Tuesday, December 29, 2009
This holiday season has been so incredibly busy for me this year! A lot of that has to do with the fact that I have been running practically every single day. I took off Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, and honestly missed my 3K easy run last week. Not stressing over it though, because, Golly, it is Christmas! So much to do, so many gatherings to prepare for, I am about "gathered" out. I have a really exciting party at my house tomorrow evening, it will be tons of fun, really looking forward to it, and then we have a birthday party on New Year's Day. Other than that, I am trying to spend as much time as possible with my kids playing games and sledding, whatever we can find the time for! My running buddy has really been pushing me to my limit this week, we have run 4 days in a row, runs planned for tomorrow, Thursday, Rest Day Friday, big run (20K for me) on Saturday instead of Sunday to start week 5 of my training program after 4 weeks of week 4. I am nervous and excited about this run, she is going to attempt 10 of those K with me, and I adore running with her because she really pushes me to give more. The last 10K will be tough on my own, but I have to get it done. I am so excited for Friday to have a rest! Sunday will then be another rest day, and I get to run on Monday with my BFF again! We haven't run together this week because of scheduling conflicts. Next week my running buddy is available all week again, so I foresee some changes to which days I run on, but will still complete all training runs, and am so excited to have an outdoor runny buddy as well as my treadmill runs with my BFF. Despite all of this running, my weight has ballooned back to 170, I am just indulging every desire and eating emotionally too. I had FIVE glasses of wine at a family dinner on Sunday, shameful me, I don't usually drink that much, but sometimes, it is easier to drink the wine and just avoid the family crap. I need to find a better solution, or I could turn into an alcoholic! So, starting January 4, I intend to really knuckle down again, but in the meantime, I need to get a handle on my emotions and my mindless grazing. What a rambling blog this has been! Thanks for sticking with me to the end of it!
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Thanks so much guys for looking out for me, it is a good reminder not to push myself too hard, and to respect the limits of my body. I am eating really well again the last couple of days, and just getting in my scheduled runs, with maybe a bit extra cardio. I am definitely not going to starve myself or try to overtrain again. I do think that these rebound pounds will come off quickly, because I believe it is a lot of water weight considering I regained 8 pounds in one week. I will not be discouraged though if the pounds don't co-operate, and I plan to enjoy some Christmas goodies, but only one portion per outing! Something reasonable, and I expect I won't resent that, very good point though Hypnoturkey! Right here, this is the biggest reason I love Sparkpeople. It gives people an opportunity to offer perspective to each other, and keep us focused on reality instead of trying to overdo it! I am touched by how well you folks have gotten to know me through my blogs and posts, and I hope that I can repay the favors by offering you all perspective and encouragement in your journeys!
Monday, December 21, 2009
So, there are only 10 days left in 2009, and I am going to make them count. I had a goal of weighing 162 pounds by Dec 28, that means I need to lose 4.8 pounds in the next week. I know I can do it. One of my spark friends and I have challenged each other to track food and exercise for the next 10 days. I might have to get creative on Christmas Eve and Day, but I will be sure to get something in! Maybe a walk with the kidlets! I want to start the New Year under 160 pounds, and stay there forever. I will reach my goal in 2010.
Here's to Day 1: Ran 4 miles in 51 minutes with 5 mins warm up and 9 mins cool down.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
That is just craziness! I guess my week was as bad as I thought! I just have not had time to sit down long enough to blog I guess! I got my Christmas shopping all done Friday afternoon, but lots of wrapping left to do. I have been eating very poorly and I have felt it during my runs. Starting tomorrow, I am going to eat better, start having protein shakes again, eating my fruits and veggies and avoiding all of the crap I have been enjoying. I need to get back to business if I am going to reach my December goal of 162 pounds, since right now I am at 167.2..... So, planning my food will help, and remembering that I need to fuel my running machine!
Monday, December 14, 2009
So, in my last blog, I talked about how much fun the party was, and it really was, and the rest of the evening with my husband was terrific too, but to be honest, we left the party earlier than I had planned to. I went up to the bar to get another drink, and then stopped to say hi to a very good friend of me on the way back. While I was visiting her, a lady that I know through the school came over to say hi and to tell me how nice I looked, she looked really good too I told her. Then, her husband walked over ( I have never met him before) and says "Can I grab your @**?" I obviously told him, "Uh, no, I don't think so!" He proceeds to ask to hug me instead and me, being totally stunned at this point said yes, and quickly made an exit. I walked over to tell my husband that this drunken idiot has just made me feel as small as a bug, and we say our goodbyes to everyone and leave, because at this point I don't want to finish my drink and to be honest feel like throwing up! We came home and had a really nice evening together, I love my husband so much, he just totally distracted me. I got up Sunday morning after sleeping in, my kids were home from Grandma's and I spent the whole day in my jammies and grazed all day long, I didn't do my long run, and just was miserable all day long. I woke up in a grump today again, and I have gained back 6 pounds since Saturday morning (I know a lot of this is water weight from all of the sodium), and just started the day off miserable. My BFF came over for a run, and we chatted and watched the end of Runaway Bride on the treadmills. She really cheered me up, and I am so proud of her! She ran for 30 minutes straight, her best time ever! Way to go friend! I logged on to Sparkpeople to find myself inundated with positivity. Kind words of praise and encouragement to remind me of why I make the effort to take care of myself, and that idiots like the one at the party are not worth my energy.
That all said, what I want to know is this? Why are jerks like this attracted to me like flies to poop? I have had drunken men and sober idiots hang off of me many times in my life, and I want to know what I am doing that makes them think it is okay to treat me this way? Do I send out a beacon? The thing is that I have become accustomed to being treated better than that, with respect and kindness to be truthful, so it really rocked my world to be treated like that again. I want to know what I should do to prevent it in the future!
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