efforts - I found out much to my annoyance in an attempt to quell the frequent stops a Tim Horton's for a coffee fix. While I changed from a medium 2 cream, to a small 1 cream when I started this weight-loss journey, that worked fine until due to a schedule change I found myself buying coffee 'often'!
So in an effort to save money, I bought us all travel mugs and now we make coffee at home to bring with us - yes, this is a money saver...but now, comfort seeker that I am, I now must have a coffee with cream(at home) every day, it's my latest 'thing' - a soothing post-lunch relaxing, life is good kinda 10 minutes.
You might say, well, coffee has caffeine, it's addicting right? Okay, whatever, the point is, I'm an emotional eating,drinking kinda gal, and this is part of the struggle..
Am I going to stop this daily habit? Not just yet(maybe never) - I'm really liking my fair-trade organic coffee with 1/4 c organic whole milk....ahhhh. (Eat your heart out Timmy's!)
I'm also pursuing becoming a personal trainer - unreal, still can't quite wrap my mind around doing this. There are a lot of left-over self esteem issues regularly popping into my thoughts.
"You don't belong here with all these hard-bodies who've been here all their lives, and could bench-press you, with one arm, if you like!"
Ahh, negative self-talk, my favourite....I've managed to shut myself up most of the time with a struggle by trying to listen to the part of me that really sees trying to help someone out of the void...
I'm beginning to see myself as someone whose gotten out, but has a nice view of the bottom ;)
My final certification is in March ....Yikes!!
I will now get ready for my workout - after all, I gotta earn that coffee ;)
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Don't get me wrong, the following is a mini rant, and let me emphasize - I love SparkPeople!
I subscribe to the 'recipe of the day' feature, so today it was Flaxseed, wheat and bran muffins, great, I save it because I'm likely going to make them. Fine.
I notice that where it says Baking soda, it is highlighted as a clickable link. When I go to pass my cursor over it, I'm thinking, oh maybe it's going to talk about 'baking soda', brands, what it does, you know something informational that maybe I can use - what a concept.
It is an advertisements for baby bottles.
Sparkpeople, are you serious??
I get that this site is free because of all the ads, they are all over the place - I mean even the articles are deliberately broken into small pages so they can cram more ads in for us to see!! I get it, I accept that, I am SO GRATEFUL this site is FREE!
But there's a limit...
Don't muddle up my recipe perusing with ads embedded within the ingredients!!! OH MAN!!
Monday, December 13, 2010
How did my body manage to make through all the years of repeated binge-y abuse!
Last night was what I'll call a controlled PMS binge. I 'wanted' a little somethin'-somethin' - I say 'wanted' because we all know it was not 'needed'!
So I went ahead and had measured amounts of 1. pizza 2. wine 3. chips 4. cookies
This all tasted fantastic at the time! I logged it all in my calories, which shot off the scale(no pun intended) into the 2200 realm - my allotted calories are 1550.
I don't actually feel bad about it, it was an eyes-wide-open event.
Hello indigestion, belching, bloating and other undesirable emissions!
This type of binge-ification used to be my norm! When I told my husband 'go get me my 'theme' he knew that meant chips, chocolate, ice cream....and a diet coke ;)
.....and I ate until I could eat no more.
So the morning after, I observe that I really don't feel oh-so-great physically. My body is saying, "Seriously, what were you thinking, you did not need that boat-load of food'!!
Not really hungry for breakfast, I ate anyway to kinda 'reset' the system with good stuff.
I will exercise this morning also, and just basically get on with what is now my new 'theme'.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
With the cold weather coming I decided to take inventory of my fall/winter sweater supply. Well guess what, I needed clothes bad. Nothing fits!! Wahoooo! Into the donation bin, and fingers crossed I never need a larger size again.
A couple of tops I hung on to in the hopes of 'someday' fitting back into, actually fit me now - another waahhooooo!
Still needed a long sleeve shirt supply, so today I went shopping - it was such a great time! Instead of getting 1X or XL, I'm now fitting into a Large - and I liked what I saw in the mirror - how cool is that???
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