mY HUSBAND WENT TO GLORY LAND ON OCTBOER 2ND and the pain I feel is hard to describe. Who knew 41 years could seem too short a time to spend with someone! I loved him like we had just gotten married and the card he got for my birthday in August said I still took his breath away when he looked me and I felt the same about him!! Where do I go from here..........
I look at myself sometimes and wonder how did I get here -- I use to hear people say she let herself go and I really didn't understand what they meant years ago.... but I do now. When I was 125 I always thought I was too fat Oh to be that size again! I didn't appreciate it than but by the same token -- I'm different on the inside now.. My weight maybe more BUT MY OUTLOOK IS DIFFERENT!! I want to put more healthy things in my body.... years ago I maintained my weight by eating JUNK FOOD and no good food.... I would save myself for sweets ,,, not realizing the damage I was doing. But I'm older now -- and though my weight is not what I'd like it to be -- I AM BETTER!!
Thank You it's a small word but it carries a lot of power!! To express our deepest gratitude and emotions it's the only word the English language has given us. Seeing your comments and knowing others care. You don't have to comment, but you do!! ..THANK YOU!!
THANK YOU!!! Have a great day!! I hope this is one of your best days yet!!
I'm so grateful for SparkPeople -- you are here 7 days a week 24 hours a day -- just reading success stories -- seeing new recipes -- reading blogs -- are keeping me going - with my husband's illness I don't want to start eating to comfort myself --I WAS STARTING To WAVER- and now I must remember to come back to you for support-- I need to take care of me to take care of him. The Dr. recommended Hospice I wasn't ready to hear that and what I'm feeling is hard to describe........... but I do know I want to be my best self to be there for him. We have been married 41 years and I thought the day we married I loved HIM as much AS I ever would BUT OH! LOVE GOES DEEPER AS THE DAYS AND WEEKS AND YEARS GO BY!!