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Pinteresting Perspective

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

This morning I sat down on Pinterest to get some affirmation/motivator things I could print out and have as a reminder of why I'm pushing myself.

Big Mistake.

Color me crazy but I've never really looked at the health and fitness section of pinterest before. And if I were in a different mindset I could easily have gotten super discouraged at the images and messages on there. In the first few rows showing there were not one, not two, not four, but five images that referenced thigh gaps, perfect abs, and beating belly fat. One even carried the message that you should "lose it as revenge to the haters". I realize it's a fluke (or at least hoping) that all of these were grouped together (not pinned by the same person).

Or maybe it's just I have a different interpretation of health and well being.

You see - I'm not wanting a thigh gap or perfect abs. More than anything I want to get off meds and have a shot at seeing my kids get married and raising families of their own. Maybe it's just that I'm older but I don't care what the haters think, and losing weight is not about them, it's everything about me. I don't have a popular icon that i want to look like because, well, I don't compare myself like that. I read somewhere that comparison is the thief of joy and I agree.



If happiness is really a choice, then joy is not about revenge or being in the limelight or anything like it. It is about changing life. my life. Joy isn't selective by looks or personality. It has no way of evaluating my thigh gap or the condition of my abs. So this morning my reflection is that thin-ness and skinny-ness are not a measure of success. It's one thing to be healthy and happy and it's another to try and meet unrealistic standards set by comparing ourselves to others.



Find Joy. Find YOUR joy.



Today's weigh in had me doing the happy dance since the changes I made last week are paying off. Navy Ninjas have taught me a valuable lesson - and it is that strength training is an important part that can be done no matter how big or how small you are.

  
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BA5454 10/21/2014 5:53AM

    I know this is an older blog, but it's full of positive messages and thinking. Especially love the comparison is the thief of joy--too true! Power on!

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NUTINLOOKSLIKE 10/15/2014 1:42PM

    Awesome message! It DOES seem like so much of society is focused on some difficult, if not impossible, ideal of "healthy" or "thin". It's GREAT that you are not letting that "ideal" decide what you should look, like, or strive to achieve! ^5

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EVIE4NOW 10/15/2014 8:26AM

  Great blog. Thank you.

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My life is like candy crush

Monday, October 13, 2014

I realized after posting earlier that my life is a lot like the game candy crush. Each time I get stuck on a level I have to keep retrying, sometimes for months until I figure out a way to beat the odds and get through.




I guess I should admit that I kind of stink at candy crush. But I don't have to stink at applying the same lesson in real life. Last month I made massive mental progress with keeping myself in a better perspective about happiness being a choice... only to lose it completely when I had multiple stress things enter my world.



I lost that perspective because I didn't have the daily affirmation and reminder present in my life. It's amazing how fast our mind closes itself off to new things when we stop purposefully choosing them. A good friend at work pointed out that like the game, it takes a few tries to get a feel for the situation and get to a point where you know the right path to beat it.... and I feel like that's where I am today.




I have no idea how I'm going to fix my life.

Some things are in deep, and not in a good way.

But I know I CAN get through it.

Sometimes it just means we have to hit a few bombs to set off the chain reaction we need to move forward. It doesn't actually seem like that will work, and I'm always surprised at how much happens as a result. I have no idea where this set of bombs will leave me, but I suppose being conscious in playing the game is better than playing ignorant and not at least trying.



After all, sometimes getting through a hard level sets you up to get through the next much easier.

  
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NUTINLOOKSLIKE 10/13/2014 10:38PM

    I find that to be true too. If you have daily affirmations that work REALLY well for you, post them as your screen saver (do they even HAVE screensavers any more? I may be out of touch LOL). Mental attitude plays a really big role in my personal health takeback!

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4EVER21B 10/13/2014 3:37PM

    Love the analogy! And the fact you pointed out the power of affirmations and choices.

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ARNETTELEE 10/13/2014 1:04PM

  Happy sparking!

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Back to life, back to reality...

Monday, October 13, 2014

I've been struggling this weekend. So much stress going on and coupled with other issues like funerals, ex issues and some $$ complications and I've had a really hard time getting myself out of the funk. I'm sure my plowing through life in order to get past my own struggle-y feelings is also contributing to things so I suppose the healthiest thing is to at least recognize that I am struggling with all of it, and to sort out the things in all this that I can do something about and figure out a way to deal with the stuff I can't.

I'm kind of tired of my own whining and sad feelings.

So I'm grateful today is Monday and I can get back to my regular life. Maybe it is a distraction, but a least I feel like life is moving on.

Some little victories.... I made an awesome chicken soup (no added carbs) this weekend and I feel like I'm making progress to not eating extra carbs and getting back into the habit of thinking better about adding in veggies, and I did make sure to plan and pack food for the day today (BLT lettuce cups). With everything going on I haven't really been very hungry, even tho my first compulsion is to eat when I'm in this weird head space but so far I haven't given in to it.

So here's to a new week, moving on, and getting back in gear.
Happy Monday!

  
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NUTINLOOKSLIKE 10/13/2014 10:44PM

    Good for you! Keep it up!

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LANINJALOCO 10/13/2014 7:19PM

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SASHAY40 10/13/2014 7:10AM

    Yes!! A new week to recommit!! Congrats!!

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Late Night, early morning

Thursday, October 09, 2014

It's late at night....or really early morning... I figured I should take advantage of being awake and blog - I made the decision at the very last minute to not attend my grandmother's funeral. I had a lot of mixed emotions, but really the determinate was that financially it would have pushed me to the brink. I'm trying my hardest to keep things in check so that wouldn't have been very good. I have mixed emotions about not going - but at the end of the day i think it was the right choice.

Things are going well with the ST and stretching exercises and the pool was amazing. I can't wait until that becomes a regular thing. For now I'm moving forward doing what I can. I go to see my GP again on Friday for a overhaul on my diabetes stuff and checkup on how things are going with the hip. I'm hoping he has some thoughts about more aggressively treating my diabetes. We'll see.

I started my youngest daughter's quilt today - I'm excited to get going on it.

I sat and tracked my food from today....just over the new calorie range. This is going to be tougher than I thought. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this.

  
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NUTINLOOKSLIKE 10/11/2014 11:45PM

    My condolences on your loss. I know how hard it is to lose a grandmother.
I bet your daughter is going to LOVE the quilt!
I'm glad you are finding exercises you enjoy - it makes it so much easier to work out when you wouldn't rather have a root canal wide awake than do 1 more burpee!
Good luck on getting your diabetes in check. It can be so frustrating, trying to figure it all out!
With the calorie range, try boosting your quantities with veggies. I've always liked veggies, but since my calorie range is low (1400 - 1750) I eat a LOT of veggies LOL I add peppers & onions to my scrambed eggs, make side salads several times a week, and my new go to "chip" fix is popcorn - it's only 25 calories for a cup of light butter microwave popcorn, so I can eat the whole bag if I want and it's only about 200 cals!

Sorry it's so wordy - late at night I get punch-happy.

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SURVIVOR61 10/9/2014 1:30PM

    Hi sweetheart,
So sorry about your Grandmother. I know how hard choice was to make, I am so sorry that you had to make it. I myself have had to make it when it comes to finances many times and it is not very easy for us. Some family members are not so kind and tend to judge us other wise. As my father passed almost 2 years ago and 2 of my brothers were not financially able to attend. Some did not understand, but that is their problem. As for having mixed emotions, that is perfectly normal. You will be able to deal with them in your own time as you seem to be a healthy individual. And remember, your grandmother would never have been happy if she knew she was the reason of your financial crisis. After all if she was like my grandmother they knew the importance of managing our finances. That always came first. I just love that you are making a quilt for your daughter. And Keep on your doctor about your diabetes, it can be controlled. My FNL and GD are diabetic's so I know that your diabetes can be controlled. I will keep you in prayer my sister. God Bless and keep you safe.
Love always your sister in Christ
Jill

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Ch-Ch-Changes for Week 3...looking forward to week 4

Tuesday, October 07, 2014

So this week I reduced my calorie range. I'm basing the new range on want for loss, lack of activity/ability to really move, and diligence in trying my best to meet my body's needs, without extras. Maybe I'm crazy. My previous GP encouraged me to ONLY eat up to 1200 calories a day - but at that rate I felt so starvy. Working with a trainer at the gym, it was suggested I eat between 1600 and 2100, which was better, but with the hip thing - I can't really get a workout in to justify eating more. Now with this GP he feels that between 1200 and 1600 is perfectly reasonable. I'm confused a bit on which is right, but willing to try just about anything. So I'm going in to this next week with a lower calorie range, one I'm hoping I can work in. I'm a little daunted feeling since looking at my tracking for the past week I haven't been under 1600. But, I think I can do it.

And, I'm working hard to give up my "water enhancers". I don't love water by itself, but after reading some really good input from a couple of fellow sparkers, I feel like getting rid of the chemical influence will be beneficial. and no thank you, I don't want to put fruit in my water..... I don't like that either. This past month I started a no soda goal which I haven't had too much problem with, until this past week where I drank not one, not two but FIVE diet cokes. I definitely feel the difference and remember now why I gave it up. I've been detoxing for the past couple of days and the saddest part - I consciously thought - this doesn't even taste as good as I want it to.

I've tried a couple of new recipes from spark recipe and All recipes, and I have a mini-rant for a moment..... WHY oh WHY does all low carb have to involve SO MUCH CHEESE? Seriously. The calories from cheese, cream of soups, and mayo and sour cream negates ANY benefit of having given up the carbs. Sigh. Am I crazy? Don't get me wrong - I love cheese. I don't mean just a little, I really, really love cheese. But I've been working really hard to use it in moderation because it typically IS high in calories/fat.

Is it too much to ask to create low-carb recipes that are legit healthier? And yes, I've looked at some Paleo stuff and South Beach and even Atkins, but I don't want a meat heavy diet either. I've been looking for alternative chicken recipes in particular (because it's my go-to food) that boost veggies without added fats beyond the baked chicken/grilled chicken and roasted/baked/steamed veggies. Does anything exist?? I suppose in the meantime I'll just sit over here and eat my baked chicken without sauce. Funniest moment to me were the number of "not diet friendly" recipes listed in sparkrecipe. Just stating the obvious - but why put them in then?? In all seriousness, I'm going to have to experiment with some new Mrs. Dash or something because this is going to get boring fast.

And I love mexican food and asian as much as the next person but there's only so many ways you can eat salsa chicken, tortilla soup, chicken salsa wraps, tacos, fried wanna be cauli-rice etc. We've given up whites and use brown rice and whole wheat flours instead, and in some instances we've gone gluten free to help out my daughter who has some gluten issues. I try not to eat lots of pasta, even tho I do love it. so that's my new mission....to find some useable recipes without sauce, without cheese and other fatty foods. If you have some I'd love to hear it!

In the meantime.....it'll just be me, sippin a lot of water.



  
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TRIXYMAHOGANY 10/7/2014 2:45PM

    The reason that low-carb recipes have a lot of cheese, creams, and meat, is because you have to make up the calories your missing from carbs somewhere. Going low carb means that you have to up your protein and fat intake - after all, the whole idea of going low carb is that carbs trigger cravings and don't make you feel as full. Protein and fat are both very filling to your body. I don't do low-carb, because I love bread too much, but if you're dropping carbs lower you have to up something else.

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MELWOW1 10/7/2014 12:53PM

    Turn and face the strange.. ch ch changes! That brought back a lot of memories! Enjoyed your post. I often wondered about a lot of the spark recipes- especially the muffin and dessert ones. Seem high in calories. I am trying to figure out new ways of eating too. Good luck.

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